Ch. 7; Goodbyes
I spun around and crouched, ready to attack. But once I sensed who it was I immediately stood up and shook my head a bit. "Edward? What are you doing in my room?" I asked confused.
"I think the more important question is, what are you doing here?" he said, standing up and striding over to me, "What happened? You weren't supposed to become like this. To be a monster. You were supposed to live a normal life! Grow up! Get married, have kids!" he said, frustration edging on his voice.
"Well, obviously fate didn't like the idea of me living a normal life because here I am." I said through gritted teeth. I couldn't believe him! I thought he was happy to see me! Happy to see his best friend!
"What I want to know is how this happened. How did you turn into this? When? How? Was it Carlisle? Oh, if he did, I'm going to have to have a few words with hi-" I cut him off.
"Carlisle didn't change me." I said quickly, because I could tell that he was a few seconds away from running down the hallway and ripping Carlisle's head off. "I'll answer your questions. I was turned on the day I last saw you. I was walking to your room and I met a man on the stairwell. He was foreign I could tell that right away. Well anyway, after we said goodbye I went and saw you. When I left he found me again, crying in the stairs, and he said that he would take me to get me something to eat and then walk you home. Well I asked where we were going and he suddenly became really tense and shouted at me in Italian. Then he pulled me into a dark alley..." I was crying by this point. And I took a shuddered breath and continued, "Well, then he changed me, and when I woke up, I was in a whole different country and after he saw me once he left. Not permanently but I was so scared..." I sobbed, and Edward came forward and wrapped an arm around me. He made shushing noises and stroked my hair. "Who was the man?" he asked calmly.
I wouldn't speak. He shook me a little, "Lily. Who. Was. The. Man?" he repeated angrily.
I whispered his name so softly even he couldn't hear it. "What?" he asked.
I took another deep breath and was about to speak a little louder when I chickened out. "I. I. I never learned his name." I whispered. Still shaking, but I looked up at Edward and his face was twisted in rage. "Edward?" I asked, suddenly feeling scared, "Edward? What are you thinking?" I asked him, starting to get a little scared.
"Don't worry Lily. I'm going to find that bastard. And when I do, well. You won't ever have to worry about him again." He growled. "Eddie, don't do anything foolish." I warned, grabbing his chin, and making it so he was looking directly into my eyes. We stared at each other for a while and then his eyes started to close and lean towards me. I mimicked his actions and then he gently kissed my lips. I felt sparks fly and then he quickly pulled away. "I-I-I. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have- I need to go." he said, then flitted out of the room. Leaving me alone and confused.
The next morning, I woke up about around four in the morning. I walked over to my closet and looked at all of the things that would suit me for a long day of traveling, then running. I settled on a mid-calf, flowing yellow sundress with a light brown jacket. I threw on a pair of brown Mary-Janes then slipped out the door. Then, I cautiously crept up to Carlisle's study. Knocking quietly on the door twice, I heard him call enter and I opened the door. Carlisle was sitting at his desk with paperwork surrounding him. "You wanted to see me Lily?" he called, not bothering to look up.
I mustered up the courage and spoke, "Yes, I would like to see if it was up to you that if I took some time to get away." I spoke clearly.
His head immediately snapped up. "Lily. You're not-"
"Oh no!" I laughed, knowing what he was thinking. He thought that I needed to get away for the same reason that Edward needed to get away. "I just think I need a break. All this change is getting to me. A new home, new town, new people, school. I just need some time to be alone and get away from it all. Maybe go hunting and see if I can get a grizzly or something." I rambled, hesitantly smiling at him.
Carlisle scratched his head for a moment, then looked up at me. "Where is it exactly that you would want to go?" he asked, looking deep into my eyes.
I squirmed a bit and scuffed my shoe on the floor, "I wasn't exactly sure but I was thinking that maybe go to Canada for a while, and maybe, just maybe, go to Italy to visit." I said the last part really quick hoping, that he wouldn't catch it.
"Lillian, I know that you're upset that Aro hasn't made contact with you at all, but I don't think that it's the wisest choice to go back to Italy just yet." he cautioned, looking at me sadly.
"Alright, what if I don't go to Italy and just go to France and London? I just really need some time away right now."
Carlisle sighed and then he took out a little card. "Here's all you'll need for this kind of trip I keep a couple around just in case things like this pop up. I'll set up some arrangements for a two-way trip to Europe and back while you go pack and tell the others. Tell Esme first, she'll be the hardest, and she'll give you some cash for this."
I ran up and gave him a big hug. "Thank you so much." I whispered, burying my head into his shoulder.
He smoothed down my hair and whispered a reply then I took the card and walked out of the room and down to Carlisle's and Esme's room. Entering quietly, I walked quietly up to Esme, who had her back turned away from me. "Esme?" I called,walking up from behind.
She spun around and smiled at me, "Hello dear. What can I help you with? I'm afraid I'm not very good at hair or make-up, but I can try my best!" she laughed, a smiled down at me.
My heart sank. This was going to be a lot harder than I thought. Even though, I've only known them for a few days, they have become my family, the people I could go to whenever I had a problem. And leaving them, was going to be a hell of a lot harder now that I know them. "Actually Esme... I don't need help with my hair or make-up... I needed to tell you something." I said, tears threatening to fall down my eyes.
Immediately, concern was on her face, "What's the matter dear? Is anything wrong?" I frowned and looked up at her. "Well, Carlisle told me to come and tell you that I'll be leaving for a while. I don't know when I'll be back but I won't be gone forever." I said, not wanting to look her in the eye.
"Oh." was all she replied, "Well, let me get you some cash for the road, and don't you forget to eat right and sleep regularly, or so help me, I will come and find you and drag you back home." she threatened, trying to get the atmosphere less depressing.
I smiled and hugged her, "Thank you for being such a good mom about this." I said she pulled away and smiled, "Well, some of us need to learn to keep their cool in tough situations."
After I received about $500 dollars from her, I left the room, but not without hugging her one last time. Then, I went back into my room and packed all of my old dresses in one suitcase, then putting all my new clothes into a different suitcase. When I finished packing, I picked up all the little things that were laying around on the floor then I shut and locked it, even though I know that as soon as I was gone, Edward would come in and look to see if he could find some clues. I set both of my suitcases at the front door then walked back to Carlisle's Study. He was sitting there in the same position, but this time, he had a laptop sitting in front of him and when he looked up, he held out a little booklet and what looked like a ticket sticking out of the top. I walked forward confidently and gently took the booklet out of his hand. "Is this my...?" I asked,
"Yes, this is your passport and a two-way ticket to Paris France and back. Also in there, I stuck your birth certificate in case you're taking in and asked for that sort of thing." he said, then he turned and stood. "I'm going to miss you Lily. Are you sure you can't stay? Even for a while?"
I rushed forward and hugged him tightly, "Don't worry I plan on being back in December. So I can come back with all of these super nice Christmas presents!" I said, smiling up at him brightly.
He smiled back, and then stepped away and cleared his throat. "Well, I think it's time that you go and tell your brothers and sisters."
I nodded, and turned away. "Bye Dad. I'll see you later. I'll write every week and call everyday. I promise." he nodded, and then I exited the room. Making my way down the hallway, I was attacked by a little blob with short black hair. "I'm going to miss you so much!" Alice said, squeezing me even tighter. I patted her back sympathetically, "I'm going to miss you too Alice. But I promise I'll call everyday."
She let me go and then took my hand. "You'll need the comfort." she told me, and we both set off for the main room.
When we got there Esme and Carlisle were already sitting on the couch, and the rest of my family were sitting or standing around them. But what I thought what was strange was that Edward wasn't there. I was about to ask when Carlisle spoke up, "I told them that you had some news to tell them so you wouldn't have to try and find them all." he explained, smiling encouragingly.
I thanked him with a smile then turned my attention back to my siblings. "Well, I'm really not sure how to start this so... here it goes. I'm leaving." I said bluntly.
Immediately, Rosalie was on her feet and her face was upset. "What do you mean you're leaving?" she demanded. The only ones that looked calm but a little upset were Jasper and Emmett. "Well, when I say I'm leaving. I don't mean permanently. I mean, I'm taking a vacation. I just need a break from all of this change. It's sort of getting to me. So, I'm just going to be gone about a month or two. No big deal."
Rosalie snorted, and Jasper spoke up before her mouth could get her into trouble, "Where will you be going Lillian?"
I pondered this for a moment before answering, "Well, I'm definitely going to Paris for a while. But after that it's all up in the air." So it was a vague answer but I wasn't lying! Just then Emmett stood, took two big intimidating steps towards me and then enveloped me into a humungous bear hug. "I'll miss you Shorty! Make sure you get me one of those beret things from France, I've always told Jasper I'd look good in them and now I have chance to show him." he joked, then set me on the ground. I hesitantly walked towards Rosalie and held out my arms. To my surprise she rushed forward and hugged me tight. "Just, be safe alright?" she whispered.
I nodded and pulled away. I walked right up to Jasper and hugged him. "Just think about the talk we're going to have after I get back!" I said into his ear. He chuckled and hugged me tighter.
I could feel the tears threatening to spill over my eyes so I stood up straight, then headed for the door. "Bye guys! I love you." I called from the door. Then, I picked up my bags and went out the door.
(A/N: Well, this is a short chapter. And the reason it is, is because I'm hoping that the next one will be long enough to make up for this one. Well, if you have any questions at all, just write a review or something.. I really don't know! The reviews are appreciated but not mandatory! Thanks!)
