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Chapter 6: Adia
'cause there's no one left to finger
there's no one here to blame
there's no one left to talk to honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence
'cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?
-Sarah Maclaghlin
BPOV
Alice is laughing. At me. Edward has pictures of the first night in Baja. The night I don't remember. I can feel the heat on my face. I can't believe I acted like that.
"Really? Can we like...burn those?" I ask.
"No, way, Bella." Edward says.
I try to snatch them from him but he holds them up high.
"Th-there really, it's not me. It's...so unflattering, please." I beg. I jump to attempt to get them again. It's no use.
"They're memories, Spaz. Memories you don't even have," he laughs. "We should have them blown up."
"Uh, no, no we shouldn't" I argue, shaking my head. A picture of me licking sugar off some girls chest is not something I want to remember. Or the fact that I encouraged her to walk around topless in front of my boyfriend.
"I'm going to show my future nieces and nephews what a slut their mommy was," Edward threatens.
"Oh? And who says Emmett and I will let you anywhere near our kids?" I retort.
"Kids? What kids?" Emmett says tearing his eyes away from the playstation on the houseboat.
"Your future kids with Bella," Edward tells him. Emmett looks at me oddly. I shrug.
"He's just being as ass. He wants to show the world what a slutty drunk I am. Whatever happened to 'what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas?" I ask.
"Um, Bella, we weren't in Vegas," Edward points out.
I huff. "I mean, isn't it like universal? Just a saying, you could apply it anywhere," I tell him.
"Oh, sorta like the state line rules? If you're in a different state than your boyfriend it's not considered cheating?" he asks.
"That is the dumbest thing I have heard. The Vegas rule is not." I tell him, poking him in the chest.
"Here's the deal...next time I talk to Audrina, I'll invite her up for a visit, you and her get it on, while Emmett and I watch," he suggests lifting his left eyebrow up. "Then you can do what ever you want with the pictures."
"Keep the damn pictures, Cullen," I tell him. I give up. What college experience is complete without some racy pictures?
It's getting warmer out. I go outside to sit on the floating dock. I really love it here. I'd love it even more if Edward weren't here, but I can't have my cake and eat it too.
Emmett leaves for San Diego two weeks after graduation. It's not much time. It's April. This semester is over in May. He will be gone May eighteenth. Thirteen weeks without him. Three months, and one week. Ninety one days.
I light my cigarette. I rest my elbows on my knees. I listen to the laughter of Emmett and Edward as I stare out onto the lake. I see a few fish slither through the water. A few small ripples dance across the lake.
Alice, Jasper and Rosalie are here. We are all just hanging out. Edward talks about Audrina a lot. I know he likes her. She was really nice. Rosalie keeps glaring whenever he says her name.
It's nice to know Edward is capable of respecting a girl. Emmett seems happy about it too. He even told Rose to calm down.
Jasper is graduating with Emmett. He is going to find a job as a teacher at a grade school. He is sweet with the kids. He just spent the last year student teaching in third grade. He has to find his own place, and Alice wants to move in with him.
I can't afford the apartment by myself. The Seattle Aquarium said they would give me a job. Pay me to dive and clean the tanks. It would be enough to make up Alice's part of the rent. I'm going to work full time over the summer. I don't want to move. It's a hassle. Plus, being busy will help keep my mind off missing Emmett.
I hear the glass door slide open, and turn to see Emmett coming towards me. He sits down with me, and I smile at him. I rest my head on his shoulder.
"You have that face again," he tells me. "I hate that face."
"Your going to see lots of this face...it's getting so close," I tell him. He knows what I'm talking about.
"You'll be busy all summer with the aquarium, and I'll be back for like ten days right when you start classes again. We will have your apartment all to ourselves," he says, I feel butterflies stir in my stomach.
I put out my cigarette and we head back inside. Rosalie has her arms crossed and is staring daggers at Edward. He is smiling, oblivious, on the phone.
Audrina and him talk like once a week. I know it's her, now. He always takes the phone call, no matter where he is or what he is doing. It explains why the playstation is paused and why Rosalie looks like she is about to explode. If she were a cartoon, she'd be like Jessica Rabbit with smoke blowing out of her ears.
No wonder he doesn't date her. Sure, she is a blond bombshell, but Audrina is beautiful, smart, and super nice. She is really hard to dislike. Rose on the other hand...well she is a bit hard to tolerate.
Edward leans his elbows on the counter in the kitchen. Emmett goes up behind Rose, "Jealousy, boosts a guys ego, Rose, but not when the chick acts catty about it or possessive, and the way your acting about a girl in a different county is not going to help," Emmett tells her with a pat on her head.
If looks could kill, the glare she gave Emmett would be mass destruction. She gets up from the chair, and walks over to Edward. I kind of enjoy watching him squirm as her fingertips tentatively move down his arm.
He moves away, still smiling and talking on the phone. She tries again. This time, putting her hand in the back pocket of his jeans.
He removes it. "I'm sorry," he says into the phone. "Can you hold on a second?" He turns to Rose and covers the mouth piece to the phone.
"I'm trying to talk, Rose. Can you give me a minute?" he asks her.
"You're being such an ass. Why the fuck would you invite me over and talk to another girl right in front of me?" she says loudly. She wants Audrina to hear.
"You, invited yourself, Rosalie. You are not here as my date, I'm not sure where you got that impression," he tells her calmly.
"Are you serious? We've been dating for like a year!" she yells throwing her arms up.
"No, we have been fucking for like a year, and the fucking hasn't happened since like, the end of February. I really don't know what self absorbed planet you are on, but I got off the Rosalie Hale train months ago. I thought you wanted to hang out, be friends or whatever so I let you invite yourself. Now, I am trying to talk, if you'd please excuse me," he says to her. She stomps off.
He tells Audrina he is sorry for interruption.
I try to contain my laughter as this girl who could have any guy, throws a mini-tantrum over Edward Cullen. His dick can't be that good.
I wonder what type of guy Edward is. Most guys wouldn't try to be friends with girls they were through with. Most guys would have told Rosalie to fuck off. Not Edward. It's almost as if he doesn't want to make her feel...excluded. Like just because he doesn't fuck her anymore, he doesn't want her think she is worthless to him. It's really an odd demeanor. I can't actually call him a womanizer anymore. He is never dishonest with the girls he screws. Never offers them empty promises.
I see Rosalie swatting away tears. I feel bad for her. I have a feeling she doesn't like Edward as much as she thinks. I have a feeling she likes the challenge. She likes what she can't have. I don't know Rosalie, but I know of her.
Rich, beautiful, bitchy. There isn't much she can't attain with Mommy and Daddy's money. I suppose that's what Edward is to her, something attainable that she can't acquire.
When he gets off the phone, he tells me Audrina says hi. I smile. I can't believe Rose is still here, but she is.
"How is she?" I ask.
"Good," he smiles. "She is going to try and come up this summer for a week. She has to do a couple of workshops for work, and one of them is here." he tells me.
"That's cool, are you guys like doing a long distance thing?" I ask him.
"No, just friends. I mean, I'm not against it, if that's what happens, I just don't know her well enough to commit to something like that right now."
"Yeah, but you haven't been with anyone else, since her," I point out.
"Like you know all about my sex life, Swan," he shoves my shoulder playfully. I'm not graceful enough to recover, I trip over Emmett's feet, he reaches out and grabs me. It's too late. I smack the side of my head on the wicker chair.
"Dude, you have to stop knocking around my girl," he tells Edward. "I don't want to have to kick my brothers ass for damaging my girlfriend."
"I'm fine," I say, as Emmett helps me up.
"Your bleeding, Bella," he says. I reach up and feel the warm liquid by my hair line. It stings. I look at the red on my fingers as Emmett pulls me into the bathroom upstairs.
I sit on the tub, while he cleans up the blood. "I'm sorry," I tell him
"Why are you apologizing?" he asks with his half smile. Only the dimple on the right side of his face makes an appearance.
"I don't know," I tell him. He brushes my hair back and pats it with something from the first aid kit.
"It's just a small scrape, no biggie. I'll let Edward live another day," he jokes.
"Thank you," I tell him. He leans down and kisses my forehead. Then my nose. Then my lips. I smile against his.
I open my mouth and lick his bottom lip. He pulls me off the ledge of the tub and kisses me deeply.
I push back tears. I tell them to go away. I can't start crying when I still have a month with tear still manages to escape.
Emmett pulls away and gives me a sad smile. He wipes the tear with the pad of his thumb. He kisses the wetness on my cheek. He tells me he loves me.
I kiss him again. I really need to feel close to him. I don't care that we are in the bathroom. I don't care that people are downstairs. I don't care if the world finds out I needed to feel connected to this man so bad that I couldn't wait a few more hours till we got home.
I pull at his belt buckle and get it unclasped. His hands knead my ass as I work on the button to his jeans. I push them down his hips, and I let myself fall to my knees as I take him in my mouth.
I look up at him as I move my mouth up and down him. He hisses, and I love that I can make him feel good. He grasps the counter. His knuckles are white.
He pulls me up and kisses me hard. I'm wearing a short jean skirt and his hands move up it. He turns me around and presses my face against the mirror. My palms are flat against the counter top and his fingers are moving in and out of me fast and hard.
He shoves my underwear to the side. He moves my hair off my neck and kisses it gently before he enters me.
I close my eyes and grunt. I love this feeling. I am full. I am connected. I spread my legs wider as Emmett holds my hips and thrusts in and out.
He reaches around me and his fingers circle around my sensitive spot. I can feel my legs get tense, I see stars flash behind my tightly closed eyes, I stop holding my breath and pant against the mirror.
Emmett is still moving inside me. Hard. Fast. He pulls my hips hack to meet his. He buries his head in my hair and with a strangled "fuck," he comes.
"Shit...mother fucker..." he says a string of curse words as he pulls out of me.
"What?" I ask, adjusting my underwear.
"I meant to pull out," he sighs.
He sighs! He freaking sighs! I can feel the wetness seeping out onto my underwear. I feel my eyes go wide. "Yeah, because that's such a reliable form of birth control!" I yell at him. "What the fuck!" I scream.
"Bella, calm down!" he tells me.
"Calm down! Really? Calm down! I don't want a fucking kid right now Emmett! What the fuck where you thinking?" I ask him. practically screaming.
"You weren't complaining or asking me about the condom when I put it in you! You can't put all the blame on me!" he yells back.
I'm running down the steps as he yells this. He hear his feet thundering behind me. I grab my bag. I can feel my hands shaking. Tears are streaming down my face.
There is no way I want to be pregnant, not with a boy who is leaving. I will be alone. "What the fuck where you thinking?" I yell over my shoulder.
Everyone is staring at us. At me. I want to leave. "Bella, you okay?" Alice asks quietly.
"I-I need to go home," I tell her. Emmett drove us. I don't even want to look at him.
I pull out my phone, I try but I can't even dial the number to the cab company I am so upset. I swat away the tears on my face.
"Who are you calling, Bella?" Emmett asks. I look up at him and glare. I only have a the first few numbers pressed.
"A cab," I say between clenched teeth.
"You don't have to take a cab, I can drive you home," he says.
"No. Thank. You. You have done plenty."
"Please, Bella," Emmett pleads. "We can go talk about this more privately," he urges me.
"I don't want to talk right now, Emmett. I want you to leave me the fuck alone," I tell him. He comes towards me, I step away. "Don't," I warn him.
"Emmett, dude," Edward steps up between us, "I don't like getting in the middle of shit, but right now, I think you need to give Bella the space she wants."
The next three words that leave my lips, I have been saying a lot lately. "Thank you, Edward,"
EPOV
I get off the phone with Audrina, and I want to ring Rosalie's neck. I won't though. "Can I talk to you for a minute?" I ask her, quietly.
Audrina is a cool girl. It's easy to talk to her, and we get along. She is strong and sexy, but never a bitch. I can't imagine her not being able to get along with someone. She just seems like the type of person that can fit in anywhere, with anyone.
The type of person that has the ability to make everyone feel accepted and like they belong.
Rose stands up, and follows me into the kitchen. I lean against the counter and I can't believe I have to break up with someone I never considered my girlfriend.
"I like you, Rose. But we aren't a couple, and this isn't a date...I'm not even sure of the last time we went on a date. I mean, we went out to dinner, we went to get drinks, then it turned into booty calls...I mean that isn't advancing in a relationship," I try to say it nice, but no bull shit. I don't like blurry lines. I like girls to know where I stand.
"I just thought when you said I could come over...it meant we were moving forward. I thought you were coming around. I guess I was wrong," she shrugs.
"No, I like you. You are a cool chick. I like hanging out with you. I mean I think we are better friends. I'm not telling you this because of another girl, and certainly not because of a girl in another country Rose, but really, you can't have a fuck buddy forever. It either stops or moves forward."
"I get it, Cullen. Just friends."
I nod. I think she is okay. I hope she'll be okay. She seems okay.
Later in the night, I knock Bella over. I didn't mean to, but the girl has no sense of gravity. She has two left feet.
Emmett takes her upstairs and the next thing I know, world war three is breaking out. Words like condoms, kids, and pregnant are being yelled.
I don't know what I am thinking, Emmett looks like he is going to explode. The veins in his neck and arms are bulging. Bella's spazzing out, screaming she doesn't want kids.
All I can think is Emmett fucked up, with a capital F. "I'll drive you home," I offer. I hand Bella my car keys. "Go wait outside, I'll be there in a minute," I tell her. I can tell she doesn't want to be in here any longer than she needs to be.
She doesn't argue. She must be really pissed to be willing let me drive her home. She slams the door and I stare at Emmett as I pull on my sneakers. I adjust the tongue and stand up. "What the fuck, dude?" I ask.
"Just...make sure she is okay, for me?" he pleads.
"Of course," I tell him. "Just don't have a heart attack while I'm gone."
I head out towards the parking lot, and Bella isn't crying anymore, she just looks royally pissed. She is smoking with the window down.
I climb in the car. I shut the door. I look at her. "You should really quit if you're pregnant," I tell her.
She laughs. It's mocking. "What happened?" I ask her.
"First, he doesn't even tell me he isn't wrapped, then he can't control himself long enough to even pull out!" she yells, swinging her arms around. "The last thing I want right now is a kid and a kid with a guy who is leaving!"
"It's not the end of the world, ya know. Elise wasn't planned," I tell her. "I mean did you take a test"?
"I think it's too soon to test," she huffs.
"When did it happen?" I ask her.
"Tonight. In the bathroom upstairs," she tells me, peeking shyly at me from behind her hair. I shake my head. I am impressed she had the balls to fuck in the bathroom like that.
Maybe I should give her more credit. I want to tease her, but I don't. Now isn't the time to mess with her, as much fun as it is.
"Why are you flipping out like this, Bella?" I just passed a Walgreen's and make a quick u-turn to go back.
"What are you doing? What do you mean why am I flipping out? Unmarried, pregnant college girl is not how I envisioned my life!"
"I mean, they have Plan B," I tell her. She looks confused. "The morning after pill," I clarify. "It's over the counter now."
"You must have a lot of experience with it, being the man whore that you are." she tells me.
"Really, Bella? You're being a bitch to me when I am trying to be nice and help you out? And no, I have never had to buy it before. I am always careful," I tell her. I do remember Makenna saying she went to get it after that infamous night. It wasn't over the counter then.
"I'm sorry, I'm just...upset. I didn't mean to be bitchy to you," she apologizes. "I don't like fighting with Emmett," she adds.
"Yeah, I've never seen Emmett look more fucked up over a girl yelling at him as he did tonight," I tell her. "He loves you. He hasn't ever had anything with anyone like he has with you."
In high school, he dated a few girls. He focused most of his attention on football in the winter, and baseball in the the spring. Mostly in college, he hooked up with random girls.
Emmett avoided relationship's like I did. For different reasons though, because he was going off to the Marines. He didn't want to leave anyone behind or have to break up with someone because of a long distance relationship.
He saw something in Bella, and he took a chance on her. I know how much he cares about her.
What I do know, is he hasn't said shit about marrying her. I don't think he wants to knock her up or leave her with some promise of marriage...not yet anyway.
I pull in a parking space, shut the car off, and ask her if she needs anything. Smokes. I nod. I go inside.
I walk back to the pharmacist who is about to close, and I tell him what I need.
One pack of gum; a dollar thirty. Two packs of Camels; thirteen dollars. Plan B; fifty dollars. Preventing pregnancy...priceless.
I walk back to the car and toss the bag at Bella.
"Potential problem, solved," I tell her.
"Thanks," she mumbles, reading over the papers that came with it.
I know when people get upset, they don't think straight. Bella is a classic spaz. Emmett, I don't know what he was thinking. I'm kind of surprised he let her flip out like that. I wonder why he couldn't gather his thoughts long enough to calm her down.
Maybe he is just as freaked out as she is, over it. "I won't tell him, if you want to let him sweat it out," I smirk at her.
She smiles. "Thanks, but I don't want him to spend his last month home stressed out over this, I'll tell him...in the morning. He can squirm for one night."
I pull up to the curb outside her apartment. "Um, how much do I owe you for this?" she asks as her hand hovers on the door handle.
"Nothing," I tell her. I don't need the money, and I wouldn't ask Emmett for it. When he finds out he will shove the money in my face.
"Oh, well, Thanks." she tells me.
"No problem," I tell her. I wait to make sure she makes it inside safely and then I head back to the houseboat. I can only imagine how fucked up Emmett must feel. Emmett and Bella have never all out yelled and screamed at each other like that.
He tells me about stupid arguments they have, nothing like this. I was scared Bella was going to pick up one of the beer bottles and swing it at his head at one point.
I am kind of glad Bella said she wouldn't tell him tonight, it will be fun to mess with him.
When I get back to the houseboat, everyone is gathered around Emmett, telling him everything will be fine. He doesn't seem comforted by Alice's words.
"Guys, I don't think Emmett is upset about a possible pregnancy," Rose states to Alice and Jasper. "He is upset his girlfriend pretty much told him to fuck off."
"I mean, fuck, did she break up with me?" Emmett questions. Rose reaches out and rubs his arm. She gives him a small smile.
"Nah, she just needs some time. Emotions run high in these situations." Rose comforts him.
Emmett hears me put my keys down and turns to me quickly. "How was she? Is she okay?" he asks.
"She's fine, Emmett. She said she would call you in the morning," I hate to see him like this. I want to give him some sort of piece of mind. "Please, if your gonna fuck in my bathroom, have enough sense to open the cabinet under the sink and grab a rubber, dude. All you had to do was look," I tell him.
The mood is kinda shot, and Emmett takes everyone home. He comes back to the boathouse though, because he doesn't want to be alone.
Sure, he is in a house full of 'brothers', but I am his brother. The only brother he wants company from after such a stressful night. A night he is still stressing over.
"Rose was right, wasn't she?" I ask him.
"About what?" he asks.
"About you not being stressed out if Bella ends up pregnant, you're more worried about losing her," I tell him.
"I mean, it wouldn't be ideal, but it wouldn't be the end of the world. I mean, it would suck much more if she dumped me. I know it was pretty stupid of me. I don't know...I don't know what happened. I lost control," he tells me.
"Would you marry her?" I ask him.
"Did she say something about that?" he asks back, with his eyebrows raised.
"No, just crossed by mind," I explain.
"I mean, I've thought about marrying her...in the future, like after she graduates asking her, not this soon though. I mean I love her, but I don't think we are ready to join our lives together. She has shit she wants to finish on her own still," he tells me, scratching the back of his head. "If she gets pregnant, it could really screw up everything...I mean how could I still enlist? I couldn't ask her to drop out of college to follow me around, ya know? Or just leave her to fend for herself."
I really want to tell him I found a solution. I can't stand to see him so worried about it. "Dude, call Bella, already," I tell him. "You are never gonna fall asleep tonight if all these things are racing through your head, and I'm done being the middle man in this situation." I pat Emmett on the back. I go upstairs to get into something more comfortable and give him some privacy.
I slip on basketball shorts and a black wife beater. I take a few minutes to run over some things for my MCAT's then I head back downstairs to see how Emmett handled the phone call.
"Dude, you saved my ass," he tells me. I smile wide at him.
"That's what brothers do," I tell him.
"I don't know why I didn't think of that shit," he tells me.
"Cause you were upset, and not thinking straight," I tell him. "You've never had a level head when you get mad," I laugh.
Emmett doesn't want to stay. He says Bella said he could come over.
Once he leaves, I notice how lonely I am here.
I think about the last time I got laid. It's been too long.
I pull out my stash of porn and put one in the PS3. It seems like the wind blows, and I get hard. It's not really comfortable at all.
I pull myself from my shorts already hard. I stroke up and down a few times as I watch the screen.
The girls mouth moves over the guys cock. He holds her head in place and fucks her mouth.
I stroke myself faster, firmer. I see the pre cum on the tip and wipe it away with my thumb. I imagine being inside a mouth. Being deep throated like this guy.
I watch as he penetrates her every way. From behind, with her legs over his shoulders, reverse cow girl.
I watch her tits move and bounce, I like it when she plays with them. I like it more when she rubs herself.
I think about the week I spent fucking Audrina and the kinky shit she let me do. She asked me to finger her ass, and it was so tight. I never wanted to fuck an ass more. Most girls run scared from that shit, or push you away the minute you get close. I stopped trying, but then she asked for it. I wanted to fuck her ass so bad, but we never lasted that long.
Maybe when she visits. I picture her waiting for me here, Spreading her ass after getting it ready, and sliding in. Slowly. Doggy style, so I can see it really good as I move in and out.
I pump myself harder. I would reach for her chocolate hair and move it to the side so I could see her face.
When I get her to face me, it's not her.
My stomach is covered in jizz.
And I want to throw up for seeing Bella.
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