Oh my, God, you guys. I have not updated in about five months and I'm soooo sorry. I don't really have an excuse except school and other stories that I had to finish. Also because…
Okay, so I had written like five chapters for this on my other laptop but it broke and so I lost all the files and I was really mad and they had taken like a month to write so I was just going to rewrite them later but then I couldn't remember where I was going with the story, BUT I know now. I know where I'm going to go with this story, so I'm going to finish it!!! YEAH!
Okay, so either you are happy now or you are pissed that I kept the story for so long and I'm very sorry and you can all throw rocks at me now. : ~[
On with the story.
From chapter 5:
"Bella, let me explain!" Edward started, but I cut him off. "No, Edward, it's okay. I got it. It's fine. You don't love me anymore. You don't need to explain. I'll see you all around school, I guess…" I said, while getting into my car.
I drove out of the parking lot faster than I ever drove before, straight home.
Chapter 6:
Bella POV
The next few days I had skipped school and stayed in my room, listening to the radio. I didn't know any of the songs because it was a station that played new music and I usually only listened to old music.
It was Monday morning and I was getting dressed, still not planning on going to school. A knock sounded on my door and Emily walked in. "How are you feeling?" she asked me, sitting on my bed, watching me go through my closet.
"Fine." I answered her simply, hoping she would take it and leave, but Emily being Emily, of course that wasn't going to happen. "Bella, you're obviously not fine because if you were you wouldn't have stayed in your room for the past four days."
I turned around to look at her. "Hey, I went hunting yesterday!" I said, defending myself. She cocked an eyebrow at me but let it slide. "Are you going to school today?" I shook my head, still fishing through my overly stocked closet thanks to Emily.
"Isabella Swan. You cannot just ignore them. I know you told me not to bring this up, but they are part of your life. You can't just pretend they're not. Like I said before, I know that you're still in love with Edwin-"
"It's Edward." I interrupted her. She gave me a face like I just proved her point. "Em. Telling you his name is not me proving to you that I still love him-"
"HA!" she yelled, jumping up and pointing at me. "So you do still love him!" I stopped going through my clothes and stepped away from the closet, my hands burning. "Okay, Emily. Yes. Yes, I still love him, okay? I am still completely and utterly in love with him, okay? But that doesn't matter because he left me. Not the other way around."
Spurts of fire were erupting from my fingertips and Emily had backed away near the door, her hands up in surrender. "Bells, calm down. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you." I paused, the fire dying and I fell on my knees, looking at the ground.
Dry sobs began erupting from my chest. Arms encircled me, holding me close and I leaned into Emily, sobbing into her shoulder. "Why is he doing this to me?" I sobbed, trying to take deep breaths. "Bella, it's okay. Please don't cry. How do you know he doesn't love you?" she questioned, running her fingers through my hair.
"What do you mean? He left me. Isn't that reason enough?" I felt her shake her head on top of mine. "No, I mean you know how Sean and I were changed around the same time?" she asked. I nodded my head.
Sean and Emily had been in love before they were changed. Then a hunting vampire had come by while they were on a walk and had bitten them both, almost fully draining Emily. They have no idea why or how the vampire stopped drinking them. He just did.
"Well, I never told you this before, but when Sean had changed before me, he watched over me, cared for me until I fully changed. I had always been able to stay away from humans, but Sean killed the first one he smelt, he took after the innocent person. After that, he tried to stay away from me, scared that he would hurt me. He always referred to himself as the devil, sent straight from hell."
I watched her, my sobs stopping as she relayed her story to me, almost understanding where she was going. "You see? Sean left me because he didn't want to hurt me. How do you know that wasn't why Edward left you? I mean, he was a vampire, you were human. He must have been at least a little frightened that he would hurt you."
I sat up and gasped. That was exactly something Edward would do. Leave me for my own good, not even thinking about himself or what I actually wanted, just what he thought was right for me. I sighed, "Like a human life." I mumbled.
Emily looked down at me confused. I shook my head, telling her not to ask. I stood up. "Are you alright?" she asked, still on the floor. I wiped my eyes out of habit and nodded. "I'm going to go for a run." I said quietly.
I had a lot to think about.
So, how did you like that chapter? I know it was kind of short but oh well. I have to read a chapter in my bio book, sorry. Work comes before play. Well I think play comes before work but hahahahah my mom is yelling at me as I am typing this because I am not off the computer yet.
Okay, review!!!
