Chapter 7
It didn't feel right to drive away from the danger, where my father and best friend were fighting for their lives. But I didn't exactly have a choice now did I? I had a responsibility to take care of.
Gilos was silent as ever. It was unlike him to do that. He was a man who did nothing but talk loud and prey on animals solely because he simply loved spending time with his father. But in the face of a real dire situation, he abandoned him for the sake of his own life. I tell myself that I wouldn't do that. That I would step up for my tribe when the time came. But I doubt that would be true. I know that I will become a victim fearing for my own mortality. Marcus was right, I can't die here. I need to leave Shisu. But I can't exactly leave without repaying my debts. I owe them that much.
It's thoughts like these where I appreciate the darkness and emptiness that was introduced to me. Where my mind was calm and devoid of any anxiety. But that darkness was dangerous, as it wants nothing but desire. Calm and soothing it may be, but I can't live my life not wanting something out of it. I can't live with just nothing to say about it. Much like Gilos who's just sitting there silently fully realizing the reality of the world we live in.
I wonder if he had ever thought about that up until now. At that moment when he was attacked.
"How did you escape?" I asked him. He sat there silently, not a word escaping his mouth. It was almost heart breaking to see him in this state, lost and confused. "Gilos?"
"… I don't remember," he answered. "I saw shots flying everywhere and men dying one after another. I ran… and I ran… but I don't remember a thing. It's like pitch black or something."
I slowed down the speeder as glanced over to him. "Was it… like an empty silence?" I said to him.
"Yeah… it was like, one moment all the adrenaline was at its peak, and then nothing right after that. I can't remember anything right after the ambush. In fact, now that I think about it, my head didn't kick until I saw you and Marcus. Everything in between was just confusing and out of order."
At that moment I made a complete stop. It couldn't be, it would be too much of a coincidence.
"This planet. It attracts evil things."
Marcus, what did you walk yourself into. I cut the wheel of the speeder turning us completely around.
"Wait! What are you doing?" Gilos yelled.
"Gilos! Did you see a robed woman in the forest?" I asked while pulling the throttle. He didn't answer me, which worried me even more.
"I… I don't remember," he answered. A simple no would have satisfied me, but it was the fact that he couldn't answer. That's not good.
"I have to hurry," I whispered. "I won't let this happen again, it'll be different this time."
