Chapter 7: Numb
Friday 3:06 PM
"I'll miss you mom." I said hugging Renee.
"I will to honey." Renee said as we stood by the yellow cab that was taking her away.
We broke apart, I looked at the ground tears falling from my eyes, Renee put a hand under my chin.
"Don't cry honey, I'll be back soon." She said hugging me again.
"I don't want you to leave!" I told her crying into her shoulder.
"I don't want to leave either, but I have too." She said.
The guy in the cab yelled something about hurrying up, Renee hugged me tighter before kissing my cheek. I watched as she got in the back of the cab and shut the door, the cab pulled out of the driveway and disappeared down the road. I covered my mouth with my hand and cried, I had gotten attached to Renee when she was here. I stood there for twenty minutes before I went to the house, Edward was in the living room sitting on the couch. I walked over to him, I sat on the couch curling up next to him with tears falling from my eyes.
"Honey, don't cry." He said hugging me.
I laid my head on his chest and cried, my sobs were muffled by his chest, I missed my mom already and wanted her back. I never was this close to Renee since I moved with Charlie but now that I had some time with her I remembered how close we were before the move. I sat crying into Edward's chest for about ten minutes before calming down.
"You remember that I'm leaving for the weekend right?" Edward asked after a while.
"Yeah." I mumbled.
"Okay, just wanted to make sure." He said.
"What time are you leaving?" I asked.
"In two hours." He said.
I frowned.
"Hey. Stop that. You can call me whenever you want." He told me.
"Emmett and Jasper will mind though." I told him.
"They can go screw themselves, if it'll make you feel better then you call me." He said.
"Okay..."
5:10 PM
"Be careful!" I told Edward.
"I will, you be careful too. Take care of yourself and our baby while I'm gone." He told me placing a hand on my stomach.
"I will," I said kissing him on the lips, "Have fun."
"I will." He said smiling.
He gave me one last kiss and told me he loved me before shutting the door, I walked to the window moving the curtain to watch. I was sad because I wouldn't see him for a couple days, he wouldn't be here to hold my hair back or help me get to sleep at night. I sighed and shut the curtain, I walked up to the bedroom shutting the door behind me. I was walking over to the bed to lay down when I noticed a rectangular red box. It had two white ribbons wrapped around it, one going the long way and one going the short way. In the middle of the two was a white bow, I took the box and sat on the bed. I slowly undid the bow setting it on the bed, I rolled the first ribbon down the box before undoing the second. I took a deep breath before opening the top of the box, there was white tissue paper over the top. I carefully removed the tissue and set it on the bed before looking at the box again. I gasped when I saw a diamond bracelet sitting on a black foamy thing, I lifted it out of the box carefully to look at it. After a few minutes of staring in awe at the bracelet I put it on my wrist and closed the clasp. There was a knock on the door and Alice poked her head in curiously.
"You opened it?!" She gasped.
"Alice how did you know I got something?" I asked her.
"I kind of was in your room and I saw it! What is it?!" She asked.
"Look!!!" I said holding my wrist up so she could see the beautiful diamond on it.
"Oh. My. God!!!!!!" She yelled rushing over and grabbing my wrist.
"Geez Alice! Freak out!" I said.
"Who gave you this?" She asked.
"I don't know. Edward I suppose." I said.
"Is there a note? Or a card?" She asked.
"I don't know," I said looking in the box, "Oh! There is!"
"Read it!"
"To my lovely wife," I began, a smile appeared on my face, "I thought that you might be upset about me leaving so I hope that this little gift from me to you might help. I love you so much, take care of our baby while I am away, Edward. PS, try not to kill yourself while I'm gone, please?"
"Awww!" Alice squealed.
Tears came to my eyes as I read the letter at least five more times, he was so sweet. A hand went to my stomach automatically as I read, Take care of our baby while I am away. It was then when I realized that Alice still had a death grip on my wrist.
"Alice can I have my arm back?" I asked.
"OH! I'm sorry..." She said letting it go of my arm.
"Thanks." I said.
"How are you feeling?" She asked.
"I'm fine." I told her.
"Hungry?" She asked.
"Actually, no." I said.
"Wow, that's a first." She said.
"Yeah..."
"I think I'm going to go shopping! Want to come?! We can start buying baby stuff!"
"Pass."
"Aw. Okay."
With that she left. I laughed and shook my head before taking the bracelet off, I carefully set it back in the box and put the box in the drawer in the bedside table. I got up off the bed and went to take a shower, throughout the shower I thought about how I wasn't hungry and it was around supper time, and what was even stranger is I wasn't sick. Usually around this time I was sick.
5:35 PM
After a long shower I stepped out into a steamy bathroom, I wrapped a towel around myself and walked over to the mirror, I wiped all the fog off the mirror and brushed my hair. I quickly brushed my teeth before going to get dressed, I bent over to find some underwear not caring if my butt showed because I was the only person in the room, or so I thought.
"Hello Bella..." Someone said.
I quickly stood up, when I did I smacked my head against the top of the dresser, I grabbed my head in pain and turned around to see who was in my room.
"I see Edward isn't here." Evan said walking closer to me.
"Ev... Evan, what are you doing here? How did you get in?!" I asked backing away.
"I let myself in, you see the door was unlocked." He told me.
Note to self: Keep doors locked!
"That still doesn't give you a right to come in here." I struggled to get the words out.
"I thought I was welcome here. I'm not?" He asked.
"I think you should leave!" I said clutching the towel closer to me.
"But I just got here, I had to wait for you to get out of the shower. By the way, I like the towel." He told me.
Now I felt like I was going to throw up, my phone started to vibrate on the bedside table, I looked at it before looking back at Evan. I quickly ran and got it before he could even think of taking it, it was Carlisle.
"Hello?" I said my voice cracking.
"Bella? Is everything okay?" He asked.
"Um, I'm not sure..." I said keeping my eye on Evan.
"Is there something wrong?" He asked in his concerned voice.
"Can I call you back?" I asked my voice shaking.
"No, it sounds like your scared? Is there someone at the house? If there is say Esme is not here."
"Esme is not here."
"Okay, is it someone you know? Have seen before? Say she might be at the store."
"She might be at the store."
"Okay, is it Evan? If it is say okay, I'll see you when you guys get back from the store."
"Okay... I'll see you when you guys get back from the store."
I heard his car start up, "Listen to me Bella, I'm coming home right now. Just stay there and don't do anything stupid."
"Okay. Bye." I said before hanging up.
"Who was that?" Evan asked.
"My father in law, he was wondering where his wife was." I said.
"Oh. So... Any news? Anything exciting?" He asked.
I shook my head slowly, "No, not really."
He walked around the room looking at all the pictures, he came across one that came to his attention. It was in a yellow frame, it was the first ultrasound that we had done at home. He picked the picture up and looked at it for a few minutes before looking at me.
"This isn't news? Your pregnant?!" He asked.
I was started to shake with fear, "Um... No... That's my sister Alice's ultrasound..."
"No it isn't, it says Bella Cullen on the top." He said.
I cursed in my head, "Theres no hiding things from you now is there?"
"Nope," He said smiling, "Congratulations."
"Thanks." I said.
There was a knock on my door that made me jump, the door opened and Carlisle walked in. I felt heat rush to my cheeks when I realized that I was half naked in front of someone who was basically my father. Carlisle looked at me shocked before turning to Evan, he was still in his doctors coat which meant he had been at work.
"Hello Evan." He said.
"Good evening Mr. Cullen." Evan said.
"Not to be rude. But may I ask why you are in my daughters bedroom with her wearing nothing but a towel?" Carlisle asked.
"I came in because the door was unlocked and no one was answering the doorbell and found her in the shower so I decided to wait for her." Evan explained.
Carlisle walked over and handed me my robe, I put it on managing not to show anything, I tied it as tightly as it would go without it hurting the baby.
6:15 PM
Carlisle managed to get Evan to leave, I don't know how he did it but he did. I sat at the kitchen table eating a hamburger that Carlisle made for me, it was definitely quiet around the house now that the boys were gone. I finished eating before going to do the dishes, I rinsed the ones that were in the sink and put them in the dishwasher.
9:06 PM
I laid in bed staring at the ceiling, I was tired but I couldn't sleep, I rolled over on my side smoothing the cold sheet on Edward's side. I frowned as I rubbed my stomach, I grabbed one of his pillows and brought it to me. I inhaled the smell of his hair closing my eyes, I hugged the pillow closer to me as I continued to inhale.
12:58 AM
I growled as I flipped on my stomach, three hours of light sleep isn't enough. I glared at my pillow before I fluffed it and then laid down again, I pulled the covers over my head and took a deep breath.
1:45 AM
"This is ridiculous!" I snapped.
I slammed my hand on top of my phone and slid it off the table, I flipped my cell phone open and dialed Edward's number. It rang and almost went to voice mail before he answered it.
"Hello?" He said half asleep.
"I cant sleep!" I whined.
"Bella? Is that you?" He asked.
"Yeah." I told him.
"It's 1:48 in the morning Bella! What are you doing up?" He asked.
"I cant sleep! I've been trying since nine! I half slept for three hours!" I complained.
He sighed, "Okay. Turn around, face where I lay with you every night."
"Edward... I've already tried this." I told him.
"Just do it. Grab my pillow and hold it close to you, close your eyes, breathe in my smell and imagine my arms around out. I'm humming you a song quietly, I'm laying in your arms watching you as you slowly drift into sleep." He said, he started to hum softly into the phone.
I could feel myself slowly drifting off to sleep.
"Bella. I love you." Edward said.
"Love...You.. Too..." I mumbled before shutting the phone, I fell asleep for good right after.
Saturday 10:01 AM
I opened my eyes slowly, I looked up at the ceiling for a few seconds before turning my head towards the window. I sat up slowly pulling the covers off, I called for Edward but he never answered me. It sunk in that he was still gone after the third time he didn't answer. I got out of bed expecting to dash for the bathroom, but I didn't, I didn't feel sick at all. I laid a hand on my stomach lifting my shirt up to look at it, I would soon start to show and couldn't wait. I got a fresh pair of clothes and changed into them, I brushed my hair quickly before going downstairs. I found Esme, Carlisle, Alice and Rose in the kitchen. I smiled as I entered, I took a seat on a stool at the island. Esme pushed a plate of eggs, sausage and toast towards me, I looked at it before a wave of nausea hit me. I pushed the stool back before running to the bathroom, I slammed the door before throwing up in the toilet. I gasped for air as someone pulled my hair back, I threw up some more before I was finally done. I reached up for the handle and slowly flushed the toilet, I grabbed the wet wash cloth that was being offered to me by Carlisle. I smiled a little before wiping my mouth and setting it on the counter. I stood up with the help of Carlisle and rinsed my mouth, I tried to brush my teeth but the smell of tooth paste made me dry heave.
1:55 PM
"Bella!!!! Bella!!!!" Alice screamed racing down the stairs.
"What is it Alice?!" I asked looking at her.
"Come upstairs!!! I have a surprise!!!" She yelled running over to me.
"Alice I want to relax, can I see it later?" I asked.
"NO! You have to come now!" She said pulling me up.
I sighed, "Fine!"
She dragged me upstairs against my will, I groaned once we got to the top of the stairs. She bounced up and down before starting down the hall, I kept asking her what was going on but she didn't tell me. She stopped at a door, she covered my eyes with a cloth and tied it behind my head.
"Alice... What is this for?" I asked.
"Just shush and wait!" She told me.
"Rose!!! Get up here!!!" She yelled down the stairs.
"Coming!" Rose yelled back.
I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and stopped next of us, I heard the door in front of us open before I felt Alice's hand on my back. She led me in, I took careful steps not knowing why we were going into the guest bedroom.
"Okay," Alice said slowly, "Take it off."
I brought my hands to the blind fold and took it off slowly, I gasped and looked around. What used to be a guest room was now a nursery, I took a step forward looking at everything. The walls were a light yellow with white trim at the top and bottom of the wall. There was a wooden crib with a yellow sewn crib hanging on the side of it, tears came to my eyes as I continued to look around. There was a dresser sitting by the wooden rocking chair, the rocking chair sat by the window. I walked over to the matching wooden changing table, there was a teddy bear sitting in the corner. I picked the bear up and looked at it, I started to cry but not because I was sad, but I was happy, thrilled, and even more excited then I was before. I turned to Alice and Rose who had smiled, I ran up to them and hugged them crying into Rose's shoulder. I wished that Edward was here to see this, I wondered if he had known about this or even if he knew Alice and Rose were planning something like this. I couldn't think of anything to say I was totally blown away by how wonderful this room looked. I wiped my eyes and covered my mouth, I looked around the room again.
"Thank you!" I finally said once I found my voice.
"It was no problem, we had fun putting it together!" Rosalie said smiling.
"This is just... Wow." I said.
"Esme made the quilt." Ali said pointing to it.
"She did?!" I asked turning around and touching it softly.
"Yeah, she worked hard on it." Alice said.
"I bet... Hey, does Edward know? About this?" I asked.
"No, we wanted to show you when you two were together but little miss ants in the pants over here couldn't wait that long!" Rose said glaring at Ali.
"Hey now! You wanted to show her too!" Alice defended herself.
"Yes but I could have waited!" Rosalie said.
"Guys! It's fine. He'll see it when he comes home." I told them.
"You can call and tell him," Alice said taking her phone out and tossing it to me. "Here."
I caught it, "Thanks."
They left the room shutting the door behind them, I brushed more tears away before dialing his number. He picked up on the third ring.
"Hello my love." He greeted.
"Hey." I said my voice cracking.
"Bella are you crying?" He asked.
"Yes." I told him.
"Why are you crying?" He asked.
"It's nothing bad. Oh Edward. Guess where I am standing!" I said looking around the nursery.
"Where?" He asked totally confused.
"The nursery." I said.
"The nursery? As in a nursery for the baby? We don't have one though." He said.
"Alice and Rosalie put one together!" I told him.
"They did, did they?" He asked.
"Oh Edward! It's absolutely beautiful!" I said.
"I wish I could have seen it with you."
"Well you can thank your anxious little sister for that!"
"I will."
I laughed.
"Listen I'll call you later, Emmett wants to go do something." Edward said after a few minutes of silence.
"Okay..." I said slowly.
"I love you." He told me.
"I love you too." I said.
5:45 PM
"I'm leaving!!!" I yelled before grabbing the keys to my car.
"Be careful Bella." Esme said walking in the room.
"It's just for dinner, you sure you don't want me to bring you back something?" I asked.
"No, I'll make something here for everyone. Go enjoy the alone time while you can." She told me.
"Okay! I'll be back soon." I said smiling.
I left the house and jogged to my car, my car was better then Edwards Silver Volvo, or to me it was. My car was a Mustang GT 2004 Blue convertible. I got in and shut the door, I put my seat belt on, checked my mirrors and started the car. I was a pretty good driver, I always followed the rules and wore my seat belt. I only had one ticket so far and that was for going ten miles over the speed limit but Edward paid it for me even though I fought him on it. I slowly pulled out of the driveway and towards the restaurant that I was going too. It didn't take long for me too get there, I pulled into the closest parking spot to the door as I could get. I got out of the car putting my keys into my purse before walking in, it was a very small restaurant but had very good food. I took a booth next to a window so I could keep an eye on my car, I looked around the room there wasn't too many people here this evening. The waitress walked over to the table smiling, she had curly blond hair, blue eyes and wore too much make up. She was dressed in a pair of jeans, a white blouse and had a black waist apron on.
"Hello, my name is Jenna," She said, she handed me a menu. "What can I get you to drink?"
"Umm, lemonade please." I said with a smile.
"Okay, I'll be right back to take your order." She told me before leaving.
I pretty much knew what I already wanted, I was in the mood for spaghetti, the waitress came back just as I was closing my menu. She set my glass of lemonade down on the table with a napkin and a straw before taking out her pad and a pen.
"What may I get for you?" She asked looking at me and smiling.
Okay, she is way too cheery. I thought.
"Um, I think I'll have the spaghetti, with some bread, butter, and some fries. Oh and can I get a chocolate milkshake? With some cherries? A lot of cherries? And maybe some whip cream on the side? Please?" I said looking up at her.
"My, don't we have a bit of an apatite?" She asked laughing a little.
"Sorry. Is that too much food?" I asked.
"Heavens no, you order what you want." She told me.
"Sorry, I'm pregnant and I just got really hungry." I said.
"Oh! Congratulations!" She gasped.
"Thanks."
She walked away from the table, writing down something on her pad. I smiled and turned my attention to my lemonade that was getting watery I sucked it down through the straw and got a brain freeze. I pushed the glass away from me, I tapped my fingers on the table before checking my cell phone. I sighed when I saw no calls from Edward, I put it back in my purse and waited. Jenna walked over to the table again and set the milkshake down on the table, when she set it down I felt a cramp in my stomach making me wince in pain.
"Are you okay?" Jenna asked worried.
"Yeah... Yeah I'm fine." I said, the pain had gone away.
"Okay, oh! I forgot the cherries! I'll be right back." She told me.
I rubbed my stomach slowly taking a deep breath.
"Here you go." Jenna said returning with my cherries.
"Tha- AHHH!" I screamed as another pain shot through my stomach, only this time it was stronger and more painful.
"Are you sure your okay?!" She asked.
"I don't know!" I said through clenched teeth.
I screamed as another pain ripped through my stomach, I set my hand on my thigh for a minute before feeling something wet. I brought my hand up too look at it to find blood on my fingers, my eyes went wide, I was bleeding. My jeans were covered in blood on the crotch area, I gasped as another pain hit, everything became all fuzzy.
"Someone call 911!!!" I heard Jenna yell.
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I was sitting in a hospital room, feeling numb, I looked up at the doctor who had a saddened expression on his face, tears streamed down my face endlessly.
"I'm sorry, I'm not finding a heart beat." He said slowly.
"No!!!" I said shaking my head, I couldn't believe this was happening, this guy was trying to tell me that my baby was dead.
"I'm sorry-"
"NOOOO!!!! I want another doctor!!!! Page Dr. Cullen! There is a mistake!!!" I cried clutching on to my stomach, it couldn't be gone, my baby!
"Mrs. Cullen, I-"
"Please!!! Page him!!!" I begged.
"Okay..."
6:30 PM
"Bella..." Carlisle said moving the stick around my stomach, "I'm not seeing any movement or finding a heartbeat."
"No." I cried looking up at him.
"I'm afraid you had a miscarriage." He said his voice breaking.
"No!! Please! Please God no! My baby!" I cried, I curled up into a ball and cried my loud sobs and screams of pain filled the room.
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Edward's POV
7:34 PM
I ran into the emergency room with Emmett and Jasper following, I looked around anxiously until I spotted Carlisle. He had called me to tell me that I needed to come home, that Bella was in the hospital. He wouldn't tell me why or what was happening so I was glad we were only an hour away from home.
"Carlisle! Carlisle! Where is she?!" I asked.
"She's in here." He said showing me Bella's room.
I followed him in the room with Jasper and Emmett following, Bella was laying in a hospital bed curled up in a ball and crying. My heart sank, what happened? What was wrong? I walked over to her bed slowly, she saw me and looked up, she turned on her back slowly crying harder. I placed a hand on her cheek dying to know what was going on, she looked in my eyes before gasping for breath.
"I lost the baby..." She whispered. "The baby died! It's gone! I had a miscarriage..."
Those words killed me inside, I sat down on the bed, she sat up and hugged me crying. I started to cry with her sobbing into her neck, she clutched my back trying to get closer. It killed me to hear her in so much pain, her sobs continued to fill the room. I cried harder into her neck, our baby was gone, she had miscarried and it was gone. We sat there for what seemed like forever just crying in each others arms...
Dang. That had me crying ='[ You all probably hate me, I should probably lock all my doors and windows tonight when I go to bed! I'm sorry =[ But it's a long chapter so you should be happy... But the baby is gone ='[ Go review please!
