Chapter 6:
Christian POV:
It is almost lunch time, and I am patiently waiting for Welch to send me the background check of that new guy Ana was with. Okay, not so patiently, I am practically on the verge of going bald because of pulling my hair in frustration. What the hell is taking him so much time, I think while reading a file, or pretending to read a file. I know that I may be over-reacting, but what can I do, I can't call Ana because of my own stupid rules, so Welch is the only person who can right now quench the curiosity of my mind. I know Ana loves me, and she has told me that many times, but I just can't stop being insecure. What if she finally meets a guy who is not self-loathing, self-depreciating, or thinks himself unlovable and not to forget has mommy issues. For God sake, I couldn't even say a simple 'I Love You' to her.
Actually I haven't said those three words to any one after Ella, even not to Grace. I really wanted to tell my family how much I love them all, but just the image telling Ella that and then she leaving me all alone to fight the world comes to my mind, I shudder thinking what would have happened if that pimp of hers would have come back rather than Grace.
And after that time I only once gathered the courage to say those words to a person, and that was Elena. I remember that day clear as sky, as soon as those words left my mouth she took me to her playroom and beat me with the harshest whip she had, and after every hit she made me repeat that love was for fools. Even today after so many years, I cringe while remembering that day and those blows. I was only eighteen back then, so when all those around me were acting like love-sick teenagers, I was limping because of the punishment I got for doing the same.
After that I never have uttered the L word to anyone. Neither did I let anyone say it to me, Elena had it so rooted in me that I never let my feelings resurface. Many of my contracts were terminated just for the sole reason. I just had closed myself off, from my family, from the world. And then this sunshine entered my office to take my interview, and then brightened my world. My sunshine, my Ana.
Only if I had gathered enough courage to tell her how much I love her, always will, only her, no one else. But saying those words only brought back pained and sad memories. So I hesitated to say those words, even though I wanted to reciprocate every time she said them. But now I am starting to regret it, because if that other guy does it before me then I will lose Ana to him. No I can't let this happen, I have to find the courage to say those words, and that too fast.
I suddenly am suddenly pulled out from my musings, when I hear my ringtone. At last Welch has called, but he never calls, he emails me. There must be something really wrong. Where does Ana gather all these creepy guys? But at least now I am there to protect her from them all, like Jose I will protect her from this guy too.
"What the hell was taking you so much time Welch, I have been waiting", but my sentence is cut off by someone speaking, an unknown voice.
"Sorry to interrupt you Mr. Grey, but I have other important work to do rather than chatting. First let me introduce myself, I am Major Smith, the director of NSA. And I have called you to ask which terrorist organization are you trying to supply my information", what the hell is going on, who is this man and where is Welch. Is this some sort of prank, but Elliot is out of town, so I don't think it is. Ok keep it calm Grey, I am sure there must be a misunderstanding.
"I am sorry Major Smith, but I think you are misled here by someone, I have many enemies in the business world, who try to spread wrong information about me". Yes, I think that is a logical explanation.
"Oh no, there is no misunderstanding in this, and for your information I have your employee, Mr. Welch under arrest for trying to track me down. You see, like you have this guy, I have ten of my own. So do not try to give excuses and answer my question, why where you trying to dig information about me", his voice is stern and a bit scary, not that I am sacred of anyone, Christian Grey does not fear anything. "You do understand that, doing this is a national offence, which can land you in jail. And the punishments are very harsh, just to let you know."
Oh shit, if Welch was doing a background check on this guy that means only one thing. He was the guy Ana was with. I am in some deep trouble. I should really stop this stalking habit, which will someday do an irreparable damage. You are wrong Grey, it is already done. Now the million dollar question is, what am I going to answer him, that I was jealous and wanted to know who my girlfriend was hugging. Ana would literally crucify me if she gets to know this. No this matter should stop here itself, before getting to her. Think Grey, think.
"Actually, Major I think Welch searched for the wrong person. I am extremely sorry for the inconvenience caused, but I give you my word it will never happen again", I hope that sounded sincere enough. I just wanted to strangle the arrogant fucker but the logical side of me told that this was not the moment to strike back.
"Okay, as this the first time this happened and you are giving me your word on this, I am leaving your employee", I release a huge sigh, but it is short lived as he continues, "But I am warning you, do not repeat this mistake. Because next time, there will be no saving". With this he hangs the call.
Now Ana has a successful fucker behind, unlike those useless ones. Competition is stiff, he really seemed very close to her from the photos. But she is with me, that too in a contract, she cannot cheat with me. But he does not have problems like me, he does not have touch issues like me, he is normal guy. Then why would she be with a guy like me, which is the thing I fear most. I trust her, but I just can't help being insecure. It's like literally ingrained in me.
After that pathetic phone call, all my mood to work has flew away from the window, and I am thinking of just taking the day off and watching Ana from my car sitting outside her office, well on the CCTV camera from SIP security. Hey it was installed so I could watch if the employees were working properly, or to have a watch over the blue eyed goddess that is constantly on my mind.
Like I said I have been sitting outside Ana's office, waiting to get a glimpse of her. And meanwhile, Welch called saying he was quitting because of today's fiasco but I immediately offered him a huge raise, which I knew the fucker couldn't refuse, so I still have my hacker in place. You see I am great at mind deals, it's just the heart that creates problems.
Just as I am thinking, I see the vision I have been waiting to see the whole day coming out of her office. And what a vison it is, dressed in that tight pencil skirt, which I just want to rip off, I wonder what is inside it. Keep it in your pants Grey, at least until Friday. But how can she wear such sexy clothes to work, these should only be for my eyes. And I know one thing definitely, that boss of hers must have eye raped her completely. Speaking of him I cancelled the trip he had planned with my girlfriend to New York. I had specifically told Roach, that all big decisions should pass through me. I usually hand those decisions to Ros, but as Ana was concerned here so I just took it in my own hands to be safe. Welch is still finding why Jack's all previous secretaries were leaving their jobs without reasons, hope he finds out soon.
My Ana is so innocent and naïve, she easily believes anyone. And even when I tried to warn her about Jack on Friday, she just brushed it off saying he was just being friendly. Really, what am I going to do with her? I know the answer, love and protect her. I will not let any danger touch her, I will always be there to protect her.
Suddenly I see her enter a car, and then speed off. I immediately take off and follow it, from a distance. While the car takes a side turn I see who she is in the car with. And the image I see just brings out a burning rage inside me, she is laughing over something with that fucking Major. I turn the car over and simultaneously call Bastille, I really need to blow off this anger, and he better be ready to get his ass kicked tonight. I call Taylor and tell him to take leave as I will not need him tonight, and then switch off the phone. I really need some time alone. These calls will only distract me, and then the anger will come off on another person, which I don't want.
I should really stop thinking about this, but just can't stop thinking about her happy and laughing image I just saw. This should have been, not him, I should have been the one making her laugh. But the reality is, she can't even look into my eyes right now, again my idiotic rules. Oh Ana, I miss you, so much.
Authors Note: So Christian just switched off his phone, and Ana is on gun point in front of Leila. What do you think? This is just a filler of Christian's day before we are back to Ana's pov. I will try to update as soon as possible. Laters.
