She woke up crying uncontrollably. She kept saying, "it's gone. I'm sorry."
Fitz woke up from his nap once he heard her screams.
He held her down and tried to calm her down. "Mels, it's okay it's just a bad dream."
"It's gone!"
"What is?"
"The baby...it's gone. I didn't take care of it and now it's gone."
"Mellie please calm down. The baby is fine. You're fine. You had a little bit of bleeding but they got it under control. You're baby is fine."
She looked at him confused and then she looked at her stomach. "It's fine. It didn't die?"
"No." He smiled to her. "The Universe is not that cruel." Perhaps it was, but she had already lost a son. She had enough.
She started smiling. "Where's Andrew?"
He cringed at his name, but it was expected. "He's aware of the situation and he'll be here as soon as possible."
"Thank you." She meant it. He was being surprisingly grown up about the entire situation.
"The Doctor said you'd be in bed rest for a couple of weeks just to make sure the baby doesn't go in distress."
"A couple of weeks?" It sounded like infinity for a woman like Mellie.
"Yeah, I know but at least you'll be okay. The both of you will be okay."
"Yeah. You're right." She let out a sigh of relieve.
There was an awkward silence that was broken when Fitz noticed that Mellie was staring at him.
"For a moment there I... I know I'm going to sound like a horrible person
But for a moment there I almost hoped it didn't make it. I felt terrible but if this baby didn't exist it somehow makes you and Andrew less real for me. This baby is going to be a constant reminder of where it all finally ended."
Mellie wasn't Judgmental because she had done her share of cringe-worthy things. "It finally ended when you fell in love with another woman."
He wanted to deny it, but he didn't.
"It ended when I couldn't tell you the truth and I let you walk away from me and into the arms of these women. Temporary women. But you fell in love with one of them. Suddenly she wasn't so temporary anymore." She looked him straight in the eye. "And Fitz for a while I considered Olivia temporary too and I was willing to wait it out and for you to come back home. Come back to me, but you never did. So I stopped waiting and Andrew found me. He made me his home. That man has loved me in ways that I had forgotten a woman could be loved. So Andrew and I is not a ploy to piss you off, it's not a childish fling. He loves me and I'm not fighting it. I refuse to fight it because the love I have for you has only brought me pain and I've finally had enough. In some way I will always love you, that I can't help but I'm going to let Andrew love me and in time allow myself to adore him." She smiled to herself. "Im really looking forward to that."
"Are you sure?" He asked.
Without hesitation she replied. "I'm sure."
three months had passed and she had 1 ½ month to go. Her belly was round and her temper very hormonal.
She tried to avoid Fitz out of consideration. It wasn't his child so she felt like he shouldn't have to put up with all of her hormones. But someone had to and that someone was the very sweet, loving Andrew who catered to her every need; of course every gesture he did had to be credited to Fitz to the media.
She watched as Andrew napped on the couch. It was late and he looked very peaceful.
She sat next to him and softly ran her hand through his hair.
It so happened that Andrew was a very light sleeper. He felt her hand on his hair and enjoyed the soft move not of her hands. He placed one hand on her stomach.
" I didn't mean to wake you." She continued playing with his hair.
"It's okay, I've napped enough for today." He sat up on the couch. "How is my little cub doing?"
"it seems to enjoy kicking a lot. I think we have a future soccer player in our hands." She laughed.
He looked down at her stomach. "Hey you'll be out soon, meanwhile don't give her a hard time."
She looked down at her stomach. "Yes, you're daddy is already giving me a hard time." She laughed.
He kissed her very softly. "I've missed you so much.'
She let out a sigh. "Me too. So much." He let fell back on the couch and she cuddled him.
"When you're president, we'll be able to hold hands in public." He kissed her again. "Do that in public. We won't have to hide this anymore."
"Thank you for sharing my dream." He supported her full on and she loved him for it. They lay there in silence absorbing the enormity of their relationship. This was it. They made each other happy and damn it they were going to make it.
AN: perhaps I'm not Shonda? Really y'all reviews are love. Oh and there's this little thing going on called the WORLD CUP and when you add in school and work I don't have a lot of free time so updates will be slow and I do apologize but if you happen to "twitter know me" feel free to get on my behind about it and ill probably update faster tehhehe anyway, I hope you enjoyed.
