Chapter 7: Giving Into Temptation

Kenzi POV

Being against the wall with Seth was driving me crazy and I was desperately trying to resist any urge to show him that I liked what was happening. My hands raked up and down his chest repeatedly and my breath was becoming erratic. Seth groaned against my neck making it even more impossible to calm down. "Yeah, I'm all yours, forever and always yours," he said seductively. My heart was racing a million miles an hour when Seth asked me the next question. "Can you handle that?"

My mind wanted to blurt out that I could handle anything Seth threw at me but I managed to control myself for a little while longer. "Yes, baby I can handle you," I said with a shaky breath. Did I just call Seth baby? I was still being restrained by his strong arms when the one thing I didn't want to say came out of my mouth. "I can handle anything you do to me but if you don't do something soon I might go crazy."

Seth backed away from me briefly and chuckled tugging at my tangled hair. "Oh really and what would happen if you went crazy?" he asked. The next thing I knew Seth's hands were running along my thigh, I knew he was trying to push me. "I'd love to see you go crazy, Mac." If he kept up his ministrations I would go crazy any second.

I tilted my head back against the wall staring up at Seth with curiosity in my eyes. "You want to be my lover, don't you? I asked as my breath hitched. I was confused by all of this new information I was given. Seth could be anything I needed him to be including a lover. Did I really need a lover right now?

Seth's lips trailed along my jaw and down the side of my neck to my shoulders. "If a lover is what you need and what you want, Kenzi then that's what I'll be," he whispered driving me further into the pool of goo I was becoming. "Just say the word Kenzi and you have what you need."

After a few more long minutes of teasing me Seth released me from his grasp and walked down the hall towards the bathroom. I wasn't sure what I wanted right now but it was nice to know that I had a choice in the matter of my destiny as well as his. "This is so confusing," I muttered heading back towards my room. Once inside the door I closed it and stood there completely in shock. If I had been in Seth's arms much longer I'm pretty sure that we would've gone too far too soon.

I plopped down on the bed staring up at the blank ceiling while playing with my phone and calling Katie. After three rings her voicemail picked up and this wasn't something that should be left on voicemail message. I couldn't stay still and I knew exactly why, I needed pleasure something anything because my body was on overdrive. "Why now? Why him as of all the people in La Push I had to be imprinted on by the one person I couldn't stand?" I said out loud forgetting that Seth was in the house.

A loud growl erupted from somewhere down the hall and I knew instantly that Seth had heard my little venting session. I wondered if I should go talk to him. I didn't have a chance to think about it long before Seth stomped into my room. "If you don't want the imprint that's fine but you don't need to be a bitch about it!" he snapped staring down at me and I hated it. I wanted to take everything I had just said back but Seth didn't give me any time to do that before he disappeared back down the hall.

I followed Seth to his room pushing the door open as he tried to close it. I knew I had screwed up in the worst way possible and I had to fix it. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean that the way it sounded, Seth," I muttered sitting on his bed. "This whole thing is just so confusing me I don't understand it, and I don't do well with relationships at all."

Seth glared at me for a few long minutes before saying anything. "You think that I really want this either? I hated just as much is you do," he snapped with such anger that I was actually afraid of him. I wasn't sure whether I should run or not. Seth's eyes swept over my body again. "If I really had a choice about the imprint that I was given it sure as hell wouldn't have been you!"

I never expected that to be so mean to me even though I knew we didn't get along. Tears streamed down my face as I ran back to my room without saying a word. Once the door was closed I sank down in front of it sobbing uncontrollably. "I should've never come home," I cried hating everything about the night.

A few minutes later I felt someone knock on the door but I refused to move. I figured once they realized I wasn't going to let them in the room they'd go away but I was wrong. Seth's voice was quiet and soft when he finally spoke. "Kenzi I'm sorry, I didn't mean what I said to you. Will you please let me in the room?" He asked playing with the door knob. "I'm really sorry, Mac I didn't mean it honestly."

I didn't move I couldn't because I refused to let staff know that his words actually hurt. "Just go away, Clearwater you made your point, I'm not the one you would've chosen for yourself," I sniffled trying to hide the fact that tears were still falling. "Go find one of your many girls and pick one of them."

The next thing I knew the door I was leaning against was gone. Seth had taken it off the hinges. I fell backwards into his legs with a loud thud. "Kenzi, you can't run away from me even if you tried the imprint bond would bring you back to me," he whispered helping me stand up. "I'm really sorry I'm just missing my dad that's all. I know I shouldn't have taken it out on you and I'm sorry."

If Seth said I'm sorry one more time I was going to scream. I knew he didn't mean it but it still hurt. I wasn't sure how to make him see that I wanted him in my life. I followed the instinct that I always did when it came to guys. I touched his face with my hand or attempted to at least. "I know I haven't let you in a lot, and I promise I'll try more," I whispered softly. "I just have so much to deal with that I'm not used to having anyone care."

Seth picked me up off the ground so that I was eye to eye with him. I felt his fingers wipe away tears that had fallen a few minutes before. "I know that, Mac but I do care," he said pushing a strand of hair out of my face. "We won't always get along you know that, it's already happened. Our chemistry can't be denied sweet cheeks."

I had to agree with him there when we were being civil with each other the chemistry was undeniable. Even at that moment in his arms I wanted to kiss him and never stop. "I know it can't and I don't want it to be, but you have to work with me on this, okay?" I asked against his neck inhaling his scent. "I like when we get along, trust me on that one." I knew I probably would pay for that revelation later but I didn't care.

Seth ran his lips along my jaw line teasing me slightly. "Oh, I do too, baby believe that," he whispered not stopping the trail his lips were making along my skin. My heart started to race again when Seth laid me on the bed. Part of me wanted to stop him but the stronger part was enjoying everything he was doing. "You are so damn beautiful, Kenzi do you know that?"

I looked up at him as my fingers tangled in his hair. "I'm glad you think so, Clearwater," I whispered weakly. My body was going insane now the feeling of his lips across my skin was like a thousand feathers being brushed across it. "Seth as much as I'm enjoying your lips on my skin we really shouldn't do this in your mother's house."

Seth chuckled never stopping his torment on my body. "Shush, Kenzi I can tell you want it or at the very least need it," he said as his lips traveled down to my navel. "Don't try to deny your desire either because I can smell it."

I wasn't about to deny anything because I couldn't even think straight at the moment. My nails started to dig into my thighs in an attempt to control myself. "I do need it but not if your mom is about to walk in on us," I admitted shyly as I felt my cheeks warm over with blush.

Before I realized what Seth was doing his fingers were dancing along waistband of my jeans. My breath caught in my throat and I couldn't help myself from tugging at his hair. His thumb popped the button of my jeans pushing them down slowly. "Are you going to let me help you?" he asked looking up at me through his dark lashes.

My back arched into him as I struggled to answer his question. "Help me how?" I asked feeling slightly embarrassed almost mortified. I knew exactly what Seth meant by his question and to be honest I liked the thought of him helping me. "If you mean helping me in a sexual way, I just barely met you we need to take that slow."

Seth stared at me in disbelief I guess he had never been turned down before. He made his way back up my body stopping just on my lips. "If you're sure that's what you want, I won't force you," he whispered against my neck groaning softly. "I was hoping that you would say yes and give in to the temptation."

My mind was racing with too many thoughts at once and I'm pretty sure Seth knew that. I was scared of being walked in on by Sue or even worse being laughed at by Seth for doing something wrong. I didn't want Seth to move but I knew I had to tell him why I was resisting him. "Seth, do you want to know why I'm fighting you on this?" I asked nervously afraid of his reaction. "I do want to go further than just kissing with you but not yet."

Seth was quick to climb off of me and sit at the edge of the bed. His eyes were huge he looked embarrassed and sad. "I'm sorry; I couldn't help myself, Kenzi. I don't know what came over me I'm not usually so out of line with girls I just met," he stammered nervously rubbing the back of his neck.

I found the incredibly cute that Seth was so apologetic for his actions. He wasn't the only one encouraging how far we went. I was just as guilty as he was but I was probably further out of line. "It's alright, I should've stopped you sooner, I was enjoying it a bit too much to do that," I admitted feeling the blush rise in my cheeks. "I'm just thankful mama Sue didn't come home to find us like that. She probably would have called Uncle Billy him thrown me out before we could've explained."

Seth smiled at me placing a gentle kiss on my forehead before standing up and stretching his long arms. "She would never kick you out she might kick me out though," he laughed as his back popped loudly. "So technically, Mac, you're my god sister? That's just weird, it's almost too weird."

I laughed when Seth realized I'm his God sister falling back on to the pillows. "Well, we don't have to tell anyone about that," I said with a smirk across my face watching Seth intently as he walked back over to the bed. "It's not like you're going to go broadcasting that I'm your imprint anyway."

My body fell back against the pillows suddenly and when I looked up Seth was over my body again. His dark eyes swept down my chest and his lips landed on my neck. "I'd show you off in a heartbeat but you're pissing me off. When are you going to learn to be less of a bitch to me?" he asked resting on his elbows. "You're so damn attractive when you're not being a bitch."

I toyed with Seth's necklace admiring it closely; it reminded me of the necklace I used to wear when I lived here. "I wouldn't have to be a bitch if you weren't such an ass all the time," I said running my fingers along his neck. "Did you make this? It's beautiful I used to have one similar to it before I moved to Manhattan."

Seth chuckled kissing my nose playfully. "Yeah, I made it it's kind of a tribal tradition remember?" he asked running his fingers along my shoulders and over the top of my breasts. "Everyone in the tribe knows how to do them especially the guys. "Don't you remember how to make them?"

I was embarrassed because I didn't remember ever learning how to weave or anything tribe related when I was younger. Jared was the one that showed interest in that kind of thing and he was the one my dad showed everything to anyway. I bit my bottom lip nervously before answering the question. "No, no one ever taught me how to weave and crafts like that, Jared knows though," I admitted feeling very ashamed. "I was an embarrassment to my dad I guess he never showed me any of those things."

Seth ran his fingers along my jaw line looking up into my eyes. "I'll teach you, Mac if you have the patience to learn. I'll teach you anything you want to know," he whispered against my ear. "All you have to do is ask."

I felt a shiver run down my spine in response to Seth's touch. I wanted to test the boundaries of our relationship but I also knew that couldn't happen in his mother's house. My body was responding on its own I felt like I had lost complete control. "You want to teach me what I don't know?" I asked in an attempt to distract myself from what I really wanted to do. I felt my breath hitched in my throat as I struggled to get the next few words out of my mouth. "By all means, Clearwater, teach me all you know and maybe I can teach you a thing or two."

I expected Seth to fall over in shock but instead we were kissing intensely as my legs wrapped around his waist. A loud groan was followed by my movements which told me Seth was enjoying every bit of the attention. "Damn Kenzi, are you trying to kill me?" he asked fumbling with my t-shirt desperately trying to pull it over my head. "We won't be able to stop much longer if you keep this up."

The thing was that I didn't want to stop for anything, I wanted to give into the temptation that Seth was offering me. My fingernails raked down his chest and a strangled moan escaped my lips. "What if I don't want to stop?" I asked curious for his answer. "I thought you wanted me to give in to temptation?"

To my surprise Seth pulled away from me and got off the bed standing in front of his dresser. I tried not to act hurt by this and somewhat offended but I was failing miserably. Seth looked at me in disbelief. "Kenzi, I do want you to give in to temptation with me but not until you're ready for that," he told me sounding irritated. "I may be an ass but I'm not that bad, not even to you."

I nodded completely silent I was afraid that if I spoke I was sound like an idiot. I very carefully climbed off of Seth's bed and walked back to my room. I was humiliated and embarrassed that I'd lost control of myself that easily. Could I even go that far with Seth? Would I ever be able to trust another man? I guess my body made up its own mind for me tonight when I was ready to give into temptation.