Chapter 7
I was currently walking back to S.T.A.R. labs. People pushing and on their phones instead of looking around at the surroundings. I frowned who made phones so that I could go back in time and slap them for making such a stupid device. I see kids under 13 who have phones I didn't get my first phone till I was 16.
I mean why your parents gave you a phone when you have books and the world to look around. I mean sure you can communicate easier but your life doesn't depend on that. I call Felicity a 'Zombie' because she's on tech all the time.
I just don't get it sometimes.
I remember when I was on earth 14 I stole a phone for my foster brother, Joey, six months after I left this earth. I stole a phone for him on his 13th birthday when I was 16. Don't tell anyone I gave you this information, unless they're the Avengers, I was six months pregnant. That's one of the reasons why I didn't return home as soon as I was discharged.
I never told Oliver or Leo because I knew that Oliver would kill him and Leo wouldn't want him. That's right! It was a boy! I named him Joseph Alex Snart. I named him Joseph not because of the famous Detective Joe West but after Joey, who was murdered by his father and Leo's nickname is Joseph. Alex after my sister who I murdered.
He's eight and is staying at the Avenger tower. He was going to be staying with me for now on since I have my own place I was going over there as soon as Felicity was going back to Starling. I gave birth to him in earth 616 we went jumping between earths until he told me that he wanted to stay at the Avengers until I stayed on an earth for good.
So I'll go over there as soon as I can but that's going too hard. How? Because it's been awhile since I last jumped through earths. But I could manage. Right now, I should be concentrated on getting to S.T.A.R. labs and lasting at least half an hour and returning home to Felicity.
"Hello?" I called out when I entered the cortex.
I got no response so I carried on sitting beside Barry and holding his hand.
"Hi Barry," I whispered. Again as I rubbed circles on the back of his hand I could feel the shock.
My hand felt warm opposite of his cold one. It felt right having my hand in his, like a puzzle piece was missing the whole time. I just met him and yet it felt as if I've known him my whole life. Yes, we've been in the same city but it's been eight years since my last visit. It reminded me too much of Kara and Alex.
A tear ran down my cheek and splashed on our entwined hands wetting the palms. Soon one after the other they came down like rain. You know the phrase, 'Its raining cats and dogs?' Well, that's how it felt. My body tried to stop the tears but it denied my orders and continued its mission. After the whimpering was over I was sobbing. Snobs were running down my nose like waterfalls. I could taste the salt from my tears as they ended up in my mouth. I snapped my fingers and appeared a tissue to blew my nose. I brought ours hands up to my lips and kissed them.
It wasn't a shock but a spark. I didn't pull away loving the feeling I was getting and let it linger there for a couple of seconds. I wonder if Barry could feel it too. If he could hear everything around him. If he could smell. I don't know what it's like to be in a coma and I don't want to find out.
I calmed down a bit to where you couldn't hear that I was crying but still the tears fell. I hiccupped, laughing to myself. I used to laugh every time Kara would hiccup. My face turning red and I couldn't breathe. The only difference there is from now and then is that Kara isn't here.
The tears stopped coming and I wiped the remaining tears and reached out to Barry's cheek. I smiled when realizing that I could get used to this, not seeing Barry in a coma, but seeing him in his sleeping state. He doesn't look like the guy that I met at Starling. I was there when I heard about his past because I was the first person other than Felicity he told that to. As Random.
What I told Leo back at Jitters about being Barry's girlfriend, I told him because I wanted it to be true and not a lie that someone tells their friend about a crush they have on a boy. I felt like I was in high school all over again. Leo may not remember me and I'm grateful for that. I'm not sure why, but I am.
I could travel into the future and see what happens when Barry wakes up. But decided against it not wanting to deal with the Rip Hunter or the time masters again. The last time I did that was when I went too far into my future when I first started learning about my powers and I got in trouble. The time masters gave me a warning while Rip gave a lecture about time travel, which helped by the way. I needed it to know what I was dealing with.
"Barry, I…" I couldn't finish my sentence because footsteps could be heard bouncing off the walls.
I froze and by instinct my invisibility kicked in. I held in my breath seeing Dr. Wells? And he was walking? I should have known but my cowardness didn't allow me to read his mind. Of course, he lied about not being able to walk. He lied about everything! I don't see how Cisco and Caitlin believe him if he lied to them too.
"You can come out now Kitara," He said and looked over at me.
I made myself visible and send him a glare.
"Why did you lie?" I demanded. I tried to read his mind but he had a device to conceal himself from my powers. So, that meant no telekinesis, no mind reading.
"Because, Mr. Barry Allen is my one ticket home."
I was confused when he said his one ticket home.
"I know that because I'm from the future and I know what's going to happen to all of you." He looked at Barry. My eyes widen.
"Who are you?" My arms fell to my sides.
"My names Eobard Thawne."
"But how come you look like Harrison Wells?"
"I took his body when I murdered him and his wife, Tess in a car accident."
He stated these questions as if he knew all of the things I was going to ask.
"You were a part of my project. A much larger part," He came closer to me and I froze. My body was numb all over.
"I'm going to tell," I threatened. I think it convinced me more than it did him. He smiled.
"They won't believe you and if you do I'll tell them you're Random." He paused already inches from me. "They'll believe me."
My breathing hitched and caught in my throat. I turned pale and could see into those fake blue eyes and saw myself. I could see a scared little girl curled up in a dark corner in a white tile lab room the lights making her skin pale. She was wearing a white hospital gown. Her hair was covering most of her face looking down afraid to look up. She was shaking with fear as a man entered the room with a needle in his hand walking towards her his shoes echoing on the walls. Each step he took was a freighting noise. He was a monster to her like the ones older brother or sister would tell the little one to be scared.
"I'll make you a deal," My voice was quiet that you can't hear from across the room but he heard it. "I won't tell who you really are and you won't tell who I am." I murmured. Beads of sweat were running down my forehead. I could feel my hair starting to stick to my neck.
He tilted his head and contemplated on the deal. He looked at me when he thought of the answer.
"Deal and don't get in my way!" He whispered and walked away.
I was so shaken up that I wasn't sure what to do next. Whether to sit down next to Barry; call Felicity; or go home. My mind couldn't add up what just happened that it had to replay the memory that I saw in his eyes. I knew whom the man and the little girl was. It was Eobard and I.
I just made a horrible mistake with a man that I vowed to never trust again. I just broke that vow by making a deal with that same man that promised to never hurt me and yet he broke it by letting me break it first.
I had a hard time learning to trust people without my powers for a long time and now that I got them it's even harder. I couldn't trust people. Now I'm not even sure if I should trust myself.
