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I never thought I would be saying these words but I loved Edward Cullen. It took me all of one date to make me realise that deep down, I always had.

Edward was perfect, but I wasn't going to tell him that. He was sweet, kind and charming. Nothing I thought he was. I realised now that how he was before was just a mask. He wasn't cocky or arrogant. He was in one word; Amazing.

For our first date he had done us a picnic, which we ate in a meadow in the middle of the forbidden forest at sunset. It was so romantic. He had all my favourite food and even muggle cola for us to drink. A music radio played softly behind us as we lay down on the blanket looking up at the stars. We talked about anything and everything. In that moment I don't think I had ever been so content, so happy and I knew Edward felt the same. Nothing could have ruined that moment.

And when he turned me to face him and I saw all the love and devotion he had for me in his eyes. That's when I knew. My life was tied to his. I had always been in love with Edward Cullen and I just always needed him to show me he felt the same way.

But I just can't seem to find the courage to tell him.

Even after that night Edward never failed to treat me like a princess. He showed me in every movement, every whisper, that he loved me with everything he was. It was now December; we had been dating for nearly three months now. And I was finally ready to tell him.

He was leaving for Christmas break tomorrow and I wouldn't see him until school started back up again. And I wanted him to know before then. I knew deep down Edward was insecure about this. He wanted me to love him like he loved me but was scared I couldn't love him and that I would finally leave him.

But I couldn't leave him, the thought makes me sick. I was searching for him now; I was staying here for Christmas. Then I saw his bronze hair, entering one of the carriages.

"EDWARD" I called, his head poked out the window and a wide grin spread across his face.

"Bella" He sighed lovingly; I placed a quick kiss on his lips and handed him the envelope that was sealing my heart.

"Read this" And then I left.

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EPOV

My Edward,

I know this is sudden but I wanted you to know something before school started up next year. In the past couple of weeks you have become the most important thing in my life. And I can't imagine a day in the future when you aren't in it.

What I'm trying to say is that I love you. With everything I am; I love you.

Merry Christmas.

You're Bella.

X

By the time I finished I was not ashamed to say I was crying. Sitting on the train in the compartment I cried.

"What's wrong E?" Jasper asked while the guys gave me concerned look.

"She loves me." I said finally laughing because I was so happy. "Bella loves me."