(a/n Hey guys. Ive been VERY busy lately. I had things to fix. Im back and things are better now. Hope ya'll like this. The song of the chapter is Giving You Up by Miley Cyrus...I know weird but that song is my life story at this moment...summer 2013 sucks so far! Enjoy)

(Missy's POV)

Everything from the day before was a blur. I sat on the couch completely blank. Everyone rushed around me but I sat still. I Could hear them all talking to me and about me. The confusion found itself out. I tried to find the easy way out of this blankness but nothing. I couldn't feel myself moving or trying. I ,In fact, was numbed! Something wasnt right. I stood up and went downstairs. Andy sat on the couch with Ash while the others were off doing something somewhere. Andy looked at me, his crystal blue dim and dull. His face was red and looked tear stained. Ash shook his head at me and both boys stood up. Andy walked over to me and hugged me tightly.

"Missy I'm so sorry!" Andy said hugging me tighter.

"Andy what's going on?" I ask as he hugs me tighter.

"Ronnie got into an impact car crash. He died on impact. I'm So sorry Missy." Ash says patting my back and walking to answer the door.

"I just saw him yesterday...what are you talking about!" I say annoyed that they would pull such a lie on me.

"Missy you've been out cold for 3 days." Andy says trying to help. CC and Jinxx come in their eyes bloodshot.

"Missy...I'm-" CC begins but I stop him and walk out to the curb. I stand there for a few minutes then walk to Jimmy's bar. Ronnie goes there every Friday no matter what. Jimmy is an old family friend. After walking about 3 miles there I see Jimmy.

"Hey Kiddo!" He says walking over to me.

"Jimmy have you seen Ronnie?" I ask jumping straight into what I need to know.

"No he didn't come in yesterday like he always does. Why?" Jimmy asks.

"Some of my friends said that Ronnie got into an Impact Car Crash and died. I don't believe them but how can I not because he wont answer his phone and no-one has seen him. Jimmy I'm worried about him." I say trying not to let myself cry.

"Missy. You know Ronnie wouldn't get into a car crash. He's to smart for that. Don't worry. Ronnie is alive!" Jimmy says.

" Ok." I reply.

" Missy I want you to come stay with me and Kat. It's...safer there." Jimmy says cautiously.

" Jimmy I have some friends staying with me. Why do you think it's not safe." I ask.

"Someone came in asking for you. It wasn't HIM but she seemed desperate." Jimmy said still very cautious.

"Who was she? Jimmy I need to know!" I say very worried about my own safety.

"I don't know who she was but she was blonde, short, extremely annoying to hear. Missy just be careful. I gotta get back to work." Jimmy said and walked to help other customers.

I felt further confused by the no help from Jimmy. Pissed Off and practically On Fire due to it, it started to rain. Coming not in drops but buckets. I wasn't ready to go home and I bet the guys are freaking out but if Ronnie is dead then I don't want to be in that house anymore. Suddenly I began to think of who saw him last.

KELLIN!

I began to run. I ran almost 4 miles before reaching Kellins house. Out of breath and cramped I knocked on the door. No answer. I pounded on the door with my fists as hard as I could until finally he answered.

"Kellin where's Ronnie?!" I said pushing past him and walking into his house. He looked shocked.

"Missy Andy said he'd tell you. Ronnie was in a terrible car accident. He's gone." He said just as the others did.

"No that's...that's not true. He's the safest driver ever. He hasn't EVER been in an accident! Kellin there must be a mistake!" I said absolutely petrified and becoming worked up again.

"Missy im so sorry hunny!" Kellin said as a tear streamed down both of our faces.

I collapsed on the ground unable to handle the fact that was now known true.

Ronnie was gone. And There Was nothing I could do!

I ended up stay at Kellins house for the next 2 weeks and Every time Andy or one of the guys called to talk to me I would tell Kellin to tell them I was sleeping. I wasn't about to have communication at the time. Cuts that were once faint and fading reappeared. Scars that once held my hand began dragging me down. 2 weeks passed and I had only left the bed to go to the bathroom. What was the point of it? Leaving the comfort of the bed. Why Do It? Nobody to see but the dolls and teddy bears that surrounded Kellins attic. I didn't want to guest room because Ronnie stayed there and his scent lingered there. 3 weeks after Ronnie died his funeral came. I Wore all black and covered my entire face with a black veil so nobody could see my scarred face. People talked to me but they soon gave up knowing I wouldn't speak. Andy wasn't sure what to do. I Refused to talk to him and by the look in those gorgeous crystal blue eyes that pierced my soul he was terrified of what I might do. After the funeral was over Kellin forced me to go with Andy and the guys back to Ronnies place which was left to me. I fought without words and sounds. I refused to even step inside the house. The guys were terrified of forcing me to do anything so the left me to myself. I sat on the curb like Ronnie and I use to do. Every 4th of July me and him would sit here while Kellin and Vic would light off BILLIONS of fireworks. The sky lit up every time! Those were the days where everything was fun and fine. Mitch came into the picture and all that changed. No Ronnie. No contact with humanity. Absolutely nothing. Controlling Bastard. Then Ronnie saved me from Mitch and I ended up here. All that gone to waste!

(Flashback)

"COME ON MISSY! LETS GO!" Ronnie screamed running into the middle of the street.

"WHAT THE HELL RONNIE!" I screamed running after him.

"Look up!" He said laying down where he was.

"What the fu- OH MY GOD!" I said as I layed next to him seeing to gorgeousness that was the sky. BOOM-BOOM-BOOM BOOOOOOOOOM! Fireworks shot up from everywhere.

"Ronnie I don't want this to ever end. This is so fun! Your are the BEST brother ever!" I said smiling.

(End Of Flashback)

I began crying thinking of the memories Ronnie and I shared. I heard footsteps behind me so I shot up and ran into the park across the street. Andy stood in the middle of the street, the moonlight being the only thing that lit his path. He looked worried and hurt. I turned back to look at him and didn't know what more to do. He frowned and shook his head.

"Missy please talk to me. I love you and I hate to see you hurting. You cant stay silent forever because eventually you'll drive yourself madder then a hatter! Please baby talk to me. Im Begging you!" He said as a tear fell down his face and shined with the light of the moon.

"I-"I tried to say but it only came out as a squeal. I shook my head knowing I couldn't speak, not just because I didn't want to but because I had no voice in me anymore. He Looked at me as more tears fell. I couldn't stand him upset like him. His tears burned me like brands. I couldn't stand it anymore! I walked twards him picking up speed as my tears fall. He opens his arms up knowing im going to need his embrace. I jump into his arms and cry harder then I have since finding out Ronnie died. Holding me tightly against his body as I cried.

"Shhhh" He tried to sooth me. I cried for a long while in his arms. I eventually let him take me inside and to my room. Shortly after he layed me down I was asleep. And praying i'd never wake up.