What if Something Happens

Warning- The start of this chapter probably a little closer to M than the earlier chapters.

Chapter 7

Olivia rolled over and turned the alarm off. She was glad it was Friday and really hoped that they didn't catch a case and she could be off all weekend. Raf had appointments with both his doctor and Dr. Lindstrom if they both cleared him he would go back to work on Monday. She left him still snoozing in the bed as she headed for the shower. He might as well enjoy one last day of sleeping in.

She closed her eyes as the water ran over her and jumped when she heard his voice from behind her, "Do you need some help in here?" he asked.

She bit her lip as she looked over him and smiled before saying, "I don't think you've been cleared for this yet Counselor."

He pulled her in for a long kiss running his hands through her hair, "I don't need any clearance to wash your hair for you do I?" He asked.

Olivia smiled she had missed this intimacy the last couple of weeks as he had been healing. She kissed him one more time before turning around. He slowly began to massage her scalp working the shampoo through it taking his time to work his hands slowly through her shoulder length hair.

"I like it this length." He said softly as he scooted it off her neck to place a few kisses alongside it before he began to rinse her hair. He repeated his actions with her conditioner taking his time smiling when he heard her try and stifle a moan or a sigh.

"Sorry, I haven't been cleared for duty yet Lieutenant." He said as he picked up her shower gel and began to lather it along her body. He smiled again when all she managed was a muffled sound. "God you are beautiful." He said as her turned her back around and began to kiss her.

They stood there in the steam of the shower kissing and touching Olivia's hand stopping when she reached the newly forming scar just below his chest. She pulled back from his kiss and lightly ran her finger over it. "Does it still hurt?" She asked him

"Not too much." He told her truthfully. "I guess we both have our scars now." He said as he gently kissed one of the scars left on her shoulder by William Lewis as he had done so many times before. The first night they made love she asked him if they bothered him he told her, "No, they remind me how I almost lost you but that you are a fighter and a survivor."

"Now we both know how easily we could lose each other and that we are both fighters." She said before she kissed him again. She pulled back suddenly when she heard the knocking on the door.

"Mamma? Papi?" Noah called out.

Barba gave her one more kiss, "You get ready for work. I've got him."

A few hours later Olivia was standing in the squad room talking with her team when the front desk officer came in carrying a vase full of red roses.

"Delivery for Lieutenant Benson," He said with a smile.

Olivia blushed a little and thanked him taking the case from him.

"Want us to read the card for you Liv?" Finn teased.

"I've got it." She said

"Nice of Barba to send you flowers for Jessie's birthday." Rollins laughed.

Olivia's eyes flew open, "It's Jessie's birthday? Oh crap." Olivia said.

"What?" Rollins asked confused.

"Well, the first time Barba came over and took Noah and I out was when Jessie was born." She explained.

"It's your anniversary Lieutenant." Carisi said.

"Hope you got Barba something." Finn laughed.

Olivia smiled thinking about the adoption papers sitting in her drawer that she had been waiting to give him.

"I've got that covered." She told them heeding back to her office.

It wasn't too much longer when Barba came strolling into her office.

"Happy anniversary," he said with a grin.

Olivia smiled up at him from her desk, "Happy anniversary, I was thinking do you want me to see if Lucy can keep Noah tonight and we could go out just the two of us?" She asked.

"Actually, my mom offered to keep him over night if we want." He told her.

"Overnight? He's never spent the night with anyone else." Olivia worried.

"It's his Abuletia Liv, he will love every minute. She will spoil him rotten." He said hoping to convince her.

"All right, I guess after a year we are due for a night to ourselves." She said.

"All right, I will get him to my mom. How about you try to get out of here early?" He asked with a smile.

Liv nodded, "I can do that. How about we go back to that Spanish place you took me and Noah to?" she said as she was thinking back to her original plan.

"Perfect" Barba told her with a grin.

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They sat together on the same side of the booth not carrying about anyone in the restaurant. They shared food and kissed between bites and Barba kept one hand on Olivia's leg just below the hem of the new dress she had managed to get that afternoon.

"When you brought us here a year ago could you have ever pictured this?" Olivia asked him after they had finished eating and most of the restaurant was empty.

"No, honestly never," He told her, "My life this last year has been better than I could have ever imagined Liv. What I have found with you and with Noah is what I have always needed. I don't know what I would do without you."

She leaned over and kissed him, "I don't plan on you finding out."

Barba smiled at her, "I'm glad you feel that way." He said as he reached into his pocket and pulled out the ring he had been hiding for weeks now. "Olivia Benson, will you please marry me?"

Olivia stared at the ring that was without a doubt the most beautiful one she had ever seen. Then she looked back at the face of the man that she loved.

She smiled at him, "I will on one condition."

Barba laughed, "I ask you to marry me and you want to deal. Maybe you should have been the lawyer."

Olivia reached into her purse and pulled out the envelope and handed it to him. She watched his face as he opened it and read the papers tears forming in his eyes.

"Liv…"was all he could say before he felt her lips crashing into his.

"Yes, Raf I will marry you if you will legally adopt Noah and promise to raise him as your own whether or not something ever happens to me."

Barba smiled at her, "I like your deal."

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Six weeks later on New Year's Eve they stood at the front of the Unitarian church where Noah had been baptized. The day before the judge had signed the papers officially naming Raf Noah's father.

"I want to start the New Year officially a family." Liv had explained to Lucia when she asked if she wanted more time to plan a wedding.

Captain Cragen walked Oliva down the aisle and placed her hand in Barba's and kissed her cheek, "Be good to each other." He said before going to sit down.

Noah held the rings proudly as his Momma and Papi promised to love each other forever. He let out a giggle as they kissed but smiled when Barba picked him up and carried him as he and Olivia walked back down the aisle.

They had rented out their little Spanish restaurant for their reception. With their friends they danced and laughed throughout the night. Just before midnight Raf pulled Olivia to the dance floor one more time. "Looks like our son didn't make it to the New Year." He said pointing to wear Noah was sleeping with his head in Lucia's lap.

The music started as Barba pulled Oliva close to him and she listened to the words:

You never know when you're gonna meet someone

And your whole wide world in a moment comes undone

You're just walking around and suddenly

Everything that you thought that you knew about love is gone

You find out it's all been wrong

And all my scars don't seem to matter anymore

Cause they led me here to you

I know that its gonna take some time

I've got to admit that the thought has crossed my mind

This might end up like it should

And I'm gonna say what I need to say

And hope to God that it don't scare you away

Don't wanna be misunderstood

But I'm starting to believe that this could be the start of something good

Olivia smiled at her husband,"This is definitely the start of something good."

Suddenly they heard the cheers erupting from the streets of New York and knew it was midnight. Together as husband and wife they held each other and kissed in the New Year.

The End

A/N Song Credits to Daughtry and thanks to the video on youtube by Winchimiga for giving me the idea, if you haven't watched it go check it out. Again thank you to all of you who have read followed this story, favorited it and left feedback, it means so much!