Title: "Will I Ever See Tomorrow? (The Godawful Original)"
Date Penned: August 2003
Main Character(s): Ruthie and Chandler (in name only...Chandler, I'm SO SO SORRY)
Rating (for this chapter): T for rape
Genre: Drama
Coupling: Nothing
Setting: Sometime in season 7 after Chandler showed up and started dating Roxanne.
Disclaimer: 7th Heaven is not mine. None of it.
Summary: Ruthie has a great life until something happens something that will turn her world around.
A/N: I HATE this story so much. I killed Chandler's character here. Ugh, I need to puke. Go read the rewrite that I have up. It's not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but it's better than this trash.
WARNING: Rape and and character assassination ahead :(
Chapter 1: Innocence Lost
Hello my name is Ruthie Camden. I'm 13 years old.
I may sound like your average 13 year old girl. But sadly I'm not. I have something hidden in my mind something my family never talks about cause they know I'll never be the same again.
Not after what he did to me. He took away my childhood. Everything I dreamed of is now gone I can no longer see clearly my mind is blocked with that one thing that he did.
He ruined my life my world will never be the same. Not after he…..he…..he raped me.
Here let me tell from the beginning.
It all started one day I went down to church to meet my dad. We were gonna spend some time together I looked forward to it I never got to spend time with my dad he was always busy. I got to church I went into my dad's office. I saw him talking to Chandler the minister the church hired while my dad was recovering from heart surgery. I greeted my dad.
"Hi daddy" I said happily.
"Hey Ruthie" he said hugging me.
"Hi Ruthie" Chandler said looking rather wildly at me.
"Are you ready to go" I asked.
"Yeah almost sweetie I just have to talk to Lou I'll be right back you can stay here Chandler and chat" said my dad not realizing the big mistake he was making.
"Ok" I said.
My dad left his office closing the door behind him. Chandler was starring at me weirdly and it was starting to scare me.
"So um" I said nervously "What do you wanna talk about."
"Oh nothing really" Chandler said with a wild look in his eye.
"Ok so let's just sit here and wait for my dad to come back" I said.
"Oh I had something else in mind" Chandler said with a somewhat evil tone.
"Like what" I asked sort of scared.
"Like this" he said pushing me against the wall and kissing me hardly.
I tried to break away. But I couldn't move I was frozen with fear. What was he doing. Why was he doing this.
The next thing I knew he forced me onto the couch in the office. Holding me down he ripped off my clothes and undressed himself and climbed on top of me. It was horrible I couldn't move and I was to scared to scream. I just froze with fear and every time I moved he'd slap me.
Finally when he was done with me he got off of me and put his clothes back on leaving me naked on the couch. But before he left he said.
"There I got what I wanted now I'll be leaving" he laughed evilly and walked out of the room.
I put my clothes back on with tears in my eyes. I was crying but then I heard my dad coming I quickly dried my tears.
"Hey Ruthie ready to go" he asked.
"Yeah" I said taking his hand and walking out of his office. I didn't really say much. I just couldn't believe that I was raped.
When dad and I got home I immediately ran upstairs to take a shower. I ran into the bathroom and closed the door. I wanted to clean myself from the dirty feeling I had on my body I felt gross.
After showering and washing myself so many times I thought my skin would peal off. I finally got dressed and sat on my bed.
I felt so dirty and trashy. I sat down on my bed and took out my notebook and wrote:
You never know what the pain is like until it happens to you
Your friends tell you stories and you hear it on the news
But you never know what its like until it happens to you
You can never feel the hurt or the pain until it happens to you
You'll never know what its like until it happens to you
I wrote a title for this poem I call it "Until It Happens to You". Its how I feel
I just can't believe Chandler raped me. I always thought he was so nice but now I just hate him.
It hurt so damn bad it was awful. No matter how much I cried he wouldn't stop. No one understands the pain, the pain, the…
All of a sudden I heard the doorbell ring. I ran downstairs to see who it was. I gasped at who was at the door.
Standing at the door way was on other than Chandler and his girlfriend Roxanne.
"Oh shit!" I cursed under my breath.
I couldn't believe Chandler was here. But why? Then I noticed Lucy and Kevin greeting him and Roxanne. Oh great I thought they must have invited them and the worst part was that I'd have to face Chandler. Just looking at him made my heart beat with fear.
"Ruthie dinner time!" I heard my mom call
No, no, no...
