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Chapter 7: All of the Stars
Sitting on the grass I cried. Cried my heart out. No one understands me. No one. No one cares about me. Why is it so hard to love me? Mum and dad both are now being selfish how could they argue about this? Edward verses Ian!When I was kid and someone would ask me whom do you love more Mum or Dad? I would just look at Mum and Dad. I wanted to say Dad because he loves me a lot and cares about me but I would keep my mouth shut so that Mum doesn't feel bad. And I would reply Teddy and everyone would laugh on my innocence.
Now what would I do? I didn't complain about anything. Why they hide it from me? Why they didn't trust me? Why it was happening? Not I single word of complain had left my mouth but it was becoming difficult. Breathing wasn't that hard before. It's like no more oxygen is left.
I cried and cried. I started talking to the stars which is my hobby. Yes this is insanity but I find peace in talking to stars. It makes me feel someone is out there for me .Someone is there to listen me out, someone who cares. Who loves? Who have time for me?
You know what I should be shocked and devastated. I expected this from mum. She always wanted me to go out with Ian and told me how good we look together. But I didn't love him and I never will. He is like my brother. Mum is always like this.
After seeing the pictures in the gallery I came to know I had meet Uncle Stefan. Once when I was 6 he brought me candies and chocolates. And I eat them for months. So you can guess they were plenty. And then when I was 9 he came to give us a visit on Christmas. He even brought present for us .A lot of presents but Mum drove him out saying she didn't want him or any Salvatore family member near us. Uncle Stefan left leaving all the gifts on the doorsteps which later mum threw in the trash. Before leaving Uncle Stefan told me that he loved me and will always love me and dad no matter what happens.
I wish he was alive. And he shouldn't be murdered. I was hurt beyond repair. I wished Uncle Stefan to be alive then it would be as it was before. Don't know why Mum hated Grandpa so much. He is so nice. The way he pats my head and the way he calls my names reflects his affection.
It was getting late and I decided to head back to my room. That was when I thought I should read something. In my room there were books I loved. I decided to re-read Fault in our stars which was my latest obsession but then I was already depressed so I reading the history of my family.
"I don't want you Damon; you are a disgrace to our family. How could you marry a human? You married this little slut and now you want me to accept her? Get the hell out of here Damon and never show me your face again. I disown you. You don't deserve to be called Salvatore. I wish you weren't born. Now get lost and take this bitch with you", Carlisle said.
I closed the book. Really grandpa hated Mum so much. I was beyond angry. My mother was referred as a slut and bitch. And this book was a biography of my grandpa which means people would have read it. My mother's hate was justified then. Uncle Stefan made a great sacrifice. He sacrificed his love Caroline and married Catherine just to save family's dignity. He really was a great man and Edward is just opposite of him. A total Jerk.
I tried to calm myself down and closed my eyes soon feel asleep. My dreams were not welcoming. I heard someone say, "Choose your love. Love you choice" and the everything went black. It was pitch black. It was scary. "Elizabeth", someone called it was Ian.
"Elizabeth helps me. Come save me."Ian pleaded.
"Love you're here, don't be scared nothing is going to happen to you. You have to make choice and you should choose wisely. Either I or Ian. I am not asking you to choose me. One of us will die and you have to decide with whom you will love to spend eternity. I will support you and understand your decision Elizabeth."This voice was similar. They way that person pronounced "love" was familiar to me
He was Edward. Edward cared about me. Did he care about me? What he said was just something I hadn't expected. He wasn't being selfish. He wasn't demanding me to free him or safe him. He wanted me to be happy. And the way he spoke my name sent waves of pleasure inside me. The way he said my name was something I would love to hear all day and night and never get tired of it.
"Damn Liz comes help me, "Ian demanded.
Whom? Ian who had been a constant support since I was born or Edward whom I had just meet and was pain in ass since I meet him. Obviously Ian. My brain told me. But my heart was not ready for it. And dad always told me to listen to my heart. But sometimes your heart betrays you.
Edward or Ian? Edward or Ian? I asked this question over and over again.
"Elizabeth," someone called loudly. They the Earth began to shake.
"Damn wake up, Liz! Someone shook me. Thank god I was dreaming. I was really ready to make a decision.
"Bella you scared the shit out of me. Is this a way to wake someone up?" I asked. She just smiled brightly and said "Rise and shine sunshine, we are getting late for breakfast. And all I did was jump on you bed and cried your name out but got no response. I decided to pour water on you but I dint wanted to die that young so I settled on shaking you. You know we are getting late so get your lazy ass out of bed before I pour some cold water on you," Bella said sweetly
"Ok, OK, you don't need to be grumpy," I said and got myself out of bed.
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