I'm sorry for taking forever I know I'm a terrible person! You have the right to stalk me down and kill me I'm so sorry!
Eli pov.
I didn't want to stop looking, ever.
"I'll be out a little longer." I told Quinn.
"Will you be okay?" He seemed very concerned.
"Sure, I just don't want to give up yet." I heard him leave. I sat down on a rock as soon as I couldn't hear him anymore. "Where was that stupid horse?" I muttered to myself.
"Howdy, little lady." Came a man's voice to my left.
"Um, hi." I replied.
"My names Hal I work for Karla Starr, a rodeo miss around these parts. Got any wild stock you want to sell." His voice sounded teasing or menacing I couldn't tell.
"Not on me sir, I was just gonna go catch up to my friend when I got a little tired. Why I bet he's within shouting distance." I made it clear he would be in for it if he tried anything.
"Well missy I wasn't lookin' for no trouble now." He rushed to defend himself.
"Good, because I'm not afraid to start some." I was feeling the need to be defensive call me overly cautious.
"Now, now don't get all huffy with me; I'll see you around miss." The mysterious cowboy rode off, Hal…. Interesting.
I headed back with a heavy heart.
That night at dinner was tense, Jake seemed pissy and confused. Sam was ill at ease and shifty almost ashamed. Jen was confused also, but my main concern was how happy Tyler was, that was never good.
It was time to sleep it seemed my day had flown by. All of the guys had left to give us girls' privacy to change.
"How was your guys' time here? How did Tyler do with his horse?" I asked the silence was tense and I felt the need to lighten the mood.
"Nothing happened his horse needs to be gelded." Jen said tensely, okay I guess Tyler was the wrong topic.
"Oh okay then." I finished getting changed. "Where are we sleeping?" nothing bothers me more than when everyone pretends to not hear me say something and that's exactly what they were doing.
"I heard myself talk." I muttered out loud, I still got zero response. I crashed on one of the beds, it seemed like this place had gone from fun, to crap. If Quinn hadn't been here I think I would have gone crazy. There was a knock at the door, I heard someone get up and open it for the boys.
"If you girls will go outside, we can change." Nate said. I heard feet stomping out but I stayed put.
"Hey, you're a girl! Get out." Tyler said bossily.
"I'm also blind dumb shit." I said not moving an inch.
"Bit.." I didn't catch the rest as he walked off.
To tired and pissed to think of anything better I muttered "Well you're a bigger one." Under my breath.
"Where are we all going to sleep?" I asked whoever cared to answer.
"Jen went home, I have the feeling she will be staying home for awhile so you and Sam can have a bed and Tyler can have a bed to himself." Nate called from wherever he was at.
"'K." I muttered.
"It kinda sucks I really enjoyed being bunk buddies." Tyler flirted brushing his hand down the side of my face.
"Get your own bed cunt." I said shoving him to the floor.
"God I wasn't doing shit why are you over reacting?" He replied trying to make his actions seem right.
"Why do you think? I'm tired of you harassing me and the other girls just because you think you're a stud or something. You really need to get the fuck over yourself." I flopped over and ignored Tyler for the rest of the night.
Around 3:30 in the morning
I couldn't sleep. I wanted to go outside, none of us were making much progress on our riding it was mostly because of Tyler he complicated everything any of us tried to do.
I walked down to the river silently. I don't know why but a song popped into my head the lyrics flowed out my mouth as I sat down on the bank and sang.
If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
to realize what we used to have,
we don't have it anymore.
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin' out the door.
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...
I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin' with that troublesome guy
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Oooh well little darlin' watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...
Don't just say, goodbye
Don't just say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...
I sat in silence feeling peaceful, not sure where to go from the river I felt like I myself was a river always moving on. But here I didn't want to move on and find a new place.
Maybe that was why I was so afraid.
"What is wrong with me." I said to myself.
"What's wrong with you? Ha, you're,- … there's nothing wrong with you. But me? There's something seriously wrong with me. I have so many screws loose up in my head."
I don't know how Tyler had managed to sneak up on me. He sat down a few feet from me.
"It's like I'm two people, I don't want to be that guy that everyone hates but I don't control it, it's like some outside force wants everyone to hate me, like right now I'm in control. But the bad Tyler is right under the surface." His eyes met mine.
"We all have iner-deamons you just need to work on controlling it."
"It's not that simple," he threw up his hands "I try everyday as hard as I can but nothing helps no matter what I'm always going to be the guy everyone hates." He continued in a whisper pulling out a pocket knife. " Sometimes I wish it was just over."
"I understand what you mean. But there is no answer to life, I am the wrong person to ask about controlling your bad side. Why are you here Tyler?"
"I don't even know my memory is really spotty at best." He frowned I could tell he was starting to think, that's about when my fatigue hit me.
"Well I think I'm going to pass out I'll see you later Tyler." With that I walked toward the bunk house and a nice warm bed.
Sam pov. The next day
I woke up way to early when Gram opened up the door to let the chilly morning breeze roll in. Shivering I walked outside and to the house. I jogged easily up to my room. I dressed as fast as I could wanting to get back outside to help the HARP kids get their horses ready.
I ran into the barn and found only Jake there.
"Where is everybody?" I walked hesitantly toward him.
"Gettin' ready." He walked off without another word.
"Jake! Wait, what's the matter?" I walked up to him trying to get in front of him. There was a storm of torment in his mustang eyes. "Jake," I whispered. "What's going on."
"What do you think?" He spat stalking to the hay loft ladder.
"I don't know what you're talking about." I knew exactly what was wrong, but it wouldn't hurt to play dumb.
"I," He stopped gripping the bottom rung of the ladder. "I thought, youlikedmeandnotTyler." He spat out racing up to the hay loft.
"Jake!" No response. I sighed and climbed up after him. He was sitting on a hay bale facing away from me.
"Jake," I barely whispered. "I do like… you." I turned away not daring to move or speak there was no way I was going to be the bold one about this.
I didn't hear Jake move so I turned and plopped down beside him.
"Didn't you hear me?" I looked at his face trying to read his feelings.
"Yeah I heard you, but I don't understand, you were-"He stopped and the silence spoke for him. I flashed back to the day:
I went into the house with Jen she ran up the stairs to take a nap until everyone got back, I laid sprawled out on the couch and turned the TV on. To my shock and surprise Tyler laid down on top of me.
"What are you doing?" I stared at this crazy boy
"What do u think?" He grinned and pushed him lips on mine.
"Jake's gonna kill you." I threatened.
"Well is dearest Jake here? No he's not." He kissed me again and I was at a loss to what I should do. He was stronger than me, so I couldn't fight. And you can't scream when some ones kissing you. And his lips weren't coming off mine anytime soon.
I first got really worried when he started playing with the front of my button down shirt. But when he started unbuttoning it my stomach dropped. I tried to push his hands away but they didn't stay off for long.
"S-sttop." I said uncertainly he just grinned he had all the buttons undone. I was in just my bra. He started feeling me up. "Don't touc-"
His lips cut off my words and he didn't listen. I felt his hands playing with the zipper of my pants. Oh my god this can't be happening.
"Hey Sam where is the-" Jen stopped at the top of the stairs. "Oh my god!"
All rational thought left my head and we both started screaming. That's when Jake come running through the door. He seemed to take one look at the situation. He came at Tyler ready to kill.
"Jake don't do it." I said getting between them.
"What you want that creep all over you?" He was beyond outraged. I knew if I said no Jake was going to get himself in some major trouble. I tried to think of a logical excuse. Jake took my silence as an answer. "Fine, put a shirt on your dad will be home soon." He stormed out of the house.
"Jake you know if I had told you the truth you would have killed him." I could tell he was doing his best to look bored and not meet my gaze. "Jake." I whispered all my pain at the thought of losing him packed into that one word.
"Sam." The word filled with more meaning than 100 words out of Jake Ely put together. His hand brushed my cheek and his lips grazed mine, once, twice, he turned his head and threw his leg over the bale we sat on to face me. He slowly pushed me down on the soft hay and got on top of me.
I'm so sorry on the slow up date, my computer had a melt down and I realized I needed to get this up before it crashes for good. I have totally healed from being trampled and am in a good emotional sate (Not that anyone cares) my New Year resolution is to put up at least one chapter every two months here we go…
