Beck stayed up until late into the night. He had so much on his mind. It was too much to think about and yet he couldn't stop thinking about it. When he was asked to select 10 words he could come up with to describe Jade the first word that came to mind was goddess. In no way, shape or form human. She had her faults. The thing is that Jade always loved him. Many girls and woman especially those as strong and precious as Jade is would never love him through all that.
Jade forgave him every time. Jade understood that in his mind as twisted as it was he was doing what was best. He had weakened her and bent her but she refused to break. She had refused to break up with him. She had refused to break his legs. She had refused to break his heart. She had refused to stop loving him.
Another word that came to mind when he thought of Jade was wisdom. She knew when not to argue with him. She was smart enough to know when he was going to lose his cool. She knew to stay away from arguing with him at that point. Jade was his world but he was breaking her. He didn't mean to. He hated it. But he really did think he was doing the right thing. He thought he was doing what he needed to do
If Jade was his soft spot then Cat was his reality check. She wouldn't let herself be manipulated by him. He was an abuser. She let him know on no uncertain terms that he was an abuser. He didn't like hearing it. He didn't like facing issues he knew he would eventually have to face but he was on his way to getting better. There were two people responsible for that. Jade and Cat. Beck was also responsible for it but he would never have gotten this far had it not been for Jade and for Cat. Even before Cat knew of his abusive she called him out on inappropriate behavior.
He could remember one them she told him not to be an idiot. Why did she tell him not to be an idiot? Well, because he was behaving like an idiot. He don't know what got into him. He just knew that he got so angry. He got so mad.. He didn't know who that monster was but it was NOT Beckette James Oliver. It was as if someone else had taken over Beck that night... that night when everything went wrong.
Yes you'll find out what happened to Beck 11 months ago but not right now. You'll find out later on in the story
