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Here's the next chapter…Bella's on her way to healing her broken heart…
Another secret
Chapter 5
It's true the way I feel
was promised by your face
the sound of your voice,
painted on my memories.
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
BPOV
"Alice, I'm not buying a dress" I stomped my foot.
"What about prom?" she asked.
"That's easy, I'm not going" I simply said and grabbed the pile of clothes she threw down and went into a fitting room.
"But you have to go" she sighed.
"Urm, no, actually I don't" I smiled at her irritation.
"Bella, don't be difficult" she said annoyed.
"I really like these jeans you've picked out" I tried to take her mind off of the prom. I wasn't interested in some stupid prom and besides, no one has asked me yet anyways. Not that it matters because I'm not going. Plus, it's still two months away.
I picked out a few jeans and hoodies plus new chucks and after we paid for everything we left the store.
"Let's get something to drink" Rosalie suggested and I sighed. I was really thirsty.
Today was actually not that bad. Plus, I haven't thought about Tony the entire time. Usually, I can't get him out of my mind and I have this constant sadness in my heart. We just ordered milkshakes at a local restaurant in the mall.
"How long have you and Emmett been a couple?" I asked Rosalie.
"Five years" she smiled while sipping on her strawberry milkshake.
"Wow, that's really long" I almost choked on my milkshake.
"Em's just one big teddy bear and I love him to death" she said and her eyes lit up as if a million stars danced in them.
"You make a really hot couple" I giggled.
"Sure do" she smiled.
"Oh, whatever" Alice groaned.
Rosalie and I chuckled at her pissy mood. She's still pissed off that I refused to get any dresses and that I don't want to go to the prom.
The drive back to Forks wasn't long and definitely not boring. My heart was just beating heavy with every mile we got closer to Forks. In just a few minutes I was going to see Edward again and my stomach flipped in excitement. He was so sweet yesterday when I told him about Toni and so understanding.
I couldn't sleep at all last night because I was thinking of him the entire time. He is the first boy that ever touched my heart the way he has; the first boy to make my heart beat faster and the first boy to even have a slight interest from my side. I've never had interests in boys but Edward is so different…he's not even a boy. He is just so mature and so unbelievably sweet and so sexy. He has a girlfriend Bella, remember! I reminded myself and my heart lurched at the thought of his girlfriend. I don't like that she's hurt him and that she's cheated on him. Why do girls do that? She had the perfect guy and she cheated on him with another guy. The trust will forever be broken and the hurt will always be in Edward's heart.
Alice turned into a secret gravel path through the woods and after a couple of miles we turned into an entrance that led to a huge mansion. My eyes widened and I'm pretty sure my jaw dropped with my tongue hanging out like a dogs'.
The house had three stories and the windows were huge, floor to ceiling windows. From the outside the house appeared so light and so open with all the windows. It almost seemed to me that the house was made of glass. I grinned. Alice pulled into the driveway and parked next to Edward's Volvo.
"This is a beautiful house" I sighed.
Alice jumped out and when her and Rose noticed my face's expression; they roared in laughter. Alice had a bubbly laughter and Rose's laughter was like a soft melody or something. Together their laughter sounded like a beautiful harmonized symphony.
EPOV
I sat in front of my big windows on my black leather futon and kept thinking about Bella. She's been through so much already and my heart breaks whenever I think about how much she's hurting.
I leaned forward and breathed against the cold window. I started writing Bella's name in my breath and sat back as I watch it fade away. I stare at the blackness of the night and wonder what she's doing right now. Is she thinking about me the way I'm thinking about her?
I grabbed my hair in frustration. I need to end it with Vicky. I can't keep her on a line while I'm longing for another girl. And longing I am. I can't think about anything else but Bella. I can't even sleep without dreaming about her.
And now that she's opened up to me and told me about her brother and what she went through, it's even more impossible to get her out of my head.
It was after two in the morning when I finally fell asleep, dreaming of Bella of course.
"Edward" Alice yelled. "Please tell Emmett and Jasper that they have to come with to Port Angeles" she said.
I snickered.
"Don't laugh you dick," Emmett hissed into my ear. "You're coming with"
That got my attention and I shook my head.
"No Alice, I'm not going with today" I retorted. I wasn't in the mood for Alice's shopping spree.
"Why not?' she stomped her tiny foot and I roared in laughter.
"Well, we're getting ready for the movie-night tonight" I said because I couldn't think of a better excuse. Emmett rolled his eyes at me.
"That doesn't take the whole day" she crossed her arms now.
"Alice," I said calmly "I'm not going with and that's final"
"Even if Bella comes" she grinned. That sort of got my attention and I saw how Jasper and Emmett's jaws clenched. They shot me death glares, probably warning me that I should still say no. I chuckled.
"You almost had me there for a second" smiled at my sister.
"What do you mean?" she asked with a deep frown on her cute little head.
"I was almost tempted to go with" I laughed.
"So, what changed your mind?" she asked in irritation. Emmett grinned but he would be pissed if he knew that his death glare wasn't the reason.
"Bella wouldn't be in a pleasant mood while shopping with a demented little pixie such as yourself" I said in all my seriousness. Alice huffed and stomped away. Jasper high-fived me with a huge grin plastered on his face.
"I saw that Jasper" she yelled from the stairs. Jasper's eyes widened and he turned a little pale. Emmett and I laughed out loud.
After Alice left, I went to my meadow…just to think. Memories off Bella flashed in front of my eyes; her brown eyes swimming in tears and pain lingering in them all the time. I wish I could take her pain away…I wish I could help her heal. I'll do anything to get that excruciating pain out of her eyes and heart.
My heart ached when she told me about her brother. That must have been so hard on her and I can tell that they were very close. My body shivered when I thought about something happening to either Alice or Emmett. I can put myself in Bella's shoes if I think about it. It would be horrible, downright heart wrenching.
When I got back to the house I saw that I had numerous missed calls from Vicky. I sighed. I can't keep ignoring her, so I scrolled to her number and called.
"I've been calling you all morning" she lashed out. I sighed. This is how you greet your boyfriend, by lashing out over a few stupid missed calls.
"I was out" I said. My anger started building.
"Where?" she asked and the suspicion was clear in her voice.
"You cheated on me remember? I should check up on you, not the other way around" I said. I know it was a low blow but it was the truth.
"You're throwing that in my face" she said sounding shocked.
"You're treating me like a fucking child, Victoria, and it's starting to piss me off" I said.
"I just miss you" she started crying. Great! Now I've made her cry…again. I can't help but wonder; have I truly and completely forgiven her for cheating on me? Why am I still so angry whenever I think about it? Why do I treat her like shit? My answer came without the need to really go and think about it…NO, I haven't forgiven her. I'm pissed as hell.
"Don't start that shit with me" I said. "I have always come second in your life and I'm sorry, I can't do it anymore"
"What are you saying?" she asked.
"I just don't think I can continue with our relationship. I hate what you've done to me and I can no longer deny it. You thought so little of me when you cheated on me. You never valued our relationship…"
"I do value it. I love you" she sobbed.
"You don't know what love is because if you truly love someone, you won't hurt that person the way you've hurt me. I'm sorry but I can't forgive you for that and I'm just sorry that it took me this long to figure it out. I could have spared myself a lot of shit"
"Edward, please…"
"Goodbye Vicky, I wish you all the best" I said and ended the call.
Relief washed over me. I inhaled deeply and smiled. I'm free and it feels amazing. I can breathe for the first time in so long…really breathe without feeling a pain in my chest.
We heard the car pull up and Alice's bubbly laughter made me and the guys laugh. Alice has so much energy for such a tiny girl.
My heart started racing when Bella entered the living room. She looked…annoyed, I think. I don't know her that well so I can't decipher her feelings or expressions yet. But then again, she was out with Alice…shopping, that would piss anyone off.
Bella had more than ten packets in her tiny hands and I quickly jumped up to help her with her shopping bags.
"Are you sure you bought enough?" I teased. Bella huffed.
"No, I think I need some more" she said, her voice thick with sarcasm. I chuckled but then Alice squealed.
"Really Bella? You want more?" she asked, her eyes lit up and her face glowed.
"No" Bella said quickly and her face looked horrid. "I was being sarcastic" she explained.
"Fine" Alice huffed.
"She's pissed because I refused to get dresses" Bella leaned towards me to whisper into my ear. Her warm breath caused my body to almost explode.
"I'm sorry you had to endure that" I smiled warmly.
"Don't be, I needed new clothes…MY kind of clothes" she emphasized.
Alice took the girls into the kitchen to prepare the popcorn and get the pizza ready for the movies. I just wish they'd come back already, I missed Bella's presence.
The girls picked Red Riding Hood and we groaned.
"We don't want to watch some children's story" Emmett tried to get out of the movie.
"It's not like that" Alice explained. "I bet you ten dollars that you wouldn't guess who the wolf is" Alice grinned. She knew how to win an argument with Emmett, just turn it into a bet.
"Deal" he laughed.
Bella had to sit next to me and my heart pounded in my throat. She smelled so sweet; like strawberries and freesias…I think. I grinned at my stupidity. I couldn't concentrate on the movie because of Bella's presence.
I took the time to explore her face while she was watching the movie. Her nose peaked up a little, in a really cute way, and was so small. She had the most adorable ears, also small and I had a sudden urge to suck or nibble on her earlobe. My eyes scanned down to her lips and from my side they were gorgeous. They were so plumpy and her bottom lip pouted out just a fraction of an inch and I bit down on my tongue because of my new desires. I was wondering what it would feel like if I had that lip between my teeth and tenderly nibbled on it. Suddenly her hand moved to her mouth and her lips parted slightly while she bit down on her thumbnail. I wish I was that thumbnail…I wish it was me inside her mouth.
I shook my head and moved up in the couch. What is she doing to me? I'm having a difficult time even breathing next to her and my heart keeps jumping up into my throat.
"Stop that" she whispered for only me to hear.
"Stop what?" I asked stupidly with a grin.
"Staring at me, you're making me nervous" she whispered again.
"I can't help it" I sighed. "You're just so gorgeous" I smiled and to my satisfaction, a very deep blush colored her cheeks and I had the urge to trail my fingers over her hot cheeks.
"What would Vicky say if she knew you were telling other girls they were gorgeous" she hissed.
"I don't know, because I broke up with her" I whispered. I heard her gasp and then she turned to face me. Her eyes met my gaze and the moment between us was very intense. It felt like the air was filled with electricity.
"Wow" she mouthed.
"Wow?" I cocked my eyebrow.
"That took guts and I'm proud of you" she whispered. I grinned widely.
"Thanks" I said. "Are you doing okay?" I asked her softly. Her eyes turned sad but she nodded her head.
"I'm glad I talked to you." She said sadly. Her hand came up to tuck a strand of her hair behind her ear when her hoodie's cuff lifted slightly and I noticed a bandage wrapped around her wrist. My hand shot out and I gently took her hand in mine, bringing it to my lap. Her eyes met mine and she blushed furiously. I gently rolled the cuff up with my free hand and although she tried to stop me, I was just too strong. Both her wrists were covered with bandages.
"What's this?" I asked.
"Nothing" she said and pulled her hand back to her own lap.
"Bella" I whispered.
"No, Edward. Please don't" she begged before she jumped up and ran to the bathroom.
What do you think Edward's going to do now? Will he force Bella to tell him the truth?
