Merry Christmakwanzakah!!! Outside my door there is two and a half feet of snow and so you know, that is half my size. It was up to my hips in snow! But who cares about that. I'm not going to ramble on and on when you can be reading!
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BPOV
At the moment, I was having one of those dreams where you know that you are dreaming but you can't wake up from it. You want to but you can't. And why is that? How come when you are having an incredible dream you always have to wake up and when you are having a nightmare it's impossible to open your eyes. It's like when you're running away from the monster and you can't see to run fast enough. Just as it's about to get you, you wake up and you're terrified.
In this particular case, I was reliving what happened with James. It was happening all over again. Everything was the exact same as it had been in real life. Every aspect was frightening.
I was dreading the pain I would feel when I woke up. I wondered how bad it would be, but I wanted out of this nightmare that I was having.
James was about to sink his teeth into me…
My leg jerked, taking me out of the nightmare. I sucked in a sharp breath and let my heart rate fall back to normal. My body relaxed and for the first time, I realized that I woke up on Jacob. My face was nuzzled into his neck while my arm was in an L shape and strewn up his chest. I took a few minutes to enjoy it. I hadn't woke up to someone like this since Edward. I closed my eyes shut and held my breath until the feelings the thought had stirred up were gone.
I promised myself that I would never speak about what happened with the Cullens or Edward to anyone. Maybe if I could get over it, heal the hole in my heart, and then maybe, just maybe I could talk about it. But now, I would keep it bottled up inside. It wasn't healthy but it was what I needed to do to move on.
I sat up and pulled the covers off. I looked back at Jacob, who was sleeping soundly. My brows furrowed. Had he gotten up and gone outside? He smelled like the woods to me. I smiled. So he thought that he could get up and I wouldn't know?
"You are so busted," I whispered to a sleeping Jacob.
My smile faded away as my eyes glided down his body. He had no shirt on, apparently that was common for him, and he was gorgeous. His six-pack was gleaming in the sunlight, making me want to reach out and touch his abs. I clasped my hands together so they wouldn't automatically do what my body was telling me to. He is sixteen! my mind screamed. Sixteen!
I tore myself out of a stare and quickly got up. With one hand on the door, I took another look at Jacob. I bit my lip. How was it possible for him to look so hot? Oh, that's right, he's a werewolf. Just like me.
Like me.
I wasn't used to it yet. Waking up and realizing that you turned into a wolf practically two days ago was baffling. Adjusting to a new life was going to be difficult. Like Sam had told me at the cliff, I couldn't tell anyone about what I was, not even Charlie. Speaking of Charlie, he was probably worried about me. I hoped Billy had called him. Where was Billy anyways? I hadn't seen him at all, but it was most likely better that way. Things would more than likely get awkward.
I wandered about the house, finding that there was nothing to do until Jacob woke up. I turned back into Jacob's room. I was deciding on how to wake him up. Knowing that he was a deep sleeper, a plain shake of the arm was not going to wake him. I crouched down by his side. "Jake," I said in a loud voice. I repeated twice with no response. I tried so many things with no success. I finally gave up on being gentle. After all, he was a werewolf and would be able to take anything that came his way.
It was going to be an impossible task. I knew there would be only one way to wake him up, even if it was crazy. I backed up so I was in front of the door and facing Jacob. I closed my eyes and smiled. What I was a little crazy. When did I get so brave?
I took a breath, raced forward full speed, and jumped right on to Jacob. His eyes opened almost immediately, grabbing my thighs that landed around his sides. I put both my hands onto his stomach and lowered my head.
"Wake up, sunshine," I whispered.
His eyes went wide. "Jeez, Bella, you scared the crap out of me," he exhaled.
"Sorry. You wouldn't wake up."
Jacob didn't remove his hands. Instead, he smiled wickedly at me. "You know, it's not every day that I wake up with a girl on top of me like this."
I smirked back at him, getting off him so the awkwardness wouldn't consume me. "Oh, Please. It's not any day."
"What a wakeup call that was," Jacob said, sitting up in bed. "Can you do that every day?"
I rolled my eyes and twirled out of his bedroom, waiting for him to come out as well. As expected, Jacob followed. He ran his hands through his hair and looked up at me with his dark eyes. I wondered what he saw in me.
"So," he stated. "You woke me up, why?"
I giggled. "I don't know"-I pointed to the kitchen clock-"Maybe because it's almost four in the afternoon. Besides, I'm full of energy and I want to do something."
"What do you want to do?" He sounded do bored when he said it.
I was hesitant to begin in the first place but I manage to muster up my courage. "Well," I continued. "I was thinking that maybe…you know…you could teach me how do phase and all."
Jacob was instantly thrilled, his eyes lighting up. "Really? Are you sure?"
"Yeah."
"Sweet," he said. "You wanna go now or later?"
"Now. I might chicken out later."
Jacob smiled at me and he crossed the room to take my hand. Once our fingers where entwined, he led my through the house until we came to the front door. "And you're sure about this, right?"
"Yes, Jacob, I'm sure," I sighed. "I'm not going to change my mind."
This time, I dragged him out, opening up the door and towing him out. If I was going to do this, I better do it now while I had the courage. No doubt, I would over think it and try to get out of it. But, there was no way of escaping so I might as well embrace it.
Jacob came to my side, his hand still wrapped around mine. He was completely happy. I didn't understand it. Jacob was just a normally content boy, I guessed. He had a certain warmth to him that expanded out when you were in his presence. I felt like I could be myself around him, like me fit together some strange way. There was a connection between us that I had never had with anyone else before. It was nice to know that I could depend on him. I had someone who I could rely on. Jacob would do anything for me.
And of course I already knew that he had somewhat of a crush on me. He had ever since we were little. I wondered if he had a girlfriend or maybe he liked someone else now. I was curious.
"So," I began. "Do you have a girlfriend or something?" I had wanted it to sound casual but I didn't think it came out that way. I just blurted it out, which was stupid of me. I didn't want Jacob to get anything in his head.
He laughed. "Why do you ask? But, the answer to your question is no. There isn't much time for that since I'm running around as a wolf half the time. Plus, it's not like I could tell her what I really am. There wouldn't be any point to it."
I stayed silent. I wasn't sure why I was relieved to hear this. Maybe I wanted him all to myself since we were becoming so close. "No girl of interest?"
He rolled his eyes. "Okay, now I'm wondering why you are so curious."
"You didn't answer," I pointed out.
I knew he was going to beat around the bush because it looked like he was really thinking about what he was going to say next, trying to think of something that wouldn't be too revealing. "I'm a guy. There is always a girl of interest."
The rest of the time we were silent. I trudged through the mess of muck that covered the ground. The worst thing of all was that I didn't have any shoes on. I hadn't realized it until I stepped into a huge puddle of dirty water. Water splashed halfway up my pants and I got covered in the dirty water that was dripping of the leaves. Last night there had been a quick shower from the broiling storm that now resided just off the coast. I was sure that there was going to be a big storm later on tonight. I could already see flashes of lighting in the clouds, but I didn't hear thunder yet.
"What about the storm?" I asked. "I don't want to get stuck in the middle of it."
Jacob looked up at the clouds that were about to block out the sun. "It won't hit until later on," he assured me. "It's going to be one wicked storm. We're going to get hammered."
I sighed to myself. I hated this weather so much. There were so many storms and rain and clouds. Who would ever want to live in this town? Who in the world says they want move to a town where it rains all the time and you will be lucky if there is one day of sunshine in a week?
I was extremely nervous. I was only minutes away from turning into a wolf, which was an intimidating thought. But I had Jacob with me and he knew what to do, he would help me.
"Okay, right here is good," Jacob decided when we came to a small clearing in the woods.
"Okay," I repeated in a shaky voice.
Jacob took my hand and squeezed it tightly. "It's okay to be nervous, Bells."
I didn't answer; I just stared past him at the ground. I took a deep breath and nodded to acknowledge that I heard him.
He pressed his palm to my cheek and whispered, "You'll be fine."
"I know," I replied honestly.
He didn't say anything for a few moments. "Um, the only thing is that if you're gonna want to take you clothes off."
He wanted me to get completely naked in front of him? What he crazy? Did he actually think that I would agree to that? This was so not what I had signed up for. Was this the way it was going to be? Each time I have to phase I have to take off my clothes? Hell no. No boy had ever seen me without clothes on before and I was not about to start a trend.
"What?" I almost shrieked, my voice shocked. "You want me to take my clothes off?"
He couldn't help but smile, dropping his hand. Jacob backed up so he could look at me. "If you don't then they'll shred into nothing. Then what are you going to do?"
My eyebrows must have been halfway up my forehead by now. This was not expected. I very clearly told him, "Jacob, I am not getting naked in front of you."
He rolled his eyes. "I won't look, I promise."
"Yes you will," I argued. "What boy wouldn't?"
My eyes narrowed in suspicion; Jacob was still smiling hugely at me. "Put it this way," he begun. "I will see you naked at one point so you should just get it over with now."
I shook my head. "Um, no, I don't think so."
He laughed. "I figured so."
"Are we going to do this or what?" I asked him, beginning to get annoyed.
"Definitely." Jacob paused for a second. "Do you want to watch me first?"
I nodded. "That'll be helpful."
Before I knew it, Jacob reached down and pulled on the waistband of his jeans. "Wait," I stopped him. "What are you doing?" What a stupid question that was, considering I already knew that answer to it.
Jacob dropped his hands. "You must be joking. Bells, really?"
"Well excuse me, but maybe you should give me a little warning before you strip. It might be nice to know what you are doing before there is a naked guy in front of me," I explained, the words coming out faster than I had intended them to. "It's not like guys go around dropping there pants around me, so please, a little warning."
He laughed out loud. "Done?"
"No," I huffed. "Would you like me to go on?"
Jacob cocked his head to the right. "Okay, then, here's the warning." With that, he bent over and slipped of his jeans.
I stood there in shock. Jacob held out his jeans for me to take, and I did. I couldn't help but look at his manhood. He was freaking huge! I tried so hard to peel my eyes away but they wouldn't let me. My brain hadn't yet realized that Jacob was staring at me, smiling. My eyes flickered up at him, my cheeks boiling. I probably looked like a tomato. My whole body seemed to be on fire. I moved my hand up my other arm and looked away from him. There was no way I could look him in the eye.
"You sure stare much, Bella," Jacob commented.
"Yeah, well, considering the fact--" I didn't let myself finish the sentence.
Jacob, still naked and only about a foot in front of me, said, "Considering what? Have you never seen a guy naked before?"
He was doing this on purpose, he was making me feel uncomfortable. "No, I have not!"
Jacob chuckled. "Well, you'll be seeing me naked a lot so you might as well look at me."
I slowly looked up again, not seeing another option. There was no way out. I forced myself to look at Jacob, not allowing my eyes to wander. I didn't know how he was so calm. Here I was, staring right at him and he was barely bothered by it. My face got hotter and hotter.
"You're gonna watch, right?"
I nodded.
"Alright," Jacob inhaled.
He backed up and I did as well. I watched as Jacob dove into the air. There was a loud ripping sound and that was it. Fur exploded out of Jacob as he transformed into a huge reddish-brown wolf. My jaw fell open in amazement. It looked so easy from this perspective.
Jacob walked over and nuzzled his face around my hand that had reached up to touch him. "My turn," I whispered.
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Sorry if there are some mistakes. I didn't have much time to re-read since I wanted to get the chapter out today.
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