Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon.
Chapter 7
I was running through the mall trying to find the next outfit to wear. I was trying so hard to keep my mind off Serena. It was hard on all of us. Her suicide was not something we expected. I didn't think we were pushing her that hard. Well she reached her breaking point. Even though I didn't know she was going through something. Maybe it was stress getting to her. Why didn't notice something was up? I can't believe she took her life though.
I looked at the outfit I had in my hand. I decided to try it on to see how I looked in it. It didn't look to great on me. I knew that I need something that would fit my body better. I just decided to get a new pair of jeans and sweater. It was starting to get cold outside. I looked out of the window. It was starting to get dark since it was winter time. The only thing I could see in the window was the moon. The moon reminded me of Serena.
I looked away as fast as I could. I still want to understand why she took her own life. I know we were all putting pressure on her. Well Raye was putting the most pressure on her. I guess also being a moon princess was probably hard enough. Having to be a super hero too was probably hard.
I tried to get my mind off of Serena again by looking at a dress. It was a nice one. I wanted to try it on. It actually looked nice on me. I then remembered something from a long time ago.
"Mina, we should totally go the mall and get new outfits!" Serena said in an energetic tone. I smiled at her and decided it was time to ditch studying. I knew that she needed to study, but I knew that it would bore the both of us to death. Shopping was way more fun.
"Sure! Let's pick out something nice! Are you going on a date with Darien?" I asked her.
"Yes, actually I am. I wanted someone to help me pick out the perfect outfit with me!" Serena said. Her eyes were shining. She couldn't wait for her date. I was happy because she was. Her smile was infectious. I couldn't help but smile. It was cute that she was so in love with Darien.
We picked out the best outfit for her. She was so happy in it she couldn't wait to buy it. After that we didn't hear the end about skipping the meeting at Raye's. Serena didn't care at that time.
My mind was wandering to Serena now. I didn't know how to get her out of my mind. It had only been a week since she died. I hadn't cried since the first night that I found out. I figured that Serena wouldn't want us to be sad over her death. She would want us to be happy.
I don't know how she would think that we would be happy about her death. She was one of our best friends. She was the glue that held all of us together. She was the sunshine in the darkness when we were down. Now that she was gone I don't know how to feel. Shopping is what is taking my mind off her death.
Still I wonder what was on her mind when she actually decided to commit suicide. Was she going through something that we couldn't see? I mean was she depressed? I mean I did star t to notice that she was not acting like her cheery self. That was not a side that I liked to see from her. I liked to see her bubbly and happy.
I could feel tears starting to roll down my cheeks. I decided to just leave the mall at that point because I didn't want people to think I was crying for no reason when I had a great reason to be crying. Now that Serena was on my mind…I just couldn't focus on shopping. Also I wonder how Darien is doing…I know he hasn't been the same since he lost the love of his life.
"Serena, are you alright?" I asked her after a battle. She just smiled sadly and told me she was fine. She walked slowly away before anyone noticed that she was leaving. I followed her, but she yelled at me to stop. She never yelled at me like that before.
"I'm sorry, Mina, I just need to be by myself for a few days." She told me.
"Well if anything is wrong please just talk to me. I will try to help you the best way I can," I told her.
"Thank you. If I need something I will come to you." She told me.
"Why didn't you come to me? We could have talked about what was going on. You didn't need to end your life. We all needed you, Serena? I just want to know why you left us. I need to know. Please give me a sign!" I thought to myself. I was crying harder and I ran home as fast as I could. I still couldn't believe that I had lost one of my best friends.
