(2 months and 2 weeks later)
about as long as it has taken me to write this chapter
clary's pov
sebastian pulls on his pants while i lay with one hand cuffed to the bed post. he doesnt notice that he's left his dagger close enough for me to take. i grab it quietly while he's turned around to get his shirt. i hide the dagger as he picks up my shirt.he walks over and sits on the side of the bed. he puts his hand on my naked thigh i try to pull it away but he holds it in place with bruising force until i stop. he rubs his hand up and down my skin. "i hate it when you try to deny my affection little sister" he says gliding his hand closer to my crotch. for a moment im to scared to move as he climbs on top of me. i feel his fingers slip inside me and massage my clit. i gasp and finally come to my senses. i drive the dagger through his throat. with that the room slips away and so does sebastian and i am left in darkness.
i open my eyes and see a high wooden cieling. i try to breath but i feel like my lungs aren't working.
i jump and fall to the ground from someone calling my name. i make a run for the door but i crash into someone and there arms wrap around me.
"no you cant have him. you cant hurt me any more. i killed you. you were dead" i scream trying to get away by pushing and hitting the chest that im stuck to because of his arms.
i look at sebastian and he doesnt look like sebastian. he looks like jace. his eyes are shocked and sad.
"quit wearing his face" i scream. "i know he's not here. no one is here but you" i scream.
"clary its me jace. i swear im not going to hurt you" he says. hes only trying to trick me. "jace isnt here. jace doesnt know where i am" i shout still trying to get away.
"jace is here. jace knows that your in the infirmary in the institute" he says with a partially joking voice.
"no your trying to trick me so you can take us back" i say. my arms are getting tired and dizziness is trying to wash itself over me but i keep fighting it.
"i dont know what you are talking about" he says. i stop hitting him and look up to try and find any sign of the lie in his eyes but i cant "jace?" i ask as the dizziness overruns my head.
"yes baby its me" he says. silent tears escape my eyes as he scoops me up and puts me back on the bed.
my silent tears start to become less silent as he calls for magnus and maryse. he kneels beside the bed and rubs my back.
i involuntarily flinch at his touch and he looks hurt. he opens his mouth to say something but gets interupted when maryse and magnus enter the room which im greatful for.
maryse stops dead in her tracks as she catches sight of me. her hands fly to her mouth "oh by the angel" she breaths.
magnus walks up to my bed and reaches his hand to look at my face. i cringe from his hand. he stops for a moment and shoots me a questioning look. i search his eyes for anything suspicious.
i find nothing so i nod indicating that he can touch me. while he examins me i notice maryse regain her composure and walk over to me and magnus. i look to jace while magnus looks at my neck that i know is bruised.
jace takes my hand in his. he looks at me with worry all over his face. i dont know what to do.
"jace will you go get the others while we ask clary some questions" asks maryse "but alec is at my apartment and i came here to get his phone so do you mind going to get him and blueberry" says magnus
"is that ok?" jace asks. i nod my head and he squeezes my hand. i squeeze back and with that he lets go of my hand and strides out of the room to get the others.
"clary we need to take a look at the baby and i need to know if you are hurt anywhere else. is that ok?" he asks and dread fills my heart.
"oh my god the baby where is he" i plead "what do you mean clary?" asks maryse "the baby is he here. oh my god does he still have him. no damn it i thought he was dead i thought he couldnt take him" i say as i start to cry again.
"clary no body can have this baby except you" says magnus "what?" i am so confused.
"clary how long have you been gone" he asks "i dont know a little over a year. why?" i ask "and where have you been?" he asks ignoring my question.
"ive been with sebastian. why?" i ask again "clary you've been stuck in a dream state for 3 months. you havent had your baby yet. you've been in the infirmary all this time" says maryse
"what are you talking about?" i ask. i am so lost. "is it possible that he put her in a dream world rather than a state and thats why shes been getting bruises and cuts?" she asks still ignoring my questions
"it would be if he were alive" says magnus while he pushes me gently indicating for me to lay down.
i do as he asks and he starts working his magic over my stomach then moving to the rest of me. "is it possible that he is?" asks maryse "i have no idea" he says with a worried look on his face.
he suddenly stops and drops his hands. "maryse" he says gesturing for her to walk an ear shot away.
they talk and eventually maryse leaves the room and magnus walks over to me.
"clary how are you feeling?" he asks with a smile "i dont know" i say but i do know. im really fucking scared is how i feel.
"well while we wait for the others i am going to cheer you up with food and telling you somethings that have happened while you were out" he says with a huge smile.
"ok tell me about it" i say with a smile thats bigger than his. "well while you were playing sleeping beauty me and alec have adopted a little blue bundle of joy" he says while he makes a plate of beagals and strawberry jam.
"oh my gosh really" i say and my hands fly to my face in joyful shock. "aww what did you name him? what did you mean by blue? how did you find him? how old is he?" i babble on while he hands me the plate
he laughs at my enthusiasms "his name is max lightwood-bane. he is a worlock child and thats why he is blue. we got a call from the academy and they said he had been left there. and i he is almost 2" he says with a genuine smile while i eat.
"now onto you and your pretty boy or biscuit jr." he says "i heard you calling it a he earlier" he says. i finish the last of the beagals.
"yes well thats what he was in the dream world. but i dont want to know if its true or not until jace gets here" i say and as if on cue jace, alec, simon, maryse, Luke, izzy, and my mother burst in the door.
"speak of the devil" says magnus. all of them come straight for me except my mother and izzy who stand in shock. they all stand or kneel by the bed and ask me questions like how are you? do you need anything? do you remember us?
"im fine i can remember all of you" i say. jace takes my hand in his. i force myself not to cringe in fear and squeeze his. "we missed you" says izzy who hugs me with bone crushing force.
i gasp at the sudden physical cantact. and everyone looks at me with worried eyes. izzy lets me go and looks me in the eyes. i break the eye contact but she doesnt stop looking at me "are you ok?" she asks
"yea im fine" i say with a forced smile.
Jace's pov
clary flinched or cringed away from everyones touch all day. i didnt leave her side at all.
i dont understand why she is so scared and i cant stand that i cant help her becuase im one of the main ones that scare her.
we talked while everyone went to pick up dinner. she told me about how she was in a dream world and that she had no idea when she woke up.
"i had the baby in the dream world and sebastian took him away and only let me see him when i had to feed him" she continued on "afterwards he would..." she looked at her hands.
she sat crisscross on the end of the bed in a pair of sweat pants and a big t-shirt "afterwards he would try to torture information out of me about the clave but i didnt tell him anything"
i got the feeling she wasnt telling me everything but i didnt push. silent tears streamed down her face "its ok he cant hurt you any more. i wont let him"
after we talked some more and ate dinner with everyone we went up to the garden and sat on the steps.
i moved to lift her shirt and shot her a questioning look. she noded and lifted it for me. i put my forehead to the baby bump she had grown in these past months. i felt her start to play with my hair and it drove me crazy.
everything she did drove me crazy. i had missed her so much that i didnt even leave the the infirmary since last month except to eat and shower.
all i wanted to do in that moment is hold her and never let her go. that may sound cliche but i dont even care.
clary's pov
jace put his forehead to my fat stomach while i played with his hair.
i keep telling myself that i can trust everone here and that he cant get to me and that it was all just a dream but im still terrified.
but then i think for a minute about how he was the only one there besides me and the baby and i cant help but wonder if that means that he had to be the one to put me there.
i try to think about anything else. we decide that we need to go to bed and head to jaces room.
i cant stop thinking about how stupid I am for being so scared it wasnt anything but a dream and im acting like it was real.
while we walk all the memories and thoughts come back around my head and i just want them to stop.
"i missed you" he says as we get into his room "i missed you too" i say and it clicks i need a destraction so i crash my mouth against his and he immediately reacts and starts kissing back.
his hands touch me every where. i want to think about how good he is making me feel and stop being scared of a dream like a child.
his hands lift me up and walk us over to the bed. he climbs on top of me and i pull at the hem of his shirt. he breaks the kiss long enough to pull it off. when he goes to kiss me again a worried look floods his face.
"oh my god clary whats wrong" he says. i feel the heat of tears on my cheeks and realize what he means. "oh nothing im just happy to be with you" i lie
"clary your lying" he says. i want to curse the fact that he knows me so well "its nothing im just scared becuase of a stupid dream" i say with a humorless laugh "clary that was not just some stupid dream. everything that happened to you in there happened to you here too. if you got cut in that dream world you got cut here too" he says and i dont know if it makes me feel better or worse.
"im fine" i say. i refuse to tell him what else happened. he wont love me anymore. he'll hate me because i let it happen.
"ok" he says but i can tell he's not buying it. he rolls onto his back right beside me.
"i love you" he says as he pulls me closer and drapes his arm over my waist
i want to move it at first but then all i want is for him to hold me and keep me safe.
i trusted him before this happened and i know that he can be trusted but i just dont know how to trust anyone anymore.
jace's pov
i dont know what happened in her dream world. i dont know how to help her.
she kicked and screamed and cryed most of the time during these last few months and i didnt know why. but whatever it was it managed to make clary scared a of me and i would not allow anything to hurt her that bad.
when i find whoever did this i will kill them with my bare hands
magnus's pov
i dont have any clue of what to do with this information.
should i tell clary i know, should i ask her about it, should i tell anyone else, should i tell jace.
i decide that i do need to ask clary about it but as far as telling anyone goes i need to keep my mouth shut. its not my secret to tell.
i dont know if clary wants anyone to know about it. i want to rip that sick bastards head off.
how could he do that to someone let alone his own sister. when we find him whoever puts him down i hope they do it like they would a dog becuase he doesnt deserve anything better.
Izzy's pov
my best friend has woken up from a 3 month coma and is acting strange. we are both pregnant. my boyfriend is acting wierd. my brother and his husband are exuahsted and mags is acting wierd.
my feet hurt. im starving but i also want to puke and i cant drink. so all i can do is scream and complain and it really sucks.
yes i know it took me this long to write this short ass chapter i know i suck. guys im not even ganna lie ive just been pretty sad latly and i couldnt write. ill explain later and if you want info now the go read my dreams on my wattpad account and i am not just trying to get reads or anything but that story is my legitimate explanation but if you dont want to read that then just wait for the next chapter and ill explain in the AN but anyway goodbye for now mundanes
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