Sasayaki

Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon but I would love to. But too bad I don't, not to mention I would probably corrupt the entire storyline! Ha, ha!

Author's Note: "Oh and I love the Gaico Gecko!"

By the way It crossed my mind when Leena and April reviewed, my name is Lina like I've said before, but my cousin's name is April. It's an interesting concept.

Thanks for all the reviews. They keep me going and those whom read what I write that make me work harder. It's probably time to say, if I haven't already to say that I'm not the type or person to want or demand reviews just because it looks popular on the list.

I believe myself to be the type of person who loves to write for the readers. Yes even for those who are too shy to review and say something. I don't say…

"If I don't get 11 reviews I'm not updating" No it's too much to expect of people and I'm grateful for the reviews I get, especially those people that share Ideas and suggestions. And for that I thank you.

Sorry Madam Pegasus, I need to use your story one more time.

Now I present! Chapter 7!


Chapter 7

Morning

The cat was soggy and wet, it had obviously been in the rain for quite some time, and from the looks of it in some dirt as well.

"Sasayaki?" Diamond stepped closer to the cat, it didn't respond, only stared at him curiously, as though it didn't recognize him.

"It's me." Diamond tried to pick up the kitten but of course it stepped back. Fear glazed over its eyes as though it was afraid that Diamond would hurt it.

"I won't harm you." Diamond whispered comfortingly, he continued his attempts of scooping up the cat but it always retreated.

Diamond stood, thinking of what to do. Sasayaki never did this, what's the matter with her? He hadn't noticed that the cat had settled itself in the actual Sasayaki's bed.

Once Diamond had realized the cat was no longer at his feet but in the cat bed he closed the door and strode toward the cat.

"I told you to stay inside..." Diamond's voice was caught in his throat; a wave of cold realization hit him.

This was not his companion. This was not Sasayaki, but merely a stray cat that coincidently held similar blue eyes to his beloved friend. Yes the cat was wet, but its fur held tainted grayness to it, this cat was much older than Sasayaki.

"You're not Sasayaki, are you?" Diamond stared at the cat who had curled up comfortably it opened its eyes and meowed in reply.

How could he mistake this cat for Sasayaki? Or hear her meow when this one was not the gentle whisper he always heard when Sasayaki was in his presents.

It was a shocking reality, where was his sweet, gentle and comforting cat? This wasn't her. Diamond knew that, he dared not touch the cat, but, perhaps Sasayaki sent him, knowing that he would permit a feline friend of hers to stay with them.

He had no problem with the un-expected. What he did have a problem with was the fact that is cat hadn't returned. She hadn't accompanied this newcomer. He searched his room high and low he searched everywhere, but still no sine of her.

Another thought crossed Diamond's mind. He hadn't fed Sasayaki her dinner yet, perhaps she would be hungry She would surly immerge from her hiding place once she heard or smelled her kitty treats.

Sapphire sat in the living room, on one of the cushy arm-chares that Diamond enjoyed. He had been thinking of what torment and misery Diamond had lived, even before he was born he endured torture far beyond a human's expectations or nightmares.

It wasn't till he had come to a conclusion that he would help Diamond find a woman to comfort and ease his pain, it was then that Diamond came out of his room and entered the kitchen.

"Diamond, brother what are you doing?" Sapphire stared at his brother as though he was watching him do a magic trick that he himself could not accomplish.

"Sasayaki." Diamond replied plainly, he was extracting a box of kitty kibble and began shaking in loudly.

"What about Sasayaki?" Sapphire stood and began searching for the tiny kitten.

"I haven't seen her since I left." Diamond answered, still shaking the box.

"She is rather small brother. Perhaps she's in your coat pocket." Sapphire sat back down and began to read an engaging book he had been reading to calm his nerves and mind.

"That's it!" Diamond exclaimed, he than dropped the box and began searching the many pockets of the jacket he had left behind, but still no Sasayaki.

"I can't lose her too Sapphire!" Diamond threw the jacket aside and buried his face in his hands as he sat in the opposite chare from Sapphire.

"You'll find her brother she's probably taking a nap under something we've overlooked. Cats like quiet." Sapphire patted Diamond's back as he reassured his brother.

It seemed to work, though Diamond was quiet for some time, he was still morning the death of his beloved and feared the worst for his dearest cat.

"Brother, you know you have to go to her funeral." Sapphire stated matter-of-factly. He didn't want to tare his brother's heart apart. He deserved to say goodbye.

"I...I know Sapphire." Diamond whispered as he placed the box of food on the counter. He hadn't wanted to think about that, He didn't want to see her tear and bloodstained face in his mind. It was just too much for him to handle.

He blamed her death on himself, he believed that if he had gone through his suicide, he would hopefully be there to welcome her or insure her pain was not to be ignored but instead to be healed, he prayed that he could heal her pain, and she heal his, but it wasn't meant to be.

Fate made sure of that, fate, who ever or what ever it was, obviously wanted him to suffer and in doing so, took away the one true thing he needed.

What did he have left? Nothing, absolutely nothing of her accepts the painful and precious memories of her glares, her tears, a mere glimpses of her smile. He recalled her terrified scream, and her tearstained face, but that wasn't enough was it?

No the memory of blood shrouding her delicate body had to enter his mind that was already aching from the thoughts. He had only remembered one smile, and would give anything if just to see it one last time, he would give the universe if he could just to hear her voice tell him she forgave him and loved him in return or even acknowledged it. Was he truly doomed to suffer an unlivable life?

A week past after Usagi's death and her funeral was held on a Saturday at her favorite wedding chapel. She had hoped to marry there one day, it wasn't meant to be.

Diamond was standing fare from the crowd, overlooking the scenery and the people morning over the young woman they all cared for. After everyone left, Diamond walked to the headstone that held a small, smiling picture of Usagi, It was taken on her birthday, the birthday that Diamond didn't know occurred.

"Sapphire do you think I'll go where she is when I die?" Diamond whispered as he lye pure white roses over her name.

"If you play your cards right and try heard to protect this planet just as she did, or died trying." Sapphire replied sadly as the rain begun to fall, seemingly crying for the two brothers who had lost nearly everything they held dear.

There was still now sign of Sasayaki and Diamond was losing nearly all hope.

A small meow was heard and Diamond looked down. It was what he had been hoping for.

"Sasayaki!" Diamond picked up the small cat and held her protectively in his arms. Blue eyes stared at him, searching, but for what?

Sasayaki thought he'd be at her funeral, after all he did love her, and that was proven this night.

I wonder if he'll move on. She thought to herself as she was carried back home.

"I miss her Sasayaki." Diamond whispered.

Usagi jerked when he spoke. He had been quiet for so long and she wasn't expecting him to speak again till they got back.

"I wish you could have met her." Diamond added, he meant what he said, as he always did when things concerned Serenity.

How where things going to happen now? It seemed like things where becoming worse but what could be done? Sasayaki wondered who was the leader of the rebellion. What was he or she planning for Diamond and his family? What did they have against them?

It couldn't be told at this point. What was going happen to Usagi? Was she still Usagi? Or was she someone completely different?

Would Diamond let her go, even though she wasn't truly dead? Would he ever find out that she was Sasayaki? Would he move on with his life and live alone or find someone else?

To be completely truthful she didn't want him to move on without her, but if worst came to worst it couldn't be helped and she would have to accept it.

What would it be like to truly be dead and to look down on Diamond and not be able to do a thing about his pain and hurt?


Author's note: Ok this is as much as I could come up with at this point sorry people! I'm kind of on Writer's block, I do know what's going to happen though so don't worry I just need to straighten a few things up in the next chapter. I know some of this is misspelled but I'll work on it.