Author's Note:
This is my first SOA piece, and I do not own any of Kurt Sutter's characters or plot points from the television show mentioned in my writing.
The material published is of a graphic nature (carnal relations, cussing and violence), please consult the rating guide and the rating of this piece before proceeding.
Enjoy.
Chapter Seven – Heart Shaped Box
Cassidy woke up early the next morning thanks to Gemma. Jackson had to visit the orphanage were Abel was being kept.
She stayed in bed longer: after Jax had dressed and left with a few members to search for his son. She had found out last night that father Ashby had given baby Abel to a convent orphanage that would place babies in Catholic homes.
Father Ashby had always done the best by Cass, but she wasn't sure how far away from one of those orphanages she had been herself.
It was confusing to have someone who she held so dear, betray a small baby and deny him the right of family. The right she has been fighting for her whole life.
Cassidy couldn't understand how Father Ashby saw her struggle day after day as a child with the idea of being alone, and forcing it on this small boy whose father was killing to find him. She was being to question everything she knew about Ashby and the role he played in her life.
She knew he was close with John as well, but this act was something that John Teller would have never condoned.
Cassidy really didn't know what to think about traveling to Charming and meeting her Father. Opie seemed like a decent person, but she had spent maybe an hour with the guy in total.
She knew that Father Ashby was smart when it came to these decisions but she wasn't entirely sure this was the best option for her. For all she knew, she was just another Chess piece and the Irish Kings were ready to shove her forward into the game.
Jackson seemed on board with the idea of her going back to Charming with the rest of the club.
Cass had never been to Charming and she had never even heard her mother speak of Piney Winston. She knew her father had been in the club, but that was as much detail as her mother would allow.
She looked at the wall in front of her as she thought about Jackson. She had to ask herself if things would still be the same when they arrived in Charming… Or would they be dramatically different?
She would leave Maureen and Trinity behind, as well as her school friends and the work she had completed at the local university. Cassidy knew her mother kept a small stash of cash for her in case something ever happened and Cass knew she would have to use it this time.
Rolling over on the bed to grab her t-shirt and pull it over her head, she heard a knock at the door.
"Yah?" she coughed, Gemma peeked her brunette head in the room. "I just wanted to give you a heads up, the boys are getting close to Abel so you should pack some things and be ready," Gemma spoke with hesitation.
"Of course," Cass said with a small, sad smile.
Gemma closed the door and Cassidy slid out from under the covers. She grabbed her jeans off the floor and put them on as she walked toward the bedroom door.
Cass didn't even know what she would have to bring with her. She had only one thing on her mind, coffee.
Cassidy swing by the shop on her way upstairs and poured herself a large cup of coffee. She had a feeling it would be the first of many cups today.
Opening the door to Maureen's loft, Cass heard Gemma yelling at someone.
"He's your son!" she heard as she closed the door as quietly as possible. Cass slipped off her boots, "You get my grandson," Gemma growled in a low voice.
Standing on the other side of the doorframe, Cass could see Jackson slumped against Maureen's old stove.
Gemma brushed past Cassidy quickly on her way out the door and back to the clubhouse. If Cassidy knew anything, Gemma Teller-Morrow was lethal when it came to her family.
Looking at the spot where Gemma once stood, Cass felt Jackson's eyes graze over her body. They burned into her being as she moved closer towards him. She could tell by one look that he was a worn man, but he looked at her with a hidden hunger. She hoped they would find Abel soon for Jackson's sake.
"You find him?" Cassidy asked with uncertainty. She shifted from one foot to another slowly. He just simply nodded.
Moving closer towards him, she ran her hands down his shoulders to his biceps and back again, as if he was cold and needed to be warmed.
"Where is he?" He just looked away from her, "Jackson?" Cassidy grew very nervous as he ignored her.
"I need time okay?" He yelled, brushing off her hands and grabbing a smoke out of the pack in his hand.
Cassidy stood in the middle of the kitchen, shocked. He lit up his smoke and starred right at her, almost to see if she would flinch.
Cassidy maintained eye contact, but she knew something wasn't right: something had changed.
"Pardon me," Cassidy grabbed her coffee and headed towards her bedroom without looking back. She heard a loud slam of the door.
Cassidy never saw a cold side to Jackson until now and she wasn't sure if she liked it. It wasn't like the deep passion she felt when he kissed her. It puzzled her as to why he could burn so hot for her and suddenly grow extremely cold.
Entering her bedroom, Cassidy opened her closet and took a large black duffel bag out. Getting clothes together was the easiest part of packing, but Cassidy didn't have very much due to the fact that she moved around a lot when she was younger and had very few personal belongings.
A few photo albums, her electronics and other bits of things: Cassidy was pretty much packed to go. She decided to send an email to a few close friends explaining that she was headed to California for awhile and she wasn't sure when she would be headed back home.
Maureen was working at the store and Trinity was still in school; that left Cassidy to make dinners on the nights she didn't have classes at Queen's university. Cassidy glanced at the clock and saw it was almost 4pm.
Trin would be home soon to grab a quick bite before heading to the store and Maureen would be home soon as well.
Cass popped the ear buds attached to her iPhone in as she headed to the kitchen. Letting the music calm her nerves, Cassidy sank into the mindless motions of preparing dinner.
She stood in front of the sink, washing the lettuce thoroughly, when she felt a pair of rough hands slide gently down the curve of her hips to cup her ass cheeks.
He gently swept her hair to the side, giving him access to the back of her neck. He started a trail of sweet gentle kisses from the base of her neck to her collarbone.
She dropped the lettuce in the sink and turned the water off. "Jackson…" she started, he gripped her hips and turned her to face him. Cassidy knew she couldn't stay mad at him, but she had learned a hard lesson today. Jackson Teller had the power to hurt her very badly and that was a very scary fact for Cassidy to come to terms with.
He crushed his lips against hers. Cassidy knew this wouldn't solve anything, but there was a need in this kiss that both of them felt.
Jax grabbed her legs and pulled her upwards, carefully walking towards Cassidy's bedroom. Cassidy had her hands wrapped around the back of his neck and she continued to play with his hair and leave tiny kisses on the side of his neck until she felt the soft cushion of her bed.
She slowly released his neck as she quickly grabbed the collar of his cut and pulled him roughly down on top of her. Jackson made quick work of pulling her thin t-shirt off as he kissed down the hollow of her neck to her chest.
Cassidy fumbled with his cut and hoodie, seeing a hunger in her eyes, Jax pulled everything over his head at once.
He moved back to kissing his way down her chest towards her bellybutton. His tongue burned a hot trail down her body. Cassidy's breath caught in her chest as his lips paused at the top of her panties.
She looked down at him with lust filled eyes, slowly closing them and running her hands into his long blonde hair. She moaned as she felt his tongue scrape across her stomach from one hipbone to the other.
Cass massaged his head as she felt his hands slowly peel off her silk navy panties. His kisses moved lower and lower toward her hot center. Her hips were squirming on the bed as he grabbed her ass for more control; which only drove her further into her frenzy.
She needed more of him as his tongue gently teased her; slowly he moved his mouth on her. Cassidy thought she was going to explode.
She clawed at his shoulders to get his attention, "Jax, please…?"
He moved up her body quickly, grabbing her hands with his own; he thrust into her deeply.
They kissed as he moved slowly inside of her. He was hitting so deep inside of her, she felt a deep shudder from within, as he never looked away from her eyes.
Holding his gaze, Cassidy moved herself to be on top of him. Straddling him, Cass kept his hands in hers as she found purchase on his chest to balance.
He was deeper as she continued moving her hips at a much quicker pace.
He remained looking at her, "Cass… I… I love… this"; Cass felt a small tear trail down her right cheek. Jax swiped it away with his thumb. He gently rocked her hips with his hands; she felt an animalistic urge as she grew closer and closer to the edge. Jax slowly circled her clit with his thumb as he pumped his hips upward.
"Oh," She moaned, "harder, babe…I…" Cassidy quickly unraveled above him. He took the opportunity to move above her once again as he continued to push deep strokes into his own orgasm.
Cassidy felt her head being pushed into the headboard as he braced his arms against the wall above her. Looking at the beautiful man loosing himself in her, she knew with every step closer to him, she risked losing her heart.
Coming out of his haze, Jackson circled his arms around Cassidy and pulled the blankets over them.
"I've got to finish dinner…" Cassidy moaned; planting her face in the pillow her head was resting on. She quickly grabbed her tank top and tights and slid them on as she hurried to the kitchen, leaving him in her bed.
Cassidy had pulled the chicken out of the oven as Trinity and Maureen made it home. She quickly excused herself to get a sweater from her bedroom.
Jackson was in the shower across the hall, walking into her bedroom she picked up his cut and jeans to toss on her bed when a letter fell out on to the bed.
It had her name on it in elegant writing, Cassidy decided to ask him about it. She quietly picked up the envelope and opened the bathroom door.
"Jax?" she asked quietly, holding the envelope out. "I've got to ask yah something."
"Hmm?" He grunted from the shower as he popped his head around the side of the shower curtain. "Oh Ashby told me to give that to you," ha answered quickly continuing with his shower.
Cassidy opened the letter hastily, scanning it quickly. She hid her face with the letter as she read further down. She felt sick as she sank down to the floor of the bathroom.
"Your making a fuckin' trade for Abel?" She spat as the tears streamed down her face. "How could you?" She asked, almost out of breath, she could feel her body start to panic as she was crying too hard to breathe. Father Ashby was the closest thing to family she had, regardless of his poor decisions.
Jackson looked at her puzzled as he moved quickly out of the shower to hold her on the ground.
"Don't touch me!" Cassidy screamed. She ran out of the bathroom as Jackson followed pulling his jeans on so they sat low on his hips. Cassidy threw his cut and hoodie at him square in the chest.
"Get the fuck out you selfish prick," she picked up a small vase off her dresser and threw it at him as well. He moved closer towards her and managed to grab her hands to prevent her from throwing anything else.
Looking into his deep blue eyes, she felt her rage progress into something much more.
"I'll never forget you did this Teller… never" she whispered.
He softly kissed her cheek, wet with tears, "I didn't want this trade Cass, I love you." He exited out the front door, crushed and leaving a stunned Maureen and Trinity in his wake.
