I woke up late. It was Saturday and I didn't have school. I did have to go to cheerleading practice or maybe I didn't. I wasn't paying attention. Caroline can talk faster than Twista. She's really annoying. There was something happening in town with lanterns or something unimportant. Maybe that was where everyone was at. I guessed that I should probably go down there. I took a shower and began to brush my teeth. Since I became a hybrid, they were always nice and sharp. I hadn't become a wolf yet. I seriously need to do that sometime to find out what it's like. I got dressed in a white blouse and black pencil skirt with black stockings. I felt like dressing like I was going to a meeting today. I decided to call Rebekah to see what she was doing.
"Yes?" Rebekah answered. People used to say hello. I guess they don't do that anymore.
"I want to know what you're doing right now." I responded.
"I'm taking Tyler hunting." She answered. "Nik wants to make sure that he gets all of the benefits of being a hybrid."
"Apparently he doesn't want the same for me." I muttered under my breath.
"You already know how to be a vampire." Rebekah pointed out. I guess that was true. "I can't stay and chat. Make sure to send Stefan my love."
I don't know why she even bothered because Stefan obviously didn't feel the same way about her. I don't see why she even bothered with something so trivial like feelings. Vampires aren't supposed to feel. It would be so much easier for her if she didn't. Speaking of which, I needed to find someone to eat. I really liked the last girl that I drank from. I think would visit her again.
So after breakfast or lunch or whatever meal it was, I decided to go the Grill for dessert. I found that Elena was outside with Stefan and Alaric and decided to head over.
"So what's everyone doing?" I asked as I took a seat at the table. I noticed an old book on the table it seemed to be Stefan's diary. I noticed the words but found that his writing was too hard for me to read. "Your handwriting sucks. Not to mention that you're a huge wimp for writing in this. Poor Elena, she could be with a manly man like Damon, but she chooses you."
"How about you just go away?" Stefan asked.
"Careful, Stefan, it wouldn't be wise to provoke me. One bite from a hybrid is lethal to a vampire." I taunted him. "Maybe I will bite you and then Elena will be forced to choose Damon."
"What are you even doing here?" Elena questioned.
"Well I was a little upset that you were having a family meal without me. Where is Jeremy right now? I have all sorts of fun things that I can do with him. It'll be fun at least for me."
I couldn't help but notice that they all looked kind of shocked.
"Oh, lighten up." I remarked. "I'm not really going to rape him, but I do want to know where he is. How is that whole ghost thing going? I do need to tell him to stop talking to them so late because it's keeping me awake."
I got up and decided to go inside of the restaurant but not before I heard them saying something about how they didn't want to drop it. It seems that they were trying to get me to turn on my humanity. I had no reason to. There was no one that could get to do it.
I opened the door to the bathroom and saw Jeremy making out with an Asian girl. That must have been the ghost girlfriend, but whatever. We weren't exclusive and he could kiss whoever he wanted. I went outside and found Stefan…standing next to Lexi.
"Hello, Yoana." The blonde greeted me.
"Lexi?" I asked. Why was I seeing ghosts?
"You're off the rails big time." She declared. Without warning, she grabbed me and slammed my head against a car window and I felt myself suddenly losing consciousness.
When I woke up, I was in some sort of cell. I was in a chair and tied down and I felt like I had vervain in me. I can't believe that bitch was doing this to me. I was currently alone. I think there might have been a way to get out of this. I just had to figure out how to turn into a wolf. How was I supposed to do that?
I then saw Lexi come back with Jeremy. I can't believe that he was actually here. I didn't think that he would care about me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him.
"Lexi said that she could help you." Jeremy answered. "She said that she could undo what Klaus did to you."
"Well she can't." I explained. "All Klaus did to me was make me better and make me who I am. I don't want to be your little girlfriend again!"
"Now I need you to pay attention, Jeremy." Lexi lectured him. "This is going to be hard to watch at times. I've also never done this to a hybrid before, so we might have to worry about her trying to turn into a wolf."
I probably shouldn't tell her that I don't know how to turn into a wolf.
"I can handle it." Jeremy said.
"You're wasting your time, Bitch!" I yelled.
"Inside voices please." Lexi instructed. "I'm trying to get inside your head."
"Jeremy, you can send her away. I know you can do that." I responded.
"You need this, Joey." He told me.
"I think someone needs to teach you the definition of the word need." I responded.
"The first thing that we're going to do is dry her out." Lexi explained. "If she's hungry, she'll be more likely to let some of her emotions out. We need her to let them all out."
"You can try this, but it won't work." I taunted her.
"You should be prepared for this to get ugly." She informed Jeremy. Lexi stared at me and I suddenly felt like I was in a desert and had gone without water for days.
"Stop this!" I ordered. "It's not going to work! You're wasting your time."
"I'm too focused on saving your life Wolf Girl." Lexi told me. At that point, I felt as if my bones were breaking. I could everything becoming different. I think I was turning.
"Her eyes." Lexi replied. "She's turning into a wolf. You need to get out of here."
My body was beginning to spasm. I growled as I saw Jeremy leaving the room and hiding behind the steel door. I cried out in pain. I guess it really did hurt as much as I they said it would. I felt my hands turning into paws, as my clothes began to rip and the shackles that we holding me down began to break, as did the chair that I was sitting in. Once I was out of the chair, I fell to all fours, and from there it was pretty quick. I remembered lunging at the door. It wouldn't go down. Jeremy. I couldn't see my reflection, but I wanted to eat. I wanted to kill. I looked at Lexi. She didn't have a scent to her. I charged at her, but she disappeared and I hit my head against the wall. At that point, I once again felt myself losing consciousness.
When I woke up I was no longer a wolf. I looked around and noticed that I seemed to be wearing Jeremy's shirt. I looked around and outside the door and saw he was wearing just a t-shirt. I guess I was right about that. That was weird.
"This is definitely going to be different from anyone that I've ever worked with." Lexi remarked. "I'm going to need you to stay behind that door because I don't think I can keep her restrained. "You probably want to get some more vervain in her."
"So you're just going to keep me in here for how long?" I asked. "You're dead, but there's no way that Bonnie isn't working on the spell to send you away. You won't be able to see this through."
At that point, Lexi broke my arm. I decided that I would try another tactic.
"Jeremy, she's hurting me." I fake-begged. If he was going to try to play to my emotions, then I was going to do the same. We'll see who breaks first. "Make her stop."
"Sorry, Joey, this is for your own good." Jeremy told me.
"I will bite you." I said to Lexi. I will rip your heart out.
"You can't kill me. I'm already dead." Lexi replied.
"And you'll still be dead. You lived in a pointless life and you're completely worthless." I responded.
"Now is that any way to talk to a friend?" Lexi asked as I suddenly heard Jeremy's phone go off. He was talking to Caroline. Now I was positive that they were trying to send the ghosts back.
"You know I saw you kissing Anna." I told Jeremy. "For someone who claims to not want an open relationship, that's kind of hypocritical."
"I told you that we're not in a relationship." Jeremy reiterated. "But that was a kiss goodbye. I didn't have a future with her."
"You don't have a future with me either. All these things that you're doing for me are pointless because even you manage to get me to turn on my humanity, I still won't get older. I'm still immortal and you're not." I pointed out.
"I'm not going to give up." Jeremy stated.
"You're an idiot then." I replied. "You're expecting someone who couldn't even teach Stefan how to feed properly to make me better. I can't believe that you'd put your trust in someone that you never even met while you were alive."
"You need to keep trying." Anna suggested, having appeared suddenly. "I get it. You love her. I want to help."
At that point, Lexi grabbed a stake and jammed it into my neck. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I didn't need to breathe, but it was also very painful.
"Jeremy, please help me." I cried.
"You'll thank me later, Joey." Jeremy replied.
"For the love of God, my name is Yoana. Y-o-a-n-a." I declared. "But I will change if you let me out of here. I'll help you fight Klaus. I'll do anything."
"She's playing to your emotions to try to get you to let her out." Lexi told him. "She will say anything at this point."
"She's abusing me." I remarked. "She's treating me much worse than Klaus ever did."
"I think it would be better if you just stop talking, Yoana." Jeremy replied.
"I love you, Jeremy." I said. I hoped that this would work and get him to let me out of here.
"I'm sorry, but I don't believe you." He stated.
"Well I wish I hadn't met you." I responded. "My life was so much easier before I came here. I could do whatever I want and you made me feel things and your sister is a whore that is leading two guys."
At that point, Lexi jammed the stake into my neck again. I felt the blood rushing up through my mouth and started to puke it out.
"I'm gonna be sick." Jeremy declared as he walked off and Lexi pulled the stake out. I had to cough some more up. I think Jeremy had left at that point.
"How long do you think that you can torture me?" I asked. "Jeremy's not going to be able to do what you're doing to me. There is no way that you can get me to turn it on before the spell is broken."
"Maybe I can't, but you're the one who is suffering. You're the one who is too much a wimp to turn it on. You want to be this big badass that doesn't even feel anything. Why don't you ask Klaus why he hasn't turned off his humanity? He might say that he doesn't feel anything, but what about that breakdown when all of his hybrids died? What about all of those times that he's put his siblings in boxes? Just because you can't be hurt by the sun anymore doesn't make you better. All turned into a wolf has left you with is tattered clothing. I may be dead, but I'm nowhere near as pathetic as you." She told me. "You're afraid to feel things because you don't think that anyone will love you."
"I'm not going to listen to you." I responded. "Why don't you just shut up and make it easier on both of us. Jeremy will let me out of here soon enough because he doesn't have the will to leave me in here. He'll miss me even if I am like this."
I decided then just to wait her out. Eventually she did disappear and Jeremy came back, standing outside of the door.
"I need you to feel something, Yoana." He told me.
"How is it that you can still love me after all I've done?" I asked.
"That's what love is." Jeremy replied. "I'm not going to give up on you. I'm going to get you to love me too, however long it takes."
He then walked away and left me alone. He didn't return for the rest of the night. I lied on the floor and fell asleep.
So it seems that even when Yoana's humanity is off it's hard not to feel bad for her. She also turned for the first time. The door can't be opened from the inside so she can't get out. Please don't forget to review.
