Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, and warning may be self abuse and contains alcohol.
Tiffany's POV
I was in my room alone. The Akatsuki had left out an hour ago to go train, at least that's what they told me. I couldn't focus my body was sore, and my thoughts were only getting worse. But I was the one who was thinking them.
'I guess I understand why people hate me, honestly I kind of hate me too, cause there is nothing in me that's worth loving. I wish I could stop my life and press undo.' I thought to myself, but then the dark thoughts came.
'You finally came to your senses? Of course nobody wants you. I mean you heard what Obito said, there's a belt right there go ahead and end your existence as a human.' my thoughts rung out to me. I contemplated my decision and started to crawl towards it. I went into the bathroom and sat on the toilet cover saying one last goodbye before I end my life. I bowed my head and started to think.
'Dear Parents, I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment. I'm sorry I can't impress you good enough. I'm sorry I can't live up to your expectations. Dear mind, I'm sorry I made you suffer, because of my parents. I'm sorry you'll never see me happy. Dear people at my school, I'm so sorry I'm weird. I'm sorry I don't fit in. I'm sorry I don't look pretty like all you do. Dear myself, I'm sorry I was ever born, I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry if I put you down. I'm sorry I made you miserable.' I thought to my self before tying the belt around my shower handle. I put my head through the loop, and stood on top of the my toilet. I smiled to myself this was it, I finally get to be free just as I was about to step down Deidara and Sasori walked in.
"What the hell, un?!" Deidara yelled out, and my eyes widened. Sasori came up first and took the belt from around my head but I had a firm grip on it. He stared at me, and noticed that I was serious about killing myself.
"Deidara back up. Go get the others now." he stated still staring at me. Deidara ran out, and looked at us. I still stared at Sasori, but I didn't say anything. After a minute the Akatsuki was there. They all stared at me, with a shocked face minus Hidan who looked happy.
"Tiffany take the belt away from your neck." Tobi said to me cautiously. I shook my head at him.
"If the bitch wants to kill herself let her." Hidan said. I looked at him, but didn't say anything.
"Give me one good reason why I should stay." I stated simply. They all looked around at each other not able to come up with anything.
"Exactly you can't come up with anything. Just let me die in peace. Please." I begged them, but they didn't budge.
"No you will not kill yourself take the belt away from your neck now." Tobi said seriously, and I heard his real voice a little.
"No." I said to him about to move my foot, saw none of them made a move to stop me so I stepped down. As soon as I did, I felt arms around me. I looked down and saw Obito who had me in a tight grip. I made a sound of annoyance.
"Why won't you people just let me die? Clearly you don't need me around." I said to them, and Tobi put me down, but still had a grip on me.
"We may not need you, but we don't need people getting suspicious." Pein said to me and I scoffed. I pulled away from Obito and got under my covers. I decided I will stay there until I starve to death. I laid there I heard the door open and close, and the bed dipped. I kept my head under, knowing that it was Obito.
"Why would you attempt to kill yourself?" he asked me, but I didn't respond I ignored him. I heard him sigh, but I ignored it. I felt the bed dip again and my room door opened and closed. I still stayed under my covers for some more time. I pulled my head from under the cover, and looked around my room. Obito left out of my room, and I went back into my bathroom. I sat on the floor, and went into the cabinet. I pulled out a razor, I shook a little, but still brought it to my wrist. I sat it there then, I slid it across my wrist. I jumped a little from the pain at first. Then, I settled into the pain it didn't bother me the next couple of times. My vision started to get hazy, but I pushed myself up and started to make my way to a spot behind my dresser. I pulled out a bottle, and sat on my room floor. I opened it, and started to drink it. It burned my throat, but I liked the after taste. My mind started to get hazy, but I was already dizzy from the cutting. I pushed myself up, and hid the bottle again, and made my way back to my bed. I laid there and then I dosed off after a while.
NEXT MORNING
I woke up to yelling, but it sounded like it was close by. I opened my eyes, and saw an angry Obito. I looked at him confused, but he showed me my wrist.
"Oh that? It's nothing." I said to him putting my head back on my pillow. I heard a sigh, and my eyes fluttered open again. I felt him grab my wrist, and I looked at him.
"Stop hurting yourself." he said seriously. I looked at him, and he kept eye contact with me. I blinked and looked down, I didn't want him to do what he did last time. His hand reached up and grabbed my face, but I stopped him, and grabbed his hand and put it back on the bed.
"Why're you doing this?" he asked me, trying to catch my gaze.
"Because I don't want you to kiss me then say you love Rin." I told him, and he caught my gaze.
"That's because I won't." he said to me before closing the distance he grabbed the back of my neck. Causing me not to move, I didn't I just let him. Next thing I know, I was being pushed down on the bed. I felt his weight on top of me, and his tongue lightly grazed my bottom lip. I opened letting him into my mouth, he rolled over so he was on the bottom and I was on top. My hair was shielding his and my face. I had to pull back, because I couldn't breathe. He pulled away, but he started to kiss me around my face. After he felt I had gotten enough air, he instantly kissed me again. We were so into it that we didn't hear my room door open. I heard someone clear their throat, I would've looked up if Tobi wouldn't have kept his grip on my neck. He was reaching for something, and I felt something hit my nose. I glanced up, and saw his mask. He pulled it over his mouth and looked at the door. I hid my face, while he just stared breathing heavily. Kisame was standing there wide eyed.
"I forgot why I was here. So, I'll leave you here to finish your business." he said closing the door. I rolled over, and looked at Obito. And he pulled his mask to the side, and had a smirk on his face. I covered my red face, and just stared at the ceiling. I rolled back over to face him, and he was still looking at me.
"What?" I asked him.
"Nothing, but when we leave. I promise I'm going to come back and get you." He said bringing me into his arms. I hugged him, back and decided that I will go to sleep. I guess he felt this, because he only got comfortable. I fell asleep there and I finally felt truly happy, in a long time.
Except for the part when he leaves you, and you'll get beat the hell out of everyday. And what if he does still love Rin? I guarantee you that, his promise will fly out of his mind, and so will you.' My thoughts said to me. I ignored them for the time being, and just enjoyed the silence while it lasted. \
Done.. I'll update my other story, I am Darkness, tomorrow. And review if you like this chapter. Love you all. Bye Bye.
