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A.N: I know, I know. I'm skipping the rest of the summer and I'm terribly sorry but my plot can't work until they're back at school…so unless you wanted a bunch of incredibly boring and short and utterly pointless chapters, I had to do this. Please don't shun me for this! REVIEW!!

The next few weeks went by uneventfully. The three marauders got closer to their girlfriends and the whole group got closer as a whole. The six of them were almost inseparable now.

The days flew by like minutes and the weeks flew by like hours until the three marauders and their girlfriends found themselves back on the Hogwarts Express and on their way to their beloved school for the last time.

"So, did you guys hear? Pete's gone and got himself a girlfriend! That's why we haven't seen him all summer!" James voice rang throughout the compartment like a continuous echo until Lily decided to speak.

"Uhh, who's his girlfriend?"

"Some ravenclaw sixth year. Apparently, she's pretty hot." James saw Lily glaring at him and quickly added "But I haven't seen her. I bet she isn't nearly as pretty as my Lily-Flower." At this Lily smiled and gave James a quick peck on the lips.

"OH! And congrats on getting prefect this year, Bea!" James said as he hugged her.

"Yeah, I was actually kind of surprised." She said with a laugh.

"Well, Head Girl and Head Boy have to do rounds with the prefects so do you want to get going guys?" Lily asked referring to James and Bea.

"Definitely." Bea gave Sirius a quick kiss good-bye and left the compartment to go on her rounds with Lily and James. They started at the back of the train and worked their way up to the front. When they reached the marauders compartment, in the middle of the train, they decided to stop in and take a break.

"You guys done already?" Remus asked them.

"No, just taking a break. Where's Padfoot?" James asked when he noticed that Sirius wasn't in the compartment.

"Not sure. He said he was going to the bathroom but he's been gone for a while. Maybe someone should go look for him."

"I'll go." Lily volunteered. Michelle joined her and the two left the compartment in search of one Sirius Black. Bea stayed in the compartment with James and Remus. They just sat there for a while, making polite conversation waiting for Lily, Michelle and Sirius to get back.

When they finally did return to the compartment, they were still Sirius-less and pale as ghosts.

"What's wrong guys? Where's Sirius?" Asked Bea.

"You will not believe what we just saw. I'm so sorry Bea!" Said Michelle.

"Sorry for what?" She asked becoming somewhat worried and nervous.

"We went looking for Sirius and well…we found him."

"So then why are you sorry?"

"Because of the situation we found him in. He was uhh…he was having sex with Chantel Clarence. I'm so sorry!" Bea glared at them.

"Guys, I don't know why you're doing this but Sirius would never do that to me. He told me he loved me. I don't believe you. Why would you lie to me?!" asked Bea, obviously getting very upset and not believing a word that came out of Lily or Michelle's mouths. "Come talk to me when you've grown up." When she got up to leave, she couldn't help but listen to that annoying, nagging voice at the back of her head.

'You just don't want to believe it Bea, but think about it. This is Sirius Black we're talking about. He's done pretty much every girl in your year and more. Maybe he wanted sex because you were too proud to give it to him. You may have just ruined your friendship with your best friends for nothing.' Her inner-voice concluded. She chose to side with the part of her brain that was telling her that Sirius wouldn't do that.

She walked out of their compartment and into another empty one, not wanting to go see if what they said was true or not. She was scared that it would be.

Over the next few days, Lily and Michelle didn't talk to Bea and Bea didn't talk to them. Bea was still very curious about whether or not what they said happened with Sirius happened or not, but she figured that if it did happen, it was better that she didn't know. But, all the same it was slowly eating away at her, gradually creating a gaping hole in her heart. Her trust for Sirius was dying more and more each day.

By about the second week into school, Sirius started noticing something was wrong with her.

"Bea, you've hardly eaten in the past two weeks and you don't seem nearly as chipper as usual. You can tell me anything, so please tell me what's on your mind."

"It's nothing Sirius. You shouldn't worry. I'm fine." She said with a small, obviously forced smile.

"Please Bea? I don't like seeing you like this."

"It's just that, I haven't talked to Lily and Michelle because on the train they told me something but I thought they were lying, but I don't know what to think anymore. It's just starting to make sense."

"What did they tell you?"

"They told me that they saw…that they saw you having sex with Chantel Clarence. I haven't talked to them because I told them that you wouldn't do that to me and that they were lying. You wouldn't do that, would you? They are lying, right? I don't think you did, but it would make me feel so much better if you just told me that you didn't."

Sirius looked away and didn't say anything. "Sirius? Look me in the eyes, and tell me you didn't have sex with her."

Sirius turned and looked her in the eyes. "Bea, I didn't have sex with her. I wouldn't do that to you."

Something in those grey orbs told her all she needed to know. A single tear rolled down her cheek.

"You're lying." She stated in a voice so quiet, you would only have been able to hear if you were listening for it.

She got up and walked away from him. He grabbed her hand but she ripped it out of his grasp and continued walking to the Gryffindor common room.

She stopped halfway in between the doors to the castle and Sirius and turned back. "Don't you ever, ever speak to me again Sirius Black. We are over." She ripped off the necklace he bought her and handed it to him. "Give it to the next girl who's stupid enough to fall for your lies." With that said, she turned and continued her trek to the Gryffindor common room.

By the time she reached the dormitory that she shared with Lily and Michelle she had tear stains all down her face. As soon as she walked through the door Lily and Michelle knew what had happened. They ran over and embraced her, their earlier disagreement forgotten momentarily.

"Oh Bea! Are you okay?" asked Michelle.

"Peachy." She replied in between sobs.

"I hate to say I told you so…" started Lily.

"Then don't." Bea cut her off. "I'm so sorry guys! I thought I loved him, I just didn't want to believe it."

"Don't worry! We don't blame you Bea." They replied.

"Bea, I have something to tell you." Said Lily.

"What is it?"

"This may be bad timing, but we haven't been talking and I need you to know. James asked me to marry him. And I said yes!" Bea squealed and latched onto Lily.

"You should've just come and told me! I'm so happy for you!"

"There's more." Bea looked up expectantly. "I want you to be the maid of honor, along with Michelle." Bea had tears in her eyes and so did Michelle. Apparently, this was the first Michelle had heard of this too.

"Oh Lily! Of course!"

"I would love to!" Bea and Michelle replied at the same time.

The three girls stayed up all night trying to plan some of the wedding. They had decided on having it during Christmas break in James and Michelle's backyard.

"What about the dresses?!" Squealed Bea, excited to be able to put in some suggestions.

"James suggested green, like my eyes." Lily replied with a dreamy smile.

"Oh I love it! They'll be beautiful." Replied Michelle.

"I was thinking emerald green, halter style, and they can be floor length! What do you think?"

"It sounds amazing Lily!"

Bea was able to go the whole night without once thinking about the small pang of hurt she felt when something about Sirius came up.

When the girls woke up the next morning, they were happy to find that it was a Saturday and therefore, there would be no classes. They had had a fair bit of firewhiskey last night to celebrate, and were therefore enduring pounding headaches and extremely annoying nausea. They were a tad bit hung-over.

"Lily, you're moving to much." Complained Bea when she heard Lily's magazine pages being flipped.

"Sorry." Answered Lily who was having somewhat the same problem with Michelle's constant moving on her bed.

Eventually, though it may have taken a while, the girls made it out of the dormitory and down to the great hall for lunch as they had missed breakfast.

"You look like death."

"Thanks for the insight James." Replied Bea.

"Sorry." He replied sheepishly. Bea was, after all, the worst hung-over out of the bunch. She hadn't just been drinking to celebrate, according to Lily, but also to get over the fact that Sirius had cheated on her and lied to her. It didn't work all that well. Instead, she was constantly reminded of the fact that she got drunk, and therefore constantly reminded of one of the main reasons for said drunkness.

There were only three more weeks until Christmas holidays, and therefore only three more weeks until the wedding. The girls had decided to go to Hogsmeade the following Saturday to look for the bridesmaid dresses and Lily's wedding dress. Her mother would be meeting them there. Until then, they had nothing left to do for the wedding. The caterer had been called, the cake had been ordered, the back-yard reserved and the people invited. Until then, the three girls could just sit back and relax.

"Lily, my darling fiancée, would you like to accompany me to the lake for an early swim?" asked James, putting major emphasis on "fiancée".

"Yes, James. I think I would." With that, James and Lily left the table and headed out to the lake. That left Bea with Remus and Michelle, feeling a lot like a third wheel.

"Well, I guess I'll leave you guys to it then. I've got some studying to do in the library." Bea smiled as she got up and walked to the dormitory. She didn't actually have studying to do, but she didn't want to intrude on Michelle and Remus' day.

When she got to her dormitory, she went and laid down on her bed. She reached out to stretch and looked up to find a letter magicked to float just above her mattress. She reached up and grabbed it.

As soon as she opened it she knew who it was from. The elegant, yet messy scrawl that covered the page was one she knew all too well.

Bea,

You were right. I did sleep with Chantel. I am really sorry, and I thoroughly regret doing it.

'You mean doing HER.' She thought bitterly.

I was falling for you, hard. And I realized that I didn't want that because I know I'm a bloody prat, and a player and I knew that someday I was going to end up hurting you. And that scared me.

'It was about time something scared you. And you're right, you are a bloody prat.' She thought.

I made a spur of the moment decision and decided that it would be better to get it over with before we fall too deeply for each other. This was the only way I could think of. It was a mistake and I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have done it because I miss you and I want you back so bad.

'Too bad Black. You made your choice.'

You know that muggle saying? "It's not the one you can live with, but the one you cannot live without"? Well, I've realized that I can't live without you Bea. I need you. I can understand completely if you don't want to get back with me, but I need you to know that I still love you and I always will. The offer is always there. I need to hear your sweet laugh again, I need to see your smile. I need to look into your eyes and know that you're happy. If I'm the one that makes you happy, then I will do my best to keep it that way. And if I'm not, then don't waste your time with me. I want you to do what will make you happy.

Love,

Sirius.

"ARGH!" She yelled before grabbing the letter and ripping it to shreds. Tiny, little pieces that would probably remain on the dormitory floor for a long time before she got around to picking them up. "What do I do?!" She screamed.

She laid on her bed for the rest of the day, just thinking. Eventually, after Michelle and Lily were back in the dormitory and in their own beds, she drifted off into a very uneasy sleep.

A.N: What do you think? I don't mean to toot my own horn here, but I think that's the best chapter I've done yet. And possibly the longest. I didn't get one single review for the last chapter..that makes me said. Review please!