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Chapter 7 – Jealousy
"I wonder… If a simple kiss left you like that… What would happen if I did something that went even further. And you know what… I think I want to find out what would happen."
Benny moved his feet closer to Castiel.
"Do I sound like I'm joking?"
Castiel backed away a few steps.
"No… Oh no!" His voice betraying him as he tried to hide the fear from his face.
"So… This is scary, isn't it?" Benny asked.
Castiel was so nervous that he blushed. He was scared of Benny and scared of what would happen to him.
Just as he thought he was getting the fear past him, he sobbed. His eyes were all watery and the only sound coming from him was a light sob.
Benny blinked a few times and clicked his tong.
Castiel seemed confused with this action, so he frowned and tilted his head, like he usually does.
'Did he just click his tong at me?'
Suddenly Benny stepped closer to Castiel and wiped the tears that had formed in Castiel's eyes.
"I thought that if I made you cry it would simmer down… But it's making it worse. Could you not cry for me?" He asked with annoyance glinting in his eyes.
Castiel – again – panicked. He opened his mouth, trying to speak but his mind was blank.
Benny had already stepped away from Castiel, and grabbed the umbrella from the floor.
'Th-This is crazy! This is totally crazy!'
Words seemed to find their way back to Castiel.
"Benny… Do you have a split personality?" He asked, as soon as the words found him.
Benny sighed.
"It's not like it's split… They're both the real me… But that doesn't matter anyway." Benny pulled the umbrella to protect himself from the rain. "You're in love with Dean, aren't you?"
Memories came flashing into Castiel's mind.
'Cas…' Just remembering Dean saying his name made Cas blush lightly.
Benny waited for Castiel to reply him.
"I… I do love him." He answered.
'I'm so embarrassed. I must look so stupid! Even though Benny just told me he hates me… in situations like this… Why am I being so honest with him?'
"…You know…" Castiel tried to continue to speak, but as soon as Benny saw that tears were finding their way to Cas' eyes he stopped him.
"DIDN'T I JUST TELL YOU TO NOT CRY?!" He yelled and that made Castiel jump a little.
"YES!" Castiel replied, sending the tears way from his eyes with his hand.
Benny proceeded, more calmly now.
"And that Dean wasn't the one who kissed you?"
"Yes…" Castiel answered, not really understanding where Benny was trying to reach.
"And… just how.. does that have anything to do with you being in love with him?!"
Castiel froze.
'Does that have anything to do with you being in love with him?!' he words kept playing in Castiel's mind as he tried to come to reason with them.
"It… Doesn't…" Cas was finally understanding what Benny was trying to make him see.
A sigh came from Benny's mouth.
'I guess… That's right… Even if Dean's not the one who kissed me.. It's still okay for me to love him…'
A smile started forming in Benny's lips.
"Oh well… At least I can help you out to make up for how much I just made you cry…" He say while turning around and starting to walk away from Cas.
'Help me out? Just what is he going to do?'
*The next day – outside the library*
Castiel stopped by the door.
'Dean… I wonder if he's there… Even if I keep telling myself that it's okay for me to love him, it's still embarrassing to have totally gotten the wrong idea… What should I say to him?'
Cas was so absorbed with his thoughts he didn't notice Benny come behind him.
"Hey." He said, grabbing the door handle. "If you're going in, just go in already!" There was a tone of annoyance in his voice.
As soon as he said that he opened the door.
Looking inside the library, Cas found Dean lying his head down at the table.
'D-Dean….'
When he heard voices, Dean lifted his head a bit, to see who was about to come in.
Dean saw the door swing open and Castiel with Benny beside him.
Dean's eyes opened wide, he was surprised to see his friend with Cas. But as fast as that emotion had came to his face it went way.
His face was now emotionless.
'I… I can't even say anything to him!' Castiel was panicking.
Dean's words came flowing back to his mind 'Arrogant!'
'What if he laughs at me? What if something embarrassing happens again?'
Benny moved from the door-way and started to walk inside the library.
Without thinking too much, Castiel grabbed Benny's shirt with his hand a pulled it a bit, as if trying to stay close to Benny.
That move didn't pass by Dean.
Castiel looked down, still afraid of what would happen with Dean.
"Hey…" Benny started. "Can you let go? You'll wrinkle it!"
Castiel a bit in shock with himself, suddenly started to apologize.
"I-I'm sorry!" His face was just as worked up as his voice.
Dean looked at the scene before with no expression on his face.
"Oh… Yeah! You forgot this…" Benny said, grabbing something from his pocket, and going behind Cas. "…back there."
He started putting something in Castiel's neck.
As soon as Benny's hand left Cas' neck he looked down. He found his tie now hanging there.
'Oh! My tie!' Benny's words started to get into Castiel's brain. 'You forgot it back there…' and his face got painted with a light shade of red, while remembering what Benny had done 'back there.'
All of a sudden Dean was standing close to Cas and had a book in his hand.
Dean tapped the book to Castiel's chin lightly.
"Remember that book we ripped a while ago… I went to a shop a bought a new one."
Cas looked at Dean's impossibly green eyes. Too many memories came rushing to Cas' mind.
'Why… And just why… Would I necessarily want to kiss you?'
Cas couldn't take it anymore. He rushed through the door, running as fast as he could. His only thoughts directed to what he had just done.
'Now what? Now what?! I can't believe I just ran away again!' He was so frustrated with himself, that he didn't notice Balthazar in the hallway, sticking a poster in the cork board. 'When it's about Dean, I just…'
CRASH!
"Ba-Balthazar! Sorry!" Castiel started apologizing – yes, he ran into Balthazar, but no, they did not fall to the ground.
"Cassie! You look… Are you alright? You look upset!" Balthazar began, trying to understand what made Castiel not look to where he was going.
"It's nothing. What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be at practice?" Cas tried to change the subject.
"Oh… That's right." Balthazar nodded, and smiled. "But they asked me to come and stick some posters over the boards." He pointed to the poster.
Castiel looked to where he was showing.
"Oh! A fireworks show! And it's this weekend!" Cas said excited.
Balthazar saw the excitement in Castiel's eyes and decided to try his luck once again.
"Hey… Do you want to go to the show together?" he asked, giving the boy a charming smile.
Castiel was beginning to process his words, when a new voice joined them.
"THEN I WANNA GO TOO! AND BRING GABE!" Sam had just come to get Balthazar, probably because he was out of posters and Balthazar still had a tone with him. His face was all lit up and one could see he was really interested in going.
"Where did you come from?" Castiel asked, when he first heard Sam.
Balthazar looked a bit annoyed but complied.
"Ok… I guess."
They both smiled at Castiel, and Sam winked at him. Castiel smiled back knowing that only he knew about Sam and Gabriel.
"Think it over!" Balthazar said, winking at Cas. He grabbed Sam with one hand and they went to the next cork board.
'A fireworks show…'
"Hmmm… Do you like this kind of thing?" A voice said behind Castiel.
He turned back to find both Benny and Dean behind himself. Benny was getting closer to Castiel, so that he could see the board and read the poster.
"Cas… The people are noisy…" Benny continued, speaking to Cas as if it were a normal event. Meanwhile Dean must have found the floor being really interesting, because he couldn't look away. "…And you only go there to see some gunpowder blow up… I don't get what's so interesting about that…"
"You have no feelings, Benny. Don't you? But the crowds are just so thrilling!" Dean said raising his eyes from the floor.
Castiel felt his cheeks turning red.
"Benny, Dean… Why did you both follow me?" Castiel asked, unsure of what the answer would be.
"Because you ran away!" They both said, like it was obvious.
"Just why do you ran away, anyway?" Benny asked. No answer came from Castiel, whose cheeks were as red as a tomato. "Putting the answer on hold like that is to behave like a coward. Running away from the scene is just pointless. Or maybe you do have some idea behind it…" Benny continued, getting closer to Cas.
Dean looked at the two of them getting closer to each other, Castiel getting all flustered, unable to reply. His face turned a bit angry.
"Oh… I see, the reason I get mad is because it's just foolish." Dean said. He smirked, and looked at Cas. "And since when did you two became so close with each other?"
Benny shrugged. Grabbed Castiel by his waist and got him closer to himself.
"Ever since the day you made him cry."
Dean's eyes widened in shock, which made his eyes look even more green than before.
"Eh?" Dean asked.
Castiel was just as shocked as Dean, he wasn't expecting Benny to say such a thing in front of Dean, so his face was mimicking Dean's, while jumping away from Benny.
"Wha.." Castiel said. He gave a small breath – trying to calm himself down, but failed, so he just gave up and continued anyway. "I wasn't crying! That was all my own misunderstanding!"
'Why did Benny just say something like that?! I don't want Dean to feel bad because of it too!'
"Just… a misunderstanding." Benny repeated.
Cas looked down, with his face burning red.
Benny sighed, his face close to Cas'.
"Well, I'll be! You're not crying." Benny continued.
"I won't cry…" Cas said softly.
"When I look at you, it definitely annoys me. But I can't help but to wonder why whenever you run away, I wonder how you're doing?" Benny said, softly.
Suddenly Dean spoke, startling Cas.
"Isn't that because you're in love with Cas?"
Castiel looked at Dean, not sure what to think. Benny still facing Cas, turned his eyes a bit so that he could see Dean from the corner of his eyes.
"If that it…" Benny said, turning his eyes back to Cas. "Would you like to come with me and see the fireworks? I guess I might have fun if I go with you…" He asked.
Dean's face turned slightly pink, and his eyes were a bit wide at those words.
Benny smirked.
'What… Are you saying? I mean… Because I…'
"Dean.." Castiel said, when he saw Dean's face.
None of them were expecting it.
Dean moved too fast for them. He grabbed Benny's shirt with a fist and started screaming at him.
"YOU! ARE YOU TRYING TO STEAL CAS AWAY FROM ME?!"
Benny laughed.
"Ahah!"
He slapped Dean's fist so that the other boy wasn't grabbing him anymore.
He composed his shirt and spoke.
"Don't flatter yourself. Which one of us is really stealing Cas, brother? And which one of us is being up front? I think the one to decide that is Castiel… Don't you think?"
Both of their heads turned to Castiel.
He was standing beside them, watching them, with his face still burning.
Dean was a bit flustered himself too. He didn't know what to think, nor he knew what to say, so he just walked away from them.
'Dean… Why… Why is he becoming so serious?'
When Dean was in the hallway, Benny looked at Castiel.
"He finally got angry… Do you understand what this means? The rest is up to you." He said, looking at Castiel's eyes and turning around to go away too.
'Benny… I wonder what he meant by that…'
*The day of the fireworks show – also the beginning to summer holidays*
"Cassie! Even in vacation you can't let go of those books?! Hurry up and study!"
Castiel was laying in his bed, with a book in his pillow, in front of him.
In his bedside-table, was one of the posters for the fireworks show.
"I'm not reading." He told calmly his mom.
'My eyes are just roaming through the pages, but the words aren't coming to my head… All I can think about is the fireworks show…' he thought while looking at the poster.
"Today's the fireworks show.." He spoke to no-one in particular, since his room was empty, with just him inside.
Benny's words crossed Castiel's mind. 'He finally got angry… Do you understand what this means?'
Castiel's feet started moving, he grabbed his keys and told his mother he would be back later. His feet carried him to the school.
Without thinking too much, he went to the library. He opened the door, and saw Dean resting his head in his desk.
Castiel stayed in the doorway for a few seconds, but decided to step inside the room, so he did it, and closed the door once he got inside.
'My heart is leaping so loudly… That it hurts.'
"There's no school today." Dean told him, not turning his head up.
"I know." Castiel replied.
'Anxiety.'
"Aren't you hot? It's summer, after all… How long have you been in here?" Castiel started asking.
"I read one of those mysteries you like so much." Dean interrupted.
'Nervousness.'
"Who are you waiting for?" Castiel asked.
'Expectation.'
"To ask that is arrogant. You're the one who came here." Dean told him, still not rising his head.
Castiel snapped.
"YOU'RE NOT BEING FAIR EITHER! IT WAS WRONG OF YOU TO BE SO NICE TO ME AND MAKE ME FEEL THAT WAY!" Castiel calmed himself down. "Because you're the one who makes me think it would nice if you were here."
"Benny…" Dean said suddenly, lifting his head just a bit. "…Aren't you going to see the fireworks with him?"
"No. I'm not." Castiel said.
"Oh…" Dean's face got down again.
"I won't ran away anymore… SO PLEASE SHOW ME YOUR FACE! I thought it was you who kissed me in the library… Because I love you, Dean! Because I thought it would be so nice if it had been you who kissed me!"
After saying that Castiel turned his face around and took a step back.
"..It's so hot in here." He said.
His cheeks were painted red.
He was about to leave, when Dean got up from his seat and grabbed Castiel.
"My heart…" He said, making Castiel get even more red, both from the closeness and from the words whispered from Dean. "…The one who kissed you… Was me."
He turned Castiel around, so that they were facing each other. Castiel looked at the older boy's face, he could see Dean was flustered too. His eyes were as green as usual, perhaps even a bit more.
"So please tell me you love me again!"
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