Time To Move On
Ok, I wasn't really that satisfied with my last chapter so I tried to get this one out as soon as possible (Wow two chapters in one day! That's a record for me). This chapter wraps up the events of the last chapter, by having it be played as the thoughts and dreams of Kari, and so it's all told in her POV. I'm actually really proud of this chapter, a lot more than the last one, and I hope you like it too ;)
Disclaimer: I still don't own digimon (how many times have I said this now?)
Chapter 7
A Penny For Your Thoughts*Kari's POV*
It was 12:30 in the morning. I finally had stopped crying, and I could hear footsteps in Tai's room next to mine. He must have just gotten home from his date with Sora. I don't understand how they can be so happy in love. Of course until this last week, I guess people always viewed TK and I in the same way.
I crawled into bed, and turned off my dim light. I thought that the sooner sleep reached me, the faster I'd be able to evade my living nightmare.
I tossed and turned for a few moments, but I finally must have drifted asleep. But as the events from the past hour, played over again in my head, I learned that there was nowhere to hide.
***Previously that evening***
"Kari…," said Caprina in between sobs, "isn't that the girl you used to go out with Takeru? How could you do this to me? I never want to see you TK Takaishi ever again."
Caprina turned around and ran back out of the crowd, and out of Dazzle. "No Caprina, don't go!… I love you," yelled TK.
Even though Caprina didn't hear him, the rest of us did. He had just said he loved her, and that shook my world. It wasn't the fact that I was jealous of Caprina, or that I thought that I should still be still girlfriend. Those were still major factors, but the thing that disturbed me the most was that the truth that I had just made a major mistake. TK loved Caprina, not me, and I just ruined his chance with her. I also had probably just ruined any relationship that I might have had with Davis. My head swarmed with frustration and confusion as I forced myself to continue to listen to the conversation going on around me.
It seemed that none of them could believe that it was me who had jumped on TK. Except for my first outburst that night with Davis, I had never done anything like that before. Even thought, in the heavy tension of the moment they had quickly forgotten that, and they couldn't possibly believe that I could have had tackled TK.
"Don't you realize what you've done," lectured Yolei to TK, "I don't think anyone could have stooped any lower than what you just did. You owe Caprina a major apology."
"I said I was sorry," choked out TK, "It wasn't my fault-"
"Sure it wasn't, and are we supposed to believe that Kari, just all of a sudden went up to you and started making out?"
"YES! That's what happened, ok!" yelled TK as he looked at me sadly in the eyes.
Ouch, why was I so blind? At that moment I could tell that it killed TK to put all the blame on me. Yes, even though I completely devastated his relationship with Caprina, he still cared about me. Why didn't I realize it all along; just because we weren't going out that didn't mean we couldn't be friends. Since we didn't have a nasty break up, I just assumed that he must have just been confused, and that he really didn't mean it, but I was wrong. We had been starting to grow apart, and we hadn't been connecting like we used too. TK was right to end our relationship, but he never ended our friendship. Of course, now I've probably ruined any friendship I could have ever had with him.
"Is this true Kari?"
My trance was broken by the always prodding Yolei. I took a deep breath and nodded. It was time to do something right for once. "Yes, I went up TK and started kissing him and he told me to stop, but I pushed him to the ground. He's not the one who should be sorry, it's me, I've ruined everything."
By then tears were falling down my face. I was sorry, for everything. "I'm so sorry TK. I guess I never really got over our break up, and I wasn't able to let myself believe that you didn't love me, and I tried to do whatever I could to make you see that we were meant to be, but I was wrong. I see it now, and I'm sorry, and I hope you can one day forgive me, and then maybe we could work on just being friends."
Matt's band started to play, and the dance floor was deserted as most of the bystanders raced over to the stage. The music was oblivious to me. All I could seem to see and hear were my fellow digidestined.
Next I turned to Davis. "Davis, I'm sorry. The truth is, I used you to try to make TK jealous. Do you remember that Tuesday when you came over? That was probably the only time this week I've been honest with you. For some reason, that I've yet to recall, I really wanted to go out with you, but the next day I lost that, and I became obsessed in my own little world. You really are a great guy, and I feel bad that you broke up with Yolei for me, and then I treated you badly. I guess it all turned out for the best since she found Ken, but I was wondering Davis if maybe you might be able to give me a chance to prove myself. I want to show you that I can still be that girl that was full of life and light that everyone loved in the digital world."
There were no replies. TK and Davis stood there silently, both whom I could tell were contemplating what I said. I could still see the disappointment in Yolei's face, that someone like me, who was supposedly so pure could mess up so much. Then I looked in Ken's eyes. I knew he had forgiven me. He had made some mistakes in his life, and we gave him another chance, and I could see that he felt my pain.
I fell on the floor and started to weep. I was sorry, so very sorry.
I took a few deep breaths and managed to collect myself for a moment. Then I made one last statement before I left. "I've screwed up haven't I?" I said accepting that as the truth since no one protested, "but I have learned one thing. Things are always changing and you have to welcome what may come, and look into the possibilities. It's time for me to move on."
And with that I slowly got up off the floor, and I walked out the door, and headed home.
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I suddenly woke up after I experienced all those emotions for the second time that day in my dream. I looked up at the clock, and it read 2:14. 'Ugh,' I thought, 'It's really late, at least I don't have school tomorrow.'
Once again my view shifted from the clock to the picture of TK and I on my nightstand. I remember the memory of our first date, but the turned my head away. I still have some feelings for him, but they're not as strong as they were before. I know one day I'll get over him, and the faster it happens will depend on if he decides to forgive me or not. I smiled as I thought to myself before I set my head back onto my pillow, 'It'll take time, but I can do it. I'm ready to move on.'
Then I closed my eyes, and drifted off into a peaceful sleep.
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Well how about that? I hope that makes chapter 6 not seem as harsh :) I think I'm only going to write a chapter or two more with this story, and maybe an epilogue.
Coming up in the next chapter: Yolei has a talk with little Cody (nope I didn't forget about him), Davis and TK make their decisions about Kari, and TK does something special for Caprina, will she forgive him?
Please R+R!
~Goldenstar555
