So yeah two days turned into almost a week. My bad. This time it wasnt my computer it was my internet(Again with the excuses...LOL) But seriously the next chapter is already written and I am just giving you time to read this one. I made sure to have the next two chapters written before I was to post another one. So thanks to all that took the time to read and hope you enjoy.
Ohh yeah I forgot to mention that there is a Flashback in this chapter.. So when the story starts to be written like this that means FLASHBACK! LOL
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Tony sat on his couch with absolutely nothing to do. His Saturdays were always booked and now here he was up bright and early on a Saturday morning with nothing to do.
He looked around his apartment and besides all the pictures of Noah and Ziva making him miss them even more, he saw he had a lot of cleaning to make up on. Weeks of cloths and dust were piling up in corners of his apartment
"I guess I will start there" Tony mumbled getting off of his couch grabbing the broom. He wanted to occupy his mind with as much junk as possible to get Ziva off his mind.
"This is crazy" Tony thought around the time 11 O'clock rolled around. He had not only cleaned his whole apartment, but had gotten dress and went to the grocery store. He semi-filled his kitchen up. Mostly with water and granola bars. He also bought a new box of cereal to snack on.
Tony lounged on his couch, not even bothering to mess with the TV. His weeks spent with Ziva and Noah had left him tv-less and that was something he had been meaning to fix.
But at the current moment nothing satisfied his need so he sat on the couch and stared at a blank television.
His phone finally rang, letting him know he had a txt message. He prayed it was Ziva and not McGee again who had gotten his hopes up twice already.
This time it was Ziva telling him where he she wanted to meet.
Mark's Pizzerias.
1:30 is that good for you?
- Zee
Yes that is fine, see you there
Okay see you there.
-Zee
Tony placed his phone down and looked at his watch. It was 11:17. He had a good two hours before 1:30 was to come and he wanted to be ready.
*TIVA*TIVA*TIVA*
"So what did Tony want earlier?" Abby asked sitting besides Ziva in the food court. Her and Ziva were taking turns with Noah on the carousel before he decided he wanted to ride by his self.
Ziva looked up from her phone. Checking the time again. It was 12:40 she still had some time. She was actually a little anxious about her meeting with Tony.
"He just wants for me and him to meet…So we can talk." Ziva looked towards the carousel and saw Noah was still riding. She was a little skeptical at first about sending him on alone. But her and Abby managed to grab a table directly next to the ride and the constructor promised to keep a eye on him. So that eased her hesitance a little.
"Talk about what? He knows its my day with you and Noah I hope he's not trying to be sneaky."
"No its not that. We just really need to talk. Sooner than later, and actually I was wondering if you could watch Noah for a hour at the most." Ziva turned her head back towards the carrousel to see if Noah was off yet.
"Sure you know you don't even have to ask" Abby smiled. Her bag fell of the table and she reached down to pick it up. "Whatever you and Tony have to talk about must be pretty important." Abby slid in.
"Yes it kinda is and its all your fault."
"Wait, huh? How is it my fault?" Abby asked confused.
"Because it is. If you would've never accused me of having feelings for him, I would have never brought it up, and we would have defiantly never kiss."
"Woo, wait a minute you guys KISSED?" Abby asked excitedly, and loud enough for the whole food court to hear.
Ziva shh'd her and pointed towards Noah who was walking up. Ziva reached in her wallet and pulled out another dollar.
"Here go ride the carousel again." Ziva said shoving him the dollar.
"Noo mom I'm tired of the merry go round I'm ready to go."
"Please baby, for me. Me and Abby really have to talk and I promise it will be your last time and then we'll go."
Noah sighed and poked out his lip but took the dollar. Ziva waved down the constructor and pointed out Noah who was moping the whole way there.
Abby couldn't hold it in anymore and immediately wanted details as soon as Noah was out of ear shot.
"Oh my gosh what happened? WHEN? HOW? I knew it. I knew I was right." Abby yelled anxious and happy. Practically jumping out of her seat.
"Calm down Abby, you weren't right. Well at least I don't think you were."
"Of course I was right. I mean you guys kissed! That has to mean something." Abby said cutting her off.
"No it doesn't have to mean anything, but that's not the point. The point is that we kiss-"
"That is the point Ziva. So does this mean that the two of you are together? What's next? The wedding, then babies. I cant wait to see what kind of kid you and Tony would make together. Of course it would be gorgeous!" Abby ranted on and on. Cutting Ziva off again.
"Abby who knows what this lunch date will bring, but I wouldn't go that far."
"Is that what you wanted to talk about?" Abby asked.
"Well yes. I wanted to know what you your thoughts were on things, and to also blame you for getting me into this mess."
"I still don't understand how its MY fault that You and TONY kissed. I wasn't even there. If anything you should be thanking me for getting you and your future husband on track." Abby laughed.
Ziva smiled a little, but didn't reply. She was a little relieved when she saw Noah climbing down out of the carriage he was sitting in. Not bothering to get on a horse.
"Can we go now?" Noah asked annoyed. Spending the day at the mall with his mom and Aunt Abby was not his ideal day.
"Yes sweetie we can go." Ziva said patting his head. Grabbing the bags they had so far collected from the day, the trio headed towards the car.
*TIVA*TIVA*TIVA*
Of course when she got their at 1:15 15mintues early Tony was already comfortably sitting there in a window seat. He was talking to some blonde and that immediately triggered a distant memory for Ziva of a similar situation over six years ago. A memory Ziva pushed to the back of her mind and locked away.
Six years ago it happened back before she had or even thought about Noah, back when she thought about a future with Tony. Back when she convinced Tony to meet her at this same pizzeria because she had something she wanted to tell him.
At the time she had somehow convinced herself to tell him the truth. To tell him how she really felt. She somehow convinced her self to forget about the possibility of rejection and just to go for it. But she never made it through the door.
The image she saw through the window stopped her in her tracks cold. Made her change her mind, to drop every thought she had of revealing any feelings she had for Tony.
JUNE 15th 2005
Ziva stood outside of the pizzeria as she prepared herself for what she was about to do. About to say, Tony need to know, she had to tell him sooner than later.
It was eventually going to kill her if she kept it in any longer.
There was no reason to be scared. It was just the handsome, somewhat understanding, a little annoying Tony. Her partner. The man who has risked his life many times for her.
But that was also the problem. It was TONY. Who knows where this news would possibly take there partnership, let alone their friendship.
She had told him to meet her at the pizza shop at 2 on the dot. Of course she was early and he was already there. She saw his car and parked right next to him.
She didn't tell him what she wanted but that she just wanted to talk.
He agreed and told her there was something he wanted to talk about with her too.
Ziva looked into the pizzeria to see where exactly Tony was seated before she went in.
Of course he was sitting right in the front next to the window where all could see him. But to Ziva's surprised next to him sat this women. This long legged beautiful blonde women that you saw in a magazine, not sitting in a pizza shop with your partner.
Her and Tony looked to be involved in a deep conversation. They couldn't take their eyes off of each other and where smiling and laughing together. If Ziva didn't know any better she would have thought they were newly weds enjoying lunch together.
Suddenly she felt her stomach drop, and begin to turn. All the confidence she displayed moments ago had suddenly dropped down to zero, and she was beginning to re-think her whole reason for coming.
Turning around and getting back into her car seemed like the best option right now.
She stood there and watch them for a few moments more, and when Tony leaned in for what Ziva assumed was a kiss, she was through.
She turned around and speed walked back to her car. Not paying attention to where she was going only wanted to find the exit as soon as possible.
She didn't understand why she was so upset. It wasn't like Tony had any ties to her. They were just partners and he could do whatever he liked, with whoever he liked, not matter how much it bothered her.
Not paying attention to where she was going she walked right into the man in front of her.
"Oh my gosh I am so sorry" Ziva said. Her face flushed not only with embarrassment but humiliation at what she just witness.
"Its okay Ma'am, I'm most likely in your way." The gentlemen said, turning around to face Ziva. He smiled and stepped out of her way to let her by.
Ziva on the other hand gritted her teeth at the word ma'am.
"Actually your right, you were in my way. And please don't call me Ma'am. My name is Ziva. Ziva David."
Ziva placed her hand out for him to shake it and the man smiled and grasped Ziva's hand tightly and shook it.
"Well hello Ziva, My name is Joseph. Joseph Ellison."
Ziva smiled at Joseph as she stepped into her car. "What the hell" She thought. "Tony's having fun, why cant I?"
"Here you almost dropped this" Tony said handing his guest her earring as it dangled from her shirt.
He leaned back in his seat and watched her place it back in her ear.
"Thank you, thank you so much. My husband would have killed me if I would've lost these. He just bought them too."
"Oh don't worry. I understand. That looks like an expensive earring to just lose like that."
"To lose what like that?" A man said walking up to the table.
"Oh nothing honey I was just telling Tony a story about an almost incident." The blonde said.
Tony just sat back in his booth and smiled.
"Well honey our pizza is ready, so we need to get going. Plus Tony is suppose to be meeting someone. We don't want to scare her off."
"Oh I doubt you could scare her off" Tony laughed.
"It was nice seeing you Tony, hopefully we see you again sooner than later." The blonde smiled before giving Tony a hug and walking to meet her husband.
Tony sat back and wondered where Ziva was. She told him to meet her there at 2 and it was already a little after 2.
Where was she?
Tony sat there for a few more minutes before he started to get worried. Ziva was never late for anything especially for something she planned.
He looked at his phone and saw it was well pass 2:30. As soon as he went to dial her number a txt from her popped up.
"Sorry Tony change of plans something came up. Maybe another time."
He sat there and stared at his phone. It wasn't like her to be so late and then apologize with a text. Something was up but Tony didn't push it. He just sat there for a few minutes longer drinking his tea, then left towards his car.
As Ziva reminisced on things, she remembered that was around the time her and Tony fell apart. She had to admit that after she ran off that day she distant herself from Tony, and before long they barely saw each other outside of work.
Ziva turned around. Her back facing the window and straightened her self out. She couldn't run no matter how much she wanted to. Not this time, it was decided she had to talk to Tony.
She took on look in through the doors. The smell of food mostly pizza filled her noise, while laughter and noise filled her ears. Including Tony who she could distinctly hear over everyone else.
She walked over to the table the same time as the blonde was walking away from the table.
"Hey" Tony said smiling lightly when he noticed her walk up. She sat on the other side of the booth and smiled back at him.
"Hi" she replied.
"Did you want to order something? I didn't know If you would be hungry or not so I didn't get anything but these bottle water."
"Thank you but I already ate. Plus I don't want to keep you to long."
"Oh its okay I have nothing planned for today." Tony nervously picked up his bottle of water and took a few sips as Ziva watched on. There conversation was already not going to well.
"Soooo?" Ziva said awkwardly after a brief moment of silence. Her nerves were starting to get the best of her also. She really just wanted to get it over and done with but had no clue where to start.
Tony chuckled nervously. The silence was killing him also but he also had no idea where to start. I mean how do you tell your partner your in love with them anyway?
"You know what Zee I'm just going to say it." Tony started and then stopped. His nerves getting the best of him. He took another sip of water before starting again.
"I think I'm in love with you." Tony said. It was barely above a whispered but Ziva still heard his words loud and clear.
"Wh- what?" She said. Picking up the other bottle of water she took more than a sip as her hands began to get sweaty.
"I said I think I'm in love with you." Tony said again. This time a little bit louder. He looked up and caught her eyes.
"You don't have to say anything. I'm just saying that I enjoyed kissing you. I probably should have said this a long time ago but I love you. I have loved you for as long as I can remember, now that I see you as a mother I love you even more. I want to be with you, and not just today or tomorrow but actually really be with you. As a family with Noah. Spending time with you and him means so much to me."
"I'm tired of being just your friend, and if we were to be together it could be something great. Now that I know what its like having the two of you In my life everyday I don't want to ever let that go " Tony stared into Ziva's eyes through out his whole confession.
He couldn't read her face but the ball was in her court, and he didn't know whether that was good or bad.
Ziva was quiet for awhile. Trying to process all that Tony told her. It all sounded good, but how much of that was true? It wasn't that she doubted Tony, or didn't trust him. He just told her what she had been waiting to hear for years.
"Tony …I have been wanted to hear those words from you for years." Ziva started than stop, trying to get her train of thoughts together. A slight smile started on Tony's face but fell once he saw Ziva's straight face.
"But I think its too late. Our time has passed.
"No Ziva, our time has not passed. Now is the perfect time. We can do this, we can be together." Tony said frantically. He had to get her to understand.
"No Tony you don't understand, its not just about me and you. I have to think about Noah."
"And you dont think I'm thinking about Noah?" Tony asked his voice growing louder attracting attention.
"Calm down." Ziva said calmly looking around. "Tony what I'm saying is its to late. I cant take that chance and let something happen to my son."
"Something like what? You think I'm a danger to Noah, Ziva?"
"No of course not and you know that Tony. Its just…."
"Its just what Ziva?" Tony asked getting frustrated. "Is that your only reason? Noah? He would be ecstatic if it were to happen. Two of his favorite people under one roof. I don't see the problem." Ziva's face was still unsure and Tony could tell she was sticking to her answer. He had to get her to change her mind, and soon.
"Zee you worried about your son, I know. But I love Noah just as much as you do and would never purposely hurt him
"I'm not worried bout you purposely hurting him Tony, but ok what if we do, do this and things don't work out. Then what? What happens to Noah then? He's already attached and that's my fault but Tony I just don't think this is a good idea.
"Zee we'll never know unless we try, think about it Noah could have a father figure."
"He has a father"
"He'll have a male figure In his life 24/7 not someone who calls six O'clock every other morning.
"Tony please don't do this to your self or to me." Ziva practically begged. "Right now its just wouldn't work."
Tony just sat back, and kept quiet. His whole mood turned and he couldn't bare to look at Ziva. "So that's it. Were just going to stay friends?" Tony said disgusted. His voice low and harsh.
"If that's okay with you." Ziva said moving her hand out to touch his. But before she could he placed his under the table. Slowly she placed hers in her lap too.
"No its not okay with me. But I guess it doesn't matter what I want."
Ziva and Tony sat there in silence for a few more moments. Neither daring to move neither daring to speak again. The silence was loud enough.
"You know what I have to go I guess I'll see you around." Tony said getting up from the booth not even bothering to look back at Ziva.
"Tony" Ziva whimpered a little. She could tell he was mad and was hurting. Sending him off to God knows where by his self in such a condition wasn't a good idea.
"What Ziva?" Tony answered barely looking over his shoulder. Ziva tried to say something but once she saw the redness begin to pool in his eyes her words were stuck, and she knew he wanted to be left alone.
"I'm sorry Tony." Was all she could say. She watched Tony not reply and walk out the doors she had just walked in moments before. In that moment she felt like crap. Almost sick to her stomach. Hurting Tony was never her intention. She sat there herself for another five minutes or so before she got up and left towards her car.
Had she done the right thing?
I know you probally hate me... =(
But truth be told if Ziva was to have a son I dont think she would just jump into a relationship so fast with anyone. I mean what single mother would without considering all her options. There's always the posssibility that it could end bad or good, and yeah that would effect the kid.
Ziva would probally come up with every excuse a to why she can't whether it was true or not. That does not mean she doesn't love or want to be with Tony she just needs some time to realize that and get to where Tony is. Just give her some time (Or a chapter or two) and she might come around...
But PLEASE REVIEW! I would love to hear what you have to say about anything... I'll take it Good or Bad. But when reviewing remember that I'm a TIVA fan too and want them together just as much as you. I just want it done realistically.
