I woke up feeling a sting shoot through my head. Fuck, what happened? I turned over to be blinded by sunlight and it hit me like a punch to the face. I sprang up as the flashes of Mello kissing me came back. I looked around my room. No ones here. Well it was just a dream, I can't really expect him to be here.

I fell back onto my bed staring at the ceiling. I touched my lips, they burned under my cool fingers. I've never had such a realistic dream before. How could I dream something like that? Maybe I have a c- NO! I can't! Not on my best and only friend! That can't be it! Maybe I... maybe I hit my head! No. Cole I need your advice! I looked over to my clock expecting a note but instead I saw the bracelet. Cole must have found it.


"Hey Baby Bat, you thinking?" Cole asked sticking her head through the door. "Daddy said you didn't come out of your room all day." I waved her to come over to me. She magicianed her way through the door, shutting it, and then sitting down next to me.

"Cole can I ask you something?"

"Of course."

"Uh d-do you-please don't tell anyone-" she nodded. "how do you know w-when y-you've fallen in l-love?" I said feeling my face burn.

"Oh um I guess there are a few different ways. Maybe you treat this person different or-"

"Different?"

"Yeah, like maybe you've done something for them you wouldn't normally do for somebody."

"Well I made him that cake."

"Its a boy?"

"Wh-What!?"

"Its okay Matt, I love you no matter what. Now what about your feelings for him?"

At first I was surprised that she let it pass so easily. The possibility of me falling in love with a boy, I thought she'd be more...I don't know, surprised? "What kind of feelings?"

"Do you miss him?"

"Y-yeah."

"Do you think about him a lot?"

"Y-es."

"Do you like spending time with him?"

"Yes."

"Have you ever felt embarrassed around him for no reason?"

"Yeah."

"Have you ever thought he was good looking?"

I thought for a second. "I have!"

"Well," she stood up "sounds to me you have a crush." She patted my head and walked out of the room leaving me in a daze.

A-a crush? Me? My roommate? My best friend? This is going to be a fucking disaster!


Baths! Baths are calming. They help me think, and I need every last brain cell to think up a solution! I thought as the tub filled with water. I haven't had a bath in forever!

I slowly dipped my whole body in the scolding hot water. After a few seconds coming up, gasping for air. I rested my head against the cool tile and let my hand run down my body stopping it and letting it hover over my member. I forgot. Theirs something else I haven't done in awhile. Since Mello moved in I was always worried that I would get caught, so I haven't jerked off in awhile.

I grabbed it and slowly stroked it to life.

"Mmm...-Uh!"

I opened my eyes and saw I wasn't the one rubbing my cock, it was a different pair of hands. I looked up to see wet blond hair stuck to a beautiful face leaning over me and staring at me with icy blue eyes.

"Me-Mello." I whispered huskily.

"Yes, who else?" I looked down to see he was completely naked and he started to pump me faster.

"Uh Mello!" I gasped.

"Yes, what do you want?"

"H-harder!"

"Ask nicer, Matt." he slowed his pace down.

"P-Please, Mello harder faster!" I begged and he tightened his grip around me and started at an even faster pace then before.

"Heh You're such a good listener Matt." he said and licked his lips.

"Only for y-you, M-Mello." my face was burning.

"Hmm I guess I just know how to make you listen." he squeezed me even tighter and rubbed the tip with his thumb.

"Ah oh yes!" I groaned. Mello leaned in close to my face, I could feel his breath on my face. I crushed my lips to his, but the burning in my stomach was to much "F-fuck Mello!" and I came hard all over my stomach.


I sat in the tub, eyes wide in realization. Th-the whole thing I imagined that...and it made me cum! Really hard and I was the one begging for it! My face burned. I guess I am falling in love with Mello. I stared at the murky water.

"Hey Matt!" I heard Cole call from outside the bathroom. "You okay? You've been in there for a long time."

"Yeah. I'm getting out right now!"

"Hurry up, I'll take you to visit Mom."

"O-okay!" I felt my eyes start to burn. Damn! I rubbed them.


When ever we visited my mother we always stopped to buy her flowers.

Orchids.

I stared at the bouquet of flowers.

"Mom is going to be happy you visited."

"Yeah, I guess." I looked out the window. We turned on to a dirt road. Cemetery Drive.


"Hi mom." I said placing the flowers onto a tomb stone.

Mailody 'Mail' A. Jeevas

1973-2002

"Hey, Matt I'm gonna go visit Grandpa Jasper. I'll be back in a second."

Once I thought she was far enough away I bent down to the grave.

"I still wear your bracelet." I said lifting my arm. "I-I'm sorry I got you killed." I felt the tears I had been surpassing since I left home start to fall from my eyes. "I-if I had been paying attention y-you wouldn't have-"

"Matt!" I heard Cole yell and her arms wrap around me. "It wasn't your fault."

"Yes it was! Even dad think so! I'm just a constant reminder of lost love!" I sobbed into Cole's shirt and she rubbed my hair.

"Shh calm down Matt."

"No, I wish I wasn't alive!" Cole pushed me away from her body and smacked me across the face.

"Don't ever say that!" she yelled.

I rubbed my cheek and the tears kept flowing down my face. "I-I'm sorry! I don't know what to say or do! I feel so alone!"

"Matt." she hugged me back to her chest. "I didn't know, I'm so sorry." We sat there for awhile until a stopped crying.

"Hey you want a soda?" She asked and I shook my head. "Happy meal?" I shook my head. "You wanna visit Teegan?"

"I guess." She rubbed my back and I had a sudden sense of deaju vu and it made me shudder, but not in a bad way.

"Alright lets go, Matt."


"Hey Matt...Cole?" Teegan's eyes went wide. "What are you doing here? I thought you were afraid of needles." he teased.

"Yeah well I wanted to cheer Matt up and he loves it here, I was gonna come by sooner or later to thank you for the gift." She said blushing "Anyway any new ink?"

"Yeah this one!" Teegan held his right arm out to show of an anime girl with her back facing out but her torso was turned so you could see her face and huge knockers.

"What is with guys and big boobs?" Cole questioned with an annoyed look, but Teegan just grinned.

With a closer look I noticed the girl looked an awful lot like a certain big sister I know. Ladies and Gentlemen I give you the two most obviously in love people in the world! Now the question is should I say something to and embarrass Teegan? Or go look at the pictures of tattoos?

I choose tattoos. Let them figure that "Love" thing out on their own.

I walked over to a stack of black binders and opened to a random page.

"Hey Teegan, what about this one?" I held up a picture of an open window.

"Where would you get that?" Teegan asked.

"Right on my forehead."

"Why?" Cole questioned.

"So everyone can know what I'm thinking."

Teegan grinned "That's a good idea!"

Cole smacked the back of his head "Shut up! You're a bad influence Teegan!" He just laughed.


"Huff." I flopped down on my bed. What a fucking stressful day! I find out I'm falling in love with my best friend, I had a mental break down, and my sister almost killed Teegan.

I stared at the ceiling letting my mind wonder...of course my mind could only wonder to one thing. Mello. I wish I could see him...Wait a second maybe I can! I whipped my laptop out and searched through files and files until I finally found what I was looking for. The only picture I have of Mello...Actually me and Mello.

In the picture I had a huge grin across my face and my eyes were closed (I think I had been laughing) and Mello had a slight smile on and I noticed for the first time his icy blue eyes were looking at me (well in the picture). I felt my face burn.

He couldn't like me back. Its impossible! I'm just a geek, I can't even let the thought enter my head or else something bad will happen and I'll lose my only friend. I felt my heart sink at the thought. No it'll hurt worse if I lose him completely, I can't let this feeling get in the way. If he finds out he'll just reject me.

I set my laptop on my desk, hooked up the printer and printed the picture out. I grabbed it and laid on my bed, looking at picture, for what seemed like hours. Until my eye lids finally started to feel heavy.

Mello...


A/N: Wow, more angst then I originally planned. As promised a lime for the awesome reviews! I tried to make it as MelloxMatt as I could. If I knew that's all it took to get more reviews I would have done that sooner! Review/alert/favorite thank you please?

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