I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!
CHAPTER 7
(Bella)
I was just a little over 11 weeks into my pregnancy. I still hadn't gone shopping and was in desperate need to clothes, I had a small baby bump, but my hips and butt had seemed to spread making all of my jeans hard to button and very uncomfortable. Rose had come over bringing me a pair of Emmett's boxers as a joke, begging me to let her take me shopping. I just didn't feel ready.
Andrew had started school with Alivia and was even in class with her. I had seen a huge change in him. He barely spoke to me, but attached himself to dad, he never left his side and always asked his permission to do things. Mom told me not to worry, it was normal for him to be reacting this way to me. I think he blamed me for his dad not being around, but I hadn't heard from Edward and I was not going to be the one to make the first call.
Dad was amazing with him, they would go on long walks, talk about whatever Andrew wanted to talk about and even took him to the hospital with him on short runs. Andrew loved it. I was convinced he was going to be the next Dr. Cullen.
I hadn't talked to Edward since I left him. The days were a bit easier, since I had Andrew and the family to keep me going, but nights were horrible. I missed him terribly. Yet he was the one who hurt me. I was so angry I didn't think I even really wanted to see him again, yet I really loved him. After everything we had been through I couldn't just stop loving him and it hurt.
I had just come home from taking Andrew and Alivia to school when my phone rang. I glanced down and notice it was Edward. Mom must have sensed my mood change, she put her arm around me and encouraged me to answer the phone.
"Hello," I said trying to sound happy.
"Bella," The voice was sad and soft. I felt my heart break when I heard his voice, but I couldn't allow myself to cry. I didn't want him to hear me.
"What? Do you need something?" I asked.
"Can I see Andrew?"
"I don't know if I feel comfortable with that," I said.
"I'm his dad," He whispered.
"I'm not arguing that, but you crossed the line the other night."
"Bella please," He sounded horrible, but I stood my ground and didn't let his sadness get to me.
"When?"
"Um, I'm off Saturday. I don't know just spend the day with him there in Forks."
"I don't know how comfortable I am with you seeing him right now," I took a deep breath, I had to be strong. "You shoved me Edward, you had no right to lay your hands on me. Then you hit dad. You really scared me that night."
"Bella, I've been going through a lot of shit right now."
"Yah, so have I! Andrew has to, he misses you a lot."
"Bella I..."
"If you want to see him you are to do it here with mom and dad present and you are not to be alone with him!" I said firmly. He was quiet. "I don't care how mad you get at me, but I do not trust you anymore."
"I know," He said.
"And you better come alone. I don't want that whore around him."
"What have you told him?"
For some reason that question pissed me off more than anything and I was pretty sure it was the fact that it was ME doing all the telling and explaining. "I've told him we are having issues and needed to work them out separately. However what I would love to tell him is you are the biggest ass I've ever met, but I wont do that to our kids. They don't need to be placed in the middle of your bullshit."
"That's fair." Was all he said.
I took a deep breath. "Don't hurt him Edward," It hurt to say his name.
"He's my son, I wouldn't hurt him," I thought I heard his voice quiver.
"Like you promised never to hurt me, to love me forever no matter what?
"If I could..."
"Don't say it, I don't want to hear!" I snapped.
"So can I see him?" He asked.
"Fine, you can come over and see him from 11 to 6," I said. "But you are to stay at the house with him."
"Thank you. How are you feeling?"
"Don't concern yourself with me. Just take care of you son."
"Bella, I'm so..."
"Edward don't. I have to go," And with that I hung up.
I was no longer able to hold back my emotions. Tears came fast and furiously. Mom pulled me to her tightly and just held me. "You did great Bella."
"He's coming here on Saturday, I just can't..."
"Bella, call Rose and Alice and plan a shopping day. You know they would love that. Dad and I can take care of things here."
"I guess," I said. "Just don't let him go anywhere with him.
"I wont, your dad and I will be here the whole time," She assured me.
"Thank you," I said sadly.
"Honey, I don't want to have to be the one to tell you this, but you really need clothes," Mom said rubbing my stomach.
"Are you calling me fat?" I cried.
"No, I'm saying that you are almost 3 months pregnant and when you have to use a rubber band instead of buttoning your jeans, it means its time to buy clothes," She said smiling at me.
Friday night, I sat down with Andrew before I tucked him into bed. My brother's had put a twin bed in his old baby room, so he had his own room now. "Your dad is coming to see you tomorrow," I said.
"Is he taking us home?" Andrew asked hopefully.
"Not right now buddy," I said carefully.
"What is so bad that we can't live with him anymore?" He asked.
"Andrew, a very bad decision was made and for right now, it's best if your dad and I aren't together."
"I miss him though," He said sadly.
"Andrew come here," I said pulling him onto my lap. I was surprised he didn't fight me. I slid back against the wall to be more comfortable. "I miss him to." I said.
"Will you see him tomorrow?" Andrew asked.
"No buddy. Your two crazy aunts are taking me shopping for clothes."
"Oh," He said.
"Besides, I need a girls day out with them. I haven't done that in awhile and I know when the baby gets here, I will be pretty busy," I explained.
He nodded. "Have fun tomorrow."
"Alright buddy, it's time for you to get into bed," I said.
He carefully climbed off my lap and got under the covers. "Mom, how much longer til the baby gets here?"
"About 6 months," I replied.
"Will it live with us or dad?" He asked.
"Andrew," I sighed softly. "You have to let your dad and I worry about that, but in the beginning the baby will stay with me probably and then you will both get to go visit him."
"Ok. Night mom," He said. Suddenly he stretched his arms up to me. "I love you."
"I love you to," I said hugging him.
"Your stomach is growing," He said touching it for the first time in quite awhile.
"I know," I said.
"I hope it's a boy. I want a brother."
I laughed. "Goodnight buddy."
I climbed into my bed that night and surrounded myself with pillows. I really did miss Edward. I hated sleeping alone. I pulled up my shirt exposing my newly formed baby bump. No one had really seen it yet, although mom loved to touch my stomach just like she did when I was pregnant with Andrew. What I wouldn't have given to have Edward there to hold me in his arms like he did when I was pregnant with Andrew. I rolled over, placing my head in the pillows and sobbed myself to sleep.
"Rough night?" Dad asked as I came into the kitchen the next morning. I walked over grabbed a glass of juice and went and sat across from him at the table.
"Yah. I didn't sleep the greatest," I sighed. "He's coming to see Andrew today."
"I know," He said.
"Dad, are you ok with that?" I asked.
"Bella, he's still my son, just as you are still my daughter. I'm very disappointed in him, but that doesn't mean I love him any less," He seemed thoughtful for a moment. "I never stopped loving Rose after she had the abortion, in fact, I loved on her more, when I saw the impact the decision had on her," He explained. "The two of them made a decision that changed their lives forever and it will never be the same for them or us."
"I guess having Andrew and I here makes it seem like you're choosing one child over another doesn't it?"
"Absolutely not! He cheated on you and got caught. He acted like a complete ass that night, your mom and I couldn't have left you and Andrew in the middle of his anger. It would have eventually erupted and who knows what would have happened."
Tears began spilling down my cheeks. "What did I do to ever make him cheat on me?"
"Bella," Dad said sadly. He got up and came over to me. "You did nothing wrong." He pulled me to my feet and held me.
"I thought we had a great marriage and that he was excited about having a new baby. Why did he just throw us away?" I was to the point of hysterics, yet dad was calm and just held me, allowing me to soak his shirt with my tears.
"I don't know sweetheart. I wish I had the answers for you, but those are things you will have to ask him at some point."
"I'm sorry daddy," I cried.
"Sh baby, it's going to be ok," He stood there rubbing soothing circles on my back, letting me cry it out.
Once I was a bit calmer, he pulled me away from him a bit. "I figure on Monday afternoon, you should come over to the hospital for a prenatal appointment."
"Did you find me a doctor?" I asked.
"Your hugging him," He said laughing a bit.
"I um, kind of thought, I um would have a different doctor." I didn't want to offend him, yet didn't want him being my doctor.
"You will. I just thought for the next few appointments I could do it, since all it is, is the check up on you and listening to the baby's heartbeat and an ultrasound to make sure the baby is doing ok while you are so stressed out. Nothing internal, unless complications arise and then I will get someone in there."
"Ok," I said softly.
"I figure Andrew could come with you."
"He would like that," I agreed.
"Good morning early birds." Mom said smiling brightly as she walked into the kitchen. Her smile faded immediately when she saw me.
"I'm ok," I said softly.
"Honey, I know today is going to be very hard on you," She said putting her arm around my shoulders.
"I can say honestly, that I'm glad to be going shopping," I said.
"Go, have fun with the girls and let us take care of everything here. I suspect it's going to be awkward," Mom said looking up at dad.
I got ready slowly. I was nervous and just wanted this day to be over with. I took my time in the shower, allowing the water to run over my body. I just wanted to relax.I ran my hand over my stomach. My heart ached for my baby. If I had to end my marriage, would he or she be close to Edward? Or would they both lose out on him? Would Edward marry that whore and start a new family and totally walk out on his kids? I was shaking, as bad as I wanted to strangle him, as bad as I hated him, I wanted to fall down on to my knees and beg him to come back to me and tell him how much I loved him. I missed him as bad as I hated him, I still loved him and a part of me needed him.
The water started turning cold, I turned it off and shook my head trying to clear my head. I wanted this to be a fun day, I didn't want to be sad. I dried off slowly and slipped my pajamas on. I heard a knock on the door. "Bella, it's me Rose. Can I come in?"
I opened the door. "Hey," I said softly.
"Oh Bella," She grabbed me into her arms and held me to her. "I'm so sorry sweetheart. My brother is an ass."
I laughed sadly. "I'm not arguing that point."
She released me. "Come with me, I brought you something," She took me by the hand and drug me into my room.
"Oh you brought me a cute little baby girl," I said laughing as I looked at my baby niece laying on my bed. "Thank you." I giggled.
"Sorry, you can't have her. Although, at midnight when she's up screaming and crying, I'll call you," She said,
"That's fine, you can call me anytime. I'll watch her," I said.
"I'll remember that later. Actually, mom called saying you needed some clothes and wanted to see if I had anything, so I brought you these," She said pointing to a small pile of clothes.
"Oh Rose, thank you. Everything is just getting tight," I told her.
Haylee started crying. "Ok, Ok, I'll feed you," Rose said picking her up.
"You can feed her on my bed," I said.
"Thanks Bella."
Without thinking, I stripped my clothes off. "Bella, look at your stomach, you look so cute!"
"I feel fat," I sighed.
"You're just barely showing."
"I know, but my hips and ass feel huge."
Rose reached over and rubbed my stomach. "Maybe this time you will have a girl."
"That would be cool, but I think this one's another boy," I said softly.
"Seriously, another boy?"
"I don't know what it is, but I really think it is," I said putting my hand on my stomach.
"Andrew is a great kid, if you get another one like him you will be just fine," She said assuring me.
The clothes she brought were a bit big, but they were much more comfortable than what I had been wearing. "That shirt makes you look pregnant," Rose said burping Haylee.
"Is it too much?" I asked,
"Not at all, you look cute," She said smiling. "I loved being pregnant, child birth not so much, but pregnancy, I want more."
"I'm nervous about the whole child birth thing. I don't want to do it alone."
"I'll be in there if you want me to be," She offered. "I'll hold your hand and help you cuss that ass of a brother out."
I looked down, trying not to cry. "I'm sorry Bella, I know you want Edward to be there."
I shrugged her off, I didn't want to talk about him. "I'm ready if you are," I said brushing through my hair.
Andrew and Alivia were sitting in the living room with Emmett and dad, watching TV. "Give me my gorgeous granddaughter," Dad said taking her from Rose and holding her up to kiss her on her nose.
"Hey miss Haylee. You are so cute," He whispered to her. "Grandpa loves you so much." He cooed.
I looked at the clock, it was already 10am. "Emmett, her instructions are in her diaper bag and her milk is in the freezer."
"I know Rose. Stop, drop, and roll." Then he smiled. "And if she runs out of milk, I'll run to the store and grab her a beer."
"Emmett don't be an ass," Rose said.
"If your daughter is anything like her dad, you could be in trouble," I giggled.
"Bella, you know I'm cute," Emmett said pulling me into a bone crushing hug.
"Emmett careful, she's pregnant." Dad warned.
"I know that, look at her. She's getting big."
I slapped him in the arm. "I can't wait until this baby comes out. I swear to God if it's a boy you can change his diapers and I will laugh as he pisses all over you."
"Bella, that's not nice." He said.
"Never said I was."
About an hour later Alice, Rose, and I were walking around the mall. For a while, I was able to forget that my life sucked. I actually was enjoying my time shopping. I even offered to put on a fashion show for them. They stared at me wide eyed as I joked around and laughed. "Its nice to see you happy," Alice said.
"I'm trying," I sighed.
"You have a lot to be happy about. Look at your stomach, you're going to have a baby."
After hours of shopping and tons of bags, we got something to eat. Then it was time to head back home. We dropped Alice off at her house. "Love you girls," She said hugging us.
"I love you to," I said hugging her back.
She put her hand on my stomach. "And I love you to," She said giggled. She got serious. "Bella call me if you need anything, I'll come right over, Rose will to. You don't have to do this alone."
"I know." I said softly.
AN- SO EDWARD IS COMING TO VISIT ANDREW, GEE I WONDER HOW THAT IS GOING TO GO?
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