Okay so I know its been awhile! Please don't hate me! Laziness and school are to blame. I hope no one gave up on my story just yet! Read and commmeeenntttt pretty please.. okay so its short but its something.
Have you ever reached that point in your life when you just get really annoyed by persistent phone calls? I mean I don't get annoyed easily, but this is just ridiculous.
"Ashley whaaaatttt?" I whine into the phone, knowing it's her on the other end.
"Spence I just really need to talk to you okay, please?" She whispers cautiously through the phone, trying not to upset me.
"Well I'm not in the mood to hear you begging and pleading your case, so if you don't mind…" I say to her, trailing off at the end of the sentence.
"Look Spence−"Ashley replies trying to talk over my sighs.
"No you look Ashley!" I harshly say over her, "I'm getting sick and tired of you just feeling like I'm going to give into to you with a little persistence. I need time Ashley, months not days! You sound do pathetic I can't even stand it! You know me Ashley, I don't like weak people and everyday you call me crying and half completing sentences sounding like a wounded animal," I all but yell into the phone.
"I just cannot take this anymore, you're driving me crazy! I am so close to just changing my phone number and moving away and not telling you the new address." I finish in a calm tone.
"I'm so sorry, I just−I just want you to realize that! That's why I'm persisting we talk in person, and not have screaming matches over the phone. I want to get better Spencer, for you and me. I want to be that girl you fell madly in love with in high school again. I know you don't believe a word I'm saying and I know I'll have to spend a long time trying to prove this to you. But, you are my world Spencer. I−I don't have a reason to get up anymore. I sound pathetic mainly because it's how I feel. I don't …I don't know how to exist without you Spencer." She finishes in a whisper.
"Ashley, look, I realize that you may see a future for us but quite frankly I don't. Not anymore. You just can't apologize and hope for the best outcome. I loved you with every last breath Ashley. I've put up a wall that even I don't know how to tear down. I need to figure out life on my own, without you pressuring me. So if that means I have to change everything and withhold my whereabouts to do so, I will Ashley. I need time to experience life away from your spotlight; I need to meet new people and possibly experience love in another less painful form. I just need a break from you Ashley Davies." I say shedding a few tears with those last words, and hanging up.
At least now I know that I haven't become a total heartless being. I just wish that hadn't hurt so much.
I pull up to the house and find Madison just about to knock. This is weird considering I haven't talked to her in awhile, since I know she's been comforting Ashley since the separation. You see, Madison pretty much sided with me and was pretty close to kicking Ashley's ass after she found out what she did but I begged her not to and to stay in Ashley's life since everyone else pretty much took an exit. Since high school Madison did a complete 360 with her personality. She became less of a bitch and more of a friend. I guess after figuring out people only hung out with her for her reputation she needed a change. I practically had to beg her to even treat Ashley the same way as before.
"Madison wassappp," I jokingly call for her. She turns around, seeing me approaching, and skips over. I have missed her so I'm happy that she's dropping by.
"Hey girly! I haven't seen you in a minute, I was almost tempted to knock your door down but since you're here…" she says trailing off at the end, but still smiling all the while.
"Yea right, that would've been a sight!" we laugh as I open the front door and throw my keys in the bowl, and hang my jacket on the rack.
"So how've you been Spence?" she questions, seemingly knowing the answer.
"Ehh, you know, gotta take it one day at a time," I say heading to the kitchen with Madison trailing me.
"I feel ya buddy, that's the best thing you can do right now," she tells me hopping up on the counter.
"Get your big ass off my clean counters hoe! And that's the only thing I can do right now," I yell jokingly.
"Hey! My ass may be big but are you implying that it is dirty?" hehehe yes…?
"Haha no, I don't know why I even bother, you never get down anyways," she has a thing for sitting on my counter. She says it's because it's really smooth; I mean it is marble and all.
"That's what I'm saying. Anyways Ashley hasn't been blowing up your phone has she?" Madison inquires.
"Oh my gosh, yes! She called me after my lunch with Kyla to be exact," I tell her.
"Damnit! I told her specifically not to call you, you probably need some time to cool off without her adding pressure to the situation," She took the words right out of my mouth.
"That's exactly my point, I told her that too. I feel that I may need to just change my number and get out of L.A. for awhile," this just feels like something I have to do.
"Spence you just do what you have to do. I think that that could be a good thing for you; to get away from all the drama and paparazzi. You really just need to go find yourself again because you sort of lost your way in the shadow of yours and Ashley's career. Go find some foreign chicks to rock your world for a month or two! Not that I want you to do it to get back at Ashley, but to just get the feel of another woman. You've been with Ashley since high school; you never really got the chance to experience other girls and relationships. You're still young for god sakes! Loosen up and live a little!" she yells already heading to my laptop to book me a flight I'm sure.
"Well this should be interesting…" I whisper to myself thinking this just may work.
