The walk was ok. I mean it was peaceful, if you count Terra's life story. I love Ven, but Terra is just beginning to piss me off.
"So then my parents went to the orphanage and found Axel and we adopted him," Terra smiled, "But the best part was when I met Ventus, he made me smile every time I see him." Ven blush and I almost puked.
"Ven, how did you move here?" Axel asked.
"I-I'd rather not say," Ventus sighed as he snuggled closer to Terra remembering the past.
"Our parents died," I piped up, "They were killed in a car crash when we were seven. Cloud and Leon took us in since our other relative never liked us."
"Well they are stupid to hate you, Ven," Terra smiled as he placed a small kiss on the boy's cheek.
Jealousy coursed through my veins. I have no idea why, it's just Ventus is the center of attention and I am used to it, but this just made me upset for some reason. Ven and I are twins so we used to get the same treatment when we were little. Until I went mental when I moved here, we were both treated the same. Then Ven started getting more attention because he never spoke and everyone wanted to hear his sweet voice.
The boys walked us home and Terra kissed Ven as they left.
"Hey Ven, I'm going to take a trip to the cemetery," I said. Our parents were buried here.
I walked to the flower store to buy their favorite flowers, lily. My mother loved those flowers. She used to grow them in a garden and put some on my hair and make a crown for me and Ven. We would parade around the house as twin Princes of the garden! I miss those days.
I went to the cemetery to their grave's. I knelt down and placed the flowers there. Then I pressed my warm lips against the cold stone of the grave stones.
"Mom, I survived another day. I kept my promise to take care of Ventus. Mom, would you be mad at me if I died? I mean I want to see you, but I'm afraid of my sins. What if I go to hell? Mommy, you wouldn't let that happen to me, right? Well I am a dirty slut, but I am still your son. Dad, you better be taking care of mom in heaven. Watch over Ventus and make sure he doesn't do anything stupid. I'm giving up. I'll turn into a shell of who I was since my happiness is nowhere to be found. Mom, if you know my happiness, show me a sign. Give me something to hold onto or else I might just give up. Mom, Dad, I love you and miss you. Please keep taking care of us," I said as I began to cry slightly, "Oh and help Uncle Cloud and Leon. And Sora. I love you."
"Roxas?" I jumped and spun around to see a tall red head that I thought I ditched earlier, "Are you ok?"
"I-I-I'm fine!" I yelled as I wiped away my tears. I clenched my fists at my side as a heavy blush spread across my cheeks.
"Really, it looked like you were crying," Axel said as he tried to walk closer to me but I backed up.
"Well we are in a cemetery," I said.
"I heard your speech," Axel said, I tried to run but Axel grabbed my hand and spun me around, "You can't give up."
"and why not?!" I yelled as I struggled but Axel held me closer.
"Because you are too important to me," Axel said, "I love you."
Axel kissed my cheek and sparks rushed through my body, then my neck and he continued to kiss my shoulder and roll my shirt down my shoulder a little so he could kiss my skin. Images of Seifer came back as his actions made me look like a mess.
"Please stop!" I yelled, "Don't touch me." I pushed him away and held onto my mother's grave stone.
The red head picked up one of the flowers and twirled it in his fingers. "I love lilies," Axel said as he placed it in my hair and left. Mom, if this is some kind of sick joke please stop. If this is my happiness please show me a bigger sign. Axel just wants me for sex, I can feel it already, but if he really loves me I might give him a chance. Most just want me for sex or power. I'm nothing.
"Mom, please help me," I began to cry again, "Dad make it stop."
I sulked home and slammed the door shut.
"Honey what happened?" Cloud asked as I pushed through him and Sora.
I dashed upstairs to my room and grabbed my book Gone With The Wind and pressed the flower in it that Axel put in my hair. My heart began to pound as I banged my head against the wall. My hands wrapped around my neck and squeezed it slightly. Sora ran in and pulled me to my bed and ripped my hands away from my neck.
"Are you ok?" he asked.
"No I'm not ok!" I yelled.
"What's wrong?" the brunette asked as he sat down next to me.
"Axel said that he loved me and began to kiss me and it felt just like Seifer. I thought he was going to take me in front of Mom and Dad. I don't want to be hurt again. I want love, I want my happiness," I said, "I want what you, Ven, and Uncle Cloud and Leon have. I want someone to love me."
"But Rox, we do love you," he pulled me into a loving warm hug.
"Not that kind of love, I mean a happiness that can fill this empty void in my heart," I said, "I'm sorry I'm spilling my guts to you."
"Haha, its ok," Sora smiled, "That's what family is for."
That night all I could think about was Axel. His silk hair that matched his voice. His beautiful eyes but how he handled me reminded me of Seifer. I can't get hurt. I won't get hurt. I drifted off into a slumber.
Dream
Axel held me close to him as we sat on our porch. His soft lips pressed against mine as I his hands slipped beneath my shirt. I giggled slightly as he tickled over my stomach slightly. The red head pulled me onto his lap as I straddled him slightly.
"Dad!" I heard one of our kids that we adopted yell. They look like us, and we adopted them as babies and they love us.
"What Alex?" I yelled back.
"Roxel took my toy!" he complained as he crossed his chubby arms.
I chuckled slightly as I hopped off of Axel and lifted up one of my sons. Our foreheads touched and I smiled. He giggled and dropped the toy. I love my baby boy. My little girl sauntered over to Axel and took my place on his lap, only she made him play dolls with her while I played with the twins.
At the end of the day, Axel cuddled with me in out King sized bed with plush blue sheets and a checkered comforter. The red head pulled me close to him. I rested my head on his nude chest and listened to his steady heartbeat.
"I love you Roxas," Axel whispered, "You are my happiness."
"You are my everything Axel," I smiled as I looked up and kissed him. I looked out the window and my mother winked at me.
Dream over
I jumped out of bed in a cold sweat. Mom, what are you trying to tell me? Is Axel my happiness? Will he hurt me? I can't risk it, maybe I'll give him a chance.
The next day in school I marched up to Axel and pulled him outside.
"Um Roxas…" he started.
"One date!" I yelled, "I'll give you one date and if it goes well I'll trust you and if you hurt me I can't trust you."
"But Roxas, I'll never hurt you," Axel whispered in my ear, "I'll meet you at the ice cream shop after school. I'll buy."
"See you then," what the fuck have I gotten myself into?!
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Authors Note: Hey guys sorry it's been a while! I've been caught up with stuff but I'm back! Leave a review please but no flames.
