Edited 10-24-2016
Elena's POV
I quickly walked into the bathroom trying to get out of that very awkward very intense situation as soon as possible.
What was I thinking? Am I actually feeling attracted to Kai? This is bad. He is bad. A murderer. A killer...A very hot killer-
No. I have to stop thinking like this. What about Damon- What would Damon do if he found out? He would get so jealous and angry and lash out and instantly kill Kai..
You know what? No. I'm not attracted to Kai. I don't like Kai. I hate him.
It's only because I miss Damon and Kai's personality is similar to Damon so I'm using Kai as a coping system. That's all.
I sighed in relief, honestly believing that that was all this was. I started the shower and began stripping off my clothes.
After a long hot shower I stepped out and wrapped a towel around me.
I walked back into Damon's room luckily, Kai wasn't there. I went to the closet and opened it it was filled with Black shirts and other stuff I'm guessing was Damon's.
Lucky for me I found a box full of different sized of woman's clothes I didn't even want to guess why he had all those...
After looking through the box for a few minutes I settled on a pair of dark blue jeans and and white tank top with a light brown leather jacket, not even giving my brain the chance to take a guess on what whore's clothes these probably are.
I quickly brushed my hair and walked out of the room. I smelt food. Kai was probably cooking again.
I sighed, walking through the hall way I immediately stopped when I came across a photo on a side table. It was a picture of Damon. He was standing next to his Car, his arm folded into his chest. He had his usual smirk on and was wearing dark blue jeans with a black leather jacket.
I smiled to myself. God, I missed Damon and his annoyingly hot smirk. I couldn't help the tears that welled up in my eyes as I stared at the photo.
"Whatcha doin'?" I jumped at the sound of Kai's voice and quickly wiped the tears away from my eyes."
"Nothing" I replied, and cleared my throat.
Kai rolled his eyes and took the photo from my hands.
"Hey-"
"I'm guessing this is your boyfriend" Kai rolled his eyes and motioned to the photo.
"Yeah that's Damon." My voice was more husky than usual. Emotion welling up inside me.
He studied the picture for a couple seconds.
"Yeah, I'm so much hotter than him." Kai said smirking before handing the photo back to me.
I chuckled and rolled my eyes sitting the photo back down..
"Cocky much?" I asked, rolling my eyes.
"Very much" Kai said smoothly.
I chuckled, rolling my eyes agian.
"Want some breakfast" Kai asked me.
I wiped the rest of the tears away from my eyes as I nodded and followed him to the kitchen.
I sat at the table across from Kai, a plate of food infront of me.
"Thank you" I told him honestly, just because I was a vampire didnt mean I didnt enjoy human food still.
"No problem." Kai said, smirking as he sat down across from me.
I started eating along with kai.
"This is really good." I said taking a bite of egg.
Kai chuckled.
"Well when you've been alone for as long as I have you have to learn to cook for yourself" Kai said taking a bite of bacon, smirking.
I smiled.
"So tell me about how you went from one Salvatore brother to the other." Kai said.
I raised an eyebrow, looking shocked.
"Why?" I asked slowly.
He shrugged.
"I don't know what else do we have to do..Call it curiosity" Kai said.
I gulped before responding. "Well as I told you before, I dated Damon's younger brother Stefan before I dated him, Damon was...Different. When he first came to town he had no humanity at all, he killed people for no reason, he was a bad person who wanted to make Stefan's life a living hell."
"Let me guess he wasnt really all that bad?" Kai asked before stuffing his face with food.
I smiled at the memory.
"When he kidnapped me to Georgia..He took me to a place called 'Bree's bar' He was...Different then he usually was he was still his annoying self absorbed self but there was something else after that we became friends." I said smiling.
"but you stayed with Stefan I'm guessing" Kai asked.
I nodded.
"Yeah...I did" I said. I felt bad about that a bit, even though I honestly didnt know I was in love with Damon back then, hell I dont even think I was in love with him yet at that point I still led Stefan on even after I knew I loved Damon. I hurt him. He hurt me though over the year as well. We just werent meant for eachother. I still love Stefan though, just not how I used to and not how I still love Damon.
"Then soon after...I found out he was trying to find Katherine" I mumbled, sighing.
"Katherine?" Kai asked.
"Yeah, I think I menitoned her before? She's my doppelganger look alike or I suppose im her doppelganger look alike. She played Damon and Stefan when they where human. She was the vampire who turned them, she led Damon to believe she was trapped in this tomb with a bunch of other vampires."
"Continue." Kai said putting his feet on the other chair.
"Katherine wasn't their...In the tomb. She lied. Damon was- well you can imagine how he was. Upset. Hearbroken. Betrayed. He loved Katherine came back and kissed Damon leading Damon to believe that I kissed him..I said some pretty mean things that hurt him."
"He asked Katherine if she ever really ever loved him. She said she didn't, that she always loved Stefan and it would always be Stefan."
"Damon came to me really drunk and started accusing me of having feelings for him and lieing to Stefan and lieing to myself. He tried to kiss me but I pushed him away and told him the same thing Katherine said 'I love Stefan and its always going to be Stefan"
"Way to let a guy down easy." Kai said sarcastically.
I sighed. "My brother Jeremy walked in and wouldn't leave so Damon snapped his neck...He had the Gilbert ring on and was brought back to life. But still, he killed him. He accually killed my brother, juts like that. No hesitation. And to find out later that he didnt even know that Jer had the ring on? It hurt that he would do that."
"That must of put a strain on the freindship." Kai obsereved.
"It did." I sighed.
"Then there was this situation where Stefan had to drink my blood- Stefan cant drink human blood without going into ripper mode. Stefan got addicted to human blood and couldnt control it. That's one of the differences between Damon and Stefan, when it comes to feeding Damon has more control than Stefan when he wants to."
"He started acting differently. He lied to me and told me he quit drinking it, then came the Miss Mystic Falls pageant Damon told me that Stefan was still drinking human blood.
"I confronted Stefan and he ran off. He was suppose to be my date and dance with me at the pagent but we couldn't find him."
"I remember walking down the stair case looking around for Stefan...But he wasn't there, Damon stepped in. He saved me from being embarrassed by a ton of people and..We danced. Then it seemed like we where friends again, trying to help Stefan quite drinking human blood." I said smiling.
Kai smiled too but rolled his eyes as well.
"Then he got bit by a werewolf and the only one with the cure was Klaus 'The Original Hybrid' I thought he was going to die. Stefan went to try and convince Klaus to give us his blood." I mumbled.
"And I'm guessing Klaus didn't just hand it over?" Kai asked
I shook my head.
"Nope..He made Stefan drink a lot...Of human blood and leave with him to be his killing buddy...He just left with Klaus..Klaus gave Katherine the cure to give to Damon. I thought Damon was going to die he told me he loved me. I kissed him. It was barley for two seconds, but still."
Kai raised an eyebrow.
"Katherine walked in on us and gave Damon the cure and left. Damon was healed and stefan was gone."
"After that Damon and I seemed to get...Closer. He became someone I could depend on and trust. I-I knew he would always protect me."
"And then came my birthday a couple months after Klaus and Damon left. I was getting dressed and Damon.. he gave me a present...It was the necklace Stefan had gave to me. I thought it was gone."
"In that moment I knew I loved him...He gave me the necklace that Stefan gave to me. It must have hurt him. H-he loved me, yet I loved his brother..." I said.
"I'm guessing you didn't tell him that" Kai asked.
I shook my head.
Kai nodded.
"Then came high school prank night... Klaus was their, Damon was gone helping Katherine look for Mikael, he locked Bonnie, Caroline, Tyler, Matt and I in the school."
"Stefan was their but he couldn't help..He was under Klaus's control then Klaus hit me and Stefan snapped and attacked Klaus but Klaus compelled him."
"He compelled him to bite me..Stefan tried to fight it...He did fight it. He refused to hurt me...Then Klaus compelled him to turn of his humanity. And he did. He was gone. The Stefan I loved and knew was just gone. Just like that. He fed from me."
Kai was just blankly staring at me now.
"I woke up in a hospital with Damon carrying me out. He promised he would never leave me again and I believed him."
"Skipping ahead alitle bit a couple months later..We kissed again. A real kiss this time. Stefan had no humanity but he was back and we were broken up."
"I trusted Damon more than I ever did Stefan. I felt more safe with him. When I told Stefan he flipped out, he needed Klaus to get his hybrids out of town so he threatened the one thing Klaus needed. Me."
"He threatened to drive me off of the bridge my parents died going off of. Klaus gave in and called off his Hibrids I remember yelling at Stefan I mean how could he do that...That was the bridge my parents went off of...The bridge I went off of...Stefan saved me. I would have died.."
"Then he turned on his humanity I think..I left. Damon picked me up and drove me home. Then a few weeks later Damon and I went out of town to pick up my brother Jeremy."
"We kissed again but more like a make out session before my brother interrupted us. Damon and Stefan asked me to pick between them...I picked Stefan than a few minuets after I told Damon who I picked I died with Damon's blood in my system going off wrickery bridge and became a vampire."
"I couldn't feed from blood bags or animal blood only from the vein. Damon obviously was mad about me picking Stefan but he helped me learn how to feed from people."
"My emotions for him heightened when I became a vampire and I relised that I was in love with him so I broke up with Stefan and told Damon and I...Slept with him."
"In the morning I found out im sired to him..So he thought all my feelings where because of that."
"And then my little brother died..And I turned off my humanity and killed a lot of people and did a lot of bad things and tried to kill all my friends."
"I turned it back on and had to deal with the emotions the guilt..But I wasn't sired to Damon anymore. I told him I loved him.." I told him, sniffling a bit.
I looked up and Kai who was staring at me with wide eyes his mouth slightly hanging open.
"Wow" Kai said..
"Yeah.." I laughed slightly.
"At least you have people who love, care and like you..I mean I'm guessing after you turned of your humanity and tried to kill your friends they forgave you." Kai said, rolling his eyes.
"Someone has to care about you Kai-" I started.
"No they don't and they're right not to because people who love, care, or like me are bound to die at my hands." Kai said.
"I like you..What does that say about me" I said without thinking, insistently regretting it even though it was the truth.
Kai looked taken back.
"Uhm, it says your stubborn and your wasting your time" Kai rolled his eyes, smirking.
"You're not a waste of time hurt because of your fathers horrible parenting. Youmay not believe in the same things I believe in when it some to killing innocent people and you don't have to but your not a waste of space Kai, not to me you never will be..." I said before I could stop myself.
Kai looked at me baffled.
"I- That's the nicest think anyone's ever said to me." Kai mumbled under his breath.
"You just need to let someone in, let someone get to know you.. Let people see the good in you." I blurted out truthfully.
"Then get to know me"
