Here is the long awaited Part 2! The next chapter will continue with the present. I know I miss Kazuki, too :D


Chapter 7:

,,I'll be giving you my dream.''

I won't say what I want to...

I won't express what I dearly try to...

I wouldn't laugh, when really I believed I could...

I wouldn't stop crying whenever I knew that I had to.


Flashback Part 2:

Slowly Tsuna forced his way down the hallway of the school. He had to stop now and then to regain his breath and to rest his hurting body.

Sweat was clinging to him and he was trembling all over. He had to hurry up before he lost all his strength.

The setting sun of a Saturday evening was the only light that he had and he desperately needed to find something that would be efficient enough to help him with his task.

Soon, he arrived in the art room and found the door unlocked. With one hand always on the wall to support him, he surveyed the room and eventually found what he had been looking for.

There, lying so innocently and glistering in the sun's last rays was a pair of scissors. And right now, nothing had ever looked more beautiful in his eyes.

He took them and brushed one finger over the sharp blade, causing a drop of blood to flow from the cut in his finger.

Fascinated he watched the drop fall the ground and found himself chuckling.

Soon, it would be time. One a little while longer…

With that thought driving him forward, Tsuna stumbled out of the room in search for a bathroom, which he quickly found, seeing as he always needed to hide in one of the stalls during his lunch break.

He turned on the lights, locked the door behind himself and gasped when he saw his complexion staring at him with pale, emotionless eyes from the mirror.

Hesitantly he touched the surface of the mirror right where his eyes were and saw a tear roll down those pale, thin cheeks.

''Look at yourself, dame-Tsuna. This is what you have become, what they made you become. You are weak, pathetic…a complete waste of space. No one cares about you and no one loves you. Realize that already! There is no more need to hope for a change, for someone who would actually reach out to you. There never was and will never be. Just…get on with it…it'll be better. Everything is better than this.''


I don't have the freedom to be me,

Always pretending and eventually seeing

That you all are still laughing about my fake smile.

I could have screamed so many times

And shattered my glass masl,

But I had to see...

That my other self had...

Become a part of me.


Tsuna wanted to hug the person in the mirror, to at least comfort him and tell him that it wasn't true, that there can be someone to love him. He only had to wait a little bit longer.

But his mirror image only shook his head.

''You know the truth…you will always be alone.''

A harsh sob broke out from small, fragile brunette and the tears were now rolling in rivers from those honey eyes.

''I don't want to be alone! No…just someone, just one person…why can't I be different! I hate myself so damn much…''

His mirror image glared at him with hate, the same hate that all the other people sent him.

And Tsuna backed away.

''N-No! Don't look at me like that! N-Not you too! P-Please!''

''You are truly pathetic! Just die already!''

''NO!''


So now, I can't abandon my outside smile.

For then I would be betraying me.

At least, I have me to hold on to.

At least...I have me to deceive.


And with that Tsuna sent his fist through the mirror, causing it to shatter in thousand tiny shards. His fist was bleeding badly, but Tsuna didn't care.

Instead he looked down at all the mirror pieces and saw his face reflected in each and every one of them. And what he saw…were the dead eyes of a person…who had given up.

A person who was already dead inside.

Slowly Tsuna raised the scissors and drew them over his right wrist.

The pain came like a punch to him, but he didn't stop there. He switched the metal to his other hand and drew another red line over his left wrist.

The scissors fell from his trembling fingers and Tsuna fell to the ground, surrounded by the mess of reflecting shards that showed him accusing eyes of his mirror twin.

The blood was quickly pooling around him, but Tsuna only leaned his back against one of the stalls and watched the gruesome picture the red liquid was painting for him.

''If this is what dying feels like…then it is not…so bad.''

Soon, his eyes became heavy and his thoughts slowed down. Everything became just one big fuzzy mess in his head and he knew that these were his last moments.

''A-At least…I-I won't h-have to p-pretend a-anymore. I-I'm going to be f-free…''

Tsuna was about to close his eyes for the last time, when suddenly the door was knocked down and there…stood the raven haired prefect with a frightened look in his normally so impassive steel blue eyes.

He rushed over to the dying brunette and quickly got out of his jacket and tore it into two halves which he tightly pressed on the cuts on each wrist.

''You stupid, stupid boy! Why did you do that!''

Tsuna forced himself to stay awake and tried to pull his wrists away from the tight pressure, but it was a futile attempt. He was far too weak already.

''I-I don't…want to be h-here any…anymore. No one c-cares…I h-hate being all a-alone…''

Tsuna closed his eyes again and fell limp in the others strong arms.

The last thing he heard before he sunk into sweet oblivion had been the prefect's gentle voice.

''You really are an idiot! I do care…I do care so much! So don't give up on my now! You will change, Sawada Tsunayoshi!''


Tsuna woke up with a weak cry from his dry throat. He frantically looked around and found himself lying in a white hospital room.

Tears immediately welled up in his eyes and he wanted to brush them away, but he found his legs and arms were tightly tied to the bed he was lying on.

''N-No! I-I don't want to l-live! W-Why…?''

''Shut up you pathetic herbivore!''

Tsuna's head immediately snapped to his side and saw the raven haired prefect leaned casually on the wall near his bed with crossed arms in front of his chest.

''Y-You? Why won't you l-let me d-die? Do you h-hate me that m-much?''

The raven slowly approached the crying brunette on the bed and sat down on his bedside. He gently brushed the new tears away from Tsuna's eyes and brought them to his own lips where he licked them clean.

Tsuna's eyes widened and his mouth fell open, but no words came from his lips.

''Why did you try to kill yourself?''

The brunette looked down, ashamed of his own weakness.

But suddenly a hand on his chin forced him to look into those blue orbs again.

''I asked you a question!''

Tsuna gulped. Well…it couldn't get any worse and this boy was a stranger anyways.

''You wouldn't understand. You're s-strong and confident! You have many people admiring you…you a-are not alone. But I…I hate myself. No one cares about me and no matter what I do…I'm always hurt.''

After Tsuna had finished a moment of silence passed between them in which they both tried to read the other's thoughts through their eyes.

''Tell me something, herbivore. What do you live for?''

''Huh?''

''You heard me! Now answer me.''

''I-I don't know…I don't…have any ambition…''

The raven shook his head and glared at the trembling brunette.

''If you could change anything in this world…what would it be?''

Tsuna took a moment to think about the question and finally…an idea struck him.

''I would change people's hearts. I would want to make them beautiful humans and not monsters who enjoy torturing others for their own amusement. I would want a world…where everyone looked out for one another and no one had to be excluded anymore.''

The raven suddenly chuckled and brushed his thumb over Tsuna's soft cheek.

''You look on the world through the eyes of a child, herbivore. It is a naïve and innocent dream, but maybe…you can do it. Will you promise me something?''

Tsuna's eyes widened at the gentle tone in the raven's voice, but hesitantly nodded.

''The next time we meet, I want you to have reached that ambition. Prove to me that you deserve to be alive. I'll wait patiently for the world you will create, Sawada Tsunayoshi. And until then…don't give up. You won't be alone for much longer. Believe me.''

And with that the raven turned, ready to leave the room.

''W-Wait! W-What's your name?''

The raven looked over his shoulder for the last time and smiled. The stoic raven actually smiled.

''Hibari Kyouya, remember it.''

And with that Kyouya left and Tsuna never met him again.

Until now that is. And he swore to keep that promise that rescued him from ending his life again.

He swore to prove himself worthy;

By looking at world through the eyes of a child.


Everyone needs a reminder that the fact of their being on this earth is important and that each life changes everything.

-Marge Kennedy.


That was it :) Please review?