A/N: So, here is the chapter you have been waiting for!

**Lemon warning**

See you at the end!

Chapter 7 – Mistake

"It is a mistake to look too far ahead. Only one link of the chain of destiny can be handled at a time."

Winston Churchill

EPOV

I closed the door silently behind me, carefully watching Bella. She was biting her lip again…a gesture I was beginning to both love and hate. I loved it because it made her look so damn sexy. I hated it because it meant that she was nervous. I didn't want her to feel nervous about me.

I took a tentative step toward her. I wanted to take her into my arms immediately, but for some reason I knew I had to tread carefully. The whole evening had been a swirl of emotions. I was furious at Jasper for the way he treated her; overwhelming lust as I watched her move, laugh and sip her wine. Confusion at the admiration I felt for her. In one evening, Bella Swan had completely turned my life around.

Bella held her hand out to me, and I grasped it tightly. She led me to her bed until her legs touched the edge. I stepped closer to her and wound my arms around her, gazing into her beautiful eyes.

"Are you ok?" I whispered, desperate for the answer.

She nodded and moved to stand on her toes. Her hands wove through my hair as she tugged me down to her lips. I almost exploded around her when her lips touched mine again. She smelled of wine, cigarettes and strawberries. Her breath on my face was warm and sweet, and it made my heart start beating faster.

All of the confusion over the evening swirled away as my mind and body concentrated fully on Bella. Her hands still in my hair began to tug gently, indicating her need. Unable to breathe, I stepped back from her for just a second. I rested my forehead on hers, trying desperately to center myself and gain some control. I knew that we were both drunk. I didn't want to make a mistake because I wasn't thinking clearly.

But I couldn't resist her. I couldn't resist the feeling of home being in her arms. I couldn't resist the urge to kiss her again, and I certainly couldn't resist the way her tongue slid slowly across her lips.

Bella shifted slightly, so she could look into my eyes. "Edward," I almost groaned at the way she said my name. "I want you. More than I've ever wanted anyone."

I smiled down at her and leaned in to kiss her again. Who was I to deny this beautiful creature anything? Her breath became erratic, as I deepened this kiss-pushing my tongue into her mouth. With more confidence, I pulled my arms from around her waist and began unbuttoning her shirt. Bella slid her hands down my back, tugging at the edge of my shirt. I leaned back just enough for her to slip the shirt over my head. By that time, I had finished unbuttoning her shirt. I slid it down her arms, letting it fall to the floor.

My hands began shaking as I brought them up her back, unclasping her bra. It tumbled forward, and I let it slide to the floor as well. With a sharp intake of breath, I looked down at the most perfect, beautiful breasts I had ever seen. This woman continually surprised me. I kept waiting for something to show me that she wasn't perfect, but that never happened. She was perfect.

I pushed her gently to the bed. She slid up the bed until she was positioned right in the middle of it. Slowly, I unbuttoned my jeans, letting them pool at my feet. I kicked them off, leaving my boxers on. I didn't want to rush this moment. She was perfection and desire in one small package. I couldn't contain myself for long…but I wanted to savor her.

I crawled up the bed, as Bella held her arms out to me. Positioning my knees on either side of her legs, I bent down and swiftly kissed her stomach. I kissed all the way down to the start of her jeans, unbuttoning them. She lifted her hips, as I slid her jeans down. I lowered my head and began kissing her ankle; kissing up her leg until I reached her core. I could smell her arousal, but as much as I wanted to taste her, I knew our first time needed to be special. I wanted it to be slow and comforting, rather than fast and aggressive.

Sliding over her core, I began kissing up her stomach. As I got to her chest, I placed open mouth kisses on her breasts, concentrating my tongue on her hard nipples. She arched her back into me and moaned, fisting her hands in my hair again. As I moved to the other breast, I positioned my legs in-between hers. Her hips bucked into me, causing me to groan and push against her. My erection was becoming painful and pressing it against her was making it even worse.

Tearing myself away from her breasts, I kissed up her chest sucking and licking up her neck. Once I was completely on top of her, she wound her legs around me and threaded her hands in my hair. She pulled me closer to her and crashed her lips against mine. We both moaned at the contact. I pressed myself to her core again and again until we were both panting.

I braced myself on my arms and gazed lovingly at her. "Are you ready for me, beautiful?"

She nodded solemnly. I sat back putting my fingers on either side of her underwear. I slid them down her legs and threw them off the bed. I took her entire body in; gazing everywhere. She really was perfect.

"So beautiful-so perfect," I murmured, sliding my boxers down, throwing them to the floor as well. Then I slid up her body until I was on top of her again. Her legs quickly moved to tighten around me, as I reached down to line myself up to her. I looked at her raising an eyebrow, asking her permission. She nodded again, and I slowly pushed into her.

My body felt alive with sensations. She was tight and wet beyond belief. I couldn't believe that I had the good fortune to meet her…and that she was so perfectly suited for me. Her body molded to mine with no complications or awkwardness. It was like she was specifically made for me.

I pulled out and pushed back into her slowly, attempting to adjust to the feel of her around me. She squirmed slightly, and I gazed down into her eyes. She smiled at me, as I lowered my mouth to hers; continuing to move inside of her.

"Oh, baby, you feel incredible," I whispered. She was my whole world…she made everything feel right. She was home to me now.

"Edward," she whispered against my mouth. "I've never felt like this before. Have you?"

"No, beautiful. You are the only one who has ever been like this for me." My mouth claimed hers again. I hitched her leg up in order to position myself deeper inside of her. She gasped, and I felt her start to constrict.

Knowing that she was close, I sped up just a bit, so that we could come together. "Come for me, baby," I said, kissing down her neck. Her hands grasped my shoulders tighter and began meeting me thrust for thrust. Just as I knew I couldn't take anymore, she tightened around me. She exploded, moaning and gasping my name, as her body arched off the bed.

I slowed down and rocked with her as I came hard. My eyes were unable to open fully and there were stars and shining lights everywhere. My forehead rested against hers as we both attempted to control our breathing.

"Shit," I cursed, extracting myself from her grasp. She looked up at me with fear in her eyes. I chuckled and planted a quick kiss before I pulled myself off the bed. "I forgot to use protection. I was so caught up in the moment that I just forgot."

She smiled shyly at me. "It's ok, I didn't think about it either."

I walked into the bathroom, cleaning myself off before heading back to her room. She had covered herself with a sheet and was gazing at me. Her eyelids were heavy; her smile was sweet. I crawled onto the bed and lay down facing her. I put my hand on her cheek.

"I know that wasn't the right way to do this. I should have protected you…and I should have let you deal with Jazz first," I smiled at her. "But, damn I'm glad that happened."

"Me, too. You really took me by surprise!" We laughed together. She slid a little closer to me. "I will break up with Jasper tomorrow morning. As if it would make a difference that we slept together…he is obviously sleeping with my best friend right now!"

I laughed a little harder. "Oh, yeah, I had forgotten about that." I sat up a little and looked deep into her eyes. "I can't even explain to you how amazing that was for me. I felt more connected to you than I have with anyone else in my entire life. And, Bella, you deserve better than my brother. I want to take care of you, love you and make you mine for eternity. You are so special, Bella. And, if you let me, I will spend the rest of my life showing you just what you mean to me."

I immediately sensed the error of my words. I was trying to tell her everything that was in my heart, but she froze and pulled away from me. Her eyes were wide with shock as she placed both hands on my chest holding me back.

"What are you saying exactly, Edward?" Bella said slowly.

What was I saying? Then, without a doubt in my heart or mind, I said the first words that came to me. "Marry me, Bella."

Bella jumped up from the bed and grabbed her bathrobe quickly covering herself up. "What the hell are you talking about? We barely know each other!"

I jumped up and circled my arms around her. With her hair in my face, I began trying to calm her. "Beautiful, we know each other a lot better now. You said it yourself; you have never felt that way before. Neither have I! Being with you was the single most enjoyable moment of my life. Now that I've had you, I don't want to let you go.

"Baby, please, just think about my offer. I don't expect you to answer me right now, of course, but just know that I am here now and I want you. You are my life now," I said simply. She needed to know how I felt.

Bella pushed away from me as her arms wrapped around her stomach. "Please tell me you are joking," she whispered, unable to meet my eyes.

"No, beautiful, I'm not joking."

"Listen to me carefully, Edward. What we just did was amazing, yes, but it was wrong! I don't care what Jazz and Ali are doing in the next room, I never should have let it get this far with you. I knew you were going to mean trouble for me the first second I laid my eyes on you. And I was right.

"Edward, I had a great time with you tonight. I have never been with anyone that made me feel the way you do. But," she paused as my heart began to constrict-whether in pain or in love, I couldn't tell. "I can't marry you after just one night."

Suddenly, I was upset. I poured my heart and soul out to this girl, and she was rejecting me. Well, I wasn't going to sit and take that. Furious, I began pulling my clothes on. My anger was so fierce that I was almost seeing red, as I turned to face her. I buttoned my jeans and didn't put my shirt on yet.

"Bella, you and I are meant for each other. I could feel it when I touched you for the first time, when you said my name and when you screamed as you came undone in my arms. I gave myself to you fully because the electricity between us was so strong I couldn't hold back. My heart and my soul were yours from the first time we touched – no! It was yours from the first second I heard your voice. I can't believe that you don't feel the way I do. Maybe you just need time to figure it out."

I grabbed my shoes, shoving them on my feet. I walked toward her bedroom door and put my hand on the handle. Without turning and looking at her, because it was just too painful, I said, "Just don't take too long. I won't wait forever."

I shut her bedroom door behind me and walked into the living room. I heard a sob coming from her room. I almost turned around to run back to her. I stopped myself, saying that she needed to figure out how she felt all on her own. I couldn't force her to feel something for me…and I certainly didn't want to try.

I took my jacket off the coat hanger and shrugged it on. I glanced back at her door, which was still closed. With my heart in my throat, I opened the door and closed it behind me.

A/N: **runs and ducks behind a desk**

Ok, ok I know you all hate me right now…but this really WAS necessary for the overall story! Please, please stick with me here…I do have a plan