It was time for a brand new attitude. Rachel Berry was never one to let a bad situation get to her. She always rose to occasion. So why did this time feel different? Why did relationships always end up being her falling point? Her time with Finn was a catastrophe. It should have never happened. But without that, she wouldn't have met Quinn or Santana. So something good did come out of it. It just became a waste of time and energy. He was what was holding her back. Quin is what moved her forward.

Rachel and Quinn had a pretty good relationship. They rarely ever fought and when they did, it was over something stupid. She thought Quinn would be her 'forever' relationship. They'd be the couple that met in high school and went on to be married with kids. That was... until that night.

Rachel and Quinn were on the phone talking, like any other night. Two hours had already passed and it was not eleven at night. There was a knock at Rachel's door and she reluctantly hung up the phone.

"Bye Quinn. Yeah, I'll call you back once I get rid on whoever is at the door. I love you, too. Bye."

She jumped out of bed and ran downstairs to answer the door. The faster she answered, the sooner she could call Quinn back. She was surprised when she opened her door and saw a distraught Santana on her doorstep. Her eyes were red and puffy, clearly from crying. She moved to the side and let the other girl in. Santana had been nice to her lately and they'd formed somewhat of a friendship. So to see her this.. broken... was heartbreaking.

"Santana, are you-"

"Don't even. I know what you're about to ask. No, I'm not okay. Not even close."

They walked to Rachel's room. She gently closed the door and they both sat on the bed. Rachel didn't know what was wrong, so she kept her distance.

"San. You know you can talk to me about anything. What happened? Was it Brittany?"

"Ha, Brittany. You know, I never really loved her. I mean.. I did, but I didn't. I couldn't have. Not the way she wanted. The way I wanted. Wanna know what sucks?"

"Uh, sure."

"Telling your best friend you like somebody, like really like them, and she goes after them. Watching her have the courage you wish you had that moment. At that very moment, you feel like crap. Like everything you wanted just fell apart. She beat you to it. You want to move on, you really do, but you can't. Your feeling are just that freaking strong."

Rachel scooted closer and wrapped an arm around the Latina's shoulder, pulling her closer. Santana instinctively placed her head on Rachel's shoulder and sighed.

"She beat me to it, Rach. Quinn beat me to it."

Rachel's eyes widened, but her grip on the girl tightened.

"What are you saying?"

"Don't you see it? She beat me to you. She knew how I felt. I told her how I felt, how long I've been feeling it, everything. I thought I could trust her. That she'll tell me 'Go for it San', but she didn't. She knew I was scared and took advantage of it. She asked you out before I did. Some best friend she is."

"Santana, I... I had-"

"No idea. Yeah I know. But Britt did. She knew how I felt about you and didn't care. She wanted to be with me. She loved me for me. She knew how broken I was. She knew I was in love with somebody else and she still took her chance. I feel like crap for breaking her heart, but it was hurting me too. Why hurt this beautiful and amazing girl because I can't get over my best friend's girlfriend. So I broke up with her. The one person that loves me and I let her go. I'm a bigger idiot than I thought."

Placing her thumb under Santana's chin, Rachel pulled the girl's head up to look into her eyes.

"Listen to me. You are not an idiot. You're in love. Love makes you do crazy things."

Looking into Rachel's brown eyes, Santana knew she was right.

" I love you, Rachel."

Santana then did something she didn't think she would ever do. She slowly began to lean in. When she didn't see Rachel pull away, she closed her eyes and the distance between them. She kissed Rachel and could have sworn she saw fireworks.

Rachel didn't know what to do. It was clear that Santana was broken. She immediately wanted to push Santana away. To tell her to leave and that she was with Quinn, but she couldn't. Something about the girl kissing her intrigued her and she loved it. So Rachel did what felt right.

She kissed back.

That memory was one that Rachel never wanted to forget. She knew that what happened that night was wrong. She knew that pushing Santana away was the right thing to do. But at that very moment, the right thing felt very wrong. She didn't wantto hurt Quinn. She didn't wantto ruin their friendship. It just happened. Now, they had to deal with the consequences.

Good or bad.