I am who I am

PG –13

Summary: Sakura, a very poor, very dirty, skinny but pretty into the royal palace to be a servant. Why does she have to be a servant? Will she be staying a servant forever? Is this end of her life? – I doubt it –

"…" – Speaking

… - Remembering or dream

… – Thinking

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Syaoran: 19

Sakura: 18

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China, Beijing - year 1845

Chapter 6: A dream became a nightmare

Sakura scrub hard on the floor, sweat drip from her face, wiping her forehead onto her sleeves. After his reply came back, Sakura and Syaoran have been writing to each other. Pigeons will land on their beds or floor, waiting for them to take the parchment. Sometimes they use the royal palace's pigeons, sometimes are the Chan's pigeons. Sakura knew very well, she was not allowed to use any of Chan's things and property, but she didn't care, she has company for once in her life. In many letters, Sakura was told that Syaoran's mother forbid him to write to Sakura, but he didn't care too, he just keep on writing to Sakura, spilling secrets and frustrations like a diary. Sakura was happy to listen, replying Syaoran's question from her points of view, and they seem to get along very well, which is quite unusual for a servant girl and an emperor of China.

A few days, he have been telling Sakura, his mother is trying to get him into a relationship which he doesn't even know who is the girl or her name. Sakura thought about this bitterly, if the emperor got married, nobody would understand her anymore, no one to talk to and will be alone again. But she cannot be so selfish and so she replied you should follow what your heart desires.

Syaoran's and Sakura's relationship seems to be closer and closer, although they haven't seen each other for quite a long period of time but that doesn't hurt their friendship between them. They gave each other the best help, always there for each other, and always supporting. That was more than Sakura wanted, she wanted a friend, but she didn't just have a friend. She got a very helpful, powerful, supportive friend, and he allows her to call him by his first name. Syaoran or Xiao Lang. As for Syaoran, he got what he wants too, since he was the emperor of China, he doesn't have a lot of friends, actually he only got his annoying cousins, but Syaoran never cared about them. Syaoran got his only wish, someone to understand him, and share his problems and frustrations with another. And that is Sakura, Sakura a servant but can see his heart clearly, knows what he's thinking and planning. However Syaoran never treat Sakura like a servant, he treated her as a friend.

Sakura tried to rub the floor very hard, but the stain on the marble floor doesn't seem to get off the floor. She wants to quit, but she kept telling herself she could succeed. There came fast but faint footsteps coming from the corridors. The footstep seems to walk over to Elizabeth's room that Sakura is working in. She just ignored it and just kept scrubbing. She stopped and looks behind her when she heard a panting voice said, " Sa-Sakura…Sakura…the mas-master and mi-ss-tress is in the liv-ing room, waiting for you."

" Me? But I didn't do anything, actually I didn't do anything bad the whole time I was here!"

Grace was still gasping for breath just shrugged. She led Sakura to the living room, where unmistakably the master and mistress are waiting for her. The master was pacing left and right of the room, he have a red face. The mistress's mouth was in a thin line, and fist clench to her handkerchief. Elizabeth and Alex got a smirk on their faces.

Sakura just curtsy and said, " May I help you Master Chan?"

After a few seconds, Master Chan finally stop pacing and starting to bark at Sakura.

" You, girl do you know why are you here?"

" N-No Sir. May I ask why?"

There were giggles from Elizabeth and Alex is trying his hardest to hide his smile.

" You very sure? Servant girl? You sure you never did anything disobeying?"

Sakura tried to scan through everything past these weeks.

letters, cleaning, orders , baths, washing…

" Such as … things that belong to you?"

using their brushes to clean the floor, using my soup they provided…I defiantly didn't do anything to step over the line

She shook her head, still thinking hard.

" What have you been doing these few weeks."

" Cleaning, following orders, obeying your words ," said Sakura . " Write-

" Letters?"

" How did you know?" she was so shocked that phrase came out without passing her brain. She covered her mouth not daring to speak another word.

" You see, girl after all you are using things that does not belong to you, you dirty little beggar."

Sakura cannot do anything except letting does words hit her heart, causing her tears form in her eyes.

" So I was right, how dare you use my things without my permission. How dare you, when you know you are an untouchable. When you know you are not allow. When you know you are putted her because you fail the test of the royal palace."

I didn't not fail. It's just Yelan doesn't like me.

" They must have abandons you here and let us to take care of you. But sorry we don't adopt a beggar and such a poor freak like you."

I didn't got abandon, I'm trying to let my father and my brother a better lives.

At this point, Elizabeth got an evil smile on her face. She walked to her father and calm him down.

" It's ok, you can relax, you don't want your blood pressure to go up high again for that ugly hag. This have something to do with me anyways. I am allowed and able to teach this little brat something."

She walked around Sakura.

" So, you sent letters to a person a whole month? Who is that person? Why do you need to sent those letters? Is HE so important to you?"

" I- don't know what you are talking about." Said Sakura quietly, her temper was hold in her cheeks.

" I'm not too sure about that ." As she is talking she took out a piece of long parchment. She began to read it.

" On 21st of February you said, I miss being in the palace, it's much more crowded, I'm so lonely."

" On 29th of February you said , let's be friends, we can share our problems together."

Those are my personal letters, she have no write to open my letters.

" On 14th March, you wrote, you should be listening to your mother and marry a rich girl but it really depends on you. I rather you choose from your heart."

Sakura now is clenching her fist, tears flowing from her eyes, like a never ending waterfall.

She folded the piece of paper.

" So who are you writing to?"

" I was writing to a friend of mine." She lied.

" O…where does she live?" Elizabeth pretending to not know.

Please don't ask me any more.

" Near my house. She lives next to me."

She'll find out soon enough.

"And where is your house?" She asked more.

" I live east of the palace."

" you are a horrible liar. The guards that guard the pigeons said they always fly north TO the royal palace."

" You – you spy at me? Why me?"

" Of course you, what do you think? Alex?" She gave a shrilled laugh.

" How – could you?"

" Why not? You're writing to my cousin, Syaoran. He's suppose to be mine, and then me and my family can always live in peace. And if he die or we'll make him die we'll be the next to the throne."

Sakura just stared at her wide eyes.

" O don't worry. I'll make sure I'll get him before you. He's mine anyways. If he ever consider you as his bride. He'll definitely take me since I'm pretty and well educated. Unlike disgusting girl."

The temper in her cheeks cannot hold any longer.

" STOP INSULTING ME LIKE I OWN MY LIFE TO YOU."

Without notice Elizabeth's hand slapped Sakura's left cheek there is a small handprint there and it happens to be a bright red. Sakura touched her cheek softly, more tears rolled down causing the mark hurt a little more.

" How dare you speak to me like that. I have a much higher status than you – freak-

" I'M OUT OF HERE , I CANNOT STAND YOU PEOPLE TREATING ME LIKE A SLAVE, I CANNOT BEAR IT! YOU PEOPLE TREAT THE POOR LIKE DIRT." Sakura shouted at the top of her voice.

Elizabeth tried to grab hold of her hair but she couldn't reach since Sakura ran to the doors. There were a pair of strong hand grab hold of her, she cannot move herself out. It turned out to be Alex.

" Now where do you think you are going?"

" AWAY, AWAY FROM THIS CREEPY PLACE WHERE PEOPLE TREAT THE LOWER ONES BAD." Sakura still shouting.

Alex brought Sakura infront of Elizabeth. Who gave her a couple more slaps on both cheeks before letting her fall on the floor. Sakura, her mouth bleeding, she press her sleeve to stop it. There were bruises on her lips which makes it swollen.

" You're not going anywhere, " Alex turned to Master Chan. " Change of plan Uncle, we use Sakura to take over the throne…

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