Good Enough
A Final Fantasy VII fan fiction
By: Something Dysfunctional
Chapter Five: Jester
Pairings: Cloud/Kadaj
Disclaimer: -grabs forehead- Mebbe writing with a headache isn't cool... mebbe it is. Grah. Thankies for being patient with me, you guys. As you know, that horrid holiday known as Christmas has passed and I had been running around like a rabbit trying to buy gifts and attend parties where I HAVE to be there since I've planned like... four parties already. -twitch- But, dear readers, I AM SOOOOO SORRY!!! -bows- Please, DO forgive me! -cries- I hope you all will appreciate this chapter more than ever! Remember, SquareEnix owns them and Tetsuya Nomura. Happy reading and review nicely! Arigatou!
-NOTE: Who all has seen "Elfen Lied"? That anime is SOOOOO sad!!! Okay, goory too, but still...! The ending! I bawled like a baby and the song "Lilium" is so touching. If you all have it, listen to it while reading this!-
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We sat in that broken church in the rain, our eyes never leaving each other. Kadaj trembled in my arms and twisted his head away, trying to not look at me. "Why...? Why are you in my dreams? Why don't you ever leave me alone?!!," I hissed at him, shaking him some. The silver-haired boy bit back a sob, shrinking away in my arms, as if wanting to curl into the broken floor boards of the church. "I don't know...! You're in mine, so I don't know!!!," he wailed, silver hair hiding his face from me. I blinked, noticing that the temperature around us was dropping. Sighing, I leaned back against a pew and dragged him with me, arms wrapping around his thin frame. "So... we don't know why we're calling to each other then?," I murmured, feeling small hands curl into my turtleneck as Kadaj buried himself in my warmth I offered to him. Shaking my head, I blushed some. 'This is wrong... very wrong. But, I can't help it. He's alone with no one around and he'll freeze to death like this.'
From where we sat, the rain barely touched us, but it wasn't letting up at all. Groaning some, I shifted against the pew. It looked like I was going to be here all night. Looking down, I saw that Kadaj was staring at me, those jade eyes shinning brightly. "Who'd think it would happen like this?," he whispered, biting his bottom lip some. Swallowing hard, I tried to not let his humane innocence get to me. Turning my head, I shrugged. "It's weather- unpredictable and always changing."
"Kinda like you."
I jerked some and stared at him. "What do you mean by that?" Kadaj sat up some, the top of his hospital gown slipping from his shoulder, silver hair dissary. "Everytime you meet someone, you change. That's what Mother told me in the Lifestream. There's always someone in your life that changes something about you. Mother was the last, right?," he asked, leaning forward, very serious. I nodded some and glanced at the ground. "I don't mean to change, but... it... happens," I muttered, feeling embarassed that Aerith would say something like that. Kadaj placed his head beside my own and whispered low in my ear, "Do I?" Jumping a little at the reaction, I didn't know that my arm tightened around his waist and he moaned appreciatively, pressing his chest against mine. I stared at the boy in my arms, daring to believe he was getting horny in the rain, and in a church no less.
And so was I.
Damn.
He wrapped his arms around my neck and placed his face in the crook of my neck. "Cloud, don't let me go... stay until I fall asleep," he pleaded in a tiny voice, nipping the flesh that he could reach. Gasping mutely, I pressed my nose in his hair, smelling the faint trace of cinnamon in the silky strands. "What are you doing?," I croaked out in a deep, breathy tone. I felt Kadaj shiver and a struggled groan falling from his mouth. "N-nothing..." He clung more to me, the proof of his want pressing against my jeans. I wanted to slap myself. This was ridiculous!!! But no matter how desperately I tried to will my own erection to go away, Kadaj was making it more worse. All of my barriers broke and I picked his head up, crushing my mouth on his, sweeping my tonuge inside his sweet, saliva-slicked cavern, his own tonuge finding mine and entwining with it.
Whatever came upon us, was something that I wasn't going to regret. All this time, he chased me in my dreams, and here he was finally, real and hot. Maybe... he was what I was missing in my life. No one ever made me feel more alive than Kadaj, not when I first saw him nearly a year ago. My thoughts were interrupted by Kadaj arching his body to mine, grinding our hips together in a achingly slow rhythm. We parted from our hot, searing kiss, his lips shinny with saliva. "You did it, though... you found me. And now, you will have me...," he panted, raking his nails over my chest. Somehow the sneak placed his hands underneath my shirt and started scratching me lightly. I nearly buckled down at the sudden touch. He wrapped his legs around my waist and reached up to the pew leg, grabbing hold of it. "Take me, Cloud... defile me in a house of Holy... I've been bad and need to be punished by Sanctium," he moaned out, bending his head back, droplets of rain falling acorss his exposed, pale throat.
It was all a blur, honestly, but... I did. I finally took Kadaj as my own. And as I pounded him into the floor with each frustrated thrust, he took it all, crying out my name in such ecstacy that I nearly came, but I held it, watching him with my eyes as Kadaj was thrown into rapture. He fit so perfectly around my cock and I wanted more. I picked him up in my lap and he bounced, the new angle making him scream now. He clung to my shoulders as I hit that sweet spot over and over. I embraced him, biting into his neck some, as I made little circles with my hips, nailing into him. Kadaj wailed my name high and loud as he came over us, and he clamped his walls around me, causing me to whine out his own name in a ragged whisper as we both held onto each other. Slipping down on the floor, I never did let go of him the entire night.
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Stirring, I blinked as sunlight touched my face. I felt someone beside me move and I nearly broke out into a silly grin. So, it wasn't a dream after all. There he is, staring back at me with those large, green eyes. Kadaj smiled some and spoke softly, "Good morning, Cloud-niisan"
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"WHAT IN THE FUCK IS THAT BASTARD DOING HERE?!!! CLOUD, HAVE TO COMPLETELY LOST IT?!!!," screamed Tifa, pointing a gloved finger at Kadaj, who looked like he was swallowed in my jacket, and stood before the 7th Heaven, Marlene clinging to his leg. We returned to the bar before lunch and ran into a very pissed bar hostess. Why she was, I don't know, but sometimes, that girl suprises me more than anyone. She can forgive someone so easily if she senses goodness in them. And apparently, she saw some in Kadaj and that was enough for me. Glaring at Tifa, I spoke in a dead tone, "The last time I lost my mind wasn't so pleasant, remember, Tifa?" She paused, her cheeks flaring red. "Aaahhh... but- Cloud! C'mon! He's the enemy!," she cried out, frustrated. Marlene shook her head. "Not anymore. He's seen Sister and she made him better. He's okay now, Tifa," Marlene stated matter-of-factly.
Well... she was right.
So, that night, there was one more person in the 7th Heaven eating lunch with us. He wore one of my old button downs and a pair of baggy jeans, socks on his feet and his body clean. He looked around nervously, but smiled shakily when Marlene served him a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, chatting away with him like a seven year old does. Tifa watch on in fuming silence while I sipped on my coffee. Kadaj did look out of place, but now... he seemed as if he wanted to belong.
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change to Kadaj POV
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He has no idea, does he?
Not at all.
within me lays a monster worth capable of killing him and his loved ones. I know he still thinks it... he's scared to trust me, but yet he is determined to not let me go.
The poor, poor fool.
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O.o Short, I know, but I am MAKING it this way!!! -laughs evilly- Hhheeeyyy... you BETTER now get upset at me! Look, I gave you a yaoi moment!!! BE HAPPY FOR THAT!!! -twitches-
---the moonlight carries the message of Love.---
"Later Days...!"
SD
