Chapter 7: Edward

(Edward POV)

I heard Alice leave downstairs as she was thinking many thoughts of despair, but at that moment I was too shocked to do most anything.

My mouth made a popping sound while I felt all of my hopes diminish. Carlisle just said that Bella might not regain her memory! Does that mean all of our love is lost forever. Just thinking about that caused a deep hole to form in my chest.

I let out a tearless sob, it sounded like I was choking in my ears and I didn't care. I cared about nothing right now except Bella. Her pain right now was the only thing that kept me standing here and not going to Italy to end this torture. What in the world am I supposed to do?

My poor son, this must be so hard for him. I don't know what I would do if this happened to Esme… He shuddered at the thought. His pity toward me was unbearable; I didn't deserve it! I jumped to my feet and was about to make a run for it until I heard Carlisle murmur "Wait!" I spun around to see what he wanted.

You aren't leaving again, are you Edward? Please, don't take away two of her children at once, it just might break her down! A light smile came on my lips as I remembered that Bella made such an impression that she has already, in such a short time, been considered a daughter and a friend.

"No Carlisle. You should know by now I have learned from my mistake. I won't leave until Bella tells me too. I especially don't want to leave while she is hurt. I just need some time to think things through."

Carlisle was clearly comforted as I spoke. I knew it would kill him if I left too, but he was much too selfless to let anyone worry about him. Carlisle is truly a great man and I am proud to call him my father.

Do what you must son, I know you will do what is right. I believe in you. Be strong, this will all work out.

He was sincere with every thought. I smiled at him, happy that if I had to be changed that it was by him, before I ran out the door.

The happiness immediately vanished once I was alone. My body was shaking as I kept thinking that right now, Bella didn't love me. It felt like my heart was torn, right then and there. I needed something to occupy myself, anything to bring this torture away from me. A mortal would have to be at the point of death to feel this kind of pain, and believe me I've been there.

I ran north, and ripped apart the first mountain lion I could find. It helped that I could let off my steam at this animal.

Then, I knew that I officially cracked when I started picturing tearing Mike and Tyler limb by limb. The numbing fury I felt lasted for an hour couldn't last any longer. I disposed of the carcass and let misery have me.

Then I thought of something that changed my entire perspective. I was the most important person in Bella's life, surely there must be some way to get her memory back. If it does come back then great, if not we have a fresh start, no enemy vampires in our way. It was a win-win situation.

I was so happy I felt like singing (I don't know if Edward has ever sung before or not so I am going with not). I hopped to my feet and raced toward home, eager to finally get back to Bella. I will find a way to make Bella happy again if it is the last thing I do I thought to myself.

I ran as fast as I could to Bella's house only to be stopped by the most repulsing sent I have ever smelled in my entire life, the scent was old though. Oh, great the dog was here. Let me guess, he told Bella that she was his girlfriend, typical mutt behavior I thought. If he ruined Bella's and my relationship with lies he was going to be a dead dog!

No, I wouldn't do that, Bella wouldn't like it if I killed her best friend, and I bet he feels the same way.

I made my way up the steps and knocked on the door. Rough footsteps came slowly closer so I could tell that it was Charlie who was going to answer the door. I straightened up for him, he just forgave me and I am not about to take any more chances.

"Hi, Edward. Now isn't really a good time, could you come back later." I was about to argue but I was interrupted by the sound of Bella crying in the other room, the sound of it broke my heart.

Charlie took a backward glance toward his only daughter, turned to me and said, "All right, go ahead. If anyone could comfort her it's probably you." I nodded, extremely grateful, and rushed into the house.

There was Bella, lying on the couch with her head in her hands. I didn't care that at that moment her blood appealed to me, all I cared about was that Bella was hurt and she needed my help.

"Bella, honey what's wrong? Is there anything I can do?"

Bella turned to me; her eyes were so red I could tell she was crying for a long time.

"Nothing is wrong…" I raised an eyebrow, she may not know she is an incredibly bad liar now but how could she look at me with tears in her eyes and say that. She chuckled at my expression.

She put her hands up and said, "Okay, okay. I am just really frustrated about my memory is all. An old friend came over hear to tell me stories and help me remember. I was so hopeful it would work that I just got bummed out when it didn't. As for what you can do…I heard you were my boyfriend…" If my heart were beating it would have ran incredibly fast by that. "Are there any memories you could tell me about, I'm sure you must have something to tell me?"

I smiled; she was clearly being open with me and now was my chance to be open with her. "Of course Bella, what would you like to know?" She momentarily gasped in shock and I could see all the blood rushing to her face in a blush that was beyond beautiful. She looked at her hands and she asked "Where did we meet?"

"The first time I saw you was in the cafeteria, the first time I talked to you we were in biology class."

The questions continued and I answered them as best as I could, there were many that interfered with our secrets and it pained me that she really didn't know me yet. Well, hopefully that will all be changed very soon.

What questions did Bella ask? Will she ever get her memory back? What did Jacob say? How are all the other Cullen's taking this? Stay tuned and find out…lol Seriously though, please R&R so I have more ideas!