Give Unto Me
By HonestFFWriter
Rated: M (duh)
Genres: Drama & Romance
Pairings: LXFem!Light, and others coming soon...
Summary: AU. Hikari Yagami's life changed one day when she came into the possession of the Death Note. She never imagined how greatly it would change.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Short chapters are short. I wish I could've add more, but this is the best I could do in terms of this chapter. I hope you guys still enjoy this chapter.
Chapter Seven...
"So...has anyone seen Ryuk around lately?"
"Maybe he was serious about dropping his Death Note."
"It was probably picked up by some human before he could get to it."
"No way! Then he'd be stuck there until the rest of that human's life or the Death Note get's destroyed! That could take a while."
"Yeah. I can't imagine Ryuk doing something so boring."
"But you know what? I heard he was actually carrying two Death Notes."
"Seriously? But why would he need two?"
"Beats me. I'll never understand that guy."
...
Ryuk lifted his hand up towards Hikari, as if he was offering his hand to her. "If you give me half of your remaining lifespan, I will grant upon you the Shinigami Eyes. Well then, Hikari...
Do we have a deal?"
Hikari looked down at Ryuk's hand and then back up towards Ryuk's gaze. If she were to have the Shinigami Eyes, she would know everyone's names just by looking at them. If possible, she would eventually figure out her stalker's name as well as L's real name. Heck, she would know everyone's names.
This would help her use the Death Note much easier. She would be able to use the Shinigami Eyes and the Death Note to get back at those who had done her wrong, to those who have hurt her, to those who shun her.
That just made this deal all the more tempting.
"Ryuk..." Hikari said rather softly. "It's...tempting. Really, it is. B-But I...well..." She turned in her chair back towards her desk. "I'm afraid I'll have to...
refuse."
Ryuk withdrew his hand as he looked down at Hikari in disbelief and shock. She said that the deal was really tempting, and he figured after she told him about her problems, it would make her all the more tempted to take the deal just to get back at those who did her wrong.
"D-Don't get me wrong," Hikari said in a sympathetic tone. "As much as I am interested in having Shinigami Eyes, I would rather continue on living for as long as possible. That way, I can create an ideal world free from evil and not only have plenty of time doing so, but also live long enough to see it."
"Yeah well..." Ryuk simply shrugged out of disbelief. "I thought I'd let you know that the deal existed just in case. Though the offer is still available if you change your mind."
Hikari nodded in agreement. She reached for her lamp and turned it off, darkening the room completely. She grabbed the Death Note and simply laid on her back on her bed as she looked up at her ceiling, with her hair fanned out.
"Is there...anything else I should know about?" Hikari asked.
"No. Nothing else."
Probably, Ryuk finished the sentence in his head.
Hikari closed her eyes and gave in to the comfort of her bed as she lets out a small yawn. "Well, alright...I guess."
"You guess?" Ryuk somewhat repeated.
Hikari opened her eyes and stared up at her ceiling again as she explained, "Well, to be honest, I think...I would've considered the deal if you were to offer me wings instead of eyes. It...would be interesting to fly around, see the world from the sky, watch it become even better..."
The way Hikari was describing it sounded somewhat dream-like with the way she spoke. When she was a child, she once had a dream where she found herself flying through the sky, looking at the world below her at night. She still remembered the cities below her with their lights shining ever so brightly in the night, with the clouds swirling and dancing around her above, and the full moon shining it's beautiful light down before her.
If only those dreams would come true.
"You'd stand out if you sprouted wings," Ryuk spoke up. "Not to mention that the police will have no trouble finding you."
Hikari could've sworn she had almost fallen asleep when she was remembering her dream as if that dream was pulling her back in time to when she dreamt it just so she could experience it's beauty all over again. Hikari snapped out of her little trance when she heard Ryuk spoke up.
"Oh, well I uh...I was only kidding," Hikari said. A little. She sat up on her bed and took the Death Note in her hands as she stares down at it. "But you know, of I were to bargain for eyes and wings, the next thing you'll know, I may end up becoming a Shinigami myself. If it were possible."
She hid the fact that it would be interesting to even become a Shinigami herself. That way, she wouldn't have to worry about dying, she'd be able to see people's names and how they have to live, and be able to fly all she want. That would be like a dream come true.
"There used to be a way...but it was a very long time ago. We Shinigami forgot about it in time," Ryuk explained. "Though, I doubt you have anything to worry about. Even without the eyes and the wings...you're already a worthy Shinigami in my eyes...no pun intended." He said that last sentence as though he was intrigued and proud of Hikari.
Hikari looked up at Ryuk in a questioning posture, so Ryuk decided to explain. "I have told you before that we Shinigami barely do anything these days. The truth is, the Shinigami Realm is slowly rotting. We live meaningless and empty lives. The reason we take human lives is because we ourselves are afraid to die.
The truth of the matter is that we had forgotten why we exist in the first place. In fact, I doubt there's any reason for our existence at all."
A disheartening look came to Hikari's face. That was a terrible thing to say, about how people don't see any reason why they exist. Of course there are some reasons why humans existed, but not Shinigami?
"What I'm saying is compared to that, you're becoming a much more impressive Shinigami." Ryuk finished.
"Uh...thanks," Hikari said slowly. She looks down at the Death Note in thought. "But I kind of don't like to be compared to a Shinigami." She shrugs. "I'm just a plain human using a dangerous item to the make world better for other humans." She opened up the Death Note and started to look through the pages of the many names she had written prior.
The next thing she said had Ryuk surprised, "Still, just because the Shinigami Realm is rotting away doesn't make it any less significant than the human world."
"Huh? Why do you say that?" Ryuk asked out of curiosity.
"Well, the human world changes whenever a Shinigami comes to the human world every hundred or thousand years, right?" Hikari pondered out loud. "I kind of think it's unfair that that while this world is expanding in many ways, the Shinigami Realm has to rot." Hikari looked up at Ryuk right in the eyes. "When you return to your world from this one, couldn't you find a way to use what you learn here to change it for the better? Would it be possible?"
Ryuk didn't know what to say exactly. He has heard of satanists and cults who are um...crazy over the supernatural and such before, but Hikari has to be the first human he met who has shown interest in the Shinigami Realm. It's one thing to show interest, but also to care about it's well-being?
"Why the interest?" Ryuk asked. "Why would you care whether the Shinigami Realm rots away or not?"
"You told me that there's no reason for your species' existence," Hikari reminded him. She shook her head a bit. "Maybe you guys might've forgotten what your purpose is. You all are called Gods of Death for a reason, right?"
Ryuk scratched his chin in thought. Hikari does have a good point. Come to think of it, most of the Shinigami back in the Shinigami Realm do slack off a lot, waste their time sleeping away or gambling, taking a life or two every once in a while. Hikari did say that they are called Gods of Death for a reason, so why not act like actual Gods of Death?
Ryuk chuckled a bit out of realization, and said, "Well Hikari, I never realized it until now, but you're quite the positive thinker."
Hikari nodded in agreement as she looks down at her Death Note some more. "Thanks. That's why I'm using the Death Note to make the world a better place, after all." A question came to mind, but she has to know.
She looked up at Ryuk again and asked, "Hey Ryuk, you guys like to call Earth the human world, right?"
"Uh, yeah?" Why the sudden question?
"So...does that mean that there are more worlds out there, aside from the Earth and the Shinigami Realm? I mean, also aside from the other planets out in the solar system."
Ryuk knows that answer very well, but how to give it to Hikari gently? Ah hell, why not?
"Hate to break it to you kid, but we're not entitled to say." Ryuk answered rather bluntly.
"Why's that?"
"It's not in our place in say."
Hikari flips through her Death Note again. "Well, okay I guess." She then returned to the first page where the rules are. A sudden thought came to her.
"Hey Ryuk, you know how I made every criminal die every hour just by writing cause of death and time of death, right?"
"I've noticed throughout the week. Why bring this up again?"
"I know I can also write down accidental death," Hikari said as she looked over the first page where one of the first people she had killed had indeed died from a car accident. "Which means with the Death Note, I can make people die in any way I want them to. If I also write down the time of death, I can also write events leading up to their death, can't I?"
"You should," Ryuk answered, and then asked, "Why bring this up?"
A few ideas popped into Hikari's head. "I think I have an idea. I already know I have six minutes and forty seconds to write down the conditions, but just in case, I need to know how far I can go." She got up from her bed and sat by her desk where she turned on her lamp and her computer.
She lets out a sigh. "Okay. Let's see..."
The Next Morning...
The Task Force headquarters were busy as usual following any leads and going over evidence that they believe would be of some help, all of them completely unaware of L's intention of hiring FBI agents to investigate most of the detectives whose relatives may be a student based on one of his earlier assumptions.
Chief Soichiro Yagami was going over the time of deaths of the victims with a couple other agents when he was interrupted by his phone ringing on his desk right beside him. He excused himself and answered the phone.
"Chief Yagami here...is that right? Another six inmates had died last night?" Some of the officers turned to their chief when they heard what he said. Soichiro turned to his fellow officers and stated, "It's him." What he heard next on the other line was something he didn't expect to here.
"What? Bizarre behavior before they died? Can you be more specific?...So they didn't die of heart attacks?"
"Well, four of them died of hearts attacks, but it's not that simple," an officer on the other line explained.
"Before one of them died, he drew an image on the wall of his cell using his own blood and then just died from the blood loss. Another left a letter before he committed suicide, but it doesn't seem to be like a will or anything meaningful. Another inmate escaped from his own cell and made it all the way to the staff bathroom before he died of a heart attack."
...
The young man heard a beeping sound coming from his computer. He crouched down and clicked on an icon on his desktop that brought up the camera that shows an image of Watari on the screen before him.
"What is it, Watari?" He asked.
"Another six inmates died last night, but the circumstances of three of them are much different than what we've seen thus far." Watari explained over the feed.
"What do you mean by different?"
"I'm sending you a letter as well as a couple of photos that were taken at the scene."
The young man nodded. "Okay."
Three boxes then popped up on his computer screen: two were the photos while the other was the letter. One of the photos shows the drawing on the wall that was done in blood, but there were drop marks so it's almost hard to figure out what it is. The other was the inmate's body who had died in the staff restroom.
The young man looked over them thoroughly and then rested his eyes on the letter. "Hmm...it sounds like this one is scared of Kira finding him. It's believable that this victim might've been generally afraid and wrote this." He places a hand on his chin in thought. "But we know Kira can control the time of death. What if he can also control one's actions leading up to their death?
In which case..."
...
"Chief!"
Soichiro got up from his seat and turned his attention towards Watari's direction in the back of the room with the laptop computer facing back at him with L's font on the screen. Everyone else looked back at L wondering what was going on.
"We cannot release the details of these men's deaths to the medias. As far as they're concerned, these are just heart attacks. I believe that Kira is performing some kind of test using these criminals. If that's the case, we would only be giving him the results if this has been leaked to the public."
Soichiro nodded in agreement. "Right. I understand."
"Now he's experimenting on his victims?" One of the officers asked.
"Horrible."
Soichiro's hands balled up into fists out of anger. Kira is acting as if this is all just a game, when in reality, these are human lives at risk here.
"He's playing with these people's lives as if this is all just a game! It's unforgiveable!"
...
The young man looks over the photos and the letter again for the fifth time as if he had missed something important. "If Kira is using these victims as test subjects, what is he trying to achieve?"
That Night...
Hikari had just finished copying her father's files into her computer. She exited out any trace that she was there before she began to browse through the files. She saw a file that was dated on that day, so she took a look. She looked over the files and clicked on each of them, which three boxes popped up on her screen.
"Ryuk, the results are in," Hikari announced. "So I really can manipulate people's deaths any way I want. I never thought of this before."
She sounded as if she was rather excited. Ryuk sat up on Hikari's bed as he asked, "What do you mean by that?"
Hikari looked over at both her Death Note and her computer as she explained, "One of the inmates had escaped from his cell and ran into the staff restroom where he died of a heart attack just like I had written in the Death Note. Another drew the same drawing that I drew in the notebook that made him die from blood loss. The third wrote the same letter that I had also written before I made him commit suicide."
"Well, I'm impressed," Ryuk said. "Even I wouldn't have thought of something like that."
"These three did what I want them to do," Hikari explained. "For the other three, I wrote down their deaths differently that are considered impossible."
"Impossible how?" Ryuk asked again.
"I wrote down that this one inmate would die in front of the Eiffel Tower within an hour." Hikari shrugs. "Everyone knows that it's physically impossible to get from a jail in Japan all the way to Paris, France in such a short time, so he just died of a heart attack.
For another one, I wrote that he would draw L's face. This didn't happen. I guess you can't draw someone's face if you have never met them, right?"
"Makes sense."
"For the last one, I wrote down that this inmate would write, 'I know L is suspicious of the Japanese Police'. I kinda thought this would happen, but it didn't. I guess you can't make anyone write what they don't know or something they'd come up with.
I guess even the Death Note cannot pull off the impossible, but now I know I can control one's actions before their death."
"Very impressive, but what is all of this leading to? What's the point?" Ryuk asked.
"These'll just keep the police guessing for a while with these clues I left behind," Hikari explained, before she averted her gaze down a bit. "L right now is probably trying to decipher those clues I left for him." Hikari then looked over at the Death Note again towards the two whose cause of deaths were of the blood loss and suicide.
Despite the pain knowing that L would find her and sentence her to death, Hikari doesn't want to end up killing him. She has to play innocent long enough for the police not to suspect her. Would anyone ever guess a nice, timid, innocent girl like her had ever committed a murder in her life?
...
The young man looked over at the photos again for the umpteenth time trying to decipher these clues and messages. He knows that Kira is behind this, he just doesn't know where to start.
"If Kira used those criminals to conduct an experiment of some sort, it means he's about to start something. If he moves now, there's a good chance where the FBI will notice someone acting suspiciously."
He places a thumb on his lower lip deep in thought. His eyes still continues to scan over the photos and the letter. He knows there's something there. What is it?
"It seems that Kira has a different goal in mind altogether. Could this drawing and letter be some kind of message?"
A small soft gasped escaped his lips at the sudden realization. He looked over at the bloody drawing on the wall and then at the letter. Why didn't he see it sooner?
The drawing on the wall, despite the droplets of blood, may not look like anything at first, but upon further looking at it, the young man noticed that the shape of the drawing looks like that of a heart. Not a human heart, mind you, just the common shape of a heart. He reached his finger on the screen and traced it over the image of the heart. Within the shape of a heart, it looked like there were many cracks that you'd see on a glass, as if...
What if the cracks within this 'heart' mean that it's hurt, or broken? Like a broken heart, someone whose heart would hurt if a tragic event had occurred.
"A broken heart..." he whispered softly under his breath. "But why would Kira...?" He looked over at the letter again, and suddenly noticed something too. The young man looked over at the letter again that reads,
Lord, have mercy.
Please understand for I cannot take this anymore.
Forgive me, but I fear that Kira may come after
Me soon. I'd rather die by my own hands than his'.
The young man looked over the letter again. He noticed how some of the words are capitalized when they weren't supposed to. What if...He used his eyes to scan over the capitalized words, and came to a startling conclusion.
L, Please Forgive Me.
"Could this be a message?"
He looked over at the image of the broken heart and then at the hidden message in the letter. This...is this Kira's doing? Was this intentional?
It can't be. Kira would never be sympathetic about killing those criminals. If he was, he wouldn't be killing them, would he? Kira even went so far as to kill off Lind L. Taylor who was posing as L at the time. He thought Kira would have no regrets killing his victims.
It sounds as if Kira is apologizing to L. But for what? For killing countless lives? What is it that he's apologizing for, anyways? If Kira hated what he was doing, he should've quit a long time ago, yet he hasn't.
Then why is Kira apologizing? What does this have something to do with the broken heart drawing?
The young man looked at the drawing and then at the message again. He has to explore every possibility there is. Maybe it's a cry for help? No, that couldn't be. Maybe the broken heart means that Kira is starting to regret his actions and he wants L to forgive him for this?
But why would he kill these criminals just to give L this message?
From what he learned so far, Kira may in fact be a student and that he's controlling the time of deaths just to cover it up, as if he doesn't want to be caught. The broken heart drawing and the hidden message may show that Kira is somewhat looking for sympathy.
This could show that Kira is a coward, so this throws the whole 'god-like figure' idea out the window. Or is it possible that Kira is trying to avoid the police and wants L to forgive him for these horrible acts he did and the acts he's about to do?
These crimes are unforgiveable. Why would L want to forgive Kira for committing these horrible crimes?
Or maybe Kira is just doing this just to throw them off completely. Kira did it before, so he would mostly likely do it again. You think someone as Kira would wage war against L and the police, but Kira has yet to take any action against them. Why?
...
Hikari stretched her arms up and lets out a groan as she stretched her limbs. She lets her arms fall and lets out a sigh of relief. As long as she keeps up with the innocent charade, she should be fine. She's not planning anything special, but just wanted to see how far she can go with the Death Note, and now she has a good idea how it works.
But what to do next?
KNOCK! KNOCK!
"Hikari! Hikari, open up! It's me!"
Both Hikari and Ryuk turned their attention towards the bedroom door as the knocking became persistent. Hikari instantly recognized her little sister's voice. She got up from her chair and called out, "I'm coming! I'm coming!"
Hikari opened the door and saw Sayu jumping up and down in excitement.
"Oh my gosh, sis! You're not going to believe this! You're not going to believe this!" Sayu cheered rather excitedly.
"W-What is it?" Hikari asked, a bit puzzled. Sayu was always happy, but never this happy or excited unless something big had come up.
Sayu reached into her pockets and held up what looks like two tickets.
"You remember that stupid fundraiser I did for my school that I had to take part of?" Sayu asked rather begrudgingly. "Well guess what!? I was the second person to raise a lot of money for my school!"
"Who's the first?" Hikari asked out of curiosity.
"Doesn't matter!" Sayu shouted. "What matters is is that I just won two tickets to Space Land!"
Hikari smiled and wrapped her arms around her sister. "Sayu, that's great news! Congrats!" She said proudly. She withdrew with her hands on Sayu's shoulders and asked, "You should start thinking about who you should bring with you. Have you figured out who yet?"
Sayu raised a brow. "Uh, Hikari?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't be stupid. Of course you're coming with me." Sayu said in a rather obvious tone.
"Wait, am I?" This had shocked Hikari, though maybe a little.
"You've been helping me keep up with my homework a lot lately, the least I could do is somehow return the favor," Sayu explained, and then held up her two tickers smugly. "And what better way to return it than to have a great time?" She then rolled her eyes. "Besides, Mom would probably make you come with me, anyways."
Hikari giggled and smiled at her sister. "I love to go with you, Sayu. When do you want us to go?"
"I can have us go whenever we want," Sayu explained. "Aww, what the heck? Why not tomorrow? It will be a day off, after all. Why not have fun?"
Hikari nodded in agreement. "Sure thing. Sounds like fun."
Oh how they don't know what tomorrow will bring.
End of Chapter Seven...
Author's Note: What can I say? Short! Also, I was hoping to use Sayu a little more in the story, so that's why I wrote her in here near the end. You've guys seen the series, so you'll probably know what's gonna happen next. I hope you guys are enjoying the story so far, 'cause there's plenty more to come. Stay tune!
