Only When I Am Asleep…

Chapter Seven: …Can I See a Better Future

I woke up the next morning in a daze. My bed was up against the door. It was still blocking the door? I thought I moved it last night when I showed my mom the video. Did I really show it to her? Was it all a dream? I couldn't remember.

I moved my bed and I went downstairs and saw him passed out on the couch. Probably still from last night. I saw my mom in the kitchen. She gave one look at me and I knew she was mad.

"What the hell were you doing with the bed against your door?" I guess I really didn't show her the video. It was all a dream.

"I was scared when he was drunk," I mumbled, trying to hold back my tears.

"He is my husband! Why can't you accept that?" she almost yelled.

"I've accepted it, I just don't feel comfortable around him and I can't believe you don't believe me because that just hurts me even more! I'm your daughter! I would never do this unless I had proof!" I couldn't stop the tears. They just came.

"Don't pull that on me Sakura! And you don't have proof."

"Pull what? The fact that I'm hurt? And you don't know half of all the proof I have. I'm sorry mother, I'll just get ready for school then," I started to hold it back, but I kept crying. She still didn't believe me. After all my tears and pain! I just couldn't believe this!

I decided that I would run away. I didn't want him to touch me ever again and my mom wouldn't believe me. I would have to go tonight when she was at work and after he passed out. He was obviously an alcoholic, but I guess my mom won't believe that either. I changed for school and packed a bag for tonight and hid it under my bed. I made a copy of the video of my sexual assault on my laptop computer and burned a disk of it. I put a post-it on it that read:

Dear Mom:

I'm sorry for all I've done. I can't live here if you don't believe me, it's too much for me to deal with. Put this into the DVD player, I have a bigger message than I can fit on this post-it.

Love Your Daughter,

Sakura

I put it in a case and wrote on it with sharpie: OPEN ME. I hid it in my desk drawer until tonight when I would tape it to my door. She'd see it then, and probably see the tape and I'll be gone by then. I was fixing the stuff in my bag when I heard the front door open and close and a knock at my door. I quickly shoved my back under my bed and grabbed my shoulder bag for school.

"Come in," I was hoping it was mom, but of course it was him.

"Hey Sakura," he slithered in my room like a snake.

"What? You have to drive me to school, let's go!" I tried to get out of the room when he grabbed me.

"Now Sakura, I didn't get what I wanted last night,"

"I'm gonna be late,"

"No, we have some time," just then he threw me on the bed stomach-first and took off my shirt. He fondled my breasts while he pulled up my skirt and pulled down my underwear. If I didn't have uniforms I would've been wearing jeans today. He shoved himself into my ass. I was crying and scared to death. "Please don't take my virginity! Please make it stop!" is what I kept praying for. I felt like I was being tortured. I had to come back today? I didn't like it, not one bit.

Finally, he stopped. I felt horrible. Was this all my fault? Did he do this to me because I never faced the door when I was dressing and he was peeking? Did I do something to make him sexually attracted to me? Whatever the reason I had to leave.

"Alright Sakura, time for school," he left the room like what just happened didn't exist.

I was still sniffling when I put my shirt, bra, and underwear back on. I grabbed my shoulder bag and went to the car drying my tears. I sat in the front despite the fear I had. Tonight would be the best day of my life. I would go away from him and my unsupportive mother. I just needed a place to stay. Ino and Hinata must be willing to let me stay.

"Sakura, I'll wait for you tonight," he smirked like a creepy piece of shit. The stupid mother fucker.

I nodded and got out of the car for school. I quickly found Ino and Hinata. I sighed with relief.

"Something wrong Sakura?"

I tried holding back tears when I told them how he ass raped me, "It was horrible! I don't know what to do! My mom is still mad at me and won't look at me the same anymore. I'm going to run away."

"Run away?" Hinata looked concerned.

"Well, I was kinda wondering if maybe I could stay at one of your houses,"

"Sakura I totally would let you stay, but today relatives are coming and staying for awhile. I won't have any room," Ino was checked off the list.

"That's okay Ino. Hinata?"

"Of course Sakura! I'd let you stay at my house,"

"Thank you Hinata!"

"But,"

"But?"

"I can't, I was trying to plan a sleepover for all three of us, but my dad said that it was too dangerous with Neji around, he wouldn't let me."

"What if you tell him it's an emergency?"

"I'll call him and see,"

"What am I going to do if you two can't help me?" I was starting to freak out.

"Well, there's always Sasuke," Ino smirked.

"N-no way Ino! His house. He's obviously not a girl!"

"So?"

"Bad news Sakura," Hinata sighed, "my father said no,"

"Eh! Why?"

"He found certain objects under Neji's bed. Magazines," Hinata looked really disgusted.

"Eww, that's gross!" I can't believe Hinata's half brother is so nasty.

"Well like I said: Sasuke!" Ino probably thought she was a genius.

"You really want Sakura to ask to stay at Sasuke's house?" Hinata was thinking just like I was.

"Thank you Hinata! It's not possible!"

"Then who are you going to ask? Karin? One of her bitches?"

"No I would never!"

"Then ask Sasuke,"

"I actually agree with Ino," Hinata had gone to the dark side.

"You too, Hinata?"

"What Sakura? Are you chicken? Afraid of asking him?" Ino was taunting me, despite me knowing that, I just had to prove her wrong.

"No! I'll ask him then!"

"Okay,"

I can't believe what I was doing. I wanted to hit myself in the head.

"Here's your chance Sakura! Here he comes!"

My heart started racing.

"Sasuke! Sakura has a question for you!" Ino yelled to my dismay.

"Ino! What did you do that for?"

"Yeah?" Sasuke was right behind me. I almost jumped.

"Go on Sakura! Tell him your problem!" Ino encouraged.

"Well, there's this problem going on at home, and the only way to avoid it is to leave, and I can't stay with either Ino or Hinata. It was all Ino's idea for me to ask you," I felt like I was going to die.

"What's the problem? Is it serious?" he was concerned. That made me really happy.

"Well-"

Ino butted in, "Really serious, it's horrible! You should tell him Sakura!"

"I'm being sexually abused by my stepfather," after I heard myself say that, I felt really relieved, yet I felt weird.

Sasuke's eyes widened, "Sexually abused? Holy crap,"

"So whaddya say Sasuke? You'll let her stay with you?" Ino continued to add herself into the conversation.

"I guess I have no other choice, I do have room, but why ask me?"

I blushed, "It was Ino's idea, she said I had no one else to ask,"

"Oh, well it's just me and my brother at my house, I'm sure you can stay."

"Really? Thank you so much Sasuke! I didn't know what to do!" I hugged him without thinking.

"Y-yeah, no problem. It's the least I could do,"

Then Naruto came out of no where. "What going on here? Sasuke, some kinda love fest? Hmmm? Hmmmmmmmm?"

Sasuke punched him on the head, "Shut up you dumbass! Sakura was just having a problem and I solved it,"

"Don't act all cool Sasuke! Wait, a problem huh? How'd you solve her problem?"

"It's up to Sakura to tell you,"

"Oh Sakura what's wrong?"

"You retard! She's not gonna tell you so easily!" Ino humphed.

"It's okay Ino. I'll tell you, just keep it quiet okay Naruto? Who knows what Karin and her posse would do if they found out!"

"I promise, no I swear!"

"Okay, I'm being sexually abused by my stepfather and I had to run away, so I'm staying at Sasuke's house,"

"EH! Why would you stay at his house?" he nearly screamed.

"Naruto, quiet!" I shushed.

"Sorry, I thought you would ask Ino and Hinata,"

"I did, but it seems it's impossible for me to stay at their houses,"

"Oh! I get it! You two should have a lot of fun together," Naruto started to tease us more.

"Shut it dumbass," Sasuke muttered.

"Sasuke and Sakura sitting in a-" Naruto was silenced by my fist in his gut.

"I told you to shut it, dumbass," Sasuke smirked.

"Don't ever say anything like that ever again," I almost screamed through my teeth.

"S-Sakura-chan! Naruto-kun!" Hinata didn't seem happy about what I did, "A-are you alright Naruto-kun?"

"Y-yeah, it didn't hurt that much!" Naruto gave a thumbs up while trying to stand upright with his hand on his stomach.

"Aww, I can sense the love already!" Ino laughed as the bell rang for first period.

The day flew by in a blur of different colors and situations. After school Sasuke gave me his phone number and I gave him mine, and my address. He would have his brother, Itachi, drive him to pick me up. I told him to wait in a little street next to my house. I would sneak out when my mom leaves and he is drunk or passed out.

"How was your day?" He smirked. I was so disgusted.

"Fine, boring as usual," I faced the window trying hard not to let my voice crack as I felt I was going to break down in tears. I hated him.

"Well, I have to go back to work, you'll be home with your mother for awhile and I'll be home by eight,"

"Kay," that really cheered me up. He would be gone and give me a lot of time to run away. I would be safe tonight.

He dropped me off and I was greeted by my mom.

"Hello Sakura!" My mom tried to act as if what happened this morning didn't.

"Hey mom," I wasn't going to let her off the hook that easily.

"I'm leaving early today; I'll be gone about five-thirty,"

"Okay," I went to my room and did my homework.

"Bye Sakura!" I heard from downstairs and the door slam.

I picked up my phone quickly and called Sasuke.

"Hello?"

"Sasuke? It's Sakura,"

"Hey Sakura, something wrong with our plan?"

"No, everything's in order, my mom usually leaves later on, but she left early and will be home early. Can you come now? And you don't have to go into the little street. Right in front of my house is fine,"

"Okay I'll be there soon, you won't suffer anymore. See ya later,"

"Yeah, see ya," we hung up and I got all my stuff ready. My mom would be home at least by seven-thirty, thankfully before him. I taped the disk to my door and went downstairs. I soon heard a doorbell. I opened it to find Sasuke and I went in his car.

"Thank you so much," I thanked Sasuke and his brother.

"Anything for Sasuke's girlfriend," Itachi smirked.

"I told you she's not my girlfriend!" Sasuke was obviously embarrassed.

"We're just friends," I added in to make him feel more at ease.

"Okay," it seemed Itachi wasn't at all convinced.

We pulled up to a beautiful house, it was Sasuke's house. I could only imagine what would happen when I walked through the doors.

"Come on in," Itachi said as he unlocked the door.

I held my breath as I walked inside. It was beautiful and looked really big.

"My parents and many family members used to live in this house until they died," Sasuke explained, probably by the look on my face at how great, no how awesome, this house was.

"We've already got you a room," Itachi smiled, "show her Sasuke,"

Sasuke took me upstairs to a door, "Well here it is,"

I closed my eyes as I opened the door and there was my beautiful room.

I just started school, so it's harder to write these things with homework. -.-

Sorry it's been awhile right? It feels like it…

~Rock Leah