Maggie checked her watch again. It was twelve minutes passed two. She looked down the sidewalk to her right, because she was sure that's the way Alex would come from. That was in the direction of both the DEO and Alex's place, and it was a safe bet she was coming from one of those places. She pulled her phone from her back pocket, checking that she hadn't missed any messages from Alex to say she was going to be a little late. Late was something Alex Danvers never was. If she'd arranged to meet for two, then she'd be there for two. Maggie figured she'd just got caught up at work and hadn't been able to get in contact with her. She exhaled lightly. Alex's absence was just making her more nervous. She had more time to think things over in her head, which wasn't ideal for once. "Hey, I'm so sorry I'm late." Maggie looked up as she heard Alex's voice.

"It's okay." Maggie told her.

"There was a prisoner being rather uncooperative." Alex sighed as they walked into the café, Alex following Maggie down to a free table.

"Don't worry. I understand exactly how that is." Maggie told her as they sat down. They both fell into a silence, not quite making eye-contact.

"So uhm," Alex cleared her throat. "How's your…" Alex trailed off as she gestured to where Maggie had been hit by Cyborg Superman's eye laser.

"Its fine," Maggie answered. "Those painkillers definitely did the trick, and they gave me the best sleep ever Monday night and last night." Maggie noted.

"Like you need help to sleep." Alex remembered Maggie was a deep sleeper and once she was off, she could probably sleep through a bomb blast.

"True," Maggie murmured as they made eye-contact. "I guess I was in a doubly deep sleep." Maggie wanted to tell Alex that she didn't sleep as well without her in the bed next to her, but she pursed her lips, stopping herself.

Alex gave a little smile before the waitress came over and took their order, both women ordering an Americano. As the waitress walked away, they fell into a silence again. Maggie looked behind her as she heard the sounds of a baby crying, the high-pitched scream grating through her. The cries were stopped quickly when the mother put a bottle into its mouth, but Alex still saw the look on Maggie's face. "So," Alex cleared her throat as Maggie turned back to look at her. "Did you get transferred back here or did you request it?"

"I requested it," Maggie answered. "Life in Gotham was good. Believe it or not, I actually liked my work partner and I had some great friends, but it just wasn't…." Maggie exhaled lightly. "It wasn't my home. I just felt, well I….I miss you, Alex. I still, I…." Maggie felt she may as well be honest, after all, it was why she'd come back to National City, why she'd wanted to meet up with Alex.

"Yeah, I eh, I miss you too." Alex told her, before twisting her lip and looking away from Maggie, playing nervously with her hands.

"Alex, I -" Maggie stopped talking as the waitress reappeared, putting down their coffees. They both thanked her before she walked away. "I feel like we made a mistake."

Alex's heart started beating faster within her chest. "But did we?" Alex questioned. "We want different lives, Maggie. We wouldn't have worked out in the long run. And yeah, maybe the mistake we made was getting engaged to quickly and not talking about kids before that happened."

Maggie felt like she'd been punched in the gut. It hurt to hear Alex say their engagement was a mistake. "How can you say that?" Maggie questioned. "How can you say our relationship was a mistake?" Maggie was close to tears.

"I didn't say that," Alex replied. "I just meant that we probably should have talked about that kind of stuff before getting engaged. It would have saved us a lot of heartache."

Maggie took a deep breath to compose herself. "Well at least you tried," Maggie told her. "You tried to give up on your dream of being a mum for me," Maggie said. "I just shot the idea down and wouldn't even consider it for a moment, for you," Maggie exhaled. "I…I'm sorry. I should have tried. I should have at least said that maybe in the future I could see that life for us."

"But could you?" Alex wondered. "That baby screamed for a few seconds and did you see the look on your face?" Alex questioned.

Maggie exhaled. "I've never really been around kids to get used to things like that," Maggie reasoned. "Maybe if it was your kid, I'd get to used it. I'd….if I had too. I'd try for you if I had too."

"If I had too," Alex repeated. "It shouldn't be an if I had too. Not with something like this," Alex could see Maggie was at least trying to come around to the idea of Kids, but it still wasn't something that Alex would ever want Maggie to do if deep down she didn't want too. "You should want this. You can't just do it because it's what I want. That would only lead to resent and it would tear us apart."

Maggie pursed her lips as she looked downwards. "I'm saying I'm willing to try. I'm becoming more open to the idea because I love you so much and I want nothing more than for us to give this another go, and I know how much you want a child and I want you to have everything you want in life." Maggie told her, Alex hearing the sincerity in her voice.

Alex swallowed a lump in her throat. "I love you too, Maggie, but -"

"Then there doesn't need to be a but," Maggie interrupted. "Alex, it's been over a year and we are both still crazy about each other. There's something worth trying again for," Maggie told her. "Can't we just….try again? Go out on dates and just see where things go? And then, in the future we can see about a baby."

Alex pursed her lips. She wanted nothing more than to try things again with Maggie, but she was also about to get inseminated which would hopefully lead to a pregnancy and that wasn't an ideal situation for starting up a relationship again, especially with someone who she'd previously broken up with because they didn't want kids. "I want to try again with you," Alex answered. "But I'm not sure how much you'll want to after I tell you this," Alex took a deep breath. She needed to tell Maggie. She needed to be straight with her and tell her exactly what was going on with her life. She took a deep breath, seeing a rather confused look on Maggie's face. "Next week I am going to the fertility clinic to get inseminated," Alex spoke quietly, and Maggie's mouth opened in shock. "I want this now. I am ready, and I want you as well, but you have to want this for yourself and not just to be with me."

Maggie sat there, open mouthed, not saying anything. "I uhm…I'm sorry, I….." Maggie stood up, rubbing her hand over her forehead. "I uhm." Maggie started to walk away.

"Maggie." Alex stood up and turned around, watching Maggie as she left the café.


Alex was sitting on the couch in her place. It was moments like this, when she was feeling sad, when she was hurting that she longed for a drink the most. She wanted to make thing work with Maggie so badly, but she wanted to be a mum. She wanted to have at least one child, and she was ready for that now. She heard a whooshing sound and shook her head as Kara had come in through the window. "When I don't let you in the door, it's doesn't mean come through the window." Alex told her, speaking crossly.

"Yeah well if you answered your door I wouldn't have to come through your window, would I?" Kara questioned, and she took a seat next to Alex on the couch.

"Well clearly I wanted to be left alone." Alex mumbled, looking out to the wall.

"Alex," Kara exhaled lightly. "Things obviously didn't go well with Maggie today, did they?" Kara put her hand onto Alex's arm, trying to get her to look around at her, but Alex kept staring straight out in front of her.

Alex shook her head as she twisted her lip, trying to push away tears. "I told her that I was going to the clinic next week and she walked out."

"You two met to try and work things out and you told her that?" Kara questioned, thinking it was no wonder that Maggie got scared off.

"Well it's happening. I need to be honest with her." Alex said, turning her head to look at Kara.

"Oh," Kara pursed her lips. "I kinda figured that maybe if you two were going to give things another go, then you'd hold off on the baby plans for a while." Kara said, Alex shaking her head in response.

"I hoped that Maggie and I could work things out but I'm ready to have a baby. I want this now. I'm always going to want this and if Maggie doesn't then…." Alex trailed off shaking her head again. "She said maybe in the future she'd be more open to the idea, but, I…." Alex paused. She looked downwards, playing with her hands.

"So, by waiting a little bit you can end up with both," Kara told her. "By doing this now, you could end up alone."

"But what if that future never comes?" Alex questioned. "She was dead set against having kids. I don't see her properly changing her mind. Considering it, yeah she seems to be, but given her reaction to me telling her, I….." Alex gave a little shrug as she sniffed back.

"Well she probably didn't expect you to say that," Kara tried to find reason with Maggie just walking out on her. "She thought you two were meeting to try to work things out. She wasn't expecting a possible baby."

Alex bit her lip as she gave a nod, understanding what Kara was pointing out to her. "I don't know what to do, Kara," Alex said, a tear falling out of her eye. "I want to try for this baby, but I want…I want the chance to be with Maggie. I mean she's….she's Maggie."

"I know," Kara pulled her sister into a hug. "You just gotta go with what's in your heart." Kara told her, Alex staying silent as she stayed in the embrace with her sister.


Maggie was holding her phone to her ear, hoping she'd answer. Unfortunately, it rang and rang and rang before going to her voicemail. 'Hey, you've reached Rachel. Sorry I can't take your call at the moment but -' Maggie sighed, hanging up the phone. She went into her messages and clicked on Rachel's name. Hey, meeting with Alex didn't go so great. Really need to talk to you. Call me when you can. X Maggie sighed lightly as she threw her phone down on the breakfast bar and reached for the bottle of whisky. She didn't even bother to pour some in a glass. She took a rather large gulp, before she banged the bottle down on the breakfast bar and walked down the hall to her bedroom, grabbing her black leather jacket, putting it on as she walked back down the hall. She grabbed her keys from the hanger by the door and left her apartment, hitting the button for the elevator. She went down to the foyer and walked out into the cool spring evening. She walked quickly until she reached the Alien Bar. She jumped up onto a stool and ordered 3 whisky shots and a bottle of beer. She downed the first shot quickly and slammed the glass back down onto the bar before picking up the second glass, shooting it down just as quickly as she did the first. "Drinking alone in a bar is never a good sign," Maggie didn't look around to the familiar voice. Instead, she banged the second shot glass down and picked up the third. "Did things not go well with Alex this afternoon?" Maggie banged the shot glass down on the bar before looking around to face J'onn.

"What ever gave that away?" Maggie scoffed before she picked up her beer.

J'onn exhaled lightly as he took a seat next to Maggie. He gestured 3 fingers to the barman, indicating he wanted the same round again. "I've just got a gift," J'onn said and Maggie's lips curled slightly. "You are welcome to come over and join us, if you want." J'onn gestured across the room to James and Winn. Maggie screwed her face up, wondering why Alex and Kara weren't there as well.

"Uhm," Maggie shook her head. "If Alex is about to turn up then it's probably not the best idea with the way I just up and left." Maggie spoke quietly.

"Uh no," J'onn shook his head. "It's a lad's night."

"And what?" Maggie questioned. "Just because I'm a lesbian you think I'm one of the lads?"

"No," J'onn shook his head. "I just thought it might be better than drinking alone." J'onn told her. And also, it was so he could make sure she didn't drink herself into oblivion because it seemed that was the way Maggie was wanting this evening to go.

"Did you know that she is going to have a baby?" Maggie questioned.

"Who?" J'onn looked a little confused. "Alex?"

"No, Beyoncé," Maggie muttered dryly. "Yes, Alex," Maggie said, watching as the barman put down the three beers for J'onn, Winn and James. J'onn handed him a note, telling him to keep the change.

"Uh, no," J'onn shook his head. "I did not know that."

"I love her so much," Maggie told him. "And I told her that I'd really try and be more open to the idea of raising a baby with her one day, but, you know, that's what I meant. One day. In the future when I've had more time," Maggie shook her head. "I'm not, I…." Maggie took a long drink of her beer.

"You know, when my wife, M'yri'ah suggested we start a family, I had my doubts at how I'd be as a father," J'onn told her. Maggie exhaled lightly, but stayed silent, letting J'onn say what he wanted. "But I loved my wife so much and I knew she was meant to be a mum. And she'd be there to help me work the whole father thing out," J'onn paused for a moment before continuing. "I was still having doubts when she was expecting K'hym. It wasn't until she'd arrived, and I was holding her for the first time, and she was this screaming, sticky green thing. She just looked so angry," J'onn said, smiling fondly at his memory. "I started singing her a lullaby and she wrapped her little hand around my finger and I…." J'onn took another pause. Maggie put her hand onto his arm, knowing it was hard for J'onn to talk about his family. "Any doubts I had just vanished because she was my little girl. Something wonderful to show for the love that me and M'yri'ah had for each other."

Maggie smiled, feeling touched that J'onn had shared that with her. "But it's not like Alex and I could do that, you know," Maggie said. "Egg plus egg doesn't equal baby."

"Well you might need a little extra help for that but at the end of the day you and Alex would be the one raising that child," J'onn told her. "And for what's its worth, I think you'd be a great mum." J'onn told her. Maggie pursed her lips, looking slightly downwards.

"You really think so?" Maggie wasn't so sure on that one herself. It wasn't like she had the best role models in her parents.

"Mmm, J'onn nodded. "And by the way, Maggie," J'onn said as he stood up from the stool. "Sometimes life gives us the best things when we least expect it," J'onn said. "I never thought I'd love anyone as much as I loved my girls, but Alex and Kara, they come pretty damn close," J'onn told her before he picked up the beers. "We're right over there if you change your mind about joining us." J'onn said, giving Maggie a smile, which she retuned before she watched him walk away. She took a deep breath, thinking about what J'onn said to her as she took another drink of her beer.


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