WARNING: SLASH.

A/N: Hey guys and gals, update in a week, pretty snazzy. This last chapter was so much fun to write, I wanna thank everyone again who reviewed or favourited or alerted. I wanna give a shout out to Robpfan for being an awesome inspiration this past week, robpfan deserves much thanks for pshing me to get to work, love you ;) and as always .me. The updates may start to be a two week thing still.. Sorry, life is invading. If I could just do this forever, I would ;) As always i would be really happy if you could review this one please, it would mean a lot. Seriously EVEN ONE WORD :D And once again:

Disclaimer: I don't own twilight. Just my version of Jasper and Edward ;)

So without further hesitation, here it is.

Chapter 7

Edward's POV

I woke up with a start, Jasper still fresh in my mind from last night's dream. Wait. This isn't Jasper's, where am I? I thought about it for a minute then realized I was at Alice's dorm room. It wasn't Jasper's and that made me kind of upset. To be honest I actually felt lonely in this room, so it scared me a little to think of what being back home without Jasper would be like. I looked around the room and memories from yesterday came back to me. The first one was of Alice and I making out on the couch I was on now. Where was Alice anyways? I regretted it now. It was never my intention to lead her on, I had to admit she was hot but I also had to admit that I had stronger feelings for someone else. I guess I had to try and tell two people today now how I felt. I thought of Jasper now, and our adventure he planned today. Shit! Fuck! Jasper! I got up in a frazzled rush and looked around the room for a clock. As I was looking for one I tripped over something on the floor and collapsed with a loud bang. I got up using the back of the couch as help and looked over at the micro-wave which was blinking a green light. I adjusted my eyes to see that it was 6:37AM.

How fucking lucky was that? I was suddenly relieved now that I knew the time; this meant that I could still make it to Jasper's in time for our "adventure". I wrote a quick note and left it on the table explaining to Alice where I was and with that I grabbed my things off the floor and headed to the door.

"Where do you think you're going?" Alice said playfully from behind me.

"I have to go meet Jasper Alice. He's taking me out somewhere but we have to talk later okay?" The whole sentence rushed out of my mouth like a stampede of rhinos. A look of worry and concern spread unto Alice's face now.

"Okay Edward." Her tone was fragile now. "I'll see you later then."

I hated leaving her like this but I wanted to see Jasper so badly, it was our last day together.

I could not believe how stupid I was. I should've just gone to that stupid group work thing with Jasper. I should have never kissed Alice. I should've walked over to Jasper's after the movie. Fuck.

I ran down the second floor hallway to the elevator, pressed the button, and stepped inside. I proceeded with the usual routine and was at Jasper's door in no time. Shirtless. Shit. I forgot to put a shirt on. I knocked on the door anyways and Jasper opened it.

When he opened the door two smells hit me at once. The smell of him hit me like bricks and made my heart skip a beat, I realize that's cliché but that's literally what happened. The second smell was that of pancakes. Fuck. He was just so adorable.

"Hey Edward, just on time," he winked, and damn him if my knee's didn't buckle just the slightest. "I made us breakfast, want some?" He was just so amazing; no one treated me like this. I'm sure I could feel my face turning red; I still hoped he wouldn't notice.

I half lunged at him and wrapped my arms around him, while breathing him in.

Fuck, like I said. I lose all my brains apparently when Jasper's around. Water was dripping from his hair, I assumed he just got out of the shower. He was wearing a white shirt that stretched over his muscles, and a pair of beige shorts. He was so fucking hot. I flew out of my fantasy and jumped back.

"Sorry Jasper. It's just no one really does stuff like that for me... Ever." I looked up at him, embarrassed, and smiled, and fuck if he wasn't blushing too.

"It's no problem." He paused slightly, then continued, "Come eat, it'll get cold."

I walked in and went straight to my bag to grab a shirt. I threw it on and sat down at the table to a breakfast that was set up for two with orange juice at each setting. Just then Jasper set a stack of pancakes in front of me. This whole thing was just really sweet, and cute. It felt like a dream almost.

"Are you going to eat those or should I?" Jasper teased.

I snapped out of my daze and dug in.

Jasper is an amazing cook, which that much I am 100% on. I don't care if they came out of a box, because I usually screwed up on even boxed food, with directions, so this was amazing.

"Jasper. These are incredible." I said before I took in another bite. He laughed at me as I continued shovelling more and more pancakes in my mouth. As I shoved the last bite in my mouth I was still far away from being able to control my body so a small but very noticeable moan escaped my mouth.

I looked up from my plate at Jasper. Maybe it was just me but to me, it looked like his crystal blue eyes had just darkened into two shades of lust; but maybe that was just me.

Finally when we were both done and I was full Jasper suggested we get ready. I looked at the clock and it was a little after twenty minutes passed seven. My face had sprung into panic mode seeing the time. I knew from before Jasper was punctual and I was not helping in the least.

"Jasper, I'm so sorry!" I apologized over and over, knowing he wanted to leave here at seven.

"Hey, don't worry about it, we've got lots of time." He smiled and I felt a little better. "Now go get dressed and I'll clean this stuff up."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes Edward." He laughed.

I walked over to my bag and grabbed some clothes to change into. I hurried to the bathroom with a pair of camo shorts and a plain light blue top, not really caring that none of it matched, changed and checked myself over. I tried to brush my hair or do something with it but it didn't help. I brushed my teeth and left the bathroom.

I came out to find Jasper ready at the door with a back pack on and the kitchen spotless. I couldn't help but stare for a little before I left to my bag. I checked my phone one last time before we left and found one new message,

Hey, I got busted on my way to the party so they got me and all my shit in the main office here... see ya at 3 – Bradley.

I looked up from my phone and my mouth dropped open.

"What's wrong?" Jasper said concerned.

"Bradley got caught drinking last night." I said surprised. Then again, I shouldn't have been but that's just how I felt I guess. Jasper nodded then started to laugh a little.

I walked over to Jasper and gave him a slight shove, "Hey give the guy a break," I said playfully.

"And what are you going to do if I don't?" He questioned.

I brought my hand up to my mouth and made it look as if I was zipping it up and locking it. I bent down to put my shoes on and when I looked up Jasper had a pouty face on.

"No fair." He said, clearly still pouting.

I shrugged my shoulders and gave a look that mimicked 'oh well' and walked out the door.

Jasper quickly followed me out and locked the door.

"Two can play this game you know?" He whispered in my ear. I jumped not realizing he was that close, but his breath on my neck felt immeasurably good.

"Fine." I said, throwing my hands up, "You win, I give up."

"That's what I thought," he winked.

We went through the normal routine of the elevator and were walking out of the dorm in no time. The air was warm for a spring morning, the sky was a clear blue and it was rather quiet. It was then that I realized I still didn't know where we were going, and how we were getting there, and what the heck was in Jasper's bag.

"Jasper?" I asked.

"I'm not answering anything Edward. Come on." He motioned for me to follow him. Like I was going to do something else anyways, I scoffed.

We walked into a student parking lot. Why were we here? Wait, Jasper never told me he had a car. He walked over to a blue, 1998, Ford pickup truck and called me over. He unlocked the door and motioned me in. I got in and even the smell of the truck was great.

"Since when do you own a truck?" I asked.

"Since... Since I've been here I guess." He smiled. I loved the way his smile brightened up his face and lightened the mood of the whole cab, it was... basically divine.

"Why didn't you ever tell me about it?"

"I guess we never needed it before now." He laughed a little.

We drove talking about favourite colours, seasons, favourite places, and anything else. I found out Jasper's favourite colour was either yellow or blue, favourite season was summer, and the place we were going to was his favourite.

We drove for about fifteen more minutes and then pulled over on the side of the road. The road was barren, cracks every few feet; it was mainly fifteen minutes from any given city road. Forest surrounded the edges of the road on both sides and cast large shadows onto the road. Jasper grabbed the bag out of the back of the truck and we got out.

I looked around and couldn't see why the hell we were here. There was nothing for the past five minutes ever since we turned off here and I doubt there was anything coming up for a while.

"Edward, I have to tell you. I've never brought anyone here before, okay?" Jasper seemed shy again. "It's kind of the place I go to think." He grabbed the bag and slung it around his shoulders.

I was beyond confused, "On the side of the road?"

Jasper took me by the hand and sparks shot up my arm, electricity melting my brain. He moved a tree branch out of the way and pulled me onto the trail that was hidden a moment ago. It was a trail covered in brown earth, pine trees surrounding my vision. The trail was very small and claustrophobic but holding Jasper's hand the whole time as he led me through helped. A lot.

We were on the trail for about ten minutes before we got to an opening. The trail opened onto a soft sand beach. As soon as we got out of the pine tree forest behind us my eyes became as wide as saucers as I took in all that was in front of me. There was a beach that lay beneath my shoes for about a quarter of a mile to my right and an ocean view in front of me that seemed to continue on to forever. The ocean was fairly calm today and the breeze was just enough to cool you but not so much as to make you cold. The sun was now coming up and the rays were warming my skin in ways I could not believe. I unconsciously took my shoes off and let my toes feel their way into the sand as the rest of my body took in this unheard of paradise. I looked up to Jasper who was already looking at me,

"So what do you think?" he asked, his smile was as perfect as the scenery around it.

I answered as honestly as I could, "It's actually perfect." I stood there stunned until Jasper pulled me down to sit beside him.

"So what's in that bag? You gunna tell me?" He smirked at me before he replied, causing my face to turn up in a smile.

"Well. There is a Frisbee, lunch, and some first aid stuff. Happy now?" He laughed.

"Very." I responded.

I looked down at my watch to see that it was only 8:00am.

"How is it this warm out already?" I wondered out loud.

"Global warming?" He suggested, and we both laughed.

We spent the rest of the morning tell each other things we liked and things we didn't really like.

Jasper's top eleven things of like were: watermelon, the beach, hotel room bathrooms, mud, camp fires, powdered iced tea, hammocks, thunderstorms with pouring rain, Halloween, bus rides, and music; especially his acoustic guitar. It really surprised me how much we actually had in common, but his list of dislikes wasn't very big. He didn't like needles, he was afraid of bats, and he also didn't really like tomatoes.

After all our discussion we ate lunch, Jasper made the best peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, I don't care how easy they were, his were the best. He also brought some watermelon and iced tea. All his favourite things. Even the sandwiches; which he decided to tell me were his twelfth thing on his list. After we ate we then decided to take a walk down the beach.

As we were walking, Jasper was talking about the memories in his childhood he was most fond of, and my eyes trailed back to the endlessness of the ocean. I liked how the ocean moved in sync with the sound of Jasper breathing in and out. I was almost tranquil to feel the mist of the ocean while listening to Jasper talk.

"Did you swim much as a kid?"

We were now knee deep in the ocean water before Jasper's question brought me out of my daze and back to where things still felt like they were almost super natural. I responded with,

"Yeah, my parents took me out a few times to the lake near our town. But I didn't go out too much." The water was warm with a relaxing feel to it.

"Oh really?" Jasper had a teasing tone in his voice that made me uncertain of what he was going to do next.

Out of seemingly nowhere he bent over and took his hand and slashed it against the water causing a huge spray to come up out of the water and soak my t-shirt through.

I looked up from my wet t-shirt and gave Jasper a playfully evil grin, "You're going to get it."

"Oh really?" He said repeating himself as he stuck his tongue out to tease me.

"You better watch that tongue Mr. Whitlock." I said in a stern tone.

"Or wha-"

I didn't even give him time to respond in full before I tackle him into the ocean. We both had the wind knocked out of us as Jasper continued to laugh. His head was just out of the water lying on the sand as his whole body was being soaked by the ocean waves trying to pull us out from beneath. Our bodies were pressed against each other, me directly on top of him. Even though it wasn't what I intended, it felt amazing to be this close to Jasper. To feel his breath caressing my face, to feel the breeze from the ocean behind me hit the back of my head ever so gently. I had both hands on either side of Jasper's body as I could hear his heart beat start to quicken.

I felt like never in my life would I have my movie moment, and if we were only given one movie moment in a life-time I would happily use it now, right here, with Jasper. My heart beat started to quicken too as I locked eyes with Jasper. His eyes held a blue that was unlike any other blue I had ever seen before; it was loving, caring, pure, and almost serene. I was finding myself becoming lost in them.

I could hear the ocean in the background but it felt far away, I could hear the seagulls above us but it felt like they weren't even real. I was becoming absorbed into the person below and I didn't even notice. What I did next was what I'd never had the courage to do before.

I leaned down carefully and let my lips brush against Jasper's, ever so slightly. All the temptation was there but I didn't take it just yet. My body was going into electric shock. I leaned in closer and got the full taste of his lips and it drove my senses wild. I was beginning to lose track of everything. My name was beginning to be only a dull memory compared to what was being burned into it right now. I slid my tongue across his bottom lip only to hear him moan in response, causing me to buck my already hard erection into him, realizing he had the same problem. The unintentional feeling caused another shock to rock through my body; I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I went into a loss of consciousness. I kissed him harder, with more passion, as he sighed out my name.

"Edward."

I was in euphoria as Jasper grabbed me with his hands and pulled me closer.

I then sucked on his bottom lip lightly as he groaned beneath me. His tongue then traced a pattern along my lip as I opened to let him in. If Jasper's lips tasted good then the taste of his tongue was heaven. Our tongues met as I tried, with all my power, to stay conscious.

"Fuck, Ja-asper." I said as we broke for air.

He pressed his lips back to mine once more with fervour. He seemed to be in control now as he ran his fingers up my neck and into my hair. I gripped a fistful of sand and let out a moan as Jasper continued to brush his tongue against mine. I could feel water droplets fall from my hair as he entwined his fingers in it. I placed a hand on his him to realize his heart was pounding almost out of his chest, and at this I smiled through our kiss.

We broke for air once more and I let my head drop down to his neck. We lied there and panted as I tried to remember where the hell we were. We both lied there for a while, me collapsed on top of him, revealing in the feeling. I breathed in the scent of him and once again let out a small groan, hoping he wouldn't notice. At this Jasper wrapped his arms around me and held me closer to him. I wanted more of him, I know that was probably greedy but I didn't want this to end. I placed a small kiss on his neck and then dragged my tongue down towards his collar bone. I kissed up his chin till my lips were brought back together with his. He kissed me again passionately as I once again was lifted off the beach till I couldn't hear the sound of the waves. I forgot almost everything as I held closer to him. Trying to remember, every once in a while, to breathe.

I placed another kiss on the corner of his mouth as I went and traced the same path back down to his collar bone, using mostly my tongue. The taste of Jasper's skin was unbelievable, it made me forget everything and I felt like I'd found my kryptonite. I sighed in contentment as Jasper held me closer. I kept my eyes closed focusing on the feeling.

Fuck. That was unreal. I opened my eyes to look up into a blue sky and realized that I was still at the beach. Shit Jasper was good. No, he was perfect. I took a breath in and felt the salt in the air and realized we were still lying, half on the beach, and half in the ocean. I could feel the water now and shivered from how it had suddenly turned cold. I pressed further into Jasper since he was so warm.

"Jasper..." I started. "Fuck, that was unreal." I said recalling my recent thoughts.

He smiled and sighed in agreement. "You're freezing though, come on. I brought some extra clothes and some towels." I got up and helped Jasper up as we walked back to the spot where all our things were. It took us a couple minutes to get back, but once there Jasper quickly pulled out a towel and wrapped it around my shoulders, kissing me on the forehead. All I could do was smile; a full, wide, face-breaking smile.

"Thank you." I said sheepishly.

Jasper blushed a little and looked at his watch, "It's almost one thirty, we should get you back."

I nodded in agreement as Jasper packed up.

Within ten minutes Jasper had everything ready to go and all packed into the back pack he'd brought with us.

"Ready?" He asked.

I nodded and followed behind him. We got to the edge of the forest where the trail started and I turned to look back. The ocean was still there, and so were the birds, and the sand.

So it was all real after all.

I tuned back to follow Jasper out of the woods and he was right there waiting for me. I felt like a kid who had everything he wanted. It showed on my face too as a big smile revealed itself, causing Jasper to laugh.

As we walked back through the trail Jasper's hand gently brushed mine a few times until I took his hand and entwined it with mine, making him blush and smile with a joy in his eyes I could practically feel.

We walked through the rest of the trail in silence, making it out just before two o' clock. Jasper loaded the things he brought into the back of the truck as I waited for him to unlock the doors. Instead of going around the back of the truck like I expected he went to go around the front. As he was passing me he stopped mid stride and looked at me, tilted my chin up and kissed me chastely on the lips, smiled and continued to the other side. I looked over at the forest and melted against the side of the truck, it honestly wasn't fair that he had this much control over me. I loved it, but it just wasn't fair.

I heard the door unlock behind me and the truck start up. It took a lot of brain power to actually get my knees and legs to co-operate into working so that I could get in the truck. I eventually got them working and climbed into the cab, and just my luck it was warm.

Jasper pulled the truck out of neutral and into drive then took off down the road.

"Edward... I wanted to kind of explain last night to you..." Jasper trailed off mid-sentence, he seemed nervous.

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"Well the other night at Alice's. When I was called to that meeting... I didn't really have to go, but you just seemed really into her and I didn't want to get in the way. I thought if you liked her I would just give you guys some space. I thought that even though I didn't wanna leave I would just because you might be happier that way. I never really wanted to leave and then when I saw your face drop when I was leaving that actually killed me. I thought you'd be upset and I couldn't just change my mind so I went and walked to the meeting anyways. My mind was too distracted so I just went home after a while. So that's what happened yesterday. I could've stayed but I wanted you to be happy."

He rushed through most of what he said making it hard to take it all in at once but after a while I seemed to understand and I felt horrible.

"Jasper." I rubbed small circles in the palm of his hand trying to calm him down. "You don't have to feel bad at all, or sorry. I just had the best day of my life. You're so much... nicer to me than anyone has ever been. No one would care about my happiness, and definitely no one would get up before seven in the morning, just to make me pancakes. Everything you've done for me this weekend has been amazing. How many people do you think would give up drinking just to watch me get obliterated? No one, but you."

We sat there for a moment while Jasper soaked it all up. I could tell he was deep in thought so I just continued to rub circles in his palm with my fingers.

"Jasper, you have to believe me when I say I'm more than lucky to have yo-" I stopped mid-sentence. I realized what I said and how much of an idiot I would seem like. I was already thinking I had him. It could still be a mistake for him, if he didn't think the same way then I would just look stupid. Shit, this is not what I meant to say to him. I ran my other hand through my hair and stared out the window.

Jasper grabbed my hand tighter, "Edward, you do have me. Don't worry."

I looked back and a smile engulfed my face, "Thank you." I said shyly.

I looked back out the window and tried to picture a more perfect day, and honestly, I couldn't.

"So how many siblings do you have?" he asked.

"Just one, Rosalie, she's amazing. Well two if you count Emmet, I usually do." I laughed at my own inside joke.

"You mean Rosalie Cullen is your sister? And her boyfriend Emmet?" He asked surprised.

"Yeah, how do you know them?" I asked curious.

"Well we all went to the same high school, they were pretty popular. I'm glad they're still together."

"Yeah I should be staying at her house this weekend..." I trailed off.

We were both silent for a minute, even though I knew what was on Jasper's mind.

"How are your bruises?" He asked quietly.

"Fine, I guess. Honestly Jasper, don't even worry." I could tell he already was.

The last five minutes to the campus were fairly quiet. We drove into the campus and to the student parking lot, parked the truck, and got out. I grabbed the back pack from the back of the truck and slung it over my shoulders. We walked back to the dorm as the sun was high in the sky.

"You should probably have a shower, I can't send you home all salty." He looked at me appraisingly.

"Can I borrow a towel?"

"Sure." He laughed.

We got back to Jasper's room and I went right to the shower as Jasper unpacked. I peeled off my half dry t-shirt and threw it on the ground. I turned the shower on and let the steam fill the small room. I then took off the rest of my clothes and jumped into the shower. The warm water felt nice, nothing was sore but it still felt nice to be warm again. I looked down to my stomach to see that the bruises were nearly all gone. I was happy to see that the reminders of home were fading away. I finished washing my hair and body and got ready to jump out of the shower. I pulled back the curtain on the shower to see there was no towel; shit.

"Jasper?" I questioned nervously.

"Yeah?"

"I forgot a towel." I heard him laugh and open a closet to get a towel. He knocked on the door and I told him to come in. He put the towel on the ground and said.

"Any chance I'll be able to join you in there?" he said jokingly.

"I'm done, but maybe next time." I said mostly serious.

He winked at me, stepped out of the bathroom, and closed the door. I quickly dried off and wrapped the towel around my waist. I looked at myself in the mirror and left the bathroom. Jasper was doing something in his room so I went to my bag to put on the last set of clothes I had packed. I grabbed my phone off my bag, not remembering putting it there and slipped it into a side pocket. I threw on a red t-shirt and a pair of khaki shorts and went over to Jasper's room to see what he was doing.

He was sitting on his bed facing the other way when I walked in, strumming his guitar. He was humming the tune to a song I didn't know the name of when he stopped and looked at me. His golden hair was still a little damp from the water but he still looked so hot. Fuck, if I didn't have to leave soon I would've attacked him in his bed right then.

"It's two fifteen," I said. "I have to be on the bus in forty five minutes" Unconsciously my face slipped into a frown, I really didn't wanna go; at all.

"Well I'll see you soon anyways right? Don't worry." He said happily.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Yeah... I'm actually 107% sure." A big grin spread onto my face.

"I'm going to go finish packing okay?" I said timidly.

"Want some help?"

"Sure." I smiled.

We went back to the other room to finish packing and cleaning up. I grabbed all my clothes that were strewn across the room and made a sad attempt at folding them to put them back in the bag I brought. Jasper went to the bathroom and brought me back my tooth brush and all the other things I had lying around in there.

"Do you have water or something Jasper? I'm kind of thirsty and I don't think we can bring drinks on the bus."

He went over to the cupboard and took out a glass and filled it with water and handed it to me.

"Thanks." I said.

All he did was smile in return. I knew Jasper didn't want me to leave either but I didn't really have much of a choice. I grabbed my phone and checked the time, it was now two thirty and I had to be at the bus loading station in twenty minutes. I put my phone back in my front pocket. I still had to talk to Alice. I was almost dreading that conversation but I guess it had to be had. I walked over to dump the other half of my water down the sink when I tripped over the strap from my bag a spilt it on my t-shirt, soaking it through.

"Damn." I said laughing.

"What's wrong?" Jasper said concerned. He was so cute. I actually couldn't understand what he saw in me that made him so nice to me.

"I spilt a little." I turned around showing him the front of my shirt.

"A little?" He laughed, looking at the water mark that was getting increasingly bigger. "Hold on."

He walked over to his room and grabbed something and was back in a flash. "Here." He said, holding out a white t-shirt with some kind of design on it. Fuck, why did he have to be so adorable?

"Thank you." I said blushing.

"It's not a problem." He said laughing.

I took my wet shirt off and replaced it with a well fitting t-shirt. The first thing I thought of when I put the shirt on was that I would never be washing it. It smelled exactly like Jasper.

"What?" He asked.

"It's just... It smells like you." I said blushing an embarrassing shade of red.

He laughed and took the other shirt from me. "I'll wash this and then get it back to you."

I looked down at my watch again, "Shit, Jasper, it's already two forty five. I need to be there in five minutes."

"Well let's go cowboy."

We went to the door and put our shoes to leave. Jasper and I went into the hallway and he turned around to lock the door. I got right behind him as he locked the door and didn't see anyone in the hall way with us. Jasper turned back around to leave and I lightly pushed him so his back was flat against the door and placed my lips on his. He smiled underneath me and kissed me back. I pulled back and we smiled at each other, his eyes gleaming. We walked back to the buses in a rush. Neither of us wanting to part but I guess we both knew it would happen regardless.

We were now in front of the bus when I realized I had forgotten to talk to Alice. Damn it, I guess I would just have to call long distance. I stood there looking at the bus with all the kids and supervisors swarming around us, Jasper standing behind me. I let out a sigh for not being able to talk to Alice more, I felt bad leaving her like I did this morning.

"What's wrong?" He whispered in my ear.

"Nothing, I just didn't get to say good-bye to Alice today, she might be mad."

"I'll let her know for you." He whispered in my ear. The breath from him hitting my ear was turning me on. It really didn't help when he started to kiss my neck. I wasn't ready to come out like this. I didn't even know what the fuck this labelled me as now either. Bi? Gay? What? So I turned around and wrapped my arms around him.

"Thanks for everything Jasper. I'll see you soon." I promised. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Bradley giving me a death glare. What the hell did I do to deserve that?

"You better keep that promise Edward." I loved the way he said my name. It still sent shivers down my spine. We broke off the hug and exchanged good-byes.

I regretfully got on the bus still on a 'Jasper high' and took a seat near the middle-back of the bus. The bus was almost full now and Bradley got on now, taking a seat two seats behind me. I looked out the window ignoring him and saw Jasper. He was talking to another teacher and I waved another good-bye to him. He winked to me and the teacher left him and got on the bus. The bus started up and the last of the kids got back on the bus. I looked at my phone and it was five after three. The teacher who did most of the organizing took attendance of all the kids there and gave a small talk on how successful the whole retreat was. I couldn't agree more. She wrapped up her lecture and gave the okay to head out.

I slouched over and got more comfortable for the ride home.

Just like the way there, the whole way back was spent thinking of Jasper.

I pulled out my phone and sent a quick text to Alice.

Sorry about not saying goodbye, can I call you tonight to explain?

I waited a few minutes before a reply came,

Sure Edward. Call me when you get home

I was relieved when it seemed like she wasn't mad.

I spent the rest of the bus ride detached from reality. I couldn't really focus on the screaming kids or the passing scenery. I focused on Jasper. I thought what falling for him made me. Was I gay? Well no, I guess not, I still thought Alice was a bombshell. So I guess that made me bi. I didn't really want to focus on labels though. So I mainly thought of ways to see Jasper again. Well Rose knew him and so did Emmet so maybe that helps? I thought about going back home. I didn't think I could handle going back there, all the fighting and drinking. I wanted to stay with Rose but I didn't know how. Would she take Mya in? I wondered how my German Sheppard was doing. She was the only hope holding me together at home before I came here. Maybe Rose would be able to take her in? Or maybe, just maybe Emmet's parents could. I thought about Jasper meeting her. Two of the most important people in my life right now, well Rose too and technically Mya was a dog but I was getting confused. Never mind. I just wanted Jasper right now to be sitting beside me. He said he liked bus rides right? He should have come...

I guess I nodded off because the next thing I remember was Bradley waking me up,

"Come on, were at school."

I got up and stretched a little, I was actually really uncomfortable in that bus seat. I got up and yawned as everyone in the bus was filing out. I was the last one off the bus right after the teachers; I thanked the driver and then went to grab my bag.

Fuck! I didn't even remember bringing my bag with us. I left the whole damn thing at Jasper's.

I walked up to the main teacher and explained my situation telling her that I had left my bag at Jasper's. She said the school would call him and something would be arranged. In most cases it would probably be mailed back.

"So Edward, this Jasper boy told me you were quite the student; that you went to all his classes with him and everything. I'm quite impressed. I don't usually do this but I'd like to give you a little extra credit for really milking this trip for all it was."

I smiled and thought of how Jasper was winking at me, no doubt telling the teacher all good things about me.

"Oh thank you, I should get going though so I'll see you tomorrow."

The teacher nodded back at me and I left to the parking lot.

I waited for Rose who said she'd be here at five thirty. The last time I checked it was five twenty five so I assumed she'd be here soon. I was waiting near a white pickup truck when Bradley came walking over. I guessed I was near his truck. He had the same look on his face as when he saw me hugging Jasper, a look of sickening distain.

"Hey Cullen." He spat.

"Hey."

He pushed both hands on the truck on either side of me, making escape next to impossible. He leaned in close to my and it felt really awkward. He started to whisper in my ear,

"You're such a fucking tease Cullen. Seeing you with another guy made me so fucking jealous."

He stopped talking and pressed his lips against mine. Holy fuck this was not happening, not Bradley, what the fuck. I pushed him off right away punching him in the side of the face.

"What the fuck!" I yelled at him.

"What the fuck is right Cullen! What the hell was that for!"

"Are you fucking kidding me Bradley, don't touch me. And fuck you!" I seethed. My bold was boiling. I wasn't even thinking right now I was just pissed. The sooner I got home the better. Bradley was getting a little bruise already from where I hit him. I walked away from him and started walking down the street.

"Well fuck you too Cullen!" Bradley yelled after me.

I continued to walk down the street heading home. I didn't care if it would take me twenty minutes to get there. I didn't have a bag so I didn't really care. I pulled my phone out to text Rose to tell her not to bother when I saw a message from her was already there. It was dated today at 5:02pm. I looked ath the text and absorbed it. I read it over and over:

Edward, I can't come get you, PLEASE try and get a ride home. Get home quick okay? Please. – Rose

What the hell did that mean? I was beyond nervous now. I never got texts like this before. I was mad before but that all melted away and was replaced by something that resembled fear. I was scared now and nervous, almost to the point of vomiting. I didn't understand what was going on. It was like she was begging me to get home.

I didn't want to think anymore so I just started to run. I thought running would cut a few minutes off my time so I ran. One, two, three blocks until I was almost home. I made it to a street over to my house. I was completely wiped out, so I slowed my pace to a walk. I was even more nervous now that I was close. Shit. I didn't even think of asking Rose what the hell was going on. I pulled out my phone and looked to see three new messages, the first one from Emmet;

Hey bud, where are you? Hurry home k?

The next was another from Rose;

Where the hell are you Edward? Hurry please..

And the last was from Alice;

Hey, how was the bus ride? Text me and let me know how you're doing okay?

Well at least Alice's message was upbeat. I put my phone back in my pocket seeing as I would be home in less than two minutes anyways.

I passed the stop sign at the end of our street and looked towards our house. Rosalie was on the front steps with her head in her hands, Emmet had his arm around her.

I didn't know what was going on now but I was just too scared to not find out now. It was like a horror movie. You're scared but something just forces you to keep watching even though you know it can't be any good. I ran up the stairs to hear the crying from Rosalie and Emmet's attempt at consoling. I was so confused as to what was going on. I walked up the stairs and went to walk past them. Rose got up and enveloped me in a hug while Emmet just put a hand on me. I broke free from her hug and even though people were talking I couldn't hear anything. I opened the door and the first thing I saw was the blood. It soaked the floor with a deep cherry red. From the trail I followed I found the body lying there, a fine line of blood across the throat, lifeless and cold. I lunged for her to try and pretend it wasn't really happening but Emmet held me back. But there it was, and there he stood, off to the side, knife in hand. Cherry red dripping from the blade, my father.

a/n: I hope you all don't hate me cause of the cliff at the end

so I hope I didn't disappoint this week i really tried :$ , and I hope you all liked the longer chapter. Thanks for all the readers who have stayed with me to this point, and thanks for all the support always. It's amazing to hear from you guys, you're all my favourites ;)

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Much thanks, Xavier Willow

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