Long time no see. I have finished school, and am back to finish my stories. Poor old stories, having been left alone for so long.. A year I believe.

But, as I said, I am now back and expect every single one of my stories to have new chapters soon.

So, we're starting off with a small cheesy chapter. I have forgotten quite alot about my own story, so I had to re read it. Not that it's long :p

ALSO.

Since I had a hiatus of one year, I'm now in need of a new beta. Please message me if you're interested, I would greatly appreciate it :D

Enjoy~



Chapter 7

I opened my eyes slowly.

'Now, I know I have seen this roof before,' my thoughts humoured me.

Yes, it was as I thought. I was back at the same hospital I'd been in after… that.

Sighing, I turned my head slowly. Something flashed before my eyes and my eyes widened when I realized why I was back here. The fear, the desperation. The wish to die.

His voice…

The door opened and a man wearing a white cloak entered. It was not the same doctor as earlier.

"I see you are finally awake, Kirihara-kun. Your friends will be glad."

His voice was deep and truly caring towards me, and it was relaxing, giving off an atmosphere of safety. Something I haven't felt for a long time. I closed my eyes as the doctor did a few tests. Soon after, I was sound asleep.

When I awoke again, the lights outside the window was fading away, the sunset enveloping the skies in flames.

There was a knock on the door and I shouted for whoever it was to come in. The door opened and Marui slowly poked his head inside.

"Akaya…"

I felt guilt course through my body. I remembered the last time we met and shame painted my face red.

Marui closed the door behind him and walked over to sit in the chair beside me. I didn't dare look at him, too ashamed to acknowledge his presence.

Only when I heard sniffing, I turned to look, and was surprised to see tears running down Marui's cheeks.

"Marui.."

"I'm sorry, " Marui sniffed. "I'm sorry I didn't come to you right away. I'm sorry I left you all alone."

Marui squeezed his eyes shut and tried to strangle his sobs.

I felt my heart clench at the sight of him… His beautiful face contorted in a grimace, his cheeks red and eyes swollen.

"Don't cry. I am fine after all," I forced myself to say.

"Liar.."

I looked away from him.

We sat there, the only sound being Marui's sniffs and quiet sobs.

I felt horrible and pitiful. Pathetic and useless. Why did I come back to Japan? Why did I believe I was better, able to take care of myself again?

How can I call myself a man, if I keep inflicting pain onto my precious love…?

"I'm always making you cry." My voice was low, but I knew he'd hear.

"Yes, I'm really turning into a girl," Marui joked, but it sounded fake.

"We… We shouldn't see each other anymore."

The words were difficult to say and I felt tears filling up my eyes, but blinked them away. I refused to cry right now.

"What do you mean?" Marui's voice hitched.

I gathered my courage and looked him directly in the eyes.

"I'm not becoming any better, Marui. I thought I was stabile again, but I hurt you and almost… almost killed myself. He.. He will always be a part of my life... A part I can't erase. And I don't want to hurt you anymore. You're too precious for me."

Marui's lower lip started to quiver.

"Don't leave me… Please…"

Those few words… Filled with so much pain and suffering shot through me… Strangled me…

"It's futile Akaya, " Marui chuckled bitterly. "Even if you ask me to leave, I won't. I can't."

He gripped my hands and brought them to his lips, gently kissing each.

"I love you too much."


Cheesy, I know. But I need some time to get back into Akaya and, well, everyone's state of mind. Akaya, at least, is quite screwed after all.

Please leave me a review, I'd love to hear how I have been doing so far (far? It's only 594 words -_-)

Also... I'd like to know if people want me to have a RenxSanada pairing. They're getting quite close *wriggle eyebrows*

Until next time.