{One Shot} Crushed {Christian}

Oh no, it's bad

Got me feeling so weak

When you're holding my hand

You smile I die

Cause I don't wanna feel what I'm feeling inside

It's too much it's too late

I'm so into you

I sigh as I walked down the hall, trying to get the thoughts of Jason out of my head and get the feelings out of my heart.

There is no way in hell that he'd have true feelings for you Alex, it's just a story-line. He holds your hand because Christian's dating Jesse.

While I'm talking to myself in my head I bump into someone.

"I'm sorry." I say quickly.

"No problem Alex." Jason says with that cute smile of his, I swear I could die right there on the spot.

"Oh……uh…..i gotta go see you later." I stutter and run off to find Maria.

I'd be crushed

If you walked away

I'd be lost

I'd be drowning in grey

I'd be wounded beyond repair

If you weren't there

I'd be crushed

Just think of how crushed you'd be if you actually date and he leaves you for someone prettier. Just save your self from that kind of pain.

I keep putting myself even if Maria is telling me to tell him how I feel. I tell her I'm going to the hotel and going to bed and I start to walk out.

"Just think about what I said okay lex?" she says with concern on her face. I nod and leave. I get closer to the door with every step but someone grabs my arm and my lips meet theirs. I pull away and Jason was looking at me shyly. I pull him to me and start kissing him again.

I swore

I'd be in control of myself

What have you done with me?

Your lips (your lips)

My skin (my skin)

I don't know where you end and where i begin

I hate you

But I love you

So don't ever leave

You don't deserve him…..

For the next week Jason and I are attached at the hips, we went everywhere together, well not everywhere I mean we couldn't go to the bathroom together. But you get what I mean… I just could help the thoughts that kept coming back

He's going to leave you for the next set of boobs that comes his was then how will you be? You'll be broken that how you'll be. You'll eat yourself into a size 14.

I'd be crushed

If you walked away

I'd be lost

I'd be drowning in grey

I'd be wounded beyond repair

If you weren't there

I'd be crushed

"Babe what's wrong?" I ask him a couple of weeks later.

"Why won't you let me in?" he answers me, I stare at him…

"I'm scared I'll get hurt." I whisper. He gathers me onto his lap.

"I vow never to hurt you." He whispers in my ear and I know then I had fallen in love with Jason Reso.

But what if? If what he stays? He leaves? I'll deal with that when it happens.

I brush all the negative thoughts out of my head. I knew I shouldn't feel this way towards someone.

You got me falling

And I never wanted to feel like I do

I'm so into you

I smile as Jason walks up to my doorstep to pick me up for our date and remember when we first started dating….

Oh no, it's bad

He hands me a single red rose and kisses my hand, I smile.

CRUSHED!

I know if he ever left I would be lifeless but if I play my cards right he'll never leave.

If you walked away

I'd be lost

I'd be drowning in grey

I'd be wounded beyond repair

If you weren't theerrree

That song came on the radio and I smile at Jason.

"This song is so me." I whisper

"Why?" he asks

"It just is."

"Baby I'll never leave you so you won't be crushed." He says kissing me. I smile and nod.

"I know."