Disclaimer: I don't on twilight. Not even a little bit. Wish as I may, it's not happening.
A/N: Hey guys... Yeah I know it's been a few years since I updated. I'm actually in college now. I started this story my sophomore year of high school. Weird huh? Well I'm going to work on trying to start working on it again. But no promises of regular updates cause there is a lot of stuff to do in college. Well here's Chapter Five finally.
Chapter Five: Realization
B.P.O.V
I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. I didn't even open my eyes I just reached out a hand to silence the annoying buzzing. But before I could even reach it, it had turned off. It took me a minute to realize what had happened but when I did I sat up quickly.
"Good mornin'." I looked over to find Jasper standing by my closet a book in his hands. I was surprised to actually have him still be here. I know I asked him to stay and he said he would but I thought he would leave once I fell asleep. He was still looking at me his head cocked slightly to the side, as if he was waiting for a response. Oh wait he was.
"Morning." I stretched a little still conscious of the fact Jasper was still staring at me. A blush started across my face.
"Did you have pleasant dreams?" He asked smirking slightly. I thought about it for a moment and felt my blush deepen as my dream slowly came back to me. It was all about Jasper
"Um, yeah I guess. Well I should probably get ready for school. I'll see you there." He laughed and went to the window.
"See you soon darlin'," He said winking at me as he jumped out the window. I must have talked in my sleep. That's why he asked. He knows I had been dreaming about him. Great, he probably thinks that I'm clinging to him because Edward left. But was that the reason? Why did I dream about Jasper? What has changed?
I got up and started getting ready tired of thinking about it. I had just finished breakfast when there was a knock on the door. I wonder who would be here this early. I opened the door to see none other but Jasper himself. I felt the blush slowly creep across my cheeks again. Stop it Bella! You're going to make him notice. Jasper smiled at me.
"Ready for school?" I nodded silently and went to grab my backpack not sure what to say to him. Today was going to be really awkward. We sat in the car silently on the way to school. I still didn't know what to say to him and he just didn't say anything, so I thought best just to keep quiet. He parked in the usual parking space that Edward used to park in. But even as I thought about it I didn't feel the usual tightness in my chest as I did just yesterday. Again what had changed? As I started to get out of the car Jasper grabbed my arm gently. I looked at him surprised.
"Wait, Bella." I sat back in the seat and stared at him still slightly surprised until I noticed how close he had gotten to me. I couldn't help but stare at his lips, wondering how it would be to kiss him. I suddenly really wanted to kiss him it took my whole being not too. It was like my emotions just suddenly changed, like someone had changed them.
"Jasper!" I sat back away from him. "Don't do that!" He looked at me slightly guilty.
"Sorry. I'm not sure what came over me." I opened the car door quickly and walked into school not even looking back at Jasper. What was that?
J.P.O.V
I stared after Bella after she left and watched her walk into the school not once looking back. Why did I do that? I knew better then to mess with her emotions. But I couldn't stop thinking of kissing her, of having her lips on mine. I shook my head. Why can't I get these thoughts out of my head? This isn't right. What about Alice? My pocket vibrated right on cue and I pulled out my phone to see Alice calling. I answered it quickly.
"Hey darlin'," I spoke with fake cheeriness that I didn't feel.
"You don't have to pretend Jasper. I know what's happening." Instantly I felt guilty, of course she would know. It's Alice.
"I can explain Aly. It was stupid and I don't know why I did it bu-"
"Jasper its okay," She said interrupting me. I heard her let out a sad sigh. "I knew this was going to happen." I stayed silent for a moment thinking about what she had just said.
"You mean," I stopped and then it hit me. "That was your vision... But how? I hadn't ever thought about Bella besides wanting to eat her since we left. How could you have seen that if I didn't decide?" I could hear her hesitate and I knew she had to be hurting.
"You did. You just didn't realize it. When I sent you to Bella you didn't go because I asked you. You went because you felt that you needed to be with her. The heart never lies jazz."
"Aly, I love you and I have all these years. I don't think of Bella like that." Right after those words left my mouth I knew they weren't true. In the back of my mind even if I didn't realize it I had always felt something for Bella. When Edward was with her I dismissed my jealousy as a feeling of something else and convinced myself that she was just my sister. But that hadn't ever been true.
"We both know that's not true Jazz. I wish it was, but it's not. I love you Jazz and I always will. But your heart belongs to her. It never really belonged to me." She hung up and I sat there stunned. We broke up. At least I believe that's just what happened. How could I do this to her? I bet it had been killing her knowing that I was here with Bella. What have I done? My phone vibrated again, it was a text from Alice.
Go to Bella.
Those three words were all she had to say to me. I felt guilty, but part of me actually felt relieved. I know I' m a horrible person for doing this to her but I didn't feel the remorse or sadness I should have been feeling. But all I could think about now is finding Bella. I couldn't tell her yet, but for some reason being next to her made me feel more human. That my past didn't even exist. But what if she didn't feel the same? What if she still loved Edward? Then I would be given a taste of my own medicine I suppose after what I did to Aly. I got out of the car quickly and hurried into a school trying my best to keep a human pace. I glanced at my phone to see what time it was. Lunchtime. Perfect. I went to the usual lunch table in the cafeteria only to find Bella sitting there. When she saw me a smile lit up her face letting me know she had forgiven me for earlier, and gave me a little hope that maybe I did have a chance. I smiled back at her and sat down. I would wait until I was sure to tell her. But now I knew that I was definitely and unconditionally in love with Bella Swan.
A/N: I know you guys are probably hating me right now but yes it had to end there. Hopefully I'll update soon so you guys won't come and kill me in my sleep. X3 Please send me reviews I know my writing has changed over the years but I need to know if you guys still like it. So pretty please review. I'll give you cookies!... Again! Lol
