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Leonard was stood outside the hotel waiting for Amy to come pick him up for the get together at Bernadette's, he wasn't particularly looking forward to it them asking how he was. However was he was looking forward to seeing them as he hadn't seen Howard and Bernadette yet since he got back. But Leonard's mood wasn't great as the start of his new life hadn't gone as well as Leonard had hoped it would he had made a list of things he was going to do.

1:Find new apartment

2:Retrieve car from outside old apartment

3:Collect all his belongings from old apartment

4:Start to eat more healthier no more takeout food

5:Start exercising

6:Change the way he dressed/looked

7:Learn to socialise

He hadn't found a apartment yet so he couldn't collect his belongings as for his car he'd have to ask someone probably Raj to get his keys which where in his old apartment and bring his car to Caltech for him . As for eating more healthier it would mean cooking his own food but he wasn't good at cooking so he'd need to learn maybe take a cooking class ,but in the mean time he'd have find alternative take outs. The exercising that was a scary one, he didn't have a clue as how to go about doing this, plus he didn't want to embarrass himself again like he did in front of Mrs Davis .The way he looked and dressed he didn't know which way to go with this as he'd been dressing this way for most of his life. He supposed a change was in order maybe if he dressed more normally he might attract more female shook his head at this thought he didn't want that anytime soon so he'd leave changing his dress sense till last.

He was brought out of his thoughts by the arrival of Amy, he quickly got in the car and they headed off to Bernadette's the journey was filled with comfortable silence and the occasional small talk about uncomplicated stuff.

They soon arrived at there destination getting out of the car and making there way up to Bernadette's knocked on when the door opened he was greeted by Bernadette. But before he could say anything she had moved forward and hugged him after a few seconds she finally let go before looking up at him with a sad smile and eyes that where welling up.

"Welcome back Leonard it's so good to see you, i'm so sorry about what happened i can't believe she did that to you" Bernadette said now with tears falling.

"Thanks Bernadette, it's good to see you too".

"Hey buddy you okay?" Howard asked as he came to put his arm round his wife.

"I will be it's just going to take awhile".

"Well where here for you ,if you ever want to talk ,but for now come on in make yourselves comfortable".

Leonard and Amy made there way in and sat sat down at the table which Raj was already sat at Howard and Bernadette Brought over the food before sitting themselves.

They had a pleasent conversation over dinner, mainly catching up Leonard on things they had been up to, after a while the conversation turned to Leonard and his expedition and what it was like to be at sea for four months.

Bernadette had been watching Leonard the whole time trying to gauge how he was feeling because she wanted to seemed happy in the company of his friends so she decided the time was right to ask him.

"Leonard Raj told us you spoke to Penny yesterday before leaving in a hurry, did she tell why she did what she did?".

Everyone just stopped talking and looked at Bernadette who was starting to wish she hadn't said anything.

"Bernie we can't ask him that it's too soon" Howard hissed at her.

"Why not,you all want to know as well so stop looking at me like that".

Howard was about to say something but was cut off by Leonard "No it's okay yes she told me about it" Leonard said now looking down at his hands.

Bernadette reached across the table to touch Leonard before asking "Do you want to talk about it? we're all here for you" Bernadette said receiving nods from the rest.

Leonard thought for a moment 'Maybe getting there opinion on what she told him could help' he nodded "Okay what do you want to know?".

Bernadette sat back "Just tell us what you feel like sharing".

And so he did Leonard told them everything Penny had told him about what happened that night and what Sheldon had said to her, they all sat there quietly listening to what he was telling them. Until now they only had what Amy had told them ,this new information shed a new light on what happened that night between them and how Penny was feeling.

After he had finished Bernadette was first to speak "Well that does sound like it was a mistake, that she never meant to happen but it doesn't explain Sheldon's actions".

"I know i would of forgiven her for the kiss and letting Sheldon share a bed with her, because i made a similar mistake". Leonard said receiving shocked looks from all of them.

"What did you do?" asked Howard.

"Well one night we where partying and i got a little drunk and started to feel seasick, when one of the female scientist came up to me to ask how i was before i knew what was going on she was leaning in to kiss me. Then just as she did the ship lurched crashing her mouth against mine.i was so shocked by what had just happened that it took awhile before i stopped it,it was mistake just like Penny".

"I'm sorry buddy but i have to disagree that's nothing like what Penny did ,you got kissed and stopped it Penny kissed Sheldon thinking he was you and only stopped when she noticed something was wrong. You didn't cheat Leonard, Penny did maybe not at first but with starting a relationship with Sheldon she did, i can't believe there in a relationship it feels like someones weird fantasy".

"Well they are, but i think i would of eventually forgiven Penny,Sheldon on the other hand i want nothing more to do with .

"Why would you forgive Penny, and not Sheldon?" asked Amy

"Because she made a mistake, then you and Bernadette told her you wanted nothing to do with her and she thought she had lost everyone and was feeling vulnerable. Had she not been she wouldn't of started a relationship with him or let him kiss her ,on the other hand Sheldon told you then Penny that he had feelings for her, then stole Penny from me so i can't bring myself to forgive him". Leonard sighed as tears welled up in his eyes "Penny told me she thinks she's falling in love with him".

"WHAT" came from the group in unison.

"She told me she might be falling in love with him"tears where pouring out now "I mean how can that happen it took her years to tell me, but after only a short time she thinks she is with him? it doesn't make any sense". Bernadette and Amy where both crying for there friend now getting up they both moved to Leonard to hug started crying as well Howard got up and went to the bathroom to hide his tears.

After a few minutes they where all able to compose themselves ,Leonard remembered the text from Penny so wanted to ask there opinions of what to do.

"Guys Penny sent me a text but i haven't read it yet i don't know what to do, what do you guys think i should do?".

Howard answered quickly "Delete it then block her number" Bernadette was surprised by this"Howie that's a bit much don't you think?" Howard turned to his wife "No she hurt my friend she doesn't deserve to able to contact him".

"Well i think you should at least read it" Bernadette said.

"I agree she might be telling you something important"was Raj's answer.

They all turned to Amy waiting for what she would say,looking at all the expectant faces Amy answered "I don't know Leonard part of me agrees with Howard but like Raj said it could be something important,i say go with your heart".

Leonard Pulled out his phone going to Penny's message he hesitated for a moment before finally opening it.

From Penny"Hi Leonard i know i've already said this but i'm really sorry for what has happened and none it's your fault believe me, you asked me why i never told you about what happened before you got back? Well i didn't get to tell you before you left so i thought i'd tell you now as i don't know if i'll see you again:( . I didn't tell you because i knew you would be devastated and i didn't want it effecting your work and ruining your expedition, i promise i was going to tell you when you contacted me to let me know when you where coming back .However you came back early without me knowing so that's why i didn't tell you i just couldn't do that to you whilst you whereon you expedition. I hope you believe what i've just told you and i have request for you to consider, i know you probably don't want to see me but could we stay in touch even it's just by text? I know it's a lot to ask considering what i've done but i don't want you out of my for life.

"Sorry for the long text i've missed you and i'm glad your back".

Penny xxx

Leonard just looked at his phone after reading Penny's long message wondering how to respond,finally deciding what to say he quickly typed out a message and sent it to her.


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