Once again, I'm making this up as I go along. I'm not posting again until I get ten or more reviews with at least five telling me suggestions for the chapter after this! I don't know how this one turned out. Also I would like to know who you think Mel would work better with. Not who you want her with, but who she'd be better with! Thanks!
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The next day, I am in a terrible mood. Alice is the first to notice, as I glare at her instead of saying good morning.
"What's wrong?" She asks, biting her lip in concern.
I sigh, and, regrettably, I start to cry. "Alice!" I weep. She's alarmed by my breakdown. I am usually the calmest person at Hogwarts, except near Sirius Black. And Alice knows me well.
"Did you and Sirius have a fight?" She asks, worried eyes penetrating into my own.
"N-no." I weep. "Oh, Alice, you can't tell this to anyone, okay?" I say. Alice nods enthusiastically. "S-Sirius, h-he kissed me last night."
Alice gasps. "Did Remus break up with you?!"
"No, Alice! He doesn't know, and I want to keep it that way. Sirius and I are only friends, and it will always be that way. He doesn't need a woman to hold him back; he needs a friend to slap him when he's too proud."
Alice looks confused. "Then why are you so concerned?"
"Alice, I kissed him back." I say. Alice still looks confused. "Honestly, Alice!" I snap angrily. "Sometimes you're just…never mind. It means, that I want him as much as he wants me. Alice, I kissed him back, betrayed Remus, and now I can't stop thinking about that damn kiss!" I sob. I turn to cry on my best friend's shoulder.
"Melanie, you're being too hard on yourself. Any girl in her right mind would kiss Sirius Black back if he kissed her."
"Not if I'm going out with his best friend! Oh, Merlin, Alice! I completely lost it last night! I've never been more of an idiot then I was last night! I don't even know how I'll face him today!"
Alice glances at me sharply. "Well, you can't pretend that it didn't happen, but you can't let him know your feelings for him. Let him know that it's in the past, and that it isn't bothering you."
I smile weakly. "Thanks, Alice."
"No problem. What are friends for?" She smiles widely and plops down on the couch next to our window. I sit next to her. "Besides," she adds. "I'm proud of you for stopping when you did. Most girls would have woken up the next morning lying next to him naked."
I mock-glare at Alice, even though I'm very happy with her compliment. I love her when she's like this. Well, sometimes, since she's always like this.
"Well, no. I didn't sleep with Sirius." I drawl. "It was easier than you think, stopping I mean. Remus was waking up."
Alice smiles. "Well, still." She insists. I let it go.
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We walk down the Great Hall together, hand-in-hand. Sirius is looking at me a little too intensely for my liking, so I ignore him the best I can. Alice nudges me. "You shouldn't let him know!" She whispers. So I turn to Sirius and give him an encouraging smile before turning to snog Remus.
His snogs aren't as good as I remember them. I completely throw myself into the kiss, screaming at myself to stop thinking about my dark-haired friend. We break apart, both breathing heavily, and me beaming.
"I love you, Remus." I say.
He looks at me strangely. "What?" He asks.
"I love you." I repeat. He beams and hugs me tightly. I immediately feel really bad for him. I'd bet all my money and Sirius' broom that I'm the only female besides his mother to love him.
"Your little problem doesn't bother me." I whisper in his ear. "At least I know you aren't some idiot." I wink at him before turning to debate with Lily over who Slughorn likes better.
I could feel Sirius' eyes on me the whole breakfast. I took Alice's advice and talked to him some. After breakfast, I ran to catch up with him.
"Hey, Sirius." I pant. I am in such bad shape! "About last night…"
"What about it?" He asks indifferently. I glare at him.
"When you kissed me out of nowhere! You're such an idiot, Sirius! I'm dating your best friend, but you think it's okay to kiss me, and when I ask you what you were thinking, you pretend it never happened! I know that you were staring at me at breakfast!" And with that I stalk away to Ancient Runes, glad that Sirius had a different class next.
Remus takes one look at me, and pretty much forces me to skip class to go to the Common Room. I reluctantly agree, and he follows me. I sit on the couch and pull out my Potions book. "I need to study!" I snap as he pulls it away from me.
"Tell me what's wrong, and I'll give it back."
I glare before sighing and telling him about Sirius and our shared kiss. Remus looks rather calm through the whole thing, but I could see the sadness in his eyes. I finally sigh and hug him tight, deciding that a lie would be the best for now.
"Remus, I don't feel anything more then friendship for Sirius. Please don't break up with me."
He looks up at me in surprise before chuckling. "You're asking me to not break up with you after snogging Sirius, the ladies' man of seventh year. No, I won't break up with you. In fact, I thought that you were going to break up with me!"
I laugh. "Remus, I wouldn't do that, unless I had a good reason, and just so you know, because I like your best friend, which I don't, doesn't count as a reason!" I smile before pecking him on the check. "Can I go to class now?"
He laughs, and we go to class.
Sirius makes attempts to speak to me all day, but I ignore him until after dinner, when I feel he has been punished enough.
"Yes, Sirius?" I say calmly.
"Melanie, I know you don't believe me, but it's true. I like you, and it's more than what I feel for other girls. Please, Mel! Give me a try!"
"And what of Remus, Sirius?" I shoot back. "What will he do the rest of his life, as he watches me go out with you, and he's all alone. Sorry, Sirius, but you're only my friend. I don't like you like that! Please don't push me farther."
Sirius grins. "How 'bout this?" He starts. I shoot him a worried look. "If I can convince you to date me by the end of the month, then you will. If not, then I'll never talk to you about dating ever again. I can easily find some one else for Remus."
"Who?" I ask.
He grins. "Now that would ruin the surprise, wouldn't it?"
I frown at him. "Sirius, no. I'm not doing that. You're not tricking me into this!"
Sirius sighs. "You really love Remus, then?"
I glare at him. "Yeah, I do!" I smile softly. "Sirius, you're one of my best friends. I don't want to ruin that!"
He rolls his eyes. I frown at him. "Sirius, I don't trust you in the area of romance, so please stop!"
He sighs and walks away, shaking his head. Why does he like me of all people? Why does it have to be me, when all the other girls would gladly go out with him?! Why?
"Sirius, please don't!" I yell. "I still want to be friends with you!"
Sirius doesn't even turn around. I run to find Alice as the tears start. Before I can find her, James Potter corners me. "What did you and Sirius fight about?!" He demands.
I sigh and plop on the biggest armchair in the Common Room. "He wants me to go out with him, but I'm going out with Remus, and I like Sirius as only a friend. I don't want to ruin my relationship with him."
James sighs and sits next to me. "Well, you and Sirius should talk. He's miserable; you're miserable. You should see how bad he was. I thought that he was being forced to leave Hogwarts."
I smile softly. "Thanks…James."
"Yep." He replies. This is the first time I realize why Lily likes him. "What are friends for…Melanie?"
I smile back. "I really have no clue." I joke. We start laughing.
Wow. I am friends with James Potter. That's a little scary! Is it only me, or does this year seem really weird so far? I thought that James would hate me for sure.
I give James a quick hug and whisper, "My friends call me Mel." Before winking and rushing out the door to hunt for Sirius.
I find him sitting by the lake, staring moodily at it. I sit beside him, but he doesn't look up. "Sirius…" I say. "Look at me."
He slowly turns his head around to stare into my own eyes. I shiver in delight at his penetrating look. I smile and flop down on the ground.
"Sirius," I say. "I'm really sorry. But, we, well, we're too different."
Sirius stares at me, knowing as much as I do how fake that is. Sirius and I aren't that different anymore, now that he let his ego shrink a little, and that I learned to relax. But, he still listens like the good friend he is.
"Besides, I'm going out with Remus, and if I wanted to go out with you, I'd have to dump him, which he'd be very upset with, and then it would break your friendship up, and I couldn't be the cause of that!" I babble, trying to make up excuses to not to kiss Sirius right now. "And we were enemies just a little bit ago, and we got to friends, so I don't want to push that and fall back to enemies, so, well, I can't date you!" I stand up
Sirius just stares at me, and I continue. "And you once told me that you have female companions, not girlfriends, and I live for more than kisses." I say angrily. He smiles and rolls his eyes, standing up.
"Mel, I'd never do that to you. How could I even get bored with you if I wanted to? Even when we were enemies, I thought that you were fascinating."
I bite my lip and squeeze my eyes shut. "No, Sirius!" I moan. "I hate you!" I tell him, glaring fiercely. He looks hurt and confused.
I am so stupid. One single thought causes me to be reckless. Just one more time…I think. I lean in and capture his lips with my own. He takes control, pushing my lips open with his tongue. I gasp as our tongues touch, but it is lost as I melt into him. I grab his shirt for support, trying not to fall over due to my jelly legs. I pull myself closer, so happy to be held in his strong arms. He was the best kisser I knew. So much better than Remus.
Remus…
My thoughts of Remus are gone as Sirius kisses me even more passionately than before. This is so much better than last time! And with that, I push Sirius away, my thoughts of Remus returning.
"Sirius!" I pant. I am so out of breath! Sirius' chest heaves up and down, but I refuse to look at it. I can't deal with this anymore. "Sirius, stop kissing me! I love Remus!"
Sirius grins, eyes glinting evilly. "I didn't kiss you; you kissed me."
I take a couple steps backwards to get away from his face, a mere six inches away from my own. "Please stop it, Sirius!" But I knew he wouldn't stop.
"Well, it's true, Melanie." That makes me shiver agreeably. "You kissed me. You must like me."
I moan as Sirius stands next to me and puts a hand on my cheek. Then he starts kissing my collarbone. I shove him away again. "Sirius, I mean it!" I yell. I run away from him, and I hear him following. He catches me right as I rush up the hill and catch sight of two people I'd rather had not seen Sirius and I kissing. Hannah and Alice are on top of the hill, standing together, with their mouths wide open. I know they've seen the whole thing. I turn to glare at Sirius. Hannah will definitely be telling Remus about this.
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Sirius and I race up the hill. Alice is still staring at us open-mouthed, but Hannah now looks smug. About halfway up the hill, she turns to race back inside the castle. Alice, finally coming to her senses, grabs her and knocks her to the ground. Hannah shrieks, and Alice turns to look at me, and I know that she's saying that she'll help, but I have a lot of explaining to do later.
I walk up to Hannah. "Not planning to spread rumors about me, are you?" I spit.
Hannah glowers back. "I may be a slut and a bitch, Fischer, but I've never cheated on my boyfriend. I'm at least good to that sense. I think I have more right then anyone else does to spread rumors about you."
I slump in defeat. She's right, and I know it. I sigh. "I know. But, Hannah, at least let me tell Remus."
Hannah rolls her eyes. "I promise not to tell Remus, but he might find out because of someone else."
I smile in relief. "Thanks, Hawkins."
She rolls her eyes. "I guess you're welcome."
I turn to Sirius. "You go talk to James and Peter, try to distract Remus until I get there. I think my best friend needs an explanation."
Alice nods. I smile at her before turning back to Sirius who nods before sprinting away. I turn to Alice, who's staring at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Alice, I'm just going to come out and say it." I say, looking at Alice for help. She nods her support. "I'm falling in love with Sirius." I blurt out.
Alice's mouth is wide open again. "Bu-but, you love Remus!" She manages to get out.
"I know!" I cry. "What should I do?!"
Alice smiles sadly. "Sorry, Melanie; I'm no help there. I don't even know how to get Frank to kiss me, and you have two Marauders both madly in love with you!"
I gasp. "You and Frank haven't kissed before?!"
She glares back. "Don't change the subject!" She snaps. Her face softens. "I say you stick with Remus for now. He needs you more then Sirius does."
I bite my lip. "What if I break up with Remus nicely, saying I want him as a friend instead, and I tell Sirius I'm not interested?" I ask.
Alice frowns. "I guess it could work…"
I smile sadly. "Who knew that growing up was so complicated?!"
Alice laughs and links her arm with mine and we trudge up to Hogwarts, half-laughing, half-crying.
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Poor Remus and Sirius. Guys, I really don't know what to do! Right now, I need desperate help, but I might change my mind later, but I need help for now! Should Melanie date a completely different guy? PM me with ideas, please!
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