Chapter Six
"She called me about two or three months after I left, saying she needed to tell me something important, that she wanted to know where I was so she could tell you. I hung up before she could. I'm so fucking stupid!" How could I be so stupid? If I wouldn't have hung up on her I would have known about Renesmee, my daughter. I would have been here.
"She talked to you?" She looked as if she was about to cry. "She promised if she heard from you she would let me know. I trusted her!" Tears fell from her eyes. I'm ruining everything.
"I'm so sorry Bella, can you ever forgive me? I want to be here, for you and our daughter." I held my hand out, hoping she would take it.
"Why did you come back?" She asked me, staring me down, demanding the truth. I looked at her tear soaked face, one tear escaping her. That one tear showing me how she truly felt inside. She was broken.
I reached to brush the tear away, "I couldn't stand to be away from you any longer. It was like I was there but not there really. I was broken. I had to come see you. Please let me stay. I need you. I know I failed you before but I promise I'll never leave you again. I swear to be the best I can be for you and Renesmee just please give me a chance." My hands cupped her face and she leaned into them. This felt good, it felt right.
"You have to prove it to me Edward. I can't just let you into Renesmee's life without knowing for a fact that you won't leave again. I won't put her through that kind of pain. I can't." I could see she was serious. "I kept waiting on you to come back. I kept hoping that I was enough for you. You never came though."
She was sobbing now. I can't believe this, this beautiful woman still wanted me. Even after my leaving her. I won't fail her again. I can't. I made a stupid mistake and I'll spend the rest of my life trying to fix it. I pulled her in for a hug, she clung to me like I was her life line.
"I love you so much Bella. I'm sorry for what happened three years ago. Please, tell me you will take me back. I need you."
She lifted her head and looked me in the eyes, "If it was just me I would take you back in a heartbeat, but it's not just me. Renesmee comes first and I have to do right by her. You have to show me that you won't leave when it starts getting tough. I can't just bring you into her life because I won't put her through that kind of heartache. Prove it to me Edward."
"How?" I'd do anything.
"I can't tell you that. You have to show me, I can't make it easy by telling you how to do it."
"I'll do anything Bella. See if Charlie or, I hate to say it, Jacob will watch Renesmee tomorrow evening. I'd like to take you on a date." She looked surprised. I just want to spend some time with her.
"You really need to get over this thing with Jake. I'm not snatching him out of Renesmee's life just because you came back. She loves Jacob, and he is good with her. I'll promise you this though, he has never babysat her. I wouldn't do that. She is my baby girl. I don't let guys watch her. I'm funny about that. The only guy who watches her is my daddy." Good, cause if that fuckhead even looked at her the wrong way I'd pull his fucking head off!
