A/N - Many thank yous and love to the people who read and reviewed my last chapter. I'm glad you guys liked it! Finally, we have Sierra and Kaidan's first time together! *Gulps* I hope you like it! I was really nervous writing this, but hopefully you guys like it as much as Sierra and Kaidan do. Hehe. I genuinely think this is one of the best chapters of anything I've even written! ^_^ *goes back to the gutter*
"Do you think we'll see much of the Shadows?" Sierra asked, desperate to break the silence that had fallen as they walked back to the room. Her mind still swirled with unasked question about reassignments, Shadows and Rahna, but more and more her focus was turning to Kaidan and the fact that they would be sharing a room together.
Kaidan lifted one shoulder nonchalantly. "I've never worked with them before, so who can say? The most contact I've had was during the Rebellions on Elysium, and they rarely interacted with anyone other than the asari and each other back then."
Sierra shivered and she said nothing more as they reached their room and entered.
What it would be like to be raised to kill people like that? She wondered.
Her eyes flicked to Kaidan and slid down his form as he moved around the room, stripping off his chest armour setting aside his weapons. Spectres and Shadows were both victims of the asari in their own way; taken as children and raised to be killers. But she knew enough to know that while Spectres had autonomy and a measure of freedom, the Shadows were indoctrinated to a single asari through mind-melds and religious training.
They were brainwashed from childhood to be assassins; ruthless, efficient and single-minded.
Whatever had become of her parents, she was grateful that they had hidden her as a child and saved her from a similar childhood. Spectres weren't the horror movies monsters that she had always expected them to be, and they weren't the boogeymen that Shadows were, but they were, each in their own way, a trained killer. Even Kaidan, who was far warmer than she had ever imagined, had ruthless side and a darkness in him that scared her.
And she was sharing a room with him.
Sierra swallowed as Kaidan turned to face her, his dark underarmour hugging his muscles and outlining a body that had been honed to perfection. The bedroom felt very small all of a sudden, as though he were filling up more than his fair share of the space, and she became acutely aware of exactly what sharing a room with him would entail. The room, although large, contained only one bed.
One bed for two people.
Sierra's heart began to hammer as Kaidan stepped towards her.
Space was at a premium on all vessels and rooms were never large, but the asari tended travelled in style, and all ships in their fleet had to be equipped with rooms suitable for their needs. Snagging the visiting dignitaries room for them had been a clear and obvious choice on Kaidan's behalf, as it afforded them privacy and at least a measure of space.
Had he chosen this room just for privacy and space? Or had there been another motive?
Her eyes fell on the double bed that filled most of the room and she swallowed again, wondering if this was where Kaidan had stayed last time, and if his partner had stayed with him back then too.
Kaidan and Nyreen … ? Jealousy abruptly shot through her, sharp, bitter, and foreign, and she swallowed it down with difficulty. She was being stupid. Kaidan and Nyreen had been partners and nothing more. If there had been anything else between them, surely Nyreen wouldn't have betrayed him so easily?
But the thought refused to budge.
"Did you share a room like this with Nyreen?" Sierra blurted out as Kaidan stepped closer, her curiosity overwhelming her, and felt foolish when Kaidan froze and his eyebrows shot up in surprise.
The corners of his mouth twitched as though he were fighting off a smile and he shook his head. "No," he told her, seemingly amused. "I didn't typically share a room with Nyreen. We weren't close like that." His gaze met hers and for a moment his eyes roved her face, his biotics pulsing gently against her body in a not entirely unpleasant way.
"Oh." She felt stupid as his molten gaze burned into her. "I just wondered." Her eyes crept back to the bed as though they had a mind of their own and her face burned as she remembered the last time she and Kaidan had slept together. The memory of the way his arms had felt around her as he had held her close and of the way he had slowly fed his own energy into her was etched into her memory. Nothing had happened but … she had wanted it too.
She still did; she wanted him.
"There's only one bed," she said abruptly, not sure why she was stating the obvious.
"I know." Kaidan nodded. "We've shared a bed before with no problems, so I didn't think you'd mind-" He seemed to sense her nerves and he stopped mid-sentence, uncertainty darkening his features. "But if you're uncomfortable, I can sleep in a pod or on the floor? I know I'm pretty irresistible, and I wouldn't want you risking your virtue."
It was a bad joke, but Sierra grinned. The thought of Kaidan, a Council Spectre, sleeping inside a pod like a common soldier was almost enough to make her laugh, and she shook her head in amusement. "I don't think that will be necessary. Besides, I don't think there's room inside one of those pods for you and your ego, Spectre Alenko."
"Ouch," he returned her smile, but a little of the tension remained around his eyes.
"So, what if," she made sure she had his attention before she continued. "What if I am happy to share the bed with you?" She closed the gap between them and slid her arms boldly around his neck, the warmth of his biotics seeping into her skin. It felt good, like coming home. "What then?"
Kaidan wrapped his own arms around her waist, the movement pulling her closer against him, and the uncertainty in his eyes vanished; replaced by a very male look of anticipation. "Whatever you want. I've already told you that I'll move as fast or slow as you need me too. But," his voice dropped lower, "we're both adults, and I'd very, very much like to show you how good lovemaking can be for biotics … when you're ready."
His power brushed against her, stroking things low in her body that no human could have physically touched. Sierra shivered in his arms; wanting him to keep going, but frightened of what might happen if she did. All those other times she had been with men she had felt that same stirring inside of her, that inhuman hunger that seemed to come from her very soul herself.
She hesitated for all of a second, wavering on a knife edge between her old prejudices and the desire thrumming through her now … then she plunged forward over the edge and nodded.
"I am ready," she said softly. "I'm nervous, but … I'm ready to be with you."
She wanted this; they both did.
Kaidan's eyes flared briefly with excitement and triumph; a shimmering blue of biotics that sung along Sierra's nerve endings. Though in the tingle that ran through his body and passed into hers she felt a more emotional echo of happiness and joy that she had chosen him for her first lover. No one had ever wanted to be with him before; not really.
He dipped his head and captured her mouth in a slow sizzling kiss, their biotics dancing together like invisible flames, ebbing and flowing like currents as their tongues swirled in a gentle rhythm. Sierra could feel the stirrings or arousal and hunger in her core, the alien sensations stretching and filling her body as he deepened the kiss, his biotics teasing hers gently, coaxingly. Kaidan's hands moved over her armoured body, undoing straps and removing the materials that separated them.
She had never allowed a man to be this close to her before, and she had never intended to, but in the last few months she'd learned many things about Kaidan and herself, and one of those things was that she wanted to be with him. He made her feel a longing that she hadn't thought she could feel; the need to be with someone.
She wanted to let him swallow her up with his biotics, to let him hold her and protect her, and she wanted to do the same for him; to wrap him up tightly in her arms and stop him from ever feeling lonely again. She wanted to make love to him, to know what his body felt like underneath her hands and against her skin, and for him to touch and love her too. It wasn't even their biotic connection that drew her to him, though no doubt that warm reassuring power helped; it was just Kaidan.
She liked him.
She … more than liked him.
Sierra drew in a shaky breath as Kaidan kissed a searing trail down her throat, his teeth lightly scratching at her skin as he nipped at her pulse point. She clung to his shoulders, tingles spreading over her skin like electricity as his hands eased the last of her armour pieces from her upper body and he allowed them to fall to the floor. Despite the underarmour covering her body, she felt naked as his hands swept down her form, gently caressing and stroking her through the fabric.
The pull of his biotics welled up, almost overwhelming as she felt some part of his power slip inside of her, and her into him. It wasn't quite like that first day he had kissed her on the Normandy, when the biotic rush had overwhelmed them both and they had been lost to the sensation so deeply. But there was a sense of disorientation; of being joined. Their desire, their loneliness, and their hunger for one another welled up in a wave that crashed over them both, sweeping away the lingering fear and doubt in the back of Sierra's mind.
She felt his lips move back to hers, the kiss tentative and hesitant now that their biotics were mingling together, and she answered his unasked questions with a playful love bite to his lower lip. She wanted this. She wanted him. The answer was yes. Yes, yes, yes!
They moved to the bed as one, stumbling a little as they tried to stay locked in their hungry embrace, shedding the rest of their clothes along the way. boots and grieves no problem to their experienced hands. Their underarmour and undergarments became frustrating barriers, so they got rid of them, and the more skin to skin contact they had, the hungrier they became for more.
Their hands swept over each other's skin; greedy to touch and stroke as much as they could. But it wasn't enough to merely touch, Sierra realised as Kaidan tipped her back on the bed and came down on top of her, his body flickering with the pale blue flames of his biotics. She wanted so much more than touching.
His eyes were glowing a steady blue with his power, the beautiful unearthly light mirrored in her own as she gazed back at him, and Kaidan watched her intently for a heartbeat as though memorising the view of her beneath him before he leaned down and kissed her softly, his mouth tender. Then he resumed his slow seduction of her very willing self; tracing slow tickling trails across her skin with his hands and kissing a hot path down the column of her throat. Each press of his lips was deliberate and left her skin ringing with a faint chord of biotics, and Sierra gasped as she realised he was pushing his power into her with each kiss.
He turned his attention to her breasts, cupping and shaping them in hands that trembled faintly with his power. Indeed, his entire skin was alive with his biotics, so that each touch of his hands and lips on hers was like a miniature burst of invigorating energy.
"You're so beautiful," Kaidan told her, his voice husky as he moved to take a rosy tipped breast in his mouth. "From the first moment I saw you, I thought you were the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen."
Sierra bit her lower lip and flexed her hands across his shoulders, feeling the movement of his muscles under his skin. He flicked his tongue over the tip of a nipple, circling the peak and then sucking gently. She gasped and jerked under his ministrations, clutching him tighter and digging nails into his shoulders as the feel of his mouth of her body sent a wonderful warmth coursing through her.
He moved his focus to the other nipple, gently licking and sucking as Sierra moved against him; her hips shifting restlessly as that warmth built into a pleasant ache between her legs. She traced her hands down his arms and gasped in pleasure as he kissed each breast and lifted himself to take her mouth in a longer, deeper kiss. They wound together, legs tangling as Kaidan held her close and Sierra took the opportunity to slide her hands down his back and across the swell of his ass.
He slipped a hand between their bodies and stroked her inner thigh, softly, slowly, his caresses moving ever upwards, giving her every chance to pull away or tell him to stop. But she didn't want to, and she whimpered with the strength of her need as she parted her legs for him and arched her back; silently begging for his touch. She let her own hand drift down his chest, following the hard lines of his pecs and along his abs to the swell of his arousal between his legs.
Nervously, she stroked a hand along his length; he was long and hard, velvety smooth and incredibly hot. She circled his tip with her thumb and smiled as he broke the kiss and groaned softly into her mouth, his face going slack as she touched him.
"God, yes," Kaidan murmured, his voice hoarse with need. "That feels so good."
Sierra kissed him as she continued to roll him in her palm and play with his length, enjoying the feel of his arousal in her hand. He moved his hand to the apex of her thighs and slipped his fingers between her folds, exploring her womanhood and circling the small bundle of nerves that was the focus of all the rapidly building sexual energy she could feel.
It felt good, better than touching herself ever had, and she eagerly lifted her hips towards him, encouraging more. He slipped two fingers inside of her at the same time as he kissed her, pushing them inside of her as he thrust his tongue into her mouth.
"Kaidan!" Sierra gasped his name and let him slide from her hand as she was forced to cling to him as he drove her close to breaking point. Her body aching and pulsing with desire. "Please! I can't take much more."
He laughed softly, a pleased masculine sound, and kissed her. Finally, Kaidan settled himself between her legs and framed her face with his hands, looking down at her glowing eyes as he dipped his head and claimed her lips once more.
"You're ready?"
Sierra smiled and nodded as her body sung with desire and biotics. "I am; I want you."
He smiled at that, as though the concept of her wanting him made him happier than anything else, and he dropped a quick kiss on the tip of her nose as he took himself in hand and began to slowly slide inside of her.
Sierra wound her legs around his waist as Kaidan carefully worked more of his length inside of her, taking his time to let her adjust to his size before he sheathed himself inside of her fully. It felt amazing to have him inside of her, filling her so perfectly, and they both groaned in ecstasy at the sensation of being physically joined so completely. Slowly, so as not to hurt her, Kaidan began to move in slow shallow thrusts, his movements tender and loving.
Despite all the rumours she had heard about sex and how awful first times could be, there was no pain at all. It felt beautiful. Her body rang with biotic power and it flowed through her into Kaidan and from him into her, pulsing and alive. The alien sensation of her biotics reaching out, of them seeking something to latch onto seemed natural here, and she didn't worry about hurting Kaidan, or of him hurting her.
They were in harmony.
In tune.
And the mingling of their power was matched perfectly by the movement of his body within her. The warmth in her stomach built, and a feeling of tightness and fullness grew as Kaidan moved in slow, slick thrusts. Their mouths stayed close, their kisses hungrier and hungrier as their energy and heat continued to build, their biotics demanding more; craving more of each other, more energy, more pleasure.
Sierra gasped and whimpered in pleasure as Kaidan's thrusts sped up and he began to drive himself deeper and faster within her. He raised himself up on his forearms so he could watch her, his eyes glowing with that beautiful swirling unearthly light. She could feel his pleasure, his hunger, how good she felt around him, and how much he had wanted this. It drove her wild, and she nipped along the line of his stubbly jaw; urging him on as that sharp delicious pleasure rose like a crescendo within her.
The swirling pleasure of her climax washed over her unexpectedly. One moment she was moving with Kaidan, rolling her hips to meet his thrusts and straining to reach that glorious peak she could sense just out of reach, and then with one thrust of his power into her, she was there. It was like a switch within her was flipped and she cried out as all the good warm feelings within her exploded outwards.
She clung to Kaidan as a roaring wave of ecstasy rolled through her; stars the colours of biotic supernovas bursting behind her eyes. He wrapped his arms around her, his body shuddering as he reached his climax too and wisps of glowing light danced around them both. Neither spoke, but she could feel his emotions through their connection, how much he cared for her, cherished her, and a deeper brighter emotion that burned like gold within him. It was gone before she could focus on it as Kaidan pulled his power back inside himself and she did the same, reluctant feeder tendrils of energy clinging to their bodies with tingles.
Sierra lay breathless in the afterglow, cuddled to Kaidan's chest as he stroked lazy circles down her back. Her skin hummed where it lay against his and she rubbed one leg against his and kissed the side of his neck.
"Wow," she said softly as Kaidan nuzzled the top of her head. "That was wonderful."
Kaidan drew back and gave her a lopsided smile. "It was amazing." He tightened his arms around her. "I didn't hurt you?"
Sierra smiled. "God, no. Far from it."
"Good." His eyes blazed and his smile became a very male smirk. "I tried to make it good for you, but I got a little carried away towards the end. It's just … I've never felt anything like that before. Making love to you felt incredible. It wasn't just the biotics or the sex, it was you. You're amazing, Siri."
Sierra blinked and reached up a hand to trace his jaw. "It felt beautiful, yeah, but I thought you said it was always good between biotics?"
"Good, yeah, but that was fireworks and shooting stars. I've never felt like this before with anyone." He kissed her gently. "Maybe it's because I haven't been with a biotic I'm in tune with before. Nyreen told me that it was different but … ," he trailed off, his eyes wistful as they moved over her face, a look she couldn't identify shining out of them. "You make me feel things I haven't felt in a long time."
Sierra smiled and butterflies danced in her tummy as she looked into his toffee coloured eyes. The attraction she felt for Kaidan, dangerous and wild though it sometimes felt, had grown exponentially now that she'd made love to him. She could feel the desire for him moving within her like a current, flowing through her veins in time to her heartbeat, pulsing through her biotics in waves.
"You make me feel too," she told him, and she leaned forward and kissed him before he could ask her what he made her feel. Instead she lost herself in the kiss as Kaidan moved to cover her body with his again; desire already sparking between them once more.
A/N - Oh gosh, hopefully that was worth the wait! I'd love to know what you thought! ^_^
